Inside the kitchen.

Shen Jialan had been packing up her things for a while, but she was afraid that Shen's father was still outside, so she stood in the kitchen for a while.

It wasn't until the legs standing a little sore, and there was no movement in the living room, that Shen Jialan slowly walked out of the kitchen after making sure that Shen's father had returned to the room.

From the kitchen to the living room to her own room, when Shen Jialan passed by Shen's father's room, her eyes swept Shen's father's room.

The door of Shen's father's room was closed, but the house was old-fashioned and not soundproof.

So when passing by, Shen Jialan still heard Shen's father's sigh very clearly.

But there was only one sigh, and then it stopped.

Just as Shen Jialan heard Shen's father's sigh, Shen's father in the room also heard Shen Jialan's footsteps, and he who was originally sighing instantly stopped his sighing.

Shen Jialan stood outside the door of Shen's father's room for a long time, didn't hear any more movement, thought that Shen's father was about asleep, and turned back to his room.

She didn't know that just as she closed the door of her room, Father Shen turned on the bedside lamp and got up and pulled out a photo album from the drawer.

In the album are the photos taken by Shen Jialan from the beginning of Shen's house, at the beginning, Shen Jialan was still a little unfamiliar with them, so there were not many photos, only a few sporadic ones. Later, as time gradually passed, Shen Jialan and them began to become a harmonious family of three, smiling more and taking more photos. One by one, with the passage of time and treasures, it slowly became a thick one.

With the dim bedside lamp, Shen's father looked at the photo album on his lap, his face full of reluctance.

*

Shen Jialan lay on her bed.

It stands to reason that after just getting off the plane and driving for more than an hour, Shen Jialan, who was in the dust, should have fallen asleep easily after taking a shower.

But tonight, she tossed and turned, and she didn't feel sleepy.

"Actually, it's nothing, I'm just thinking, have you always been surnamed Shen, why do I think you and Uncle Shen don't look like each other at all."

"Lanlan, have you ever thought about going home? Go back to your own real, biological parents' home? ”

……

Duan Yixi's words and Shen's father's words kept intertwining, ringing in her ears.

Shen Jialan turned over, closed her eyes, and forcibly wanted to let herself sleep and stop thinking nonsense.

However, the more you force it, the more you can't sleep.

Tossed back and forth for a long time, until the sky was white, Shen Jialan felt a little sleepy.

With this rare hint of sleepiness, Shen Jialan fell asleep.

She dreamed of her childhood again.

——

Many people think that children have a bad memory, but in fact, not all children are like this.

At least, for Shen Jialan, her memory has always been good.

Ever since she was three years old and can understand the meaning of other people's words, she has always had a good memory and remembers many things that happened to her.

So she remembers that she rarely saw her parents, and that she almost never received hugs and kisses from them. Even the most ordinary parents holding the hands of their children are only a handful in her memory, which can be regarded as her extravagant desire.

When she was very young, she sat on her couch and watched TV.

Next to her would sit an aunt who had been taking care of her.

She remembered that the aunt's surname was Zhang.

Aunt Zhang would hug Shen Jialan, and then point to the radiant woman on TV and tell her, "This is your mother." Then after Shen Jialan nodded to indicate that he knew, he switched the TV to another station, pointed to the distinguished man who was surrounded by people and said, "This is your father." ”

"Come, Lanlan, be good, call Mom and Dad." Aunt Zhang hugged her, shook her slightly, and asked her to call people.

Whenever this time, Shen Jialan, who was originally very cooperative, would be silent.

No matter how Aunt Zhang coaxed, she didn't speak.

She was a stranger to her father and mother.

Because she didn't understand why Aunt Zhang's sons could follow Aunt Zhang every day, while she could only see them on TV.

Why are they free to appear on TV with other people, but not in front of her?

She doesn't like such parents like this, she likes mothers like Aunt Zhang who can accompany her every day.

So when Aunt Zhang asked her to call her parents, Shen Jialan always had a rebellious mentality.

Aunt Zhang probably didn't expect Shen Jialan to be so sensitive at a young age, but she just felt that the lord and the lady had been busy for several months because of their own affairs, and she didn't introduce them to Shen Jialan again. So for Shen Jialan's resistance, she could only coax Shen Jialan over and over again.

Shen Jialan was coaxed a lot of times, and gradually became a little annoyed, she stood up directly from Aunt Zhang's arms: "They are not my parents, I don't want to call them parents!" I'm not their daughter at all, otherwise why would they rather meet someone else on TV than come back to meet me! They don't love me, why should I call them Mom and Dad! ”

Aunt Zhang probably didn't expect Shen Jialan to get angry, she was stunned for a while, and it took a long time to react, and she hurriedly hugged Shen Jialan in her arms and gently coaxed: "Lan Lan is good, don't be angry." It's not that Mom and Dad don't love you, they are very busy because they want to make money and buy things for Lanlan, and they don't have time to come back! There are so many pillows and toys in Lanlan's room, all of which they bought with hard work! ”

"Auntie, do you mean that because they want to make money to buy things for Lan Lan, they are so busy and don't come back to see me? But I don't want toys, I don't want pillows, I just want them. ”

When she was a child, Shen Jialan was very naïve, as soon as Aunt Zhang said this, she believed it, and immediately pushed away Aunt Zhang's arms, ran upstairs with "oo

Putting these toys in front of Aunt Zhang, Shen Jialan lowered her head and whispered: "I don't want these toys anymore, Aunt Zhang, can you help me tell my parents, I want them to sleep with me at night." ”

As she spoke, she opened her eyes and looked at Aunt Zhang with anticipation. Seeing this, Aunt Zhang turned her head a little weakly: "Well, okay, I'll tell them." ”

But in fact, how could she have contacted them!

Shen Jialan waited for several days, but never waited for them to come back, and finally understood that those words were just Aunt Zhang coaxing herself.

Even if they don't want pillows or toys, they won't come back to see her.

Even sometimes, when they come back, they always come and go.

It was often Shen Jialan who heard the movement of them coming back and walked down happily.

"Lanlan, this is a gift that Dad bought for you, do you like it?"

"Lanlan, this is the pillow and toys that your mother brought you from abroad, do you like it?"

They put down the gift with a smile, and didn't even have time to listen to her answer, so they asked her to leave: "Take these things and go to Sister-in-law Zhang to play with you, Dad (Mom) still has something to do here, go first." ”

Then only the corners of their departed clothes could be seen.

In Shen Jialan's memory, the most memory she remembers of them is the corner of the clothes when she left the door.

At that time, Shen Jialan was thinking, why did they always have no time to come back, and even if they did, why didn't they even have time to look at her?

Could it be that they are really so busy to buy gifts for themselves, and they don't even have time to spend with her?

Later, when she was a little older, she heard her parents arguing, and she realized that she was wrong.

They are not busy for her at all, they are just busy for their own ambitions.

Her father wanted to expand his business empire, and her mother wanted to cement her place in the entertainment industry, which was full of new talents.

Her arrival was too sudden to be in their plans. And it is impossible for them to stop their career plans for her, so they will only keep quarreling and shirk the responsibility of raising Shen Jialan to the other party.

In their eyes, she is not their daughter, just a nuisance that is not expected, so she will never wait for them to come to see her, kiss her, and hug her.

When Shen Jialan heard this, she hid in the closet in her parents' room and cried for an afternoon.

She wondered why she wasn't expected to be born.

Don't adults on TV say that children are angels born from the expectations of their parents?

Why is she just a nuisance?

……

Shen Jialan's disappearance made Aunt Zhang very worried, she searched the entire building, including the large garden outside the villa, but she didn't see Shen Jialan.

At that time, Shen Jialan wiped her tears and hid in the closet, listening to Aunt Zhang's voice anxiously looking for her, but recalling the conversation she heard in this room a few hours ago.

She heard her mother say lightly: "Sister-in-law Zhang said that Lan Lan has been a little depressed recently because we have come back to see her too little. But now I'm busy with my career, where do I have time to take care of her, husband, if you have time, come back and see more. ”

and his father's disapproving voice: "Are you busy? It's just an entertainment circle, it's worth your attention, and you don't even want a daughter? Recently, I am developing foreign markets, where do I have time to come back to see Lanlan! As a mother, you haven't even seen your daughter in person a few times, is that like a word? ”

They quarreled over who they wanted to come back to see more, but in the end they said in unison, "If only I hadn't been born." She couldn't have come at the right time. ”

……

If only she hadn't been born, she didn't come at the right time.

At that time, Shen Jialan was only seven years old.

But she could already clearly understand the meaning of this sentence.

I finally knew that she wasn't a little angel, she was just a trouble that shouldn't have been born.