Later, the palace concubines left one after another after a while, thinking that Ah Ping and I could also leave to go back, but Liu Qing gave an order, and the palace ladies walked in with plates of dishes. Ah Ping looked at it in amazement, and my mouth was pulled by me, knowing that he wanted to say that he had eaten at Zhu Yuanzhang's place, but if Concubine Lu proposed it at this time, she would definitely have swept away her interest.

So we had to sit down at the table, and then look at the table full of dishes and stared, thinking that Ah Ping and I had the same idea at this time, regretting that I had eaten too much in the palace just now.

But Concubine Lu didn't know what we were thinking, so as soon as she sat down, she first served Ah Ping a bowl of soup, and then put a lot of vegetables into his bowl. I felt funny when I saw Ah Ping's face, this was the only time I was glad that I was not treated by Concubine Lu, at least I didn't have to eat to death. When he came out of Concubine Lu's palace, Ah Ping was almost unable to straighten his waist, and as soon as he got on the sedan chair, he was paralyzed and complained: "Daughter-in-law, you won't help me bear some of it, I can't move when I eat." ”

I glanced at him, "Who let that be your mother?" Blessed are you to eat more. ”

"I can't afford it. Next time, don't worry so much, after eating at the emperor's grandfather, it is said that the mother concubine will not be like anything. Ah Ping said indifferently while touching his stomach.

I feigned kicking him angrily, "You've forgotten what I said again?" ”

"I haven't forgotten, how dare I forget, don't you just have a good relationship with your mother. I saved it, didn't you notice that the concubine's temperament was better? I am her son, and if I come with her, it is easy to be seen through, and I suspect that she knows that I have eaten at the emperor's grandfather, so she deliberately gave me a lot of vegetables to pamper me. ”

If you think about it carefully, Ah Ping's analysis is not unreasonable. I've been with Ah Ping for so long, basically some of his small actions and words hidden under his expression can be saved, and if my son sees it from a young age, I believe that his words and deeds can't escape her eyes. Thinking about it like this, I was extremely sympathetic to Ah Ping, smoothed his stomach, and couldn't help but smile: "Go back and let Yan Qi take care of you, you're tired." ”

"Isn't it? It's better for my daughter-in-law to give me a massage. Hearing Ah Ping's request, I snorted lightly: "Then you don't have to wait to go back, I'll press it for you now." As he spoke, he pinched him the waist and eyes, causing him to exhale in pain.

At the beginning of the year, the palace seemed to be quiet and peaceful, and after the New Year's Day, I didn't have to go every day, so I was relaxed. When I was preparing for the salute a few years ago, Ah Ping still left a little bit in the Orchid Garden, so I used it to cut clothes for Xiao Yuan'er, and when the weather was warm, I could take off the cumbersome cotton jacket and wear new clothes.

Ah Ping was idle in the house because he didn't need to go to court, but I noticed that he didn't talk much, and only occasionally when I teased Xiao Yuan'er in front of him, he would come over to talk. Knowing what he was worried about, I didn't say anything about it in my heart, and I had a vague premonition that there seemed to be turbulent waves hidden under the peaceful surface.

Sure enough, on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, a distant war report came to the DPRK - the Northern Yuan Army went to war!

I was worried all day, for fear that Ah Ping would directly ask Zhu Yuanzhang to lead the troops to fight. From morning to noon, and from afternoon to dusk, I walked to the gate of the Orchid Garden several times to inspect, but I didn't see Ah Ping's figure, and my heart was extremely restless. I believe that no wife really wants her husband to go out to fight, even if Ah Ping goes, it will definitely be in the name of the general, and he will not really go to the front of the battle to kill the enemy, but what if?

He is a literati, not a military general, even if he can read military books with his intelligence, but it is only on paper, and he is definitely not as strong as actual war experience.

I think of Zhu Di uncontrollably in my mind, he has won several battles with the Northern Yuan, he is a real general, and it stands to reason that he should lead the troops to fight in this battle.

It wasn't until it was dark that Ah Ping came back, and his body was cold and a little dull on the outside, so I hurriedly stepped forward and asked while uncloaking him, "How is the war?" Ah Ping shook his head, "It's not good." Beiyuan really attacked our city gate late at night on Chinese New Year's Eve, when the soldiers and generals were relaxed even if they did not rest, and they actually took Mengcheng in one fell swoop. ”

I was shocked in my heart, a city had already been captured in just a few days?

"Is there a decision on the agenda?"

Ah Ping turned around and took my hand, his eyes were gloomy like never before, and his heart gradually sank, he was really determined to ask for his life or ...... Already decreed? I heard him say: "The emperor's grandfather immediately decided that King Yan was the commander-in-chief, and immediately set out from Beiping to meet the Northern Yuan army, and I asked for the deputy marshal, and tomorrow I will meet Uncle Wang on the road from the imperial city." ”

Tomorrow?! As soon as my legs went limp and almost fell to the ground, Ah Ping reacted quickly and grabbed my waist and screamed in pain: "Lan! ”

I knew that I had to put aside my feelings in front of righteousness, but I still couldn't help but ask with grief and indignation: "Did you think about me when you made this decision to ask for your life?" Have you ever thought about Yuan'er, who has just been born for more than a month? ”

Ah Ping's eyes were full of apologies, and there was a trace of pain in his expression, but his tone after gritting his teeth was still firm: "Daughter-in-law, I can't help it, the emperor's grandfather originally wanted to drive the royal expedition in person, but how can I let him fight again when he is so old?" I am the grandson of the emperor's father, and I am the only one in the whole dynasty who can stand up and bear for my grandfather at this time. And daughter-in-law, don't worry, King Yan has been appointed as the commander, he has fought against the Northern Yuan Army several times, and he is very familiar with the enemy's marching strategy. ”

Looking at it calmly, my heart became cold a little bit, I pulled out my hand and turned around, my nose was unusually sour. Finally, everything was getting better and there were no waves, but he had to leave because of the war, and there was no buffer, and when he came back, he said that he would leave immediately tomorrow. Even if he knew that the use of troops was fast, and he was waiting for the reinforcements from the imperial court to arrive, he had already made a decision without even consulting me. There was another voice in his heart saying: At that time, in the court, Ah Ping definitely didn't have time to think about it.

I understand all the truths, but as long as I think that in ancient times, the fast march and war were a few months and half a year, and it was possible to fight slowly for several years, and it is unknown when we will meet again tomorrow.

I don't say it in my heart, what about Yuan'er? He is bound to miss Yuan'er's 100 days, his first birthday, and even more growth experiences.

I didn't want to have dinner again, so I went straight into the room and lay down. Yuan'er has someone to cook, no need for me to worry, Ah Ping wanted to follow up but the door was bolted by me, he pushed it and begged pitifully outside: "Daughter-in-law, you open the door for me." ”

At this time, I didn't want to see him, so I raised my voice and shouted, "Let me be quiet." ”

The people outside the door did not say anything more, and even heard the footsteps leaving, and my heart became more and more uncomfortable. Usually the skin is so thick, no matter how much I scold, it sticks to my body like kraft candy, but today I just said a word and flinched? Do you also feel guilty that you can't face me?

A few days ago, on Chinese New Year's Eve, I was still lamenting that this year was not as unpleasant as last year, but unexpectedly, the reality immediately slapped me hard, last year Ah Ping just went to Beijing to catch the exam without knowing the cause and effect, so I suffered from parting, but at least there was no danger; Now he does not hesitate to go to the border to fight with the enemy, life and death are at stake, how can I not worry about breaking my liver and sausage?

repeatedly told himself that Zhu Yunwen in history would be the emperor in the future, and his fate would never stop here, but all history could not match his feelings. I can't bear him, I can't bear to see him after a long time, I can't bear to let him go for a few years, and since then I have stayed alone in this palace and this orchid garden has looked at each other from afar, looking forward to his return.

Just thinking that I would have to spend my days in this process from now on made me feel a panora.

In fact, I can make trouble with him, I can also quarrel with him, take Yuan'er and myself to force him, maybe he will stay in the palace because of this, but the mountain of the family and the country is pressed down, how can I tie him up with the love of my children?

Did he really make him a rebel? Let his imperial grandfather be nearly seventy years old, while his nineteen-year-old son in the prime of life hides in the palace and enjoys his success? How does this require him to be a king, and how to be a man?

How could I put him in that situation? He will complain about me, and he will definitely resentment against me after the accumulation of time.

As soon as my nose was sore, emotions welled up, and I forced it back by closing my eyes. I knew very well that I had already done a good job of psychological communication, and what I should face was to face after all, so I heard the sound of rustling at the door and ignored it, knowing that there was no one but that person. But after a while, I heard the door creak open, and immediately the footsteps approached, and when I came to the front, I stopped abruptly, and a gaze fell on my face, and after a while I heard a voice above my head asking cautiously, "Daughter-in-law, are you asleep?" ”

I want to continue to ignore it, but it's one thing to think about it, but it's another thing to have a nervously controlled brain. When I turned around, my eyes opened, and I saw a restless face, my eyes flickering, and I couldn't help but look at me.

I turned my gaze to the lintel, and suddenly I was so angry that he had sharpened the door mortar with a knife! And if he breaks it, at least clean up the mess and cover it up, he doesn't, he just throws it on the threshold, and he doesn't even want to cover it up. His whisper came from his ear: "Are you angry?" Hearing this, I looked back at his face and asked calmly, "Is it useful to be angry?" Do you change your mind when you're angry? ”

Sure enough, seeing that his eyes dimmed, he lowered his head in shame and said, "Daughter-in-law, I know that I can't stand you, but I'm going to go on the expedition tomorrow, can you not drive me out of the door?" I want to sleep with you, and I even arranged for Xiao Yuan'er to be brought to Aunt Yun. ”

Angry, he grabbed the pillow in the bed and threw it at him, glaring at him angrily, "You're all arranged, and you're still coming to ask me?" ”

With him so first, he usually has a good attitude after making mistakes, but this time he looks like a brute. And what's even worse is that he was silent, cheekily took off his coat and threw it aside, and then squeezed it directly on the bed. I moved a little inward, and he got a little closer, and then he pushed me to the innermost side, and there was no way to retreat, so he simply reached over and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"You let go." I drank low.

He replied unreasonably: "Don't let go." ”

I can't break free, so I can only let him go. Seeing that I was no longer struggling, he leaned close to his ear and whispered: "Daughter-in-law, don't mess with me, okay, I don't want to have a temper with you for the last night, and then leave tomorrow morning with regrets." ”

"What nonsense are you talking about? What is regret not to regret? "I really can't help but scold him, how can anyone say such unlucky things before going on the expedition. He was suddenly happy: "Daughter-in-law, you are willing to pay attention to me." ”

He screamed in pain at first, but when he saw my face, he immediately suppressed his screams, and suffered my "torture" against him. In this way, I also felt bored to let go, so he posted it again and asked carefully, "Are you relieved?" If you're still angry, can you pinch me a few more times? ”

I looked at the starlight in my eyes, and suddenly rested my head on his shoulder, "Ah Ping, I'm angry because you didn't think about me and Yuan'er when you made any decisions. You may go through the years, what will Yuan'er and I do? What you missed is not me, but the regret that Yuan'er didn't even know his father when you came back. ”

Ah Ping was silent, I won't break it, no matter if the ending is decided, but there are some things I still have to let him understand. You can't have both, you must give up if you have a choice, and the future is unpredictable, even if I am a person living in history and know the end of everyone, but what about the process? I do not know. And I can't be sure that under a historical system that conforms to the general direction, there will be deviations in small historical processes. The history books were written by the emperor for posterity, and there are too many unknown elements.

I don't have anywhere to talk about these things, so I can only hold them in my heart. It is no wonder that many people in books originally wanted to predict the future, but when they really had the ability, they were not happy to see it, because they never knew whether this prediction would really come true, and what was even more terrifying was ......

What's even more terrifying is that it is said that there is a cycle of cause and effect, and there is a cause to have an effect, but who can know what the cause of this effect is? Could it be something you decide in the next second, could it be the act that you want to change the outcome of your life, but is actually the real cause of this effect?

Nobody knows.