"Yes, I often tell myself that it's not my responsibility, but I feel very sad when I think about it. No matter what, if it weren't for me, your master and sister would have ended up where they are today. So through this incident, I have learned a truth, that is, you have to think twice before doing anything. If you really go to Zhongnan Mountain and become a Taoist priest, what should you do if the flute girl is still alive in this world one day? ”

When I heard him say that, I was speechless for a moment.

But I gritted my teeth and said to him, "I don't think there's any point in living in this world, and I believe she's dead." If not, how could my father tell Uncle Feng that Hengdi had met with an accident. ”

"It's just your thoughts, and she doesn't have to be dead until you see her actually dead. If you give up hope yourself, how can you say that you love her the most? Besides, even if the transverse flute is really killed by your father, you have to figure out one thing, that person is always your father! ”

This sentence sounded in my ears and made me feel like a whole thing.

"Yes, even if my father does something sorry for me and sorry for the transverse flute, he will always be my father!"

I suddenly felt like I was stupid, and I sat there unable to say a word.

"Okay, that's all Uncle can tell you today, I hope you can be a person again, and I also hope that you can regain your strength. What would the girl think if she was still alive in this world and let her know that you have become like this? Even if she is really no longer alive, she has already reached the Nine Springs. What would she think if she knew you were like this, you have to behave for yourself. ”

After the head uncle finished speaking, he stood up and said slowly: "I still have something to do, I passed through the capital today to see you, I am leaving." ”

"Uncle in charge."

I hurriedly grabbed his robe and said to him, "Can you stay in my mansion for a few more days, I really have a lot to say to you." ”

"I can't stay any longer, you just have to remember my words, that is, whether the flute girl is alive or dead, she doesn't want you to see this today. There is also a sentence that even if that person does more sorry things for you, he is also your father. As long as you remember these two sentences, I am sure you will be able to handle it. ”

With that, he turned away.

I looked at his background, stunned for a moment, and couldn't speak for a long time.

It was a long, long time before I heard someone call me in my ear.

"Are you alright? Sympathy. ”

I turned around and saw my father's face, and I don't know why I felt sad when I saw my father's white hair squeezing in the west wind.

It's the cold season of spring, and it's still a little cold.

Yes, no matter how much this person does to be sorry for me, he will still be my father! He is still the one who gave birth to me and raised me, should I treat him like this from now on?

I breathed a sigh of relief and said to him, "I'm hungry. ”

"What, are you hungry? Shall I have someone make it for you right now, or will I make your favorite dishes, okay? ”

"Whatever."

I could hear that he was talking to me in an almost flattering tone, and I obviously didn't blame him so much, but I don't know why every time I saw his face, I had the appearance of a transverse flute in front of me.

I said to him, "I didn't forgive you. ”

"I know." He said.

"So you don't have to do anything for me."

"I didn't do anything for you in the first place, but you have to know that I am still your father!"

When I heard him say that, I stopped talking.

Yes, he's right, he's always been my dad.

In that case, what else do I have to say, so I won't say a word.

"You're not really going to decide to become a monk, are you?"

He looked at me and asked me cautiously.

I shook my head and said to him, "I also want to become a Taoist priest, but the head of the family won't accept me. ”

"That's good." He said as if he had let go of his heart.

I don't know why I felt so bad at that moment, it turned out that he had been most worried about this matter for so long.

He's actually really worried about me, but he's done something that I can't forgive.

He said to me, "Why don't I get you an errand in the brocade guard?" You go to be the commander of the brocade guard. ”

When I heard him say that, I nodded and said, "Whatever." ”

Actually, I know why he said this, the reason why he said this is nothing more than that he didn't want me to be unable to open it, and then he would become a Taoist priest, so he wanted to find an errand for me in Jinyiwei, in fact, I don't care about all this.

Once upon a time, I thought that one day I might become an official, but at that time I still had the transverse flute by my side, and there was hope for me to do everything, but now it is completely different.

Yes, he is indeed my father, so I can't blame him, I can't blame myself.

So, that day, I freshened up again, put on the clothes I wore on a regular basis, started eating again, ate like a normal person, and started doing what I wanted to do.

Because I still have a glimmer of hope in my heart, I hope that one day the transverse flute will suddenly come to my side and tell me that she is still alive.

And I still have a hope in my heart, I hope that Hengdi's death really has nothing to do with my father.

My father quickly found me a position in the Jinyi Guard, which I didn't want to do, but I don't know why I went.

Actually, the reason why I want to be the commander is very simple, that is, because I want everything to follow my father.

It was he who killed the flute, which is why I became what I am today.

No matter what he says now, I won't trust him anymore.

Fast forward as a few years passed, and in the course of that time I slowly went from hope to despair.

Although many times I think that the transverse flute is really dead, but I don't know why, just like the words of the uncle in charge, my heart will be full of hope before I see the transverse flute, but the transverse flute has never appeared, never been.

I'm sure if she lived, she would have wanted to see me, as much as I wanted to see her.

Since she didn't show up, then she must be no longer in this world.

Every time I think about this, I feel grief-stricken, and the distance between me and my father becomes more and more estranged and alienated.

Whatever he wanted to do, I would do it with him.

In the past few years, I have seen how he helped Sister Rufei, but in fact, Sister Rufei is not as simple as I thought.

Although she is kind to me on the surface and kind to everyone, she is a woman full of wit and ambition.

I saw with my own eyes how she fought in the palace, and the struggles of women were often the most quiet and cruel.

I watched her opponents fall one after another, watching her go from a less favored concubine to a concubine in the palace, in short, it all came so quickly, but it came so naturally.

I think if a woman has no means, it is absolutely impossible to get to this day.

I also understood one thing, she and my father are definitely not just father and daughter.

In fact, she just wants to rely on my father's power, so that she can develop better in this harem, and my father doesn't want to rely on her power.

The two are just using each other, and they can't talk about a father-daughter relationship one day.

It's just this mutual use that binds the two of them tightly together.

I became more and more indifferent and scornful of these, and I did not expect that what I thought of family affection would be like this.

In fact, it's not as simple as I thought it would be.

Soon I was in the palace for a few years, and when I was patrolling the imperial garden one day, I suddenly saw Uncle Feng with a group of people surrounding the rockery.

I saw that he looked very nervous, as if something had happened.

I saw that he had brought a lot of people around there, and it was clear that there must be someone hiding in the rockery.

I hurried over, and as soon as I walked over, I heard Uncle Feng immediately send someone to set fire to the cave.

"Yes." At that moment, there was a brocade guard who agreed.

"No, you can't."

I hurriedly stopped it, I don't know why I was also full of hatred for Uncle Feng.

I'm sure that Hengdi's death was also inseparable from Uncle Feng, although he was only ordered by my father, but no matter what, he was always involved, and I can't forgive him.

When he saw me, he was slightly stunned and said, "Childe." ”

I nodded and said, "Who's inside?" ”

"Childe, she is a dangerous person inside, an assassin, and we must not let her go like this. The commander gave the order to burn the people inside. ”

"Absolutely not." I interrupted without thinking about it.

Actually, I didn't want to do anything at all, all I wanted to do was to confront my dad.

Sure enough, Feng Wuhen hesitated a little, and he said to me, "But the commander gave the order. ”

"The commander gave the order, so what? You ask the commander to come and tell me in person, and now I have the final say here, and no one is allowed to kill anyone, let alone set fires. ”

After saying that, I went into the cave myself, and sure enough, I found two people in the cave.

There was a woman who seemed familiar, as I had seen before, and a man, who was veiled, but who I knew at first sight.

That man was the one I had seen before, and I still remember seeing a man who was covered in cold at Jungnam Mountain, and the man looked like he was carved out of ice.

If I am not mistaken, this man should be that person, and I remember his name clearly, he is called Fang Xiao.

It's just that why he came here all of a sudden, it's really strange, and what is the reason for him to meet this woman? Who is this woman?

I see that the woman is very young, she looks less than twenty years old, and the woman's words and deeds are very calm, she doesn't look like an ordinary palace maid at all, she must be a person in this palace.

Who is it?

I thought about it carefully, and suddenly understood that there should not be a few people in this palace who are so gorgeous and so intelligent.

I suddenly remembered a woman I had seen in the palace of the princess that year, her name was Jian Huaizhen.

If she wasn't mistaken, this woman should be Jian Huaizhen, but why was she held hostage by Fang Xiao? And why did Uncle Feng want to kill them?

These mysteries are really difficult for me to solve for a while, but no matter what, since Uncle Feng is on my father's order to kill someone, I will definitely not allow him to succeed.

No matter what my father does, I must do it with him, not to mention that I have always had a good impression of Fang Xiao and Jian Huaizhen.

So I immediately said, "Hurry up and release them." ”

Uncle Feng nodded and said, "But what about this assassin?" ”

"Assassins?"

Only then did I see Fang Xiao holding Jian Huaizhen hostage with a sword in his hand, obviously he had taken Jian Huaizhen hostage here.

But for some reason, I always find these situations a little weird.

Although Jian Huaizhen was held hostage, she was not nervous at all.

She tried to look nervous, but I could see the composure in the corners of her eyes.

At that moment, I understood that she was not really kidnapped, but just wanted to save Fang Yu.

But why did she save Fang Yu? What is the relationship between her and Fang Liao?

This makes me feel very confused, I really want to figure out this matter, but I can't ask in front of Uncle Feng, and I don't want to cause any trouble to Jian Huaizhen.

As for why Fang Xiao was in the palace and why Jian Huaizhen saved him, I believe there will be a chance to figure it out in the future.

I thought about it and asked, "Who are you?" ”

Sure enough, I heard Jian Huaizhen say: "I am the daughter of Jian Shangshu's family, and my name is Jian Huaizhen." ”

"It turned out to be you."

I said, "I've seen you before, do you remember?" ”

Jian Huaizhen shook his head.

She really doesn't remember, she is a high-minded and arrogant woman, so naturally she may not remember an ordinary person like me.

I laughed and said to her, "It's okay if you don't remember, now that you've been kidnapped by the Assassins, of course I'm going to save you." ”

So, I said to Uncle Feng, "Hurry up and let everyone stand down." ”

"But the commander has given orders."

"So what, if the commander has given orders, isn't it up to me now? And are you going to gamble with Miss Jane's life? If Wang Guifei knows, do you think Wang Guifei will let you go?"

When Uncle Feng heard me say this, he was so angry that he stomped his feet, but he didn't know what to say.

He had no choice but to let everyone retreat.

I secretly had a smug look in my heart, and I knew that the reason why Jian Huaizhen did this was not that she was really held hostage by Fang Liao, but that she deliberately wanted to let Fang Liao go, so I also cooperated with her.

I don't know why my dad burned these two guys, but I know one thing, and that is that going against my dad every time makes me feel unusually happy, and it's really comfortable.

So, I watched Jian Huaizhen being kidnapped by Fang Xiao.

Soon Fang Yu took her outside, and it was precisely because of my inaction that Fang Yu escaped, and Jian Huaizhen was also thrown into the Jinshui River by Fang Liao, I didn't expect Fang Liao to do such a desperate thing.

Although I saw that Jian Huaizhen deliberately wanted to let Fang Liao go, I didn't know what the reason was, and now I thought that the two of them had a private relationship, but seeing Fang Xiao so ruthless, it didn't seem like a private relationship.

Fortunately, at this time, Jiang Shaoheng, who was next to Sister Rufei, rescued Jian Huaizhen, I don't know why Jiang Shaoheng made a move at this time, and I don't know why he saved Jian Huaizhen, in short, the relationship between these two people is very strange.

The way he looked at Jian Huaizhen was different from the way he looked at other women, and he had a sense that he liked this girl surnamed Jane, but everyone knew that he was the one who was Sister Rufei.

Sister Rufei and Concubine Wang Guifei are incompatible, how can Sister Rufei agree with the feelings between the two of them.

It turns out that I am not the only one who is full of disasters and twists and turns on the road of feelings!

Thinking of this, I can't help but sigh a little in my heart, I know that if Jiang Shaoheng really likes this Miss Jian, then they will have to face a longer road than I had with the transverse flute.

At the beginning, I liked the transverse flute, and the only thing I faced between the transverse flutes was my father's resistance, but now they are completely different.

There is not only resistance from Wang Guifei, but also from my sister, as well as pressure from all sides.

And as far as I know, my sister Rufei's daughter, Princess Luoxue, has always liked this Young Master Jiang very much, and this Young Master Jiang can be regarded as a dragon and phoenix among people, so it's no wonder that Princess Luoxue likes him so much.

I watched these things coldly, I felt like watching a play, I don't know when I became so cold and cold-blooded, I like to watch him with cold eyes on everything, and never let myself be the person in this play again.

Once upon a time, I was also a person in a play, so much so that I was deeply injured, and I almost took my life, and because of this, I also affected the transverse flute.

At that time, I was a theater watcher, but I got into the theater too deeply, and now I will never do such a stupid thing again.

Now what I do is watch other people and just watch other people act.

Not long after, the king of North Korea, Ri Won-jeong, came to visit.

I have heard of the king of North Korea, Yi Yuanzheng, for a long time, and I heard that he is also a peerless beautiful man.

It is said that he is a brave and resourceful person, put down the rebellion of the country, became the king of Korea, and has always been very respected in the Korean country.

When I saw him in real person, I realized that the rumors were indeed worthy of his name, and he was indeed a versatile person.

And it can be seen that he is very eloquent, but what I didn't expect was that he was inferior to Jiang Shaoheng in martial arts, and he lost to Jian Huaizhen in literary style.

All this made me feel very surprised, and one thing that I didn't expect at this time was that he proposed to the emperor, and he hoped to marry Miss Jane.

Miss Jian suddenly became stunned, although I was watching coldly, I could see one thing clearly, that is, Miss Jian didn't like this Korean king at all, and she didn't have a good impression of him at all.

At this time, I think it's time for Jiang Shaoheng to heroically save the beauty, if Jiang Shaoheng really likes Miss Jane, he should stand up and declare his love to the world.

Who knows that Jiang Shaoheng has never stood up at this time, I don't know why, I think the reason why he did this may be because of my sister like a concubine.

After all, he is the adopted son of Sister Rufei, and he must take into account Sister Rufei's feelings in everything.

I heard the emperor ask what Jian Shangshu meant.

Jian Shangshu thought for a while and said to the emperor: "The family affairs of the children's family naturally have to be agreed by the children's family, otherwise they will not be happy." ”

Jian Shangshu has always been a very gentle and modest minister, but he didn't expect him to say such a thing, obviously refusing to agree to let his daughter marry the king of Joseon.

This struck me as odd.

Since ancient times, all parents have wanted their children to marry prominent people, just like my father.

One of the big reasons why my father didn't agree with me in the first place was because Hengdi was the daughter of a criminal.

And now that Jian Shangshu has a great opportunity to climb the dragon and the phoenix, why is he unwilling to agree.

He really rejected the emperor so tactfully.

So, the emperor patiently went to ask Miss Jane's opinion.

Miss Jane stood there in a moment's embarrassment.

I know that she doesn't want to marry this Li Yuanzheng at all, because Li Yuanzheng is simply her subordinate when it comes to Wencai.

She could see at a glance that she was an arrogant person, how could she let herself marry Li Yuanzheng, but at this time, Jiang Shaoheng never came out to speak.

In the end, when I saw my father's gloating expression, my heart indifferently remembered the original transverse flute, and there was a kind of pain that spread to the bottom of my heart.

So, I stood up without hesitation and said to the emperor: "Your Majesty, Miss Jian must not marry the king of Joseon." ”

"Why?"

The emperor was a little angry at that time and looked at me.

I said to him: "That's because Miss Jian and the minister have already made a private agreement for life, and the two of us are stronger than Jin." If the emperor insists on marrying Miss Jian to the king of Joseon, wouldn't this be to break up our good marriage. ”

When the emperor heard what I said, he was really angry.

He glanced at my father and said fiercely, "Ji Gang, how did you teach your son?" Jian Shihong: How did you teach your daughter? ”

Jian Shangshu didn't speak for a while, but I could see that Jian Shangshu's face was comforting, and it was obvious that he didn't want to marry his daughter to this Joseon king at all.

On the contrary, my father's face was blue and white for a while.

I don't know why seeing this expression on his face, I felt a sense of schadenfreude in my heart.

It happened that at this time, someone else came to persuade him: "In the end, Li Yuanzheng gave up this plan, and he finally decided not to propose to Miss Jian anymore." ”

I looked at my father, but when I saw that my father's face was very ugly, I felt an inexplicable pleasure in my heart.

After leaving the court, I walked on the road with great pleasure.

Walking on the road, at this time, I thought of the transverse flute again, and an indescribable pain spread in my heart again, and it happened that at this time I saw Miss Jane.

Miss Jane looked at me and said, "Thank you. If it weren't for you, maybe I would have been forced to marry the king of Joseon by now. ”

I said to her with some puzzlement: "Since you don't want to marry the king of Joseon, why don't you say it directly?" ”

She thought for a moment, and then said to me slowly: "Actually, I want to say it too, but I don't want to affect my father. ”

After hearing her say that, I finally understood why.

She looked at me in some surprise and asked, "I don't understand why you want to save me?" You are obviously Concubine Ru's younger brother, you should help Concubine Ru, why did you save me instead? You know that Rufei and Wang Guifei ......"

At this point, she stopped.

She is a smart girl who knows what to say and what not to say.

So I told her the story of the transverse flute.

In fact, for so many years, I have wanted to tell the story of me and Hengdi, but over the years I have never known who to tell it, and I don't know who will listen to me to tell the story between the two of us.

After she heard my story, she sighed for a moment and didn't say anything.

"Maybe the flute girl is still alive."

Finally she said this.

"I've always thought the same way, and I hope the flute is still alive."

I smiled wryly and said to her, "But if the flute is still alive, why won't she come out to see me?" Since she didn't come out to see me, it means that she has already ......"

Speaking of which, I only felt a pang in my heart.

In fact, for so many years, I have been avoiding the question of whether the transverse flute really lives in this world.

It wasn't until I said this to Miss Jian today that I was willing to agree with this fact.

When I said these words, I just felt a pain in my heart.

Miss Jane didn't say a word, she didn't even comfort me.

Perhaps in her mind, she felt that no matter what words of comfort she said at this moment, it was useless.

After all, it's useless to talk about a person who has lost a loved one, she is a very empathetic person.

The two of us stood right here, and neither of us spoke for a long time.

When I finally left, she said to me, "I know that if the flute girl knew that you were still thinking about her so much today, she would be very comforted." ”

She just said such a sentence, but it warmed my heart for a moment.

In all these years, my heart has never been so warm.

At that moment, I understood one thing, that is, I could become very good friends with this Miss Jane.

Although I don't know what makes me feel so confident.

She said to me, "You must live well, and if one day the flute girl sees you, she will be very happy." ”

"That's what I thought too."

I said to her with a wry smile: "Everyone has a sadness that they want to forget but want to cover up. ”

I think she had a lot of sadness in her heart, because I saw that she always had a very heavy pain in her eyes when she spoke to me.

Suddenly, I said to her, "Do you know that there is someone who has always liked you?" ”

"Who?" She asked, slightly stunned.

"It's Jiang Shaoheng, don't you see it? You are such a smart person, I don't believe you didn't see that Jiang Shaoheng actually liked you very much. ”

Her eyes dimmed at that moment, and she said, "Ji Gongzi, don't make fun of me, Jiang Gongzi and I are completely people in two worlds." How could he like me, and I didn't like him either. ”

I looked at her, she wasn't lying, but when she mentioned Jiang Shaoheng, there was a trace of sadness in the corners of her eyes and eyebrows, maybe she didn't know it herself, but I could see it clearly and clearly.

That sadness moved me to see it, how could she not feel Jiang Shaoheng herself.

I sighed and said nothing more.

After saying goodbye to Miss Jane, I went to Sister Rufei's palace and saw that Sister Rufei was angry there, and Princess Luoxue was on the sidelines as if nothing had happened.

I stepped forward and said hello to Sister Rufei.

I thought she was angry like this because I was out for Jian Huaizhen today, and there was a faint sense of happiness in my heart, who knew that she was angry with Luoxue.

She said to Luo Xue: "How many times have I told you that you must seize this opportunity no matter what, and you must make Li Yuanzheng like you, but how did you do it." In the end, the person Li Yuanzheng fell in love with turned out to be Jian Huaizhen, don't you think you really disappointed your mother by doing this? ”

"So what, you know that the person I like is Brother Shaoheng, but you asked me to marry that Li Yuanzheng. What's more, he doesn't like me, and I won't be happy if I marry him. You are my mother, do you want to trade my marriage for your benefit? ”

When I heard Luoxue say this, I immediately understood what was going on.

It turned out that Sister Rufei had always thought that she could marry Luoxue to Li Yuanzheng, so she had Li Yuanzheng's strong backing.

Why can children's marriages be used for political transactions?

I really don't understand, and I don't think I'll ever be able to do it in my life.

I quietly gave a thumbs up to Luoxue, meaning to praise her for a good job.

She smiled secretly at me, and the two of us couldn't help but laugh for a moment.

Actually, I've always disliked falling snow because I think she's a very ignorant girl, but today is the only one that makes me feel impressed with her.

At least she is a girl who knows how to pursue her own happiness, and such girls are actually very worthy of respect, aren't they?

At this time, I saw Shaoheng walking back, and when the snow fell, he pounced on him and shouted, "Brother Shaoheng." ”

Jiang Shaoheng asked Concubine Ru for peace.

Concubine Ru was scolding Luoxue, presumably in front of me to reprimand Jiang Shaoheng, so she nodded reluctantly.

I took the opportunity to pull Jiang Shaoheng out.

When I got out, I said to him, "Are you okay?" ”

Jiang Shaoheng's gentle and jade-like face showed a trace of doubt, and he glanced at me.

But when he saw the look in my eyes, I think he understood all the time.

He smiled helplessly, and from this bitter smile, I could see that he really had a lot of things on his mind that was not for outsiders.

So I said to him, "Why don't you stand up today?" Won't stand up for her? ”

"I don't know what you're talking about." He said to me.

"Don't pretend to be confused, do you think I don't understand anything, I'm also a person from the past, of course I understand what you're thinking. Obviously, you like Miss Jane, why didn't you stand up when Li Yuanzheng was courting her. If I don't want to stand up, maybe she will really marry Li Yuanzheng at that time. Even if I don't like her, I will stand up for her, and you obviously like her