I'm An Yanzhe, and I lived a carefree life until I was fifteen years old, the kind that I don't have to work hard in my life, and I will live a comfortable life. This life is thanks to everything my parents have given me. Attending an aristocratic school, doing whatever you want every day, and then starting to take over the family business one day as an adult, is the standard for people like us. I thought that my life would go through like that, but one day when I was fifteen years old, because of someone, I caused the first qualitative change in my life.

This person is Nie Zhenfeng, one night, in the middle of the plan, intruded into my life. I didn't know at first that his approach to me was planned, and it was only a long time before I found out. When I knew all this, I had already treated him as a brother sincerely, and I once thought that this person would become my brother-in-law.

What I didn't expect was that he turned out to be an undercover agent sent by the military. After his father found out his details, he locked him in the red house in the villa. I haven't been to that place, but I know what it is. For as long as I can remember, I've never seen anyone inside come out alive. That place symbolizes death.

My father forbade me from having contact with him, and forbade anyone to visit him. On the day he found out his true identity, his sister cried, crying very sadly. The next day, as if I had never known that person, I continued to live my life step by step. But I know that my sister has not forgotten him, and I have seen my sister standing outside the red house and crying.

I can't just let him go, after all, he is the person I brought and the brother who taught me a lot.

With my identity and by chance, I finally got the key to the Red House and went in to meet him. I barely recognized him when I first saw him.

Oh my God, is he still the one I know? His hands were tied with iron chains, hanging from the pillar, the flesh and blood on his body were blurred, the blood left before had dried up, formed blood clots, and new blood flowed down, layer by layer, covering his original appearance.

A wave of chagrin and regret wrapped me up, regret that I didn't come earlier, regret that I didn't come earlier. However, since he came, I had to get him out, even if I would be punished by my father.

However, when I tried to save him, he told me not to save him, or I would regret it later. At the time, I didn't understand what he meant, and I wondered why I regretted it. But then ......

I didn't see him again for a long time until my sister's engagement ceremony, when he reappeared. Not to take my sister away, not to say congratulations, but to end my happy life.

This time, he appeared in a military uniform. Yes, he was originally a soldier, and the military uniform was perfectly suitable for him. His face was painted in camouflage, but I still recognized him at a glance among a group of similar soldiers. The way he shoots is still handsome.

I don't remember the memory of that day very clearly, only the most painful part of it. I watched him shoot and kill my mother, right in front of me, followed by my father. At that time, I felt as if the whole world had collapsed, and my life was in total darkness, and I couldn't see the light of life.

It was the first turning point in my life, at which I lost my happy family, I lost my parents who loved me, my sister was sentenced to prison, and I myself went to a juvenile detention center.

The two years in the juvenile detention center were really a dark time, full of all kinds of people, etc., and being bullied has become commonplace. There was no good food, no clean bed, and he was bullied by people who were more fierce than himself. There are always new wounds on the body, old wounds add new wounds, and new wounds wrap around old wounds. At that time, I was disheartened, I didn't want to resist or change the things around me, and I was probably in my state of mind at that time.

I also met Ah Cheng in the juvenile detention center, and he was my partner who had been with me for a long time in the future, and he was probably my only comfort during that time. I came out of the juvenile detention center and had nowhere to go, but I was also taken in by him. To earn a living, we work as porters in supermarkets. Maybe it's because I'm too tired, or maybe it's to escape, I never think about the previous things and don't sort them out.

But I met him again, Nie Zhenfeng, the one who took away my happy life, he looked so happy, shopping with his beautiful wife, his wife was already pregnant, with a big belly, under his careful care, smiling happily.

But his place, in my opinion, should belong to my sister, my poor sister, who is still in prison and has wasted a lot of time, and yet he is so soon to marry another woman and have children. Anger burned in my heart at once, and at that moment, I decided to destroy him, everything around him, and his happiness.

I was no longer confused about making this decision, but on the same path as my father. Fortunately, the property accumulated by my father has long been transferred abroad, and Ah Cheng and I went abroad to inherit those properties and began to take over my father's business - drug trafficking. Soon he amassed his own power.

It was probably two years, maybe three years. I returned to that land again, this time with only one goal, and that was to take revenge on Nie Zhenfeng. In this kidnapping, I met a person who became the only variable in my life. I started noticing her not because of how beautiful she was, nor because of how pitiful she was. But because she saw that scene, she raised her knife and stabbed her sister who was lying in a pool of blood on the ground. I saw her tears as she raised her knife, and I saw her crying as she crawled beside her sister's corpse. I also felt the regret, the heartache and the self-blame when my parents were killed.

Maybe it's because she shares the same mood as me, or maybe it's because I softened when I saw her frightened eyes. Anyway, I saved her life. It was providence that made me meet her again years later.

I was 30 years old, with no nationality and no home. In South Sudan, he was in the business of selling arms and drugs. But I have been tormented by nightmares all year round, the scene where my parents were killed fifteen years ago, and the scene where I killed Nie Zhenfeng's family ten years ago have become the source of nightmares. I thought that after taking revenge on Nie Zhenfeng, everything would be over, but I didn't expect that the pain had just begun. Years of self-blame have made my personality more extreme, and those who hurt me, or tried to hurt me, I would make them pay a terrible price.

One day, at the airport in South Sudan, I met that person again, that variable in my life. We collided at the airport, and she looked at me with horror that reminded me of a decade ago. Does she remember me? Looking at that look, it is clear that he remembers me. But then she left as if nothing happened, didn't she remember me? For the first time, I became curious about her. Driven by this curiosity, I sent someone to investigate her information, and it turned out that her name was Su Li.

Then I started approaching her, and she was so calm, so calm that one wondered if she was the person I had met ten years ago. But she clearly is, but why doesn't she remember me? Because of this curiosity, I appeared with her more and more often. Gradually, gradually, my heart changed. It's a feeling I've never felt before, and although it's strange, it's warm.

Dr. Char, who was trying to cure the disease, said that she might be a good cure for my heart disease, maybe it was because of that that that I was attracted to her, or maybe it was just an excuse for me to get close to her.

In short, I got closer and closer to her, blaming myself for the wrongs I had done to her, and hiding from letting her discover her true colors. Until one day, the news of my sister's death came. It hit me hard, and I felt guilty when my only loved one left me.

After such a decadent day, she came. She walked into my study, persuaded me in a gentle tone, listened to me tell her story quietly, wept with me, and even accepted me as an enemy with her warm embrace.

I thought she wouldn't come near me again after this incident, because I knew from her tone that she remembered what happened ten years ago. But here she is again, bringing light to my life. When I finally realized one day that my feelings for her were love, I pushed her away from me again. Her brother-in-law is my enemy, and I am her enemy, and this kind of relationship is destined to go further and further apart.

I'm a bad person, I never deny that, but I always want to be a good person around her. That day, Amay hurts her and sends her mind back to the horrific scene she had had been ten years ago. I really realized how much I had hurt her.

But I was so selfish, always trying to keep her by my side.

After some planning, I finally kept her to myself. But I also know that she doesn't love me. But I always wondered, maybe, will one day, after a long time, she will fall in love with me? Now that I think about it, it's a really ridiculous idea.

The day I took her away, I made up my mind to alleviate the impact of what happened ten years ago, to cure her heart disease, and to stop having nightmares. I decided to die in front of her.

But what I didn't expect was that the moment I fell off the plane, she grabbed my hand desperately. At that time, I should have been so touched that I actually left tears.

Still, I was going to leave her, to disappear from her life completely, and to take with her the blame and fear in her heart. What I didn't expect was that this fool was so kind that he blamed himself for my death.

"I love you." It was my last word to her, and it was the most I wanted to say to her. After that, I let go of her hand and let her body fall from the air.