I bit my lip and finally understood why the doctor had to go around so much to tell me about my pregnancy. They already knew that this child was absolutely unwanted.

"He's a life, he's already in my belly." I said a little distractedly. Although I never thought of wanting Zong Sheng's child at this time, I also knew that Zong Sheng didn't necessarily like the appearance of this child, but when I knew that this child already existed, I still instinctively wanted to protect him.

The doctor's face was no longer as kind as before, and he said sharply, "You are a patient, and we should tell your family about this." Think about it yourself, when you were hospitalized, you didn't know you were pregnant, and you didn't tell us that you had plans to have a baby. Now, even if the child is not surgically treated, in a few days, it will have a miscarriage on its own. When the time comes, you are more troublesome. If he is really born, you will only have to guard him as a disabled child for the rest of your life. No, I won't be able to live for a few days after I was born. Go back and think about it yourself, notify your family to come, and discuss it with your man. We've told you all the possible outcomes. ”

I closed my eyes and stood up, feeling like I was going to pass out, but I steadied myself.

Walking out of the doctor's office, I sat in the extra beds in the hallway, hugged myself, and tears flowed silently. What should I do now? Zong Sheng asked me to go back to my hometown to stay, because Shen Jien's situation was worse than we thought, and I might become a burden to him, so he wanted to drive me away. My mom also thought I could go back home. Even if my parents are not capable, they still want our family of three to live together well.

I don't want to, and I don't want to tell my mom about it. Zong Sheng's side, I didn't think about it, I didn't know how to tell him. I took out my mobile phone, looked at the phone screen, Shen Jien's name, and wanted to press the dial button several times, but I hesitated. After hesitating for a while, I pressed the dial-out button. I don't know what to say to Zong Sheng, but I feel that I have to talk to him about it, even if he will tell me to dispose of this child.

There was a beeping sound on the phone, and Zong Sheng didn't answer until the end. Finally, there was a busy sound on the phone. I wiped my face and took a deep breath, Zong Sheng really has the character of a ghost fetus. separated, so resolute that he didn't even answer his calls?

From being afraid of him, rejecting him, and rejecting him as a whole person, to now, accepting him and being willing to work with him for his goals. I know I've caused him a lot of trouble, and sometimes I really drag him back. I'm not strong, I can't do it. But he gave me a lot of tolerance. But after I got used to him, he turned and walked so resolutely. Didn't even answer a phone call? For him, even if I have been in bed, even if we have worked hard together, I will always be just a pawn of him. I had a thought in my mind that maybe I would never contact him again in my life.

I stood up and shuffled to the room. After only a few steps, I noticed that there was a different kind of colic in my stomach. At first, it was faint, but after a few clicks, it was obviously painful. By the time I reached the hospital bed, I could already feel the warmth coming out from under me.

I guessed what it was, but I didn't expect it to come so suddenly. I clutched my stomach and moved my steps to ring the call bell at the bedside. The aunt in the next bed looked at me and said in surprise, "You, what's the matter with you?" Sister? Yo, this face is all white like this. Don't you just have a wound on your face? How? Why do you still have stomach pain? ”

Cold sweat was already running down my forehead. It really hurts, and I don't even have the strength to answer my aunt.

The nurse came to see me, informed the doctor, and half an hour later, I was transferred to the obstetrics and gynecology department. She was a kind nurse who helped me get everything.

I don't know if the doctors in the obstetrics and gynecology department are so indifferent, after seeing my situation, they said that the fetus that is only 36 or 37 days old is affected by the drug, and the chance of miscarriage is already very high. Coupled with my mood swings, there are now signs of miscarriage. This fetus is definitely not guaranteed, so he asked me if I want to take some medicine to aggravate the contractions, let the embryo come out quickly, and I will suffer less.

The doctor asked me several times, and I didn't say anything about my family.

The nurse took me to the hospital bed, gave me the medicine, explained what to pay attention to, and left.

I was busy with my own hygiene alone, dragging my increasingly painful stomach, curled up on the bed, and sweating coldly. Soon, I was a little unconscious in pain, and I could hear the voices of people next to me, but I didn't want to open my eyes and look around.

I heard someone say, "This is it, seventeen beds." It's only twenty-three, and I think I'm still a student. Everyone came to sign the miscarriage, or she signed it herself. Neither did the family members and the friends. Tsk, this woman should be a junior. How else could it be? ”

"I think so. Maybe she was pregnant by a bow girl, and she didn't dare to tell anyone that she came to the hospital alone. ”

"In this society now, there are many such things."

I clutched my stomach, and I didn't know if it was grievance or pain, so my tears kept flowing silently. I don't even know how many times I've cried in the past two days, I'm not that much of a cryer, but I just can't control it. I also want to be stronger.

It really hurts, this little life that came before we were all ready, made my negligence, ignore his existence, let him receive the influence of the drug, and just left my body. My heart hurts so much, I'm the only one, and even the child who was with me at the end is going to leave my body.

When I received the call from my mother, it was already the afternoon of the next day. My mom was very strange, didn't she say that she would be discharged from the hospital soon, why did she wait until it was almost dark, but I hadn't come back yet.

I could only make up an excuse with my mother, and I said that the teacher who led the internship would talk to me temporarily. Because my internship was something she had never encountered before.

My mom believed it, so let me go back when I'm done. Tomorrow she will continue to cook my food and wait for me to come home.

Originally, I thought about it, and I would just keep it a secret forever. Although I was a little caught off guard by the departure of this child, I didn't want my pain to affect others. Especially I don't want people to know about the pain I've been suffering for the past two days. It can only be hidden in the snow forever.

But sometimes, God really can't do what people want. When I was discharged from the inpatient department of obstetrics and gynecology and went downstairs with a bag to leave, I met Shen Han in the elevator.

Shen Han was wearing a school uniform, with a few people who were also wearing school uniforms, they entered the elevator, and they were arguing there, who would pay for the medical expenses now, and whether they wanted to talk to their parents.

Shen Han saw me, looking at the hospital map posted in the elevator, and then exclaimed in surprise: "Zong Youxuan! Aren't you on the fourth floor? How did you get to the obstetrics and gynecology department on the seventh floor? ”

Before I could figure out how to answer her, the girl had already ripped off the list of medicines I was holding in my hand and that I was going to take after I was discharged from the hospital. For the first time, I really hoped that the doctor's prescription was handwritten in a font that I couldn't read. But it was a computer printout, and it was not only the department where I was hospitalized, but also the cause, which clearly stated "spontaneous abortion".

"Are you pregnant?" Shen Han was surprised again, "Huh? Still miscarried? ”

I pulled the slip back from her hand and said, "Don't talk nonsense. It's my own business. ”

"Cut, you think I'm rare to leave you. I'm just so surprised that a woman like you would dare to play that kind of game. Hey, Zong Sheng doesn't know yet, just look at you alone, he doesn't know about this at all. If he had found out about it, you would have died a terrible death. Tsk, last time he rushed over and almost strangled me with a single hand. I think this time, he can really strangle you directly. ”

When I opened my mouth, I didn't know how to tell her. What she was thinking about in her head was that I was facing the miscarriage alone, and Zong Sheng didn't know, so this child was mine and someone else's, not Zong Sheng's at all. So Zong Sheng will strangle me if he finds out. That's how I understood what she said. But why didn't she think that the child was Zong Sheng's? She is a junior in high school, and she is still playing outside in the middle of the night, chasing men and going to other people's houses, her thinking is really different from ours.

When the elevator reached the first floor, I strode out of the elevator and listened to Shen Han and their classmates behind me say: "Miss Shen, you can help with this medical fee first, my family really can't afford so much money." ”

"Why don't you want to beat someone? Now you know mine. Did you listen to me? Hey, Zong Youxuan, you'd better hide, if Zong Sheng knew about this, he would definitely not let you go. ”

Fortunately, she still knows that Zong Sheng will not let me go. Then she probably won't go to snitch. I thought to myself.

Out of the hospital, I didn't take a taxi. Now I'm not Zong Sheng's girlfriend anymore. Neither on the surface nor in reality, it is no longer so. I don't have the money to take a taxi, so I'd better take the bus and go home slowly.

One reason, another reason, is that I don't want to go home so soon, I want to be alone for a while, to be alone, and I don't want to face anyone. Even if it's my parents.

When I got home, it was already dark. I hid all the medicine that my parents couldn't see. When I walked into the house, I ran into Lao Bei.

Old North?! I froze in fear. How could Lao Bei be in our house? What did he come to do? For me now, Lao Bei is a more terrifying existence than Grandma Zongsheng. Grandma Zong Sheng's harm to people only cares about her voice and words, but Lao Bei is really killing people invisibly.