He Yu returned to his residence in Stockholm.

I don't know what the reason is, He Yu's mood suddenly became very low, he didn't say a word during the whole dinner time, and returned to his room early after eating, and I still lived with Jiang Yiru. I myself was also very uneasy, one moment was the frightening moment I encountered in skiing today, and the other time I was thinking about those people and things in China, and I couldn't sleep in bed.

At this time, someone knocked softly outside the hotel door. Just listen to the strength of this knock, and needless to say, you will know what happened...... I hesitated for a few minutes and heard him knock several times in a row, so I could only get up and open the door.

He Yu, who appeared at the door, was flushed, his body was full of alcohol, his eyes were in a trance, and he looked like he had drunk too much.

"Is there something wrong?" I asked softly.

"Is there something wrong? I have something to do to come to you now? His scarlet eyes flashed with excitement, and he stretched out his hand to pull me out of the door, and somewhat rudely wrapped me in the crook of his arm, and the smell of wine came to his face, "Aren't you my wife, why don't you come to my room at night," he said, and pushed me towards his room.

In the middle of the night, I didn't want to alarm the tenant next door, so I didn't resist too strongly and followed him in the confusion.

After returning to the room, I sat silently on the side, and he continued to drink, Sweden's local vodka, such a strong wine, he was almost drunk alone...... And I didn't dissuade him, he drank until the end of the wine bottle fell to the floor, and after the fall was shattered, he leaned back on the chair next to him, and looked out of the window blankly, his eyes were blood-red, and tears flowed from the corners of his eyes unconsciously...... Yes, he actually cried, tears poured more and more, wiped it casually with the back of his hand, and couldn't help but sobbed in a low voice......

Seeing him a big man suddenly crying in front of him, my heart was completely upset.

I wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes with a tissue, still with that calm and breezy expression, "What's uncomfortable?" ”

"Here," he said, grabbing my hand and pressing it against his chest, choked and bitter, "it hurts so much, it hurts terribly...... Can you save me, don't make me hurt so much? ”

I sighed and said coldly, "yes, how can I save you?" ”

"Don't be so indifferent to me, give me a little bit of wifely affection," he said drunkly, and then hugged me in his arms, kissing me incoherently as he kissed me incoherently, "Chan, you used to love me so madly...... You said I was your only man, and you said you would always be loyal to me...... Why has everything changed by now, what the hell have we done wrong, why, you are no longer mine? After saying that, he put his arms around me and cried bitterly, crying so much that his body trembled, like a helpless child in the dark.

I turned around, brushed some tears from his cheeks with my sleeve, and silently held his head in my arms, "He Yu, don't you understand, you are not a complete 'free body' now, you have to pay as much as you get...... We are no longer pure, why bother obsessing with that memory anymore, I can't find the beauty of the past when I barely go back, not to mention that you are now burdened with another woman's love debt, and her family is already inextricably linked, how can you give me a future? So let's stop here, I don't dare to take any more risks. ”

"Just torture me," he didn't face up to the Duan family's question I raised, and said, "Go around, don't you just can't let go of my departure back then, do you have to die again before you are willing to forgive me?" ”

...... "I thought it would be endless to talk to him like this, so I simply shut up."

"It's not early, you go to bed early." I pushed him away and was leaving.

"You're back!" He angrily pulled me back, pushed me down on the bed, and the strength of his whole body pressed on me, "Lu Yuncan, where do you want to run, look at me, I am your man, your husband, for the rest of my life!" You don't want to escape from my palm again! His intense kisses fell on my face, and I tried to struggle with the smell of alcohol, but under his control, I had no room to hide......

But really, what do I have to struggle with in front of him? Having reached this point, is there anything else worth holding onto? I closed my eyes in a state of exhaustion, and slowly opened myself up to him and accepted him in.

I didn't go to sleep until midnight, and he still firmly circled my body in a drunken daze, not allowing me to leave. I was too tired to do it, so I leaned on him, pulled the quilt and slept with him.

I don't know what time I went to sleep, I had a nightmare, I actually dreamed that I fell into the snake's nest, I was so scared that I cried and shouted in my dream, and kept shouting Jiang Feng's name, asking Jiang Feng to come and save me, and then letting Jiang Feng run quickly...... I don't know how long it took me to wake up suddenly, and the moment I woke up, I clearly shouted the word 'Jiang Feng' in my mouth!

When I opened my eyes, the light in the room had been turned on, I was covered in a cold sweat, turned my head slightly, and saw He Yu lying next to me, only to realize that I had just had a terrible nightmare.

He Yu obviously heard my words in my dream, he sat coldly at the head of the bed, did not make a sound, sat there with a gloomy expression, and then lit a cigarette and smoked fiercely. In the smoke, he looked desolate and dejected.

"You go," he said, puffing out a puff of smoke and his voice was hoarse, "I'd better live alone than be insulted like this by you." ”

"Okay." I don't argue with him, just get dressed and go.

But I had just gotten out of bed, and he was unwilling to hold me, staring at me with bloodthirsty eyes, and scolded hatefully, "Lu Yuncan, you slut, I really want to strangle you!" ”

"Then you strangle me."

"You-" he pushed me to the ground in anger, "Get out! ”

I got up and left his room like a walking corpse......

Back in my own bed, with my head under the covers, I secretly cried, although in the end, I didn't know what the root cause of my crying was. In short, the whole heart is in chaos! Unprecedented chaos! It's as if my soul has come out of my shell, and I can't find the feeling of being alive.

In the next two or three days, He Yu didn't come to me, and I didn't go to him, so I didn't know his itinerary. However, after pestering him these days, my mood was naturally seriously affected, and I didn't think about tea and dinner every day, and I didn't want to go anywhere in the hotel......

One morning, Jiang Yiru hesitated and said to me, "Cancan, how long do you plan to stay in Sweden?" ”

I shook my head indifferently, "I don't know, it's only been less than two months, and if I can, I might as well have been living here." "Yes, anyway, Sweden has a relatively developed clothing industry, so it is not difficult for me to put down roots here and start my business again.

"I ......" Jiang Yiru wanted to speak several times and stopped.

"Aunt Jiang, just say what you have on your mind, there's no need to swallow in front of me."

Jiang Yiru sighed, "I'm really not easy to say, because I thought you were here to travel, and now you say you want to settle here, then I really don't know what to do...... I ......"

"Say it."

"Cancan, frankly, I want to go back to China." She lowered her head and said with a look of embarrassment, "I still want to go back to the place I am familiar with, and I want to find my son, at least to see him again in my lifetime." In addition, it's not a way for me to rely on you for a long time, after all, we have no relatives and no reason, you have no obligation to support me, I go back to China, at least the language is fluent, and it is easier to find a job, I still want to be self-reliant...... So, you see, can you help me buy a ticket back to China, I can go back by myself, so I won't bother you to send me personally. ”

I paused for a while, couldn't help but hold her hand, and said from the bottom of my heart, "Aunt Jiang, let's go all the way to now, is it still necessary for you to see me like this?" You also know what my background is, now I don't lack anything, I lack a mother, since we are so close, then it will be a mother and daughter from now on, you don't say the word 'no relatives and no reason', and I can't let you leave me to make a living on your own. As for you saying you want to go back to China—"

I was momentarily confused, "Let me think about it again." ”

Jiang Yiru said gratefully, "Cancan, I don't know that I can meet a good girl like you, and I don't know how to repay you...... If, I mean, if I have the chance, I really hope to introduce you to my son, although I have a terrible life, but my son is still very good......" She said with some pride and intoxication between her eyebrows, "My son, tall and handsome, also smart, has a good life in his biological father's house, he went to England to study and came back, a few years younger than you, but you are really a good match with you, hey, it would be good if you could be together, but you have already met something, and I can't force ...... anymore"

In the face of Jiang Yiru's words about her son, I just smiled briefly, and asked her by the way, "Listen to your tone, have you met your son?" ”

Jiang Yiru shook his head, "No." To be exact, I didn't dare to see him, and I didn't have the face to see him...... You see, I'm a madman, and I've been a third party who destroys other people's families, if he knows that his biological mother is a mentally ill person, it's so unbearable, how faceless will he be? So, I am very conflicted now, I want to see him, but I dare not see him. But I still really want to go back to China, to go back to the place where he is, even if I can't see him, but my heart is stable. ”

I heard it a little painful, and at the same time, I also felt a little pressure in my heart, about the pressure of returning to China. I once swore that I would seek justice for Jiang Yiru's experience in a foreign country, but now that she has made it clear that she wants to return to China, I have to struggle with it.