99 Solace the grief
"Are you really going today? It's not easy to have a vacation yet, so why not stay a few more days. Ye Siyin reluctantly took Cheng Shiyang's hand and said.
"It's not because there's someone there." Cheng Shiyang smiled and replied.
"Oh~~" Ye Siyin and Yu Fei put on expressions at the same time as if I knew something.
"Before, people in the military region were rumored to have only male and female patients in Dr. Cheng's eyes, and it seems that you are not close to men." Yu Fei said jokingly.
"It was before." Cheng Shiyang said, "It's not because I haven't met the right person. ”
"Alas~ Really, it's too abusive for the two of us to say that." Ye Siyin pouted.
Cheng Shiyang smiled and said: "I can abuse you now, I don't know how many times I have been abused before."
After speaking, her tone suddenly turned heavy, and comforted Yu Fei and Ye Siyin: "You don't have to worry too much about the condition of the two of them. The medical conditions in China are better than those over there, and I believe that there will be a look of color soon. ”
Yu Fei nodded and said, "I know, I can't do anything now, I can only wait for a miracle to appear."
"Well, then I'll go, you take care and take care of yourself, so that you have the strength to take care of others." Cheng Shiyang finally persuaded.
"You too, take care of yourself and Reporter Weng." Ye Siyin said.
After that, Cheng Shiyang turned around and walked towards the security checkpoint, she had been back to China for a week, because Jiang Tong was a patient to be taken care of, and the journey back to China was very long, Cheng Shiyang got permission to come back together. Now, Jiang Tong and Su Li have settled down, and she is about to go back.
Jiang Tong was placed in the General Hospital of the Military Region and was well cared for. Su Li was admitted to a psychiatric hospital, with Dr. Char and Dr. Wen as attending doctors.
"It's really just the two of us." Watching Cheng Shiyang's back disappear at the security checkpoint, Ye Siyin said melancholy.
"yes, the rest of the day should be boring." Yu Fei said.
"Then do you want to have a drink with me, a boring person, on a boring day?" Ye Siyin asked.
"Of course, it's just a day off." Yu Fei said.
A nondescript restaurant that looks very civilian. The environment inside is quite tidy, obviously it is not a weekend today, but there are many people here to eat and drink.
Yu Fei and Ye Siyin sat in a remote corner, but the lively and pleasant atmosphere around them still reached their ears.
"It's so good, it's when they're happy, they don't have anything to be sad about." Ye Siyin occasionally looked at the people around him with his eyes, and his sadness was even more set off in the laughter of others.
"We must continue to live for the sake of the people we love, for the people who love us, we must continue to live." Yu Fei said.
"It makes sense, for the sake of those we love and those who love us, go one." Ye Siyin said, raising his hand and the beer bottle.
After Yu Fei touched her bottle, the two drank the rest of the wine in the bottle.
"Before we went to South Sudan, we drank together, and now when we come back, it's the two of us who drink." Yu Fei remembered the previous things and said.
"Yes, I still want the four of us to get together after returning to China, but ......," Ye Siyin paused and continued, "but there are still only the two of us left." ”
"Reporter Su and I don't get together with you, every time I go out in South Sudan, it's the four of us, and I don't have space to stay with Reporter Su." Yu Fei denounced, as if Ye Siyin and Jiang Tong were always making light bulbs for him and Su Li.
"I also think that the two of you are in the way every time, and you can't have a good relationship with my Jiang Tong." Ye Siyin said not to be outdone.
After a while, she said, "However, it was still a good time, although it was a little boring, a little dangerous, and the living conditions were a little worse, but ...... At least everybody's fine. ”
As he spoke, Ye Siyin felt that his voice was a little choked, and he took another sip of wine.
"Yes, we have an appointment, we want to have a perfect date after returning home, and it seems that this date is going to be postponed again." Yu Fei looked at the wine bottle in his hand and muttered.
"I really envy you guys, and there is such an agreement." Ye Siyin said, "We didn't have an appointment for anything, now that I think about it, it would be good if I didn't break up at the beginning, just take the initiative to talk to him when I was on the long patrol, and it would be nice if I reconciled at that time......"
Although he tried his best to suppress his emotions, Ye Siyin couldn't help but shed tears.
"It's okay, it's not too late to talk about it when he's better," Yu Fei comforted.
"Will it be okay?" Ye Siyin looked at Yu Fei with tears in his eyes and asked.
"It's going to get better, it's going to get better someday." Yu Fei said, not knowing whether he was comforting Ye Siyin or comforting himself.
People are social animals, so when they are injured, they need to find someone to report to the group to keep warm. Like now, two people with the same sadness, drinking together, chatting, and comforting each other, the mood seems to be much soothed.
But how can such an approach be said? Just like being sick, taking some painkillers when you are sick will feel a little better, but to really heal, you can't solve it with painkillers, which can only play a temporary soothing role. If you want to be cured, you need to start with the root of the disease. Yu Fei and Ye Siyin are like sick people, what they can bring to each other is only the instant soothing effect of painkillers, and what can really get them out of their current sad state of mind is only the recovery of Su Li and Jiang Tong. They were healed, and the grief hidden in the hearts of the two of them was consciously healed.
For a short time after drinking, nothing happened. When they returned to the hospital where their lovers were, the grief became more and more intense.
When Yu Fei went back, Su Li had already fallen asleep, looking at the knife on her wrist, it was several times more painful than resting on herself. This knife wound was the day after returning to China, Su Li's condition became more and more serious, and he committed suicide at night when everyone was not paying attention, because he found it in time, so he would be fine. It's just that Char said that she was tormented all the time because of her inner self-blame, and felt that she should not live, and that this could happen now and in the future.
Yu Fei caressed Su Li's cheek lovingly, she seemed to have lost a lot of weight in the past few days.
"You're like this, how can I leave with confidence? From tomorrow, I'm going back to my battlefield, but what are you going to do? What should I do with my heart, which is always thinking about you? Yu Fei said melancholy.
Time passed day by day, maybe it was fast for Jiang Tong and Su Li, but it was so long for Yu Fei and Ye Siyin. Every day is looking forward to it, expecting that today will be a little better than yesterday, but when I open my eyes, today is no different from yesterday, maybe yesterday is today, and today is tomorrow. In this way, the same day by day, half a year has passed. Looking back, Ye Siyin was surprised, how did those days come by? However, now I seem to be used to it, used to facing a person who can't wake up every day, and getting used to such a state of getting along.
By the way, Ye Siyin made a comeback to the entertainment industry shortly after returning to China. This was not her willingness, but after coming back, everyone was apologizing to her and Jiang Tong for the previous incident, and fans even called for Ye Siyin's comeback. Under the persuasion of Yu Fei and Yuan Shenghao, she finally stopped being stubborn. On the one hand, I really can't give up the dream of making a comeback so hard, and on the other hand, I feel that Jiang Tong must also want her to do this, and the man who loves her even more than himself will definitely want him to do it.
After her comeback, Ye Siyin also took over some scenes, but no matter how busy she was, she would definitely come to see Jiang Tong every day, spend some time talking to Jiang Tong every day, and shuttle between the set and the hospital every day, although she was very tired, she was very satisfied when she thought about the beautiful moments with Jiang Tong and the beautiful face she could see now.
Yu Fei is not as free as Ye Siyin, there are always tasks waiting for him, and many days always pass as soon as he leaves, so there is very little time to go to the hospital to see Su Li, so little that he feels sorry for it. But when he can come out of the army, he will definitely go to see Su Li, and when Su Li is in a better state, he can occasionally answer Yu Fei's words, and Yu Fei is very pleased with such a short time.
In this way, the days passed day by day, and this was definitely the most tiring half year for everyone, and it was equally difficult for those who were sick and those who were not sick.
One day half a year later, on a crisp autumn day, Ye Siyin sat on the edge of Jiang Tong's bed, the sun shining in through the window, very warm and dazzling.
Feeling the temperature of the sun, Ye Siyin said to Jiang Tong: "Today is really a good weather. You're going to wake up sooner or later anyway, so how about waking up in this weather? There's sunshine, there's the breeze, there's fallen leaves, and there's me. It was a perfect day. ”
"In the past few days, Yu Fei can't come, so he probably went on a mission again. It's good that you can't fall asleep like this, but he's so tired that he's really lazy, and he doesn't want to wake up until now. ”
"He was really tired, and he was worried about Reporter Su's condition all the time. Do you remember? As I told you before, not long after you were injured, Reporter Su was also sick, and the things she experienced were really cruel, if you knew, you would definitely feel sorry for her. ”
However, Reporter Su is much better now, he no longer commits suicide, and he trusts Yu Fei more and more, although he doesn't remember those happy things, but the feelings are always there. Perhaps, it is precisely because of her relationship with Yu Fei that one day, she will get better. ”
"What about you? Don't have feelings for me? If you have feelings, why don't you wake up now? What else do you say that after reading your hundredth suicide note, I will forget you, what an indifferent person. How can I forget those beautiful moments you brought me? ”
Ye Siyin often does such a dialogue of a person talking to himself, and the doctor said that this might awaken Jiang Tong's consciousness at some moment. So Ye Siyin insisted on talking to Jiang Tong every day, hoping that one day he would really wake up.
"Dangdangdang" someone knocked on the door and came in, saying, "Si Yin, it's time to go to the set."
"Okay, right away." Ye Siyin replied to the man, continued to turn his gaze to Jiang Tong, and said, "Did you hear that?" Now, I'm going to the set. Isn't that what you want me to do? I did as you said, so you should wake up quickly, okay? Also, although I took the scene, there was no kiss scene, no hug, and no even holding hands, so you are not allowed to be jealous. ”
"Did I say you'd wake up faster after the kiss scene?" Ye Siyin said again, and then laughed self-deprecatingly and said, "Look, I've begun to believe in these metaphysics."
"Anyway, I'm going to have a good day and I'll come back to see you in the evening." After saying this, Ye Siyin left.
Only Jiang Tong was left in the ward, and the sunlight spilled in from the window, shining on his face, hand, and by chance, that hand moved slightly.