Leaning on He Yu's arms for a long time, I heard his emotional voice coming from above my head, "You know, holding you like this makes me feel very unreal, like holding a cloud of smoke, I'm afraid that if you don't pay attention, you will float away again......"

I wasn't too touched. I have to admit that the proximity to He Yu at this moment is largely because of the loneliness and pain brought by Jiang Feng that I can't solve, I am so tired, this kind of exhaustion makes my whole body collapse, my thinking and consciousness are confused, I just want to pull him out of my head, as if he has been thrown into the arms of other men, which can make me relieve the unwillingness to be depressed in my heart a little.

"However, He Yi here, I still have to take this responsibility," He Yu said in a low voice, "Let's make an appointment with the doctor for surgery another day, He Yi is only about 20 years old, life has just begun, it is impossible to live in endless hemodialysis treatment for the rest of his life, since I can change it to him, it just happens to be a lucky thing, God will do this, don't worry about it anymore, anyway, no one can die." ”

I still shook my head and said with a heavy heart, "Don't think about kidney replacement anymore." Let's go find other kidney sources, He Yi can currently be supported by hemodialysis for a long time, mainly for psychological counseling for him. In short, I don't want you to become as sick as He Yi. ”

"No one wants to lose a kidney, but it has happened, and this is the responsibility that I can't escape." He Yuluo said in a deep voice, "Over the years, in addition to being sorry for you, I am even more sorry for He Yi, because there is a big age difference with this younger brother, and I didn't have much affection for him when he was a child, and then my parents were gone, and I didn't think much about his safety...... It's really a shame to say, but fortunately you took care of him, so that I still have the only relative in this world. So even in order to make up for the mistakes of the year, I had to save him this time. ”

Hearing this, I always felt a little uncomfortable, and said, "Let me remind you again, the reason why I chose to raise He Yi is not because he is your younger brother, but because of the relationship between me and him...... I have never asked you to be responsible for him, he is my family, and I only need to be responsible for him, so you still have to dispel your guilt~"

He Yu sighed, "If you have to understand it like this, I can't help it, anyway, you can take my relatives as your family, this is very good for me." With that, he tightened his grip on my arm, and couldn't help but lean over to my lips and kiss me...... I subconsciously avoided it, and said with some irritability, "This is the hospital, He Yi is still sick in bed, pay attention to proportion." ”

"Hmm."

"Don't worry," he said suddenly and deeply, "after the kidney replacement surgery, if I have a serious problem with my body, which is not as good as before, I will not force you to follow me for the rest of my life...... As long as you forgive me and are willing to approach me willingly like now, then my heart knot will be untied and it will be satisfied. ”

"Don't talk about this," I got out of his arms, "I don't know what will happen in the future, but it's also a step at a time, and the most worrying thing at the moment is He Yi's condition......"

Next, He Yu still insisted on making another appointment with the doctor for surgery, but I was stopped by my resolute attitude. I was in an extremely dire situation, on the one hand, I was exhausted, and on the other hand, I refused to have a kidney replacement for He Yu, and I went to doctors everywhere to ask questions about other kidney sources, and all I got were not optimistic results.

We discussed taking He Yi home first, and then specially found a few private medical staff for him to escort him 24 hours a day, and regularly came to the hospital for hemodialysis. He Yi's mental state has not improved much, his face has lost a lot of weight, and he looks like he has nothing to love every day, irritable and depressed, and it seems that he can never return to the sunny He Yi before...... Every time I see his state, I feel very uncomfortable. He obviously graduated from his bachelor's degree in half a year, and his classmates are now busy doing graduation projects, graduation trips, and all kinds of dinners, but he has changed from a 'rich child' who is envied by everyone to a seriously ill patient who is suffering from illness, temporarily suspended from school, and the future is bleak. No one can stand it.

Not only is his mental state not good, He Yi's personality has also changed, he has become irritable and irritable, he yells at the nurse if he doesn't pay attention, and he doesn't have a good face for me and He Yu, and the food I carefully cook is not attractive to him. Yes, He Yi's condition is now only temporarily relieved by filtering blood, not to mention the fundamental problem, and it is said that there are many complications in hemodialysis treatment, which will aggravate the condition if the condition repeats, and continuous dialysis may also cause kidney atrophy and necrosis, and at most it will last for more than ten years...... To solve the problem fundamentally, it is better to replace his kidney. But to wait for a kidney source other than relatives is even more difficult than ascending to the sky.

I fell into endless torment again, I couldn't eat or sleep well every day, I was worried all the time, the company had no time to take care of it, and even the humiliation given by Jiang Feng was left behind by me.

On this day, after He Yi's latest treatment, when he felt a little more comfortable, he let He Yu out of the ward and said that he wanted to talk to me alone.

"What happened between you and Jiang Feng, why didn't he come to see me once?" He Yi asked.

I didn't expect He Yi to mention Jiang Feng, and my heart quickly rippled...... After steasing my mind, I said lightly, "I broke up with him, it doesn't matter in the future, don't mention this person again." ”

He Yi smiled coldly, "You can fool me, but you can't fool yourself." ”

"Sister, I may not live for 5 years," He Yi said sadly, "It's you who can't rest assured." I was trying to protect you, but now it seems that it has come to naught...... I was very unwilling, but I had no choice but to accept my fate. Before I died, I still really wanted to see you marry Jiang Feng, I am a man, I can see that Jiang Feng is really here for you, at first I underestimated this bastard, but when you went to Sweden, I often looked for you with him, and I was very moved to see him in a trance every day. ”

"He Yi, you-"

He interrupted what I was about to say and continued, "As for what happened, I will not be able to forgive him in death, and I will not accept him to replace my kidney...... In short, I don't have any hellish 'blood relationship' with him, and I don't want to see you get back together with him, so don't pester him amorous to replace my kidney, I'm not rare. If you want me to live two more days, let him not appear in front of me. ”

"......" After listening to He Yi's words, I didn't know what to say. In order to appease his emotions, he could only reluctantly agree.

He Yu understands He Yi's rejection of him very well, and he has tried not to appear in the ward recently, but he is still communicating with the doctor about kidney transplantation in private, and he is getting closer and closer to me.

That afternoon, in order to breathe, I walked around the street with He Yu, and by the way, I also bought a dinner for He Yi. Walking on the busy street, people are always depressed, and they are held by him, but they can't get close to him...... Not long after walking, I happened to pass by a shop selling guitars, and there was a man who picked guitars, swept the strings casually, and the song "The Most Romantic Thing" floated into my ears.

Listening to this skillful and warm tune, my heart felt as if it had suddenly been hit by something, and I couldn't walk under my feet, and I looked through the glass window, and quietly listened to the man finish the song, and my thoughts drifted farther and farther. Once upon a time, a certain man sat on the edge of the bed and held a guitar, played this most romantic song for me, and taught me to pluck the strings by hand...... The bohemian eyes, the tender and romantic love words, the omnipotent cleverness, all came to my mind at this moment, and my heart was cold, and the sorrow quickly spread to every cell of my body......

I could clearly feel my eyes heating up, my eyelashes moistening, and I froze there like a puppet.

"What's wrong?" He Yu reached out and hugged me to his chest again, and looked at me intently for a while, as if he had seen through my thoughts but didn't say anything, just silently took out a tissue to help me wipe the corners of my eyes.

I cheered up, my eyes quickly took back from the store, and I was not in the mood to go shopping to breathe, and proposed to He Yu that I go home and cook dinner for He Yi personally.

Listlessly returned to my villa and opened the door to the living room, which was empty. Since I broke up with Jiang Feng, I sent Sister Tao to Zhou Kaicheng in a fit of anger, so there was no one else in the house, although it was empty, but when I walked in this time, I obviously felt that the air inside was mixed with the breath of another person, as if someone had just come.

Tired of sitting down on the sofa, I raised my eyelids and caught a glimpse of piles of cigarette butts and cigarette ash in the ashtray on the coffee table, and I was stunned again. I remember very clearly, this ashtray was used once when He Yu came three days ago, and I cleaned it myself when I left home, and it was only a few days, and there was no one living at home, where did I get so many cigarette butts? Soon, I noticed the brand of cigarettes displayed by those cigarette butts, and my heart throbbed...... Yes, having been with that man for so long, I knew that he smoked almost as long as it was that brand, and there would be no one else but him.

It was at this time that I remembered that he still had the key to my house on him, and it was so easy to sneak in.

Thinking of this, I looked at every corner of the living room, and then quickly went upstairs and pushed open the bedroom-

There was no one inside.

It seems that he just came here to smoke for a day. What does it mean?

I didn't want to fall into his whirlpool anymore, so when I came downstairs, I plunged into the kitchen and prepared to make dinner and send it to He Yi as soon as possible. He Yu also came in to help, and when he was about to look for dishes, his eyes were fixed on something in the cupboard, and he stared at it for a long time. I'm a little weird, so I leaned over and took a look—