Chapter 54: Nowhere to Cry
"I ...... Never again. Mo Qingye almost squeezed out a few words from between his teeth, "Don't do it again, such a thing." ”
"Oh." Du Yuanyuan followed him and said, "Then it's not good." ”
"Well, don't do it, never!" Mo Qingye clenched his hands, his nails embedded in his skin, and the blood beads falling from his lips blurred on the back of his hands, "Eternal life and eternity, the filth that can't be erased." ”
"Green Night." Du Yuanyuan gently stroked his back, "Do you remember what you were unhappy about in the past?" ”
"Get out of here!" Mo Qingye's back was also trembling, and his emaciated figure was like a leaf falling in the wind, falling suddenly, "Get out of here!" ......" His voice was so bitter and painful that he seemed to be unable to speak, and he buried his head lower, his hair hanging down to cover his face.
The wind passed, and the cliff was silent.
Du Yuanyuan quietly looked at his silhouette, and his heart also ached.
He still doesn't know what kind of torture he has suffered.
Time passed bit by drop, but Mo Qingye's mood did not improve in the slightest, and he muttered in a low voice, "That's it, yes, that's it...... Hehe, then, I ...... Oh, I'm the dirtiest person in the world, no, I'm not human, I'm a demon, no, I'm not even a demon! It's disgusting! Disgusting! Mo Qingye, you are so despicable, you are so disgusting...... Scold. ”
A series of illogical words fell intermittently on Du Yuanyuan's ears, but he had no way to comfort him. I could only whisper, "It's okay, no one knows, it's over." ”
"I, how could I do something like that. But it's not unusual, it always has been, I've always been that humble existence. It's just that I'm holding it on, gritting my teeth and holding my head high, thinking that that's fine, hehe. ”
"It's all the same, everybody's pretending." Du Yuanyuan sighed, "They all pretend to be doing well, but in fact, their hearts are already noisy and full of holes." ”
Mo Qingye was silent, and sneered for a long time, "Yes." ”
"Most people are." Du Yuan shrugged his shoulders, "There are a few more people who can expose their pain without mind." As he spoke, he walked around the night and said, "I'm still the same sentence, I won't ask if you don't want to say it, but I won't care either." It doesn't matter what happens to you, as long as you're by my side at the moment. ”
Mo Qingye smiled suddenly, his shoulders trembling with laughter, "Du Yuanyuan, you don't know me." ”
"Nobody really knows who." Du Yuanyuan determined, "In the final analysis, people are lonely after all. ”
"Yes, yes, loneliness." Mo Qingye repeated his words, but his ruthless tone sounded like some kind of curse, "Just like at this time, you and I are so close, but we are still close to the end of the world. ”
"I didn't say we both." Du Yuanyuan raised his hand and stroked his hair, "I'm talking about someone else." ”
Mo Qing was motionless at night, quiet and gloomy, the wind blew his green silk, and swept Xiao Du's cheeks, as silent and lonely as this night. "I ...... I don't deserve it. ”
"What nonsense." Du Yuanyuan leaned over and kissed him on the face, "Don't think about it." Then again, you're like that, no, ahem, aggrieved. ”
"I don't deserve it, you're so good to me." Mo Qingye seemed to use all her strength to say this, and her voice was obviously trembling at the end, "I'm not qualified, I'm a dirty and cheap thing." ”
"Alas! You. Du Yuanyuan was a little helpless, "Don't talk about yourself like that, isn't it, although I don't know what's wrong, but it doesn't matter what, the important thing is that you are still alive and well, that's enough." ”
"I ......" Mo Qingye closed his eyes deeply, his eyelashes trembled, for a long time, he said in a low voice, "What should I do." ”
"Keep going." Du Yuanyuan said firmly, "Even if it is a big thing, yesterday a second ago is also a nothingness. At that moment, you have disappeared into the long river of time, leaving behind only meaningless repentance and memories. And tomorrow, none of us can predict, all we can do is to walk the road of today, the road under our feet. ”
But Mo Qingye didn't seem to listen to his persuasion at all, and muttered to himself, "I can't forget it, I can't erase it, how should I be good, so dirty, dirty ......" As he spoke, he suddenly raised his hand and slashed his arm, his nails cut through the flesh and blood, and the blood flowed, "I can't wash it off!" It's disgusting......" paused, and suddenly said, "You stabbed me." ”
"What!" Du Yuanyuan grabbed his wrist and stopped him from doing this crazy move, "Do you think it's possible?" ”
"So what am I going to do...... What to do. Mo Qingye fell into an uncontrollable madness and chaos, looking at the bright red blood stains on his fingertips, and laughing so messily, "Every drop of blood, every drop of blood flowing in my body is dirty." ”
"Mo Qing Night!" Du Yuanyuan suddenly raised his voice and said, "Enough! ”
"Yes, that's enough...... Mo Qingye said fiercely, "I'm enough to go to hell, hehe." With that, Huo Xia stood up and staggered upward. Du Yuanyuan wanted to stop him, but after thinking about it, let him calm down, thinking that he could always untie the knot, such a strong person. So he walked silently behind Xiaomo, and the companions in front of him had long since disappeared, and they marched on the white bone staircase one after the other, like a never-ending redemption.
Mo Qingye's thin and tall shadow dangled in front of his eyes, feeling like he was going to be blown away by the wind anytime and anywhere, Xiao Du didn't worry about two steps, and held him and said, "You slow down, your head is still dizzy." ”
Then, he was stunned, stuck his eyes, and stammered half a word.
Mo Qing lowered his eyes at night, his green eyes were covered with a layer of water, and when the wind blew, there were crystal droplets of water that disappeared with the wind. Drifting down in the thick fog, it disappeared.
"I said......" Du Yuanyuan wanted to speak and stopped, and suddenly hugged him tightly in his arms, "Okay, it's all over, don't feel uncomfortable, look at you like this, I'm simply, alas!" ”
Mo Qingye silently lay on his shoulder and sobbed, for a while it seemed that all the strength and pride were annihilated with the night, and he repeated over and over again, "What should I do, what should I do......"
"No, there's nothing to do." Du Yuanyuan patted him on the back, "If you can't forget, you can cry, it will be better, anyway, there is no one here." ”
Mo Qingye was still silent, only the cold water droplets kept falling into Du Yuanyuan's neck, and then melted by his body temperature, and the scenes that were unbearable in the painting bone mansion were reflected in Xiao Mo's mind, so clear and sharp. Once a prodigal corpse, once a candle and a red tent, once he completely degraded himself and did that kind of shitty thing. Even if there is an excuse for the brilliance, it is unforgivable. But Du Yuanyuan never questioned, and he didn't even take it to heart, his self-disgust and deep guilt made Mo Qingye finally unable to restrain the last string of his nerves, and his inner struggle and pain were far deeper than the so-called despair.