Chapter 422 - Her Thoughts
But he didn't wait for anything in the end, and for the first time, he felt as if Pei Ran had never belonged to him.
Jiang Ziming finally got up and walked out of the bedroom, and closed the door, Pei Ran lay on the bed, not daring to go out to chase him, because she really didn't know what else she could explain.
In the quiet night, Pei Ran sat up, curled up as if hoping that the guilt in her heart would be a little less, she knew that she had hurt him, no matter how she made up for it, she couldn't make up for it.
Jiang Ziming didn't come in, and after a while, Pei Ran's mobile phone lit up, and she saw that it was Jiang Ziming's text message, which read, "I'm tired, go to sleep." ”
Pei Ran was not so sad in her heart, Jiang Ziming's text message made the tears in her eyes roll out, she covered her mouth and asked herself not to cry, but I don't know why, but I was so sad in my heart, so sad that I couldn't breathe.
When she was with Jiang Ziming, she warned herself that she should treat him well and not let him be hurt by this, but after all, she failed his love and hurt him completely.
Pei Ran tossed and turned, tears rolled out from time to time, and Jiang Ziming outside the door was also tossing and turning on the sofa, he was reflecting on whether he was not good enough, so Pei Ran couldn't open his heart to him.
Pei Xuan and they all thought that Jiang Ziming and Pei Ran were born a pair, but no one knew, but at night the two of them had their own thoughts, and they were choking on too many things in their hearts, but no one dared to touch it, because if one was not careful, the love that two people had won so hard might disappear.
Throughout the night, the two of them didn't sleep well, especially Pei Ran, who sat almost until dawn.
The day finally dawned, Pei Ran didn't know if she should get up or what to do, she didn't know what to say to him, Pei Ran thought about it by the bed for half an hour before getting up, and when she got up, she found that Jiang Ziming was already sitting on the sofa, he stared at the seaside outside the window alone, not knowing what he was thinking.
But looking at his back like that, Pei Ran only felt deep distress, she hated herself, the two people who should have been sweet, but because of her hesitation, they became like this.
Jiang Ziming seemed to hear Pei Ran's voice, turned his head to her and smiled lightly, "Up?" ”
Pei Ran saw his smile, and sighed in his heart, he couldn't figure out what was wrong with him, there was such a big conflict between the two of them last night, how could he look at him, as if nothing had happened yesterday?
Was it her delusion?
She was still cautiously testing him, Jiang Ziming lifted the sheet and said, "Pei Xuan, they drank too much yesterday, I guess they got up at noon, do you want to eat something, and I will send some fruit and food below?" ”
Pei Ran didn't sleep all night, there were a lot of things in her heart, she didn't have the mood to eat, she said loudly, "Whatever." ”
Jiang Ziming dialed the phone at the front desk, and then said to her, "Go and pour me a glass of lemonade, I drank too much yesterday and now I still have a headache." ”
Pei Ran snorted, went to boil water, and took out honey and lemon from the refrigerator.
Five minutes later, Pei Ran put the water on the coffee table, Jiang Ziming motioned for her to sit down, put her hand on her forehead, Pei Ran massaged him naturally, Jiang Ziming lay in Pei Ran's arms with his eyes closed, yesterday's events seemed to be in the past, and neither of them mentioned it.
While massaging, Pei Ran looked at the blue sea and blue sky outside the window, and she was thinking about what to do between the two.
I only heard Jiang Ziming say, "Ran." ”
Pei Ran came back to his senses and snorted.
"Ran, are you happy in France?"
Pei Ran originally thought that Jiang Ziming would ignore him today, but he didn't expect that today he was like nothing had happened, and he also asked her such a question, Pei Ran seriously considered in her heart, how to answer, she was afraid that she would touch his sadness.
Pei Ran couldn't answer, so he had to ask with a smile, "It's so decent, how can you ask this." ”
Jiang Ziming lay in his arms, enjoying the comfort and leisure of this moment, and only heard him say, "It's nothing, just ask casually." ”
Pei Ran said, "It's okay." ”
Jiang Ziming squinted his eyes and said very comfortably, "It's okay, but you still have to work hard?" ”
Pei Ran didn't know what Jiang Ziming was thinking now, but she always felt that what happened last night was a deep thorn in the gap between the two, but he didn't mention it, and she didn't dare to say it, she was afraid that after saying it, the gap between the two people would never be crossed.
Since he didn't say it, then she didn't mention it either, and it wasn't necessarily a bad thing to go on day by day.
After the two of them inked in the room for a while, Pei Xuan and the others came over, and the two of them pretended to be normal, and everyone continued to play on the beach.
But Pei Ran always felt faintly uneasy in her heart, many things had happened, and she couldn't pretend to be stupid as if nothing had happened.
A group of people had lunch, and Ah K heard that there was an uninhabited island on the other side of the sea, and they could go over to play, so Pei Xuan simply pestered Jiang Ziming to get the yacht over and take them to the island.
Ah K and Han Xiche watched Jiang Ziming drive the boat on the first floor, and the two of them were eager to try, but Pei Ran and Pei Xuan were lying on the second floor basking in the sun, drinking juice and chatting.
Pei Ran coiled her hair in a circle, and wore a pink dress, now she looks ten years younger, Pei Xiu is wearing half of her clothes and hot pants today, and many foreign men whistled at her before getting on the boat.
The two of them are wearing sunglasses at the moment, enjoying a rare moment of quiet time sunbathing.
Pei Xuan closed her eyes, her posture was very lazy, she took a sip of coconut water, and finally couldn't help but raise her voice, "Sister, do you think you are happy?" ”
Pei Ran was wearing sunglasses, and she couldn't see her expression clearly at the moment, she stiffened for a moment and replied, "Xuanxuan, what do you say is happiness?" I don't quite understand? ”
Pei Xuan said, "Sister, I don't know if I'm right to ask this, maybe it's because there was too much unhappiness in the past, so I see it as very important now, maybe happiness is like what we are now, no worries, and I'm very happy every day." ”
Pei Ran said, "You, don't put too much pressure on yourself, you have to make yourself like a little adult, wait for the end of the holiday, go home to work, and find a boyfriend after a while." ”
Pei Xuan sighed, "Sister, where are you looking for a Jiang Ziming, he is so good, to be honest, sometimes I am jealous of you, I always feel that the good in the world has been caught up by you, but I clearly understand in my heart what you carry behind this good." ”
When Pei Ran heard her say this, he suddenly didn't know what to say.
Pei Xuan saw that she didn't speak, and thought that she had said something wrong, so she said loudly, "What's the matter, is Ziming's brother-in-law not good enough?" ”
Pei Ran shook his head, "It's not that he's bad, it's not that I don't like him enough, it's just that I feel like something is missing between me and him......"
"What's missing, you and Ziming are talented and beautiful, and the two of them have the words "eternity" engraved on their heads."
The more Pei Xuan thought about it, the more Pei Ran felt that she didn't know what to say, she waited for a full minute before she said, "Jiang Ziming and I, we don't have that ...... yet."
"Which one?" Pei Xuan didn't care.
"Haven't been laid." Pei Ran lowered his voice, and he really felt that it was difficult to speak.
Pei Xuan was drinking water, but when she heard Pei Ran's words, she almost choked directly, she coughed several times, and finally her face turned red, so she stared at Pei Ran incredibly.
When she saw Pei Ran lowering her head, she knew that she was not lying this time.
Pei Xuan really looked at Pei Ran with an uncompetitive look, "Sister, what are you doing, is there something wrong with Ziming?" But it's not a big deal abroad, just let him see it in the hospital. ”
Pei Ran's face was embarrassed, "It's not that Ziming is wrong, it's that I'm not good." ”
Pei Xuan was even more embarrassed, "What's wrong with you?" You're all right. ”
Pei Ran was really embarrassed when she said this, she said, "Xuanxuan, Ziming is really good to me, and I like Ziming very much, but I just have a little messy idea in my heart, every time I want to do something with him, a voice comes out and automatically dissuades me, and I am about to become a nervous disorder, you say, what should I do?" ”
Pei Xuan looked at Pei Ran, and her face was entangled, "Brother-in-law didn't get angry with you about this?" ”
She shook her head, "I always turn him down, although he doesn't show it, but I think it's more or less." ”
She said, "Sister, you two have opened a big bed room, you can't do nothing, right?" On this trip, I originally thought that my brother-in-law was looking at my hard work to open a store, but I saw that he just had an idea and wanted to be honest with you. ”
Pei Xuan analyzed it like this, and Pei Ran was left at a loss here.
Although Pei Xuan is Pei Ran's own sister, but at this time she didn't help her relatives, she said, "Sister, you and your brother-in-law are both adults, and you are still there, but you are dragging him like this now, don't you deliberately let him have a thorn in his heart, if I were him, I would not be happy." ”
Pei Ran didn't know what to do, and couldn't say a word.
She knew that she and Jiang Ziming couldn't keep talking about Plato's love, and if it went on like this, even if she was fine, Jiang Ziming would be suffocated by her, but every time she thought of this kind of thing, she would retch, and she would even think of some inexplicable pictures in her mind.
Pei Xuan was afraid that Pei Ran would lose her hard-won happiness, she said loudly, "Sister, I don't know what you're thinking in your heart, but my brother-in-law is a person I have watched all the way, I think it's impossible to meet someone in this world who is better than him, God has put the road of happiness in front of you, but what do you want, do you have to lose him before you give up?" ”
Pei Ran said, "I know, I can see that he is good to me, but I really don't know what to do, you can't ask him to use force on me, can you say that there is any way for me to change the current situation?" ”
Pei Xuan didn't know what she was thinking, and suddenly looked at Pei Ran very vigilantly, "Sister, you haven't forgotten Yan Zhuolang's bastard, right?" ”
Pei Xuan unintentionally mentioned Yan Zhuolang, but Pei Ran froze when she heard it, and she almost forgot what she wanted to say next.
When Pei Xuan saw Pei Ran like this, she knew that she had guessed the truth again, she couldn't help but sigh, and looked around, afraid that Jiang Ziming and them would come up.