I didn't cry.

In those two days, I watched many people come to my yard, they were all smiling, the village radio horns were playing mourning music all the time, and the village chief said that no one was treated like this. But Aunt Ma has been a good person all her life and has done a lot of good things for the people in the village, so he must set a precedent for his grandmother.

I was expressionless about the funeral process, wearing filial piety clothes, following my mother to keep my business, not eating or drinking, when I was about to go out of the funeral, I went to touch my grandmother's hand, I always felt that it was hot, and my grandmother didn't leave. Really just slept.

Until the moment of burial, I watched my mother cover my grandmother's coffin with a shovel, my head was empty in an instant, I jumped on my legs, and I went down.

Mom didn't react for a while, and a shovel of soil suddenly covered me, and Dad was startled and opened his mouth to shout: "Qiaoqiao! Why did you jump down, didn't you fall, hurry up! ”

I moved twice and lay directly on my grandmother's coffin, my face against the coffin lid. said in his mouth: "You bury it, I won't leave here, I'll accompany my grandmother here......"

"Jiaolong, you listen to grandpa, your grandma's biggest wish in this life is that you are happy, if you are like this, your grandma will definitely be angry and sad, you stand up, you let your grandma rest there quietly." Grandpa stood on it with a trembling voice and said, "This place was chosen by your grandma, she said that she could see you here, she wanted to see you happy." Don't make your grandma uncomfortable, come here. ”

I was quietly in tears, no one understood my mood at the moment, I put my arms around the coffin, I didn't want to say anything, I wanted to stay like this for a while if I could stay for a while.

"Jiaolong, come up, it's a long time to delay, don't let us worry, you've grown up, you have to be obedient." The rarest thing in your grandmother's life is you. You can't make your grandma uncomfortable.

I closed my eyes and didn't want to do anything but cry, "Mommy, what am I going to do in the future......"

'Knock knock'

There were two dull sounds in the coffin, I was stunned for a moment, I didn't know if it was a hallucination, and opened my eyes: "Grandma?" ”

"Obedient ......" raised her face, I saw my grandmother actually standing behind the crowd, looking at me and smiling softly, "Jiaolong, you come up ......" said, and thought I stretched out my hand.

"Grandma!" I wiped away a handful of tears, staggered out of the coffin, and stretched out my hand to my grandmother. I looked around, but I couldn't see my grandmother's figure anymore, my grandfather came up and hugged me, "Jiaolong, you are obedient, your grandma said, I hope you are well, you must not let your grandma worry!" “

I looked at the grave that had been almost buried in the earth, and my heart trembled, grandma was completely gone.

It seems that I had a long dream, I saw my toddler when my grandmother was pulling me in the yard, I fell and cried, grandma picked me up and walked to the pigsty, pointed to the pig at home and said: "Jiaolong, you see, that's Zhu Bajie, Zhu Bajie is not very fat, like Jiaolong, can eat and sleep." ”

I looked at myself crying and laughing, and in a blink of an eye, I ran all over the yard, and my grandmother chased after me: "Jiaolong, don't poke the chicken nest, if the chicken lays eggs for you to eat!" ”

Then I saw my grandmother beating my ass with a broomstick, and said, "Jiaolong, how can there be a girl as wild as you, you are too naughty!" ”

I pulled my neck and shouted, "I want to be a boy, I don't want to be a girl!" ”

With myself at that time, I walked into the house and watched my grandmother sitting on the kang while fanning me while wiping her own tears.

I knew it was a dream, I still cried, I wanted to touch my grandmother at that time, if I could, I wanted to hug her more, be closer to her more, and not make her angry.

Looking back, I saw my grandmother hugging me tall: "Oh, my granddaughter looks so handsome, they all say she looks like a star!" ”

Grandma started to get old at that time, I reached out to her and looked at the smile on my grandmother's face at that time. Winter platform to talent.

"Grandma......

I screamed softly, but grandma suddenly turned her face to look at me, "Jiaolong, good boy, don't cry, you have to remember, you must be strong, grandma's Jiaolong has been a strong child since birth, everyone says you can't live, but grandma can raise you so strong with rice soup, don't let grandma worry, take care of yourself and grandpa, don't let your grandpa worry with you, you know, be strong." ”

Grandma said, raised her feet and walked out of the door, I chased out, saw the yard was full of white fog, grandma turned her face and waved at me, and then smiled and walked directly into the white fog, the white fog immediately dispersed, and there was nothing.

"Grandma......

When I opened my eyes, I saw my grandfather sitting next to me with a worried face, wiping a handful of tears: "Jiaolong, you want to scare grandpa to death, you fainted on the mountain, the doctor said that you are physically exhausted, depressed, so that you have to eat when you wake up, you don't have anything to do, grandpa is counting on you to live." ”

I sat up with my arms propped up, looked at the porridge and eggs that my grandfather put on the kang, and opened my mouth: "Grandpa, I'm hungry." ”~

"I'm hungry!" Grandpa sniffed and handed me the porridge: "Eat quickly, you'll be fine when you eat." ”

I nodded and looked at my grandfather: "Grandpa, in the future, I will take care of you, and the two of us will be good and not let grandma worry." ”

"Okay, okay." Grandpa nodded again and again, turned his back on me and gently wiped his tears.

Maybe I have thought of this day a long time ago, since I was a child, my grandmother seems to have been planning and paving the way for me to grow up, and I should have thought of the day when my grandmother was obviously coughing and uncomfortable but told me all afternoon, just hating myself, for grandma's departure, I can only accept it, but there is nothing I can do.

Why should God do this, he has already been unfair to me, but even the only person I love the most has to be taken away, I want to hate, but I can't hate. (1) Simply look at it, 咟喥溲: claw clerk.

Grandma has always said that I have grown up, but I feel that I have not really grown up, because my heart is not strong, I still need to rely on, I need her, but this need, I can no longer ask for it, the first in my life, I love me the most, and I am the person I love the most, so I left me.

Mom and Dad have been very busy since they came back, they are busy entertaining guests, busy making this joy and mourning more lively, lively as if it is the New Year, since it is a happy funeral, I know that Dad is doing the right thing, but my heart is torn apart again and again with the actors singing and dancing on stage, I hate them laughing, hate all the people who laugh, I know that I hate it unreasonably, but I still fight with myself - I am a yin and yang person—— ——