196 Bear it with you
Duan Zhicheng sat down beside me, and after a little deliberation, he said slowly, "I know, it's not easy for you and Ah Feng to go all the way, I want you to be together more than anyone else, but now that Minyi's incident has happened, I'm also very embarrassed,"
"Uncle Duan, what do you want to say, just say it."
"What I want to say, in fact, your grandmother has made it very clear just now, although I don't want to see such a result, but something happened, Ah Feng can't escape responsibility, we may be able to ask someone to take care of Minyi for the rest of her life, but who will make up for her shortcomings? She is half my daughter, morally and emotionally, we can't ignore her, what she needs most is Ah Feng, so I hope you can take a step back and break up with Ah Feng, so that he can bear the rest of Minyi's life wholeheartedly in the future, otherwise you are also very wronged in such a relationship, and it is very unfair to you——"
"Okay," I only thought it was a little ridiculous, "Thank you for your kind reminder, but this is a matter between me and Jiang Feng, and the culprits who caused Gu Minyi's injury are also me and him, if I really want to take care of her for the rest of my life, then I can be with Jiang Feng, as for whether we break up or not, it really has nothing to do with you." Of course, if he really wants to divorce me and wants me to quit, I will fulfill him! ”
After saying that, I didn't want to talk to Duan Zhicheng anymore, so I returned to the ward.
The old lady of the Duan family was still persuading Jiang Feng bitterly, and when she saw me coming in, she gave me a disgusted look. I sat down next to me without saying a word.
"Grandma, I'm very annoyed and messy now, if you still want me to live two more days, say a few words," he glanced at me, and said to the old lady with some firmness, "Minyi, I will be responsible, and I will take care of her in the future, except for me to take care of herself, no one is at ease...... As for my marriage, please don't interfere with it, I know what to do, you all go! ”
He really didn't break up or divorce me, because he was still focused on Gu Minyi, who was in a coma, and he didn't have time to deal with the 'chores' with me, and my life couldn't be completely on track, and he stayed here every day to help, or go home to cook and bring him food, but he couldn't eat at all. After these days of torment, he has become very haggard, and he doesn't know when it will end.
Gu Minyi's vital signs have been stabilized, and there will be no more life-threatening injuries, the instruments on her body have also been removed, and the wounds in other places are also in the gradual recovery stage, but she is like a living dead who lies there quietly every day with her eyes closed, with a nasogastric tube inserted, and the food and water she needs every day are flowing into the tube, without any consciousness. During this period, Jiang Feng did not give up and invited top foreign experts to check, but the results were not optimistic, the only optimistic thing was to insist on nursing and recovery for a few years, and she had a 50% chance of waking up.
The people of the Duan family came to see it a few times, but they didn't come later. The favor is so weak, like Lin Xiping, who cried breathlessly at first, and seemed to have accepted the reality in less than half a month, every time she really just came to 'take a look', and she didn't personally feed her a sip of water, probably thinking that she was a burden, and it was best to try to get rid of the relationship. Of course, it was Duan Hao who cared about her the most.
Duan Hao has become less violent, every time he comes to visit Gu Minyi, he will buy her some small gifts, what flowers, fruits, and other things that she can't see or use in the future; He will patiently talk to himself and 'chat' with her, full of gentleness and affection, much more intimate than Jiang Feng. Sometimes, Duan Hao would kick me and Jiang Feng out of the ward, and he would have to stay alone in the ward to take care of her for a few hours, such as personally wiping her body, washing her hair, cleaning her diapers, doing some nursing work, and so on.
Before leaving that day, Duan Hao said to Jiang Feng in a low and deep voice, "Minyi has become like this, I don't have the fucking energy to deal with you bastard now...... I really want to take her away, but I don't want her to be sad, although she can't say it, but the man she needs most in her consciousness is you, please take care of her for me in the future, dare to be a little lazy, or dare to abuse her, I will definitely kill you! ”
"I don't need you to remind me," Jiang Feng said coldly, "You'd better not bother her, I know how to take care of her better than you." ”
After Duan Hao sneered, he gritted his teeth and cursed in a low voice, saying, "If you really care about her, she won't have this kind of tragedy at all; Now that it's happened, if you really want to make up for her, you shouldn't have been in love with a woman at the same time, and you kept saying that you would take care of her as a vegetative person for the rest of your life, are you hypocritical!? If I were you, I would immediately go with her to get a marriage license, and treat her as a wife as a burden for the rest of my life? But isn't what you're doing now insulting her! ”
Jiang Feng was a little touched, his face became a little pale, but he didn't explode, he just closed his eyes and told him to get out.
After Duan Hao left, Jiang Feng smoked several cigarettes outside in a row, not knowing what he was thinking, and then his gaze moved to me, staring at me closely, and his eyes finally became a little confused. This is the first time since Gu Minyi's accident that he has looked at me so attentively and seriously, and it seems that it took so long to realize my existence.
"I'm sorry." He spoke these words to me in a heavy and depressed voice.
"Can you accept my decision now?" He asked.
I didn't ask too much, I didn't hesitate, and replied directly and firmly, "Yes." I accept any decision you make. Don't forget, we are already husband and wife, you are my husband, if you encounter any difficulties, let me carry them with you, don't take this as your own problem, this is a difficult situation that we can't escape together. I've been through so many ups and downs, I don't want to back down this time, as long as I can be together every day, I'm willing to do anything. ”
His eyes sparkled, and he was shocked by my firmness, and he hugged me, hugged me tightly, and said in a dumb voice, "But it's too unfair to you...... During this time, I was also exhausted, the incident happened too suddenly, I was not prepared for how to deal with it, on the one hand, I was burdened with guilt for Minyi, on the other hand, I was indebted to you, and the people of the Duan family put pressure in my ears every day, I was simply a mess. I've been thinking a lot these days, I really can't go against my conscience and leave Minyi behind, it's cruel to you to be able to afford her for the rest of your life, if you-"
"No if," I knew what he was going to say, covering his mouth and looking at him firmly, "why do you feel that taking care of her is incompatible with maintaining your marriage to me?" Don't worry, there are enough shortcomings in my life, and it's not a big deal to have more of this, as long as I can get along with you day and night, you are healthy and complete, this is the greatest fulfillment for me, and I don't have to worry about anything else. I looked at him and said more firmly and strongly, "In the future, this matter will be arranged by me, and I will help you do my best to make up for her...... The matter is a foregone conclusion, no one can change it, do we really have to bear the sins and continue, and we have no right to live our own lives? Even if you feel guilty and painful and blame yourself every day, you can't save her health, so cheer up...... As I said, this is her own life, and it has something to do with her becoming like this, no one is a saint, life is only a few decades, why always live for others, how much can we do, before you promise to take care of her, you must first take care of yourself. ”
Listening to my sober and indifferent words, he fell silent again.
"From now on, give me the task of taking care of her, I will learn the basic common sense of nursing vegetative people before she is discharged from the hospital, why don't you go home and rest for two days, by the way, prepare a room for her at home, and ask someone to buy all the medical rehabilitation equipment that needs to be used, it is best to decorate it into a ward, and find two female personal caregivers to assist, after all, no matter how good we are, we are not as good as professional nurses, right? Of course, it is better to contact a private doctor who is on call 24 hours a day in case of unforeseen accidents in her condition......"
He finally nodded, and said wearily, "Okay." ”
Next, he went back to the ward to clean up, and I sat down on the side of Gu Minyi's bed with a heavy heart, and glanced at her face, but I accidentally found a little tear stain in the corner of her eyes on both sides! My heart was shaken, and I hurriedly called Jiang Feng to come and see. Jiang Feng saw that she showed signs of tears, and shouted excitedly several times, but she still didn't react.
Later, the doctor was called, but the doctor examined it and said that when she was in a minimum state of consciousness, she might understand something, such as some familiar sound, or some kind of pain, and she would react...... Got a reaction? I'm a little shocked, could it be that she can hear us slowly these days, but can't speak or see, so she will cry?
Not only did I shed tears, but when I was about to wipe her face, I felt that her body seemed to be a little stiff, so I resisted it for a while, and it was so subtle that I couldn't tell whether I was thinking too much or really feeling her resistance...... But when I looked at her closely, she was still motionless, except for breathing, it was still dead silent, and her face was pale and there was no blood......
Seeing this, I asked Jiang Feng to wash her face, and when I saw Jiang Feng approaching her, her facial expression seemed to relax a little~ And when Jiang Feng habitually held her hand, her fingers seemed to be consciously sticking to his hand, but maybe my eyes were dazzled, and she didn't react at all. Or perhaps, she really has a part of her consciousness, and she can smell and hear the sound, just like a person who is in a state of unconsciousness and can vaguely feel the outside world, but she can't move or wake up~
No matter what, Gu Minyi continued to be in a vegetative state. A week later, the doctor said that she could be discharged from the hospital, and Jiang Feng and I took her back home.