Chapter 193: The Day of Reincarnation (Thirty-Nine) Walked Out

It's really okay to come out

I closed my eyes slightly, and fragments unfolded in front of me in the dark, from the beginning of my memory, to elementary school, junior high school, to high school, and the college entrance examination, fragments of memory continued to emerge from the depths of my mind, dissipating silently, until the scene of my parents giving me the answer yesterday also emerged, and then turned into the rollover of the truck a few hours ago

I opened my eyes suddenly, and I put my palm on my forehead in confusion. Come out? Can I really? One by one, these memories built a cage in my mind, and the door of the cage was obviously unlocked, but I could not push the door open.

"If you are in the dark, then you have the courage to move forward, and the real danger often comes from the stagnation caused by fear, and if you keep moving forward, the light will naturally come."

A low voice with a slightly hoarse voice sounded around me, I was slightly stunned, and then reacted, "This is the words in that book, have you read it too?" ”

"Of course I did, but not as many times as you did." Lu Haisheng said softly, looked down at the unknown thing in his hand, and then handed it to me.

I subconsciously took it, only to realize that it was a watch, and the hour and minute hands were fluorescent, so I could understand the time even in the dark. At this point, the two hands overlap and point directly above the dial – the zero o'clock.

"Go ahead, tomorrow will come naturally." Lu Haisheng said softly, "We are out of July 21st, and your heart should also come out." ”

I took a deep breath and looked up at the night sky again, the wind blew away a cloud and the moon came out.

"Let's go," I gripped the watch in my hand, "the time reset is over, and we should be able to get out of this room." ”

"Hmm."

I seemed to hear Lu Haisheng let out a chuckle, the laughter was fleeting, it seemed to be my illusion, I turned my head to look, his face was still hidden in the darkness of the night, I couldn't see clearly.

"If I'm not mistaken, getting out of the time reset is a condition for us to get out of here, and now that we've met the conditions, all we need to do is find the way to escape." ”

"Escape Gate" I repeated in a low voice, turning my head to look at Lu Haisheng, "Do you have any clues?" ”

Lu Haisheng nodded, "Here, there should only be two doors that have the meaning of being a door to escape, one is the door of the cinema, and the door I checked when I left, and it was not marked." ”

"So, there's only one possible door left? Where is it? I asked.

"If I'm not mistaken, it's your house."

"My house," I said, looking down, this is a good place

The most important thing for me is my parents, and if I want to go out, I have to go home and go out.

Lu Haisheng and I didn't say anything more, and after being silent for a while, he took the lead in standing up, "Let's go." ”

"Hmm" I also got up from the bench, but suddenly remembered something, glanced at the time on the watch in my hand, and hurriedly said to Lu Haisheng, "Wait, accompany me to a place first, hurry up, it's too late." ”

After speaking, I recognized the surrounding environment a little, took Lu Haisheng's hand and ran towards the exit of the park. ran to the street, reached out and stopped a taxi, opened the car door and sat in first, and then pulled Lu Haisheng in.

"Master, arrive" I was just about to say the address, but I was stunned by the scene I saw, and felt the suspicious eyes of the driver, so I hurriedly went on to tell the address completely, and specially urged, "Please hurry up!" ”

After explaining to the driver, I was slightly relieved, and then I felt a warmth in my hand, and suddenly remembered that I was still holding his hand, and let go of the electric shock, and looked at him a little stunned.

Through the light from the car window, I felt that Lu Haisheng seemed to look at me deeply, but he didn't say anything or ask anything. I shook the hand that pulled Lu Haisheng just now, and the palm seemed to still have the temperature of his palm, and I didn't know what to say for a while, so I fell silent.

I didn't say anything all the way, and when the taxi stopped, I paid the fare and got out of the car. This is the night market where our family came every night when time reset, and every day we came here before, it was a bustling and noisy scene, but now, all I see is an empty street.

The street lamps on the side of the street dutifully illuminate the whole street, and it is already late at night, and the night market is scattered, there are no crowded stalls on both sides, no noisy crowds, only the night wind blows, blowing a few pieces of paper on the ground and spinning a few times, I don't know where they are blowing.

Is it too late I stood still looking at the depressed street in front of me, the sound of the engine sounded behind me, I turned my head to look, and I saw the back of the taxi leaving, and Lu Haisheng standing behind me.

For a moment, it seemed that the strength in my body suddenly broke away from my body, and I squatted down on the spot, holding my knees with my arms and burying my head in the crook of my arms, blocking the light of the street lamp.

"You should know here, right? It used to be a night market where our family used to come every night. I kept my squatting posture unchanged and explained to Lu Haisheng in a muffled voice, "Actually, there is nothing after leaving the cinema, that is, in fact, our family has not been here today." In the days before, I didn't dare to face that car accident, maybe subconsciously, every time I picked up my wallet, that's why I had the aftermath. ”

I took a deep breath, sniffled, raised my head slightly and showed my eyes, looking at the empty street in front of me, "But even if you say that this place was created, even if the parents I have been in contact with for a while are replicants, even if I have just seen the 'e' mark on the neck of the taxi driver, but ah, but I still think they are my parents." ”

"We always like to say that if, if it hadn't been that car accident, I think the rest of the day would have been like what I had before, we would have eaten together, we would have gone to the night market together, and then we would go home together and go back to life tomorrow. But there are no ifs in this world, and I have the opportunity to experience ifs. ”

I said, stood up and walked along the street, Lu Haisheng didn't do anything, just followed my footsteps, after walking a few dozen steps, I stopped, turned to the side of the street, pointed to the position in front of me and continued, "There is a stall here, the boss talks a lot, we sold a new wallet here, it is dark blue, long, with dark gold decorative buckles, I like it very much, and my mother also thinks it is beautiful"

I choked up a little, took a deep breath and looked up at the street lamp in the sky, the light of the street lamp was very bright, attracting many small insects to fly around the light source, I looked at it a few times, and made sure that my eyes were dry again, so I stopped looking up and finished the rest of the words.

"It's a pity I can't even get this last gift."

Lu Haisheng stood behind me and was silent, I didn't expect any comfort, I just wanted to find someone to talk to, and it was good that he was willing to listen to me. After calming down a little, I was about to ask Lu Haisheng to go back to my house to find the escape door, but he suddenly spoke.

"I'll tell you something, don't you feel better?" I turned my head to look at him, feeling my puzzled gaze, Lu Haisheng continued, "The things in the Endless Room can't be brought back to your own room. Even if you buy that wallet, it'll disappear by the time we step through the escape door. ”

I looked at Lu Haisheng and blinked, stunned for a moment before I understood what he meant, and couldn't help but smile bitterly, "Is that so, that is, I can't get the wallet anyway, right?"

"Yes." Lu Haisheng nodded, paused slightly, seemed to hesitate, and said after a few seconds, "Actually, it doesn't matter if you have a new wallet or not. ”

My heart moved slightly, I raised my eyes to look at Lu Haisheng, and heard him say again, "The important thing is that you dare to face the courage to lose." ”

"Actually, what you said in the park is really the reason why you've been trapped in yourself? Perhaps, but definitely not all. You know very well that you are not to blame for that incident, and that the reason why you keep taking those faults on yourself is because you can't find any way to ease your grief for the loss of a loved one other than to torture yourself. I know what kind of person you are, you know too well that it was an accident that everyone had unintentionally, so you don't hate anyone else, you can't hate that truck driver to relieve your grief, the only thing you can hate is yourself. ”

Lu Haisheng stood under the street lamp, and the light of the street lamp was reflected in his eyes, turning into a little darkness, like a sharp sword piercing the bottom of my heart, "Only by hating yourself and torturing yourself can you temporarily forget the pain of loss, and can you accept this loss in a distorted way." ”

I couldn't help but take two steps back, watching Lu Haisheng open his mouth, but he didn't make a sound. I know that every word Lu Haisheng said is true, and every word he says is the deepest secret in my heart. I was afraid to accept the fact that I had lost my parents, I was afraid to face that kind of sadness, it was too difficult to forget, and it was too powerless to let go, so I could only hate, and if I had no object to hate, I hated myself.

Maybe he's right, it doesn't matter if you have that wallet or not, it's never that wallet that matters, it's my courage to accept reality.

Lu Haisheng and I were relatively speechless, I didn't know what to say, and he probably said everything he should have said.

At this moment, there was a sound of carts at the corner of the street, and I subconsciously turned my head to look at it, and I recognized at a glance that the cart and the person passing by at the corner of the street were the boss who sold my wallet!

"Wait a minute!" I subconsciously called out to the boss, and I didn't have time to think about what Lu Haisheng said that I couldn't bring back, so I hurriedly ran over and pulled the cart to stop him from leaving, "Wait a minute, wallet, please sell me that dark blue long wallet." ”

The boss looked at me with a blank face, and it was not easy to rummage through the packed goods, and he wanted to refuse the deal, but at my insistence, he finally sold the wallet to me.

Helping my boss rearrange his goods and watch him go, I looked at my wallet and held it tightly in the palm of my hand.

Indeed, it's time to get out there.

"Let's go, go home." I turned to Lu Haisheng and said.