I still remember that time, the two of us had an awkward quarrel, both of us wanted to wait for the other party to speak first, and in the end you compromised first, both said that the couple had an awkward quarrel, and the first to compromise was cuter, and I remember your goodness. You said: "Bao'er, I haven't stopped thinking about you in the past two days, I always picked up my phone and typed in the word Bao'er and deleted it, I wanted to look for you again tomorrow night, but the more I thought about you, the more I couldn't help it, I know you were sad, I knew you were waiting for me, so I was reluctant to confine Bao'er again, haha!" "Am I not in the same mood as you?

That night, we were talking on the app until 2 a.m., and I said, "Let's not talk about resting, we don't want to talk a lot at once and then lose your voice." You say, "Bao'er, don't be afraid, we have endless words, we will not disappear in the future, there will never be a next time, I will do what I say, we will come for a long time, and the water will flow for a long time." ”

I didn't expect that you who are cool and subtle will also say such intoxicating love words, Zhang Hao, do you know? I have turned over and over again all the words you said, and I don't know how many times I have read them.

Originally, I was also a shy and introverted person, but since I had you, I seem to have changed as a person, and I am a chatter in front of you, and sometimes I am afraid that you will think I talk too much, so I try to restrain myself. But, you know what? As soon as I wake up every day, I will think of you for the first time, and then I will start to miss you for a day until I see you.

But where are you, my beloved, now? Why is there no news all of a sudden? Didn't you promise me not to disappear again? What do we say about the long future, but the water will flow for a long time? As soon as she came back, you disappeared, is her place in your heart really so important? So much so that it didn't leave me a single void?

Is our relationship fake? Am I just a substitute for her? Didn't you say that you should be loyal to the revolution, to the party, to Xia Hibiscus? Why is it that as soon as she comes back, you treat me as air? Zhang Hao, I don't believe you are such a person. But don't forget, you can't live without air!

Xia Jin, don't have any more illusions, don't forget, even if he still loves you, how much future can your current body give him? Have you thought about how much pain he will have at that time?

But I love him so much, how can I easily say let go?

Just as Xia Jin was engaged in a fierce ideological struggle in her heart, crying so much that her heart was broken, someone patted her on the shoulder, and a beautiful voice sounded in her ears.

"Ma'am, is there anything you need help with? I am a crew member on this train. ”

"No, thank you!" Xia Jin didn't dare to look up, still facing the wall with tears on her face.

"If it's convenient, please show your ID and ticket, do a routine check, and I'll come back later." The attendant's tone was easy-going, and Xia Jin felt that the train was huge, and the attendant was also very hard, so he cooperated with his work and said, "Wait a minute! ”

Xia Jin took out a tissue in his bag, but he didn't find it for a while, the flight attendant handed over a pack of tissues in a timely manner, Xia Jin took it gratefully and wiped his face, and embarrassedly handed over his ID card and ticket, the flight attendant was a handsome young man, there was no pity and sympathy in his eyes, but there was a trace of pity, and he said: "Excuse me, if you need help, just say, I will come over later." ”

Xia Jin nodded sideways, not daring to look at him squarely.

After crying, Xia Jin's mind cleared up a lot, and she thought a lot about it. In the end, I decided that from now on, I must face every ditch and bump in life positively, because Zhang Hao is a positive, optimistic and positive person, and I will strive to become what he likes.

The path of life in the future is to pass less and less, and the remaining days are more and more important, and I have to learn to be strong. Zhang Hao, I will not forget you, because you live in my heart, and you are there wherever I go. The most beautiful time in my life is to meet you! Because you have loved me, and I have always loved you, so, in order to be worthy of the love you once loved, I want to make myself better.

After crying today, you are not allowed to cry in the future, eat food you haven't eaten, play something you haven't played, go to places you haven't been, and live this life with a smile.

In the past, I always thought too much, but did too little, in the future, I think of it and work hard to do it, so that life is perfect, leave no regrets when you leave this world, and be reborn! Summer Hibiscus, come on!

Xia Jin smiled, turned her phone to airplane mode, dialed Zhang Hao's number, and then reported her plan to him in her heart, and finally said: "Zhang Hao, I love you too!" ”

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As soon as she set foot on the mysterious and beautiful land of Yunnan, Xia Hibiscus was deeply attracted in an instant, and after visiting Xishuangbanna, a rare "emerald" in the southwest border of the motherland, she was fascinated by the scenery here.

After the introduction of the tour guide, Xia Jin wanted to feel the wind and snow moon in Dali, the wind in Xiaguan, the flowers in Shangguan, the snow in Cangshan Mountain, and the moon in Erhai, and yearn for the famous butterfly spring.

So, let's go to Erhai Lake for the next trip! It is said that Erhai Lake got its name because it was shaped like an ear. Sure enough, come to Erhai Lake in person, the crystal clear lake water transparency is extremely high, you can see the sand and stones at the bottom of the water, the lake surface is like a big mirror, the mountain is reflected in the lake, since ancient times, Erhai Lake has been called "the flawless jade between the mountains" really deserves its name, boating in Erhai Lake, giving people a kind of "boat drifting in the blue waves, people swimming in the painting" picturesque artistic conception, beautiful casually but so refreshing.

Overwhelmed by the fast pace of the metropolis, I suddenly came here, the mountains and rivers are beautiful, the scenery is beautiful, giving people a rare slowness, leisure, comfort and tranquility, there seems to be a pair of invisible big hands, soothing Xia Hibiscus's scarred heart, the impetuous and painful heart is quiet, I feel extremely relaxed, my thoughts have become dull, everything seems to be about to freeze, and I can feel a quiet beauty everywhere!

Xia Jin had an idea of wanting to live in Yunnan for a long time, which was originally the purpose of her coming out this time, but when she learned that she was terminally ill, she didn't want to affect her family again, she didn't want Zhang Hao to be overwhelmed after learning the truth, and she didn't want her loved ones to see her ugly and painful appearance, leaving was the best choice.

Due to the tight time at that time, I didn't have time to think about where I would fall, so I just wanted to leave my loved ones quickly, go to a place I like to spend the rest of my life quietly, cherish every day, happily live every day as if it were the last day, and try my best to fulfill my wishes.

Xia Jin thought, since she likes the customs and customs here, and likes the tranquility and tranquility here, it is better to live here. It's just that you can't sit back and eat empty! And I don't know if my condition deteriorates by then, what if I can't die for a while, and I spend all my savings?

This is a problem, Xia Hibiscus has been thinking about it in her mind, and suddenly she had an idea, Yunnan is a three-dimensional climate type, there are four seasons like spring, Xishuangbanna without winter all year round, cold Shangri-La and perennial snow Lijiang Yulong Snow Mountain, so it is suitable for sightseeing all year round.

By the way, didn't I learn to be a tour guide before? You can be a tour guide! You can enjoy the scenery, spread the culture, and make money, so why not?

It was decided, Xia Jin said that he would do it, and immediately began to understand and learn the customs of Yunnan, scenic routes, and scenic spots, and submitted his resume to the local tourism company.

Xia Jin quickly received an interview invitation from the travel company, and successfully passed the interview, so that she began to familiarize herself with the route and attractions with the group from now on.

This news is like a dying person who has been injected with a heart booster, Xia Jin is full of hope for life again, and hurriedly called her mother, but when Xia's mother saw that it was her daughter's phone, she grabbed the phone and asked: "Jin'er, you shouldn't go out now if you have a bad stomach, you have fainted and been hospitalized, why don't you tell us?" ”

Xia Jin panicked when she heard this, how did they know that they were sick and hospitalized? But listening to his mother's tone, he didn't seem to know his condition, so he asked tentatively: "It's a little problem, it's not in the way, but Mom, how do you know?" ”

"I also said, your company leaders really attach importance to you, you estimated that just got on the train, the chairman of the trade union brought a little girl to the house, talking a little hesitantly, a girl who came with her looked anxious, I thought it was something wrong in your work, I asked only to know that it was to ask if you had gone home, I said that you didn't go home with the company to organize a tour, but the chairman of the trade union was shocked, muttered, really bold, fainted and was hospitalized, I almost fainted after hearing this, and the chairman of the trade union hurriedly said that you just had an upset stomach and didn't get in the way, Jin'er, are you really okay? ”

"That's it, Mom, don't worry, you know, I didn't eat well or rest well a few days ago, and I fainted with a little low blood sugar, don't worry, it's okay now." After Xia Jin's explanation, Xia Mu finally put her mind at ease.

Xia Jin told her mother that she wanted to stay in Yunnan as a tour guide because she liked Yunnan too much, and of course, she would not say that she would die of stomach cancer.

Xia's mother agreed with her daughter's sudden decision, and told Xia Jin on the phone that she was alone outside, she must take care of herself, don't save food and clothing, and a lot of caring words such as the first body, Xia Jin smiled and said: "Mom, I have written it down, I will take care of myself, Xia Zi, call him to answer the phone, I have something to say to him." ”

"On the side, I heard that you were coming, and I had already run over, you and him." Xia's mother handed over the phone to her son, and with tears in her eyes, she pulled her wife to her room and said: "Let her a girl float outside alone, I can't bear to be a thousand or ten thousand in my heart, but it's been four or five days, and there is no news of Zhang Hao, instead of letting her stay at home, in a familiar environment, there are two of them everywhere, how painful it should be, and this Zhang Hao is the same as Zhao Yixuan's situation at the beginning, why do you say it's just such an inch?" Is this Xia Hibiscus's fate? Alas, so I agreed, it would be better to change the environment, it will help heal. ”

"Jin'er has been strong since she was a child, I think she seems to be in a slightly better mood this time than after Zhao Yixuan left, and soon found a new job, you see how kind and sensible our daughter is, not entangled, let go of others, in fact, it is also a relief for herself." Father Xia said this, but in fact, he really felt sorry for Xia Hibiscus in his heart, and he didn't dare to read it in front of his wife, for fear that she would be even more sad, so he had to say something comforting.

Xia Jin said to Xia Zi, "Are your parents on the side?" ”

"No, Mom took Dad back to the room, do you still have something to say to them?" Xia Zi said and prepared to go to his parents' room.

Xia Jin hurriedly stopped: "Don't, I have something to say to you, don't turn on the phone speakerphone." ”

Xia Zi stopped moving forward, turned around and walked to the balcony and asked softly, "Sister, do you have any whispers?" ”