Chapter 194: The Day of Reincarnation (Forty) Pretend
The white light dissipated, and the scene in front of him was both strange and familiar.
I turned my head to see the open door behind me, and on the other side of the door was a mirrored room.
The clock on the wall was still, pointing to the moment when it stopped turning when the power ran out, and I returned.
From 2005, back to 2012.
"Don't leave."
A familiar voice sounded from beside me, and I turned my head to look at the familiar person - Lu Haisheng, or wolf teeth.
I lowered my head to look at my right hand and unconsciously clenched my fist, my palm empty, nothing. Before stepping through the escape door, I took the purse in my hand, but as soon as I walked through the door, it disappeared, as the wolf's fang said.
But I pursed my lips and let go of my clenched hand.
"What's wrong?" I looked up at the wolffangs.
Wolf Fang also looked at my hand and whispered, "I said it would disappear." ”
"Disappear? What are you referring to? I blinked and asked in a confused tone, "What did you say disappeared?" Also, shouldn't I go into someone's room? How could we stand in the doorway together? ”
Wolf Fang was stunned, as if he didn't believe what he had heard. He squinted at me for a moment, and just when my palms were already oozing with sweat, he whispered, "You've come out of that room." ”
"Coming out?" I pressed on, "You mean I've already entered that one's room?" But I don't remember at all! ”
"Really?" Wolf Fang gave me a faint look, then turned and walked towards the kitchen, "Maybe what happened in that room is something you can't remember, I'm hungry, go get some food." ”
Watching the figure of the wolf's fang disappear into the kitchen door, I breathed a sigh of relief.
Wolf Fang, did he find out that I was pretending not to remember? I thought back to the way Wolffang looked at me before he went to the kitchen, and I couldn't help but drum in my heart. But it doesn't matter, I sighed slightly, as long as Wolf Fang understood what I didn't want to remember, that would be enough.
Actually, I remember everything that happened, even more clearly than I remember in the room. Even the memories of the time when the time reset began, which I didn't remember in the room, came back to my mind after I left that room.
I just don't want Wolf Fang to know that I remember, or rather, I'm sending a message to Wolf Fang, and I hope we can both treat what happened in that room as if it didn't happen. Such as his confession, and his kiss.
I glanced into the kitchen, listened to the sound of the kitchen again, and made sure that the wolffang was still busy, so I walked over to the closet and rummaged through it to find something.
It was a purse, long, with a dark blue finish and a gold nubuckle buckle, a color scheme that I loved very much, exactly like the one that disappeared from my memory.
I didn't take it out of that room, I bought it at a mall, and I've been using it for a few years, and I've never been willing to change it.
My fingers rubbed against the surface of my wallet, and I lowered my eyes with a smile. I've always been a staunch materialist and don't believe in ghosts and gods, but at this moment I suddenly felt that maybe there was a real destiny in the dark.
Fate will always deliver what belongs to you in front of you, sooner or later.
I put my wallet back in the closet, and just as I put it away, I saw the wolf's fangs come out with food. Very familiar, scrambled eggs with tomatoes with rice.
Wolf Fang handed me a portion of food, and I took it naturally. In fact, in that room, I was also tormented by this tomato scrambled egg that I had been tired of eating every day, but when I came out after all that, I had a lot less resistance, but I rarely missed it.
After two bites, the familiar sour spread in my mouth, and it even made me feel a little delicious.
"Is it delicious?" Wolffang asked, "You seem to be happy." ”
"Well, it's delicious." As I spoke, I scooped another spoonful with a spoon, put it in my mouth, chewed and swallowed, only to realize that the wolf tooth was just looking at me and not moving, "Why don't you eat it?" ”
"I remember," Wolffang squinted at me, "you don't seem to like eating this dish, or rather, you hate it in particular." ”
The wolf's words made me choke, and I didn't know what to say for a while. I blinked at his smiling face, almost certain that Wolf Fang didn't believe what I had said before, that I didn't remember the lie that the room had happened and that time had reset, and that he knew very well that I was just pretending not to remember.
Did he realize what I was really trying to say?
"We just had dinner before you entered that one-man room." Wolffang's tone was calm, sounding emotionless, as if it were just ordinary small talk. But I knew very well that this was not small talk, and his gaze was fixed on my face: "Are you still hungry?" ”
I looked at Wolf Fang for a few seconds, gave up my intention to insist on playing stupid, looked at him and said, "Is that serious?" ”
Wolf Fang still looked at me, as if he hadn't heard me, his eyes didn't move a bit, and he asked me, "Isn't it serious?" ”
"Heavy?" I looked at him too.
"For me, it's important."
I looked into the wolf's fangs, which were like ancient wells, without the slightest ripple. My eyes flashed, and I lowered my head to end the look first, and whispered, "But for me, it doesn't matter. ”
After a moment of silence, the figure in front of me shook, and I didn't look up until the hurried footsteps were gone, and the figure of the wolf's fang had disappeared into the kitchen.
I breathed a sigh of relief, and finally ended this implicitly turbulent conversation, and confronting the wolffangs was definitely not an easy task. Also, I could feel the anger in Wolffang's body after I said it wasn't important, but fortunately he wasn't ready to expose my lies directly, so I was happy to play stupid and let this matter go by.
Looking at the food in his hand, he suddenly felt that he had no appetite to eat anymore, and I didn't want to send it to the kitchen now, after all, the wolf tooth was in the kitchen, and it would be embarrassing to run into him now. So, I walked over to the computer desk with the bowl of rice in my hand, placed it on the table, and turned on the computer at the same time, deciding to find something else to do to get rid of it.
Looking at the computer that is being turned on in front of me, I feel like I am in a different world. Actually, if you think about it, if you ignore the fact that time is actually resetting all the time, and think of each reset as a different day, then I've spent about three years there.
Three years I turned my head and glanced in the direction of the kitchen, thinking about everything that had happened with Wolf Fang from the first time I met until now, and I smiled bitterly in some frustration.
How long have I known Wolf Fang? After entering the Endless Room, the concept of time seemed to become more and more blurred. In my normal life, it is precisely because of the non-pause and irreversibility of time that I have a clear concept of time, so that every calculation of time can be accurate. But now, when time can be stopped or even reset, it confuses me to calculate time in the same way.
In a way, Wolf Fang and I have known each other for less than a second. On the other hand, I've known Wolf Tooth for three years.
Three years, I leaned back in my chair and squinted slightly. After my parents were in a car accident, I voluntarily closed myself off, and for the next seven years, instead of building new relationships, I cut off all of my previous ties with others. And Wolf Fang, a person who has been with me for three years, is probably the closest person to me in my current state
Actually, I'm also confused now, and I don't know what kind of attitude I should use to face the wolf's fangs. It's been a long time since I've imagined that I might have a lover, and I've always thought that I would choose to close myself off and go through the rest of my life alone. But the appearance of the endless room, the appearance of the time reset, I have to say, helped me untie the knot.
Maybe it will take me a long time before I can readjust to opening my heart to contact others and learn to make friends again. But I know that I will be willing to try it in the future, and even if it takes a long time, there will always be a day when I can socialize with others.
However, my lover pressed my temples with some distress, which was a completely foreign concept to me to my friends. Also, I don't know how to describe how I felt, I spent three years with Wolf Fang, but these three years felt both real and unreal to me, I can recall every day we were together, but I feel like we still saw each other for the first time yesterday.
I can't be with someone I've known for a short time, and Wolf Fang seems to have known me for a long time, but because of the particularity of this time accumulation, I can't accept the feeling of being with him for a long time, and I don't want to talk to him too quickly about feelings, whether it's good feelings, likes or love.
And on the other hand, I couldn't believe the love that the wolf fangs told me.
I didn't think he would lie to me, I just thought that maybe this so-called love was not because of me, but because of the endless room.
Because of this environment, because we are precarious, because we are afraid of dying alone, we are anxious to find a bond in this dangerous environment.
Besides, love means the future to me.
And who can guarantee that we will have a future?
Sighing again, I decided not to think about these troublesome things anymore, after all, I have already passed this matter perfunctory just now, and let the rest be.
Maybe one day, when I can be sure of his heart, when I can be sure of my heart, when I can be sure that we will have a future, I will think again about whether I can discuss love with him.