It was about the content of last night's dream that was delightful, and when I woke up this morning, I was in a good mood and decided to go out and have a look. Pokhara's morning market doesn't have the hustle and bustle of the country, but is in a quiet and peaceful state, stretching for miles along a narrow alley.

Walking along the alleyway, I stopped at a place where tambourine was sold, and looking at the neatly arranged African tambourine, I chose one of them, slapped it twice, and paid immediately.

Handicrafts with national characteristics are worthy of our preservation and acceptance.

As I walked around like this, it was noon, I picked up a mixed restaurant, asked for a steak and fruit salad, and sat down at the window.

When the waiter served lunch, he told me in English that there would be a show in the restaurant in the evening, and gave me a song and dance ticket, and I smiled and thanked him, and watched out the window while eating lunch.

The people here rarely frown, and most of the time, there is a smile on their faces, and it can be seen that faith gives them a lot of strength.

I suddenly thought of the content of last night's dream, and it happened to stop at the time when she said "a lot of advice", and the next thing, even if there is no small record in the notebook, I remember it clearly.

Who would have predicted that? When she was sure to put her hand here with confidence, Zeng Ziqian came back quietly. Come to think of it, it's really a trick.

For a long time, there would be such a scene in my dreams, when I happily went to pick her up, next to her, stood Zeng Ziqian.

This scene has appeared in reality, after eight months, the three of us are standing together again, but at this time, she is already my nominal girlfriend, it is a lie to say that she is not nervous, to be honest, even if they haven't seen each other for so long, I still don't have any confidence for her to see him as an ordinary friend, when I sat in the car and watched the two of them stand together, I was already afraid.

His identity needs to be explained to an ordinary woman, but the fact is that Zeng Ziqian's eyes are full of joy when he says goodbye.

I got out of the car and almost mustered up the courage to walk up to her, I was selfish, I had to correct one of his realizations, I had to tell this man that now, she was my woman.

But after all, I didn't dare to be too presumptuous in front of her, I was afraid that the man who left a wound in her heart would tell the truth about his illness, and I was afraid that she, who already belonged to me, would choose to break up with me.

I'm also possessive, at least for this moment, I don't allow this man to take her away. And I'm confident that I can give her happiness.

It stands to reason that after determining a boyfriend and girlfriend, it is natural to have physical contact, but when I saw her innocent face, I hesitated.

His appearance must have given her a strong spiritual impact, right? In the tent at the top of the mountain, I thought about taking her for myself, but I couldn't.

If she knew that he chose to leave because of his physical abnormality, she would definitely hate me, right?

After sleeping with her in my arms all night, I decided to hide this secret between me and Zeng Ziqian, perhaps, she didn't know, it was a kind of protection for her? What's more, this girl belongs to me now.

But I was tricked by fate, and in the end, we didn't get any closer to physical contact, which was a pity for me, but during my stay in Nepal, I also figured it out, perhaps, this is a blessing.

I gave her the choice, I don't want how many years later, if we are still together, there will be this stalk in my heart, I understand what kind of person Zeng Ziqian is, if he wants to confess, how can I stop it?

Leaving the choice to her, I was naturally uneasy, Yingzi noticed that I was depressed, so I asked a few words, and as soon as I looked up, I saw her waiting for me not far downstairs in the emergency department.

In my impression, this is the first time after our relationship, she came to the hospital to wait for me quietly, she didn't know, her such a move gave me a lot of courage - the courage to continue.

She went to my house and cooked me a bowl of hot noodles, which tasted so delicious that for the next two years, I went from place to place and never ate such a delicious meal again.

This time, she volunteered to stay overnight, and for a girl with a more traditional lifestyle, she and I both understood what that meant, but she certainly didn't know, and after she had fallen asleep, I had taken two cold showers.

Now that I think about it, what a stupid thing I did.

Ms. Fu called me and said that Zeng Ziqian had gone to her alone. I wasn't surprised to hear the news, after all, we didn't have any verbal agreement at the beginning, he had a chance to pursue again, she also had a chance to choose again, I could use many means to keep her, but if her heart was not with me, even if she stayed, it wouldn't last long.

I'm waiting, waiting for a chance for Zeng Ziqian to have a showdown with me, waiting for a chance for her to confess to me. I wanted to pretend to be calm and pretend to turn a blind eye, but after learning from Liang Xiaobai that she was drunk, I couldn't help but go to her at eleven o'clock in the evening.

I know very well that this behavior will affect her judgment, and I know very well that giving her too much love at this time will only put pressure on her heart - if her heart is still in Zeng Ziqian's body.

But I really couldn't calm down, with the help of hot dumplings, the director begged the director to help me on duty at night, and ran out of the hospital in a hurry.

Holding her, my body was trembling, through the thin fabric, I could feel my own heartbeat, I thought, maybe after physical contact, will make her more convinced of her choice, but I can't.

It wasn't until she fell asleep in my arms that I dared to secretly kiss her lips, her eyebrows, and her cheeks.

She didn't know that this night, I had insomnia again.

Kuroko laughed at me because of this incident, he even said the word of cheating marriage, I can understand, after all, I have been abroad for many years, and there are not a few people around me who come out of the closet, but he doesn't know, I am afraid that she will regret it, so I dare not act rashly.

The truth is, she didn't regret it, but I did.

I regret that I didn't follow closely step by step, and I regret giving Zeng Ziqian the opportunity to explain. On such a rainy day, I saw him standing downstairs and waiting for her, and I knew that this time it was hard to fight, and it must be me who lost.

I don't know why I didn't stop it, maybe I know very well that the three of us are so consumed, there must be an end, and I, if I want to have a head-on competition with Zeng Ziqian, I should let her know about his condition, my self-esteem makes me disdain the feelings in exchange for sympathy, I want to have a formal battle with him.

I'm also competing with myself, and I'm even wondering if she is ruthless and lets him fall through, will the entanglement of the three of them be over?

And the facts tell me that I was naïve, and when she came out of the hallway, I knew that I was wrong.

This man was already deeply imprinted in her heart, and she couldn't just forget it. And I knew he would explain it to her.

The wind blew away my umbrella, I walked back in despair, the rain fell on my face, cold and biting, and finally, I realized the fact that I was defeated.

I lost to the involvement between them, I lost to her attachment to him, his infatuation with her, in fact, I am quite happy for them, and I am quite happy for myself, at least, we don't have to continue to be involved with the three of us.

Only, why am I crying?

Raining back home, I went to take a cold shower for half an hour, the biting cold made me come back to my senses, raised my eyes and looked at myself in the mirror, at this moment, I found the former Liang Wenhao again.

Love is really mysterious and special, at least, in this persistence, I also see my emotional restlessness, but also see my humble and cowardly self.

I didn't blame her, I just blamed myself for not being atmospheric enough, I was afraid that she would see me like this, and I was afraid that she would dislike me like this, so I could only choose to nest at home alone and taste this bitterness silently.

I thought I was calculating, but when she appeared in my home, I suddenly realized that my thoughts were far greater than my thoughts—I coveted the beauty that this woman had given me, and I wanted to have a home.

Ms. Fu said that I was too low-key in front of her, at least I should show my family background and everything, and besides, I was too restrained in my personality, in short, I spoiled her too much. I knew she was jealous, and I didn't say much, but one thing she reminded me of was that I had to tell her that even if she didn't work so hard, there was a man who supported her.

I don't know what tugged at her heartstrings to make her choose me, and I don't want to ask, I know that enjoying the moment is far more practical than worrying about it - if she has already made a choice.

She certainly didn't know how happy I was when she got a haircut and listened to my opinion, and she couldn't imagine how excited I was when she said to her colleagues in the company, "This is my boyfriend Liang Wenhao".

I thought that I could finally have this woman in my name, so at that moment, I took her to an unoccupied private room and kissed her without hesitation. I know I'm out of control, but so what? After that, I don't want to have any more restraint.

The relatives who should be pro, the ones who should be on the top, and the ones who should hold hands for a lifetime, will never choose to let go.

Looking back, the bitterness of coming to Nepal has dissipated a lot, and I think that the reason why I am so sad is only because I can't ask for it, but because I am too sorry, if I don't know about it.

ps: Tomorrow's last Liang Wenhao's, the day after tomorrow will start to write Zhao Yang Xiaobai