02 Rebirth after death
The body was sinking little by little, deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper, and the limbs seemed to have become numb and weak, without a trace of strength. The river floated him, and the constant flow of water over him made him feel a little comfortable. Why is this so? Maybe it's because this is his last dying, and his perception of the outside is no longer obvious, only the place where he was shot, because of the invasion of the river, there is a painful feeling, so that he knows that he still retains the last trace of consciousness.
The water ran down the wound, little by little, into the skin, in the flesh, and seeped the pain into the bone marrow. This pain made An Yanzhe frown slightly in the water.
I don't know how long this pain will last, and I don't know how long this pain will last, An Yanzhe seems to be conscious, but he feels that this consciousness is far away from his body, far away. His consciousness could not cause any changes in his body, and he felt that his consciousness could see the whole picture of his body, as if a mirror had been erected in front of him, and as if he was looking at another person's life.
"Is the soul out of the body? So am I or am I dead? An Yanzhe asked silently in his heart.
"I guess it's the last consciousness of a human being before he dies." An Yanzhe thought again.
I don't know how long it has been, everything around me is too quiet, and the moment of death is too long, it is really difficult to survive the time.
…… After a long time, An Yanzhe was still slowly sinking in the river, but he was no longer conscious.
…… After a long time, An Yanzhe's consciousness woke up again, this time he felt that his surroundings were no longer as quiet as before, he heard footsteps, and even heard the sound of people talking, there were male and female voices in these voices, but what they were talking about, An Yanzhe couldn't hear clearly.
When he heard this, An Yanzhe was taken aback: What's going on? Am I not dead? Was it saved? That shouldn't be possible, right?
Thinking like this, An Yanzhe had a strong emotion of wanting to know what was going on, and this emotion gradually deepened, and it actually made the person lying on the bed open his eyes. An Yanzhe's wandering consciousness finally returned to his body.
His unexpected opening startled his guard, and before he could fully regain consciousness, he heard the man say, "Shizi, are you awake?" ”
Then the man shouted with joy and surprise: "Lord, princess, His Royal Highness the Prince has woken up." ”
It's been a few days since he came to this strange world, and An Yanzhe still can't fully adapt to it. Everything was like a dream, but what he wanted to immerse himself in more was a dream from another world, a place where Su Li.
This is a strange world, but full of expectations, he has seen many familiar faces in this world, father, mother, sister, Ah Cheng...... Their relationship with themselves is no different from before. In this place, his father is the prince of a country, and he is the son of the world.
He doesn't care about his identity, the identity of his family. What he cares about is whether he can see Su Li in this world. He was ready to die before, so he didn't feel anything, but now that he has survived, he wants to see Su Li again and see the person he loves again.
For An Yanzhe, it makes no difference whether he is alive or dead. It doesn't matter what kind of place you live in. It's just that, he thought, since there are so many similar people in this world. Will...... Could there be someone like Su Li here? With this in mind, he began to look for Su Li.
Day by day, time passed, every day I hoped to find it, and every day I got the news only disappointed. Until one day, he saw a woman on the street, the woman was sitting in a sedan chair, looking out of the window of the sedan chair, he happened to turn around and look at her.
Is it her? The same face, the same eyes, although the outfit is different, An Yanzhe still feels a familiar atmosphere from her.
It was a face that he could never forget even after experiencing life and death, a face that he often dreamed of in his dreams, a face that occupied most of his memories. How thankful I should be to God to see this face again. For the first time, An Yanzhe felt that God was standing by his side for the first time. At one point he thought that Heaven was on his side.
"Ah Li......" An Yanzhe muttered, and while he was still immersed in his thoughts, the sedan chair was already far away.
"Find that person." Looking at the sedan chair in the distance, An Yanzhe said to Ah Cheng.
Ah Cheng is still the same as before, very loyal to him, but he has no memory of his previous life. In this world, it seems that he is the only one who still retains his original memory.
The woman who looks the same as Su Li is called Gu Zhen. An Yanzhe knew that she was not Su Li, but because she and Su Li had the same face, looking at her as if she was seeing Su Li again; Seeing that she can soothe the thoughts that she can't distract; Seeing her can make An Yanzhe's memories of that period clearer. So An Yanzhe often went to see her. She is a geisha, so naturally she will not refuse An Yanzhe's visit.
"Today, still don't listen to music?" Gu Zhen asked.
"The woman I know doesn't know how to play the piano." An Yanzhe said.
"I'm ...... with her," Gu Zhen looked at An Yanzhe cautiously and asked, "Do we look alike?"
An Yanzhe looked at her, and in his memory, Su Li's face coincided with hers, "Like, very similar." ”
"She should be lucky to have His Royal Highness the Prince so favored." Gu Zhen said, looking down with gloomy eyes.
"No, it's her misfortune to meet me. I, I had hurt her, it hurt deeply, deeply, and by the time I wanted to be nice to her, it was too late. An Yanzhe said and remembered the mistakes he had made to Su Li, and drank all the wine in the cup.
"Why doesn't Your Highness keep her by your side and make up for your previous regrets?" Lonely asked again. She didn't know what happened to An Yanzhe and Su Li, she just said it according to the thoughts of an ordinary person.
"Because I can't keep it." An Yanzhe said.
"She's ...... Passed away? Gu Zhen asked.
She thought, with An Yanzhe's status, how easy it is to keep a woman by her side, does it mean that the woman is dead?
"No, she's still alive, happily alive in a world I can't go to. I guess I'll be happy, that's why I made this decision. An Yanzhe said, his thoughts drifting into the distance again.
He thought, Su Li must be with Yu Fei now, with the man she loves. Thinking of this, An Yanzhe couldn't help but feel jealous, for Yu Fei, it was easy to get Su Li's love, but even if he An Yanzhe used his life, he couldn't get that love.
"In that case, why should Your Highness bother to forget it? Every time you look at me, Your Highness will remember the past, and it will be painful, so why bother to come again? Gu Zhen's words pulled An Yanzhe back from his thoughts.
He looked at the lonely man with gentle eyes. But Gu Zhen knew that his tenderness was not to himself.
"Because I miss it." An Yanzhe replied in a low tone, with wireless sadness.
When night fell, the moon glowed with a miserable white light and sprinkled on An Yanzhe's desk. Now, he's painting a picture. During this time, his days were always like this, during the day he went to see the woman named Gu Zheng, and missed Su Li through her face, and at night he would paint in the study, and the content of the painting was about Su Li's memory. He was very glad that he could still have such memories with Su Li, and he could still have memories to recall. What's even more fortunate is that the last memories of him and Su Li are not too bad. He didn't know what weight that memory had for Su Li, but for him, that memory was the motivation to support him to survive in this strange world.
I used to draw memories from ten years ago, and those memories were not very good, even bad. But it was also a memory, so he drew them and hung them in his study. Today's painting is the scene where he and Su Li met for the first time ten years later, at the airport in South Sudan.
At that time, Su Li seemed to be thinking about his thoughts, and he didn't notice himself, and the two who rushed straight collided. And he recognized Su Li at first sight.
So, after Su Li was bumped, he squatted down and asked elegantly, "Are you okay?" Hurt? ”
Su Li looked up at him, and his originally calm eyes suddenly changed to horror. This expression An Yanzhe is very familiar, he saw the same look ten years ago. It was also that look that made him feel pity for Su Li, and when he shot at Su Li, he deliberately deviated a little.
"How lucky I should be, it's good to have your eyes, otherwise there would be nothing to follow."
If Su Li's eyes hadn't moved An Yanzhe at that time, what would have happened? He probably really killed Su Li. Then there will be no many things that followed, and An Yanzhe will not die. But now when he thinks about those things again, An Yanzhe does not regret not killing Su Li, but is glad that he did not kill her.
"Today's moonlight is not very good, and people can't sleep. What about you? After I died, was I finally able to sleep peacefully? ”
An Yanzhe thought that Su Li would be like this, and according to what he thought, after his death, he would hide those sad memories and start a new life. With the people she loves, with her family, live happily ever after.
If he hadn't seen it with his own eyes, he might never have imagined that his death would have such a big impact on Su Li. His last sentence "I love you" will become something that Su Li will never forget in the future. That sentence took root in Su Li's heart and became the root of Su Li's inability to forget An Yanzhe.
If he knew the consequences, An Yanzhe would not have said that sentence anyway. But since it has already been said, could it be because his fate with Su Li is not over?