I cried and shook my head, I didn't want to listen to his words of begging for reunion anymore, I couldn't empathize with him to experience the pain of losing his parents back then, I didn't want to understand his revenge on Duan Zhicheng, I couldn't understand his distress and his despair, I knew that he betrayed me, abandoned me, he deceived me in the most shameless way, and he lived with other women for many years......

"Do you know that I came here back then," I said in a choked shackle of pain, "and the moment I knew you were 'dead,' I felt like I was dead too, just a dead man still breathing every day...... I am most afraid of the night, because at night I feel like I have fallen into a black hole, there is no hope at all, and I can clearly listen to the sound of my heart being torn apart over and over again, and the endless purgatory-like days make me want to end myself several times...... However, for He Yi, for the only person who has anything to do with your life, I gritted my teeth and survived...... Do you think that if you deceive in such a way, I will not hate you? You are wrong, I hate you, I hate you so much, there is not a day that I don't hate you! I'd rather you be in front of me and tell me that you are in love with another woman, and you want to divorce me, and then kick me hard and take other women away in style, it is better than you completely destroying my enthusiasm for life in the way of 'death', so that I am worse than death...... I hate you, I hate you......"

"......" He reached over and hugged my neck, kept wiping my tears with a tissue, and said sadly, "I'm sorry, Yuncan, I don't know what you have suffered, it is because I know the pain in your heart very well, so after I did this, I also suffered every day, but once I entered the Duan family, I found that I couldn't turn back......"

"Because of Duan Qian's relationship, I got a lot of resources in the Duan family that I couldn't dream of before, such as a glamorous job, a decent salary, and the admiration and respect of others, and many, many more...... When I was with you before, I also firmly believed that hard work would eventually come out, but when I arrived at the Duan family and had a relationship, I found that people like us who have no background and no primitive accumulation, and who are poor and white, no matter how brainy they are, no matter how hard they endure, no matter how good their luck is, in the end, the money they earn is not enough for those rich people to pay for a meal...... Yes, you despise me as much as you want, I was poor and scared at that time, and I didn't want to live such a hard life again, so I decided not to rush Duan Zhicheng's life, I wanted to let his wealth be used by me, change my fate first, and then plan a seamless way to take his dog's life......"

"Over the years since I entered the Duan family, I have endured humiliation and won the absolute trust of Duan Zhicheng and his wife, and I have invested in many fields with the money I earned in the Duan family, first of all, I thought of supporting you...... Do you remember our dream, you said that if you want to start your own clothing brand, it is better to name it after the two of us, so that every piece of clothing you design can be turned into a finished product and appear in the clothing store in the mall...... So, through Zhou Kaicheng, I invested in and founded 'Yuncan' for you, and even the channels of the golden business circle that were willing to cooperate with you in the early days were also the ones I gave you a good relationship in advance...... So you must have thought that running a company was so smooth and that the money was so easy to make...... My idea is very simple, I have a good life, and I have to find ways to make your life good, because I have never forgotten that we are husband and wife, and I have never forgotten that I will return to you after I achieve my goal......"

"......" finally knew that he had hidden my answer for 8 years, and knew what he really thought in his heart, and I gradually couldn't cry.

The feeling in my heart is very complicated, the hatred for him is still there, but it is a little clearer, as if I have been in a closed space for a long time, and finally found a window, and the sun is shining through the window, but in fact I am still staying in this cage......

The most important thing is that I found that my heart could no longer be close to him, although he was by my side and explained a lot, but I could never get back to the old feeling in him.

How do I respond to him? Do I want to tell him that I would rather suffer with him for the rest of my life than that he would abandon me and use Duan Qian to take the position? Oh, after these years of rich people's lives, I know how hypocritical these words are.

It is said that poor couples mourn everything. He and I are poor people who have nothing, before we recognize the truth of life, we may be able to swear a sweet few years, but with the deepening of married life, every day in the face of oil, salt, firewood, rice, sauce, vinegar and tea, in the face of failure again and again in entrepreneurship, his spirit will be defeated sooner or later, when the time comes, we will quarrel frequently over money, and sooner or later the relationship will be quarreled clean, and it is a matter of time before we divorce him...... All, I have no reason to despise him for climbing Duan Qian for money, in fact, now that he has money, he is indeed reborn, raised his eyebrows, and lives a decent and dignified life...... Isn't he what I want to see?

I leaned back in the chair, and after a long pause, I tried to speak as calmly as possible, "He Yu, since I knew that you were still alive, my only request was to get an explanation and explanation from here, and now that you have explained everything clearly back then, and fulfilled my wishes, then we don't owe each other." Everyone has the right to choose their own life, I don't blame you, there are no children in common between us, and at the end of the day you don't owe me anything fundamentally. Since you made that decision back then, it also means the complete end of our relationship...... I said, 8 years have passed, I will let go of what should be put down, and you have a new family, don't break the peace that you have built up with great difficulty...... Finally, I also advise you, live the life of the rich man you dream of, please cherish it, don't retaliate against Duan Zhicheng in an extreme way, I believe that your parents know everything, and they never want you to lose the rest of your life for them. ”

"What do you mean by that?!" He was anxious and grabbed my arm with both hands, "What does it mean that the relationship is completely over?" After all, you still haven't opened your heart, or do you hate me? ”

"Wrong, hatred also takes strength, and I don't have the strength or reason to hate you now." My heart was cold, but I shivered in the warm car, I clasped my hands, and said indifferently, "I used to hate you, because I always felt that you were my lover, my private belongings, and your departure is not responsible for me, you just owe me, sorry for me...... But now, I finally understand, in fact, the day you decided to follow Duan Qian 8 years ago, our love really withered, and from now on, no one is anyone's own, whether you are dead or alive, who you marry, whether you mix well or badly, it has nothing to do with me. Of course, my life has nothing to do with you. ”

"This is just your unilateral understanding, I will never accept it!" He looked at me intently, very firm, "I don't blame you for hating and complaining about me, but I have never stopped loving you...... It is precisely because I love you that I have always tried every means to make more money, no matter what channel I use, as long as I can earn money and give you a rich life, I am willing...... Otherwise, I really don't know how long I can last with you every day when I see you suffering with me...... Can, I love you so much, this kind of love is also like a mountain weighing heavily on me, I am a man with strong self-esteem, if I keep being poor, if a man with better conditions than me comes to rob you, I may not have the confidence to fight against it...... But now, I have absolute confidence to give you happiness, count me begging you, come back to me, I am willing to do my best to make up for these 8 years, only you can accept me, even if I live 8 years less! ”

"......," I was not impressed by his eagerness, "I really can't go back." Accept it. ”

"In the end, it's because of Duan Peifeng!?" He was a little angry, and his eyes were full of fire at the mention of the name.

This sudden insertion of the name really touched my heart......

"It has nothing to do with anyone, if you don't love it, you don't love it." After I finished speaking, I asked him, "Get out of the car, it's not early, I'm going home." ”

"......" He didn't move.

"You have your own home, and if I'm not mistaken, you're about to become a father, so don't dwell on my questions anymore, since you succumbed to reality, let's be realistic."

"So, Duan Qian is also your heart disease?" He asked.

"I said early on that I haven't had a relationship with her so far." He said flatly, "Maybe you don't believe it, but even I can't believe it...... In the days when I left you, I thought about you every day, tormented and guilty, I was in no mood to fall in love with other women, let alone sleep with them, from beginning to end, I was the only woman in my life...... As for maintaining a lover relationship with Duan Qian, it is also to gain a firm foothold in the Duan family as soon as possible, and this time I married her in a hurry, in the final analysis, I was angry with you...... However, I am now sleeping in a separate room with her. As long as you still want me, Duan Qian, I'll break up with her as soon as possible, anyway, we didn't get a license, it was just a halfway wedding. ”

I couldn't help but sneer, "You better don't toss." Although this woman named Duan Qian is disgusting, it is quite despise me that you can deal with her in such a hasty way for the past 8 years. Get out of the car! ”