When I closed my eyes, I felt my body slowly withdraw and float out like a lonely soul down the window.

I'm naturally unwilling, maybe it's because the things in my personality have already been integrated into the blood, although the feeling of powerlessness is piled up layer by layer, but from my point of view. I don't want to give up until the end, this may be what Cheng Baize often says, I don't cry when I don't see the coffin.

In fact, I don't know why I'm so persistent, the answer is obvious, but I'm not reconciled, maybe it's because my mother's back sitting alone on the sofa shocked me, or maybe my father's phone call when I called me home, which inspired me to hide the love for my father in the bottom of my heart, I don't know, my heart is always complicated, if I wasn't an onmyoji, I might be able to 'go with the flow', and I could even comfortingly say that life and death are fate, and wealth is in the sky.

But I'm Ma Jiaolong. I'm obviously a gentleman who has already started to fight, at least the case of the victim who has been handled by me has never completely failed, how can it be so difficult to save his family!

The body is light and fluttering, I don't know where I floated, the sky is cloudy, neither black nor white, empty all around, no flowers and no grass, no wind and no waves.

I looked around a little dazedly, vaguely knowing where I had been, just about to speak, the upright back not far in front of me was enough to make my mind surge, looking at the mane on the back of his neck, I knelt on my knees: "Brother Ma!" Can you help me......"

He didn't look back, but his voice pierced into my eardrums like an arrow piercing the clouds: "If Ben Jiang didn't show up to see you, would you still be obsessed?" ”

I sniffed and looked at his back, not far away: "Brother Ma, that's my father." How can I watch him leave like this and be indifferent, Brother Ma, you can help me, I don't ask for much, just give him three years of longevity, at least let my father have some time to be separated from our family, he is in too much of a hurry! ”

A cold snort came from his ear, "Do you remember the rules before you entered now?" ”

I pursed my lips and lowered my eyes: "Jiaolong remembers...... Blessing the people, do not do bad things, do not make crooked wealth......"

"Then you tell Ben now, what is the taboo of being impotent?!"

"Be an Onmyoji...... Thou shalt not tell thy fortune, nor thy closer. If you don't ask for me, don't count it...... Everyone is born with his fixed number, and it is necessary to go with the flow, otherwise, it will hurt the Onmyoji's own ......"

"Then do you know why you have to set these rules!?"

I knelt there softly and replied softly, "I'm afraid there will be ...... Selfishness. ”

"I know so! What are you doing now!! ”

The body that was already like a remnant leaf was even more shaky, I seemed to cry a lot, collapsed to a point, and couldn't shed tears, all I could do was shake my head solemnly: "Brother Ma, I don't want to be selfish, but that's my father." You read that I have been abiding by the rules of being an onmyoji since my debut, please help me, I only need my father's three years of yang life, three years ......"

"Three years?" His voice was not loud, but it had always had a deafening effect: "Ben will ask you, give you thirty years of yang life, and Lin Dazhi will return yang for three years, do you agree!" ”

I was stunned, and after a while, I still opened my mouth: "Jiaolong...... Agree. ”

"You're hesitating."

I knelt there with my head straight: "Jiaolong doesn't know how long he can live, but now he knows very well that he wants my father to live." ”

"Oh, Ben will see you as a human being for several lifetimes, and I still think that you will grow, but I can't imagine that you are still impulsive and misguided, such a mortal heart. Children are long, they should not let go, they should not stay, thirty years of longevity are over, how to bless everyone, what kind of yang difference should you have! It seems that filial piety touches the sky, but in fact, it is high-spirited, and it is difficult to become a big tool! ”

As he spoke, he sighed: "That's it, Ben Jiang remembered that you had spared you in the love of doing things under Ben Jiang, and you were willing to change your thirty years of longevity, see for yourself......"

I knelt and didn't move, behind him, the position that should have been an open space actually played a change of face, I looked stunned, saw that I took my family to the freezer of the funeral home, holding my dad crying in the gap he actually sat up directly, my mother and sister-in-law were both frightened and excited, they sent my dad to the hospital, even the doctor couldn't believe it, my aunt was released, threw herself on my dad's bedside and cried, everything seemed to return to the starting point, the reporters who heard the news came one after another, They went to the hospital and interviewed my parents, my aunt and sister-in-law, saying that it was a medical miracle......

The picture in front of me kept fast-forwarding, as if it flashed, but all the details clearly entered my mind, I saw the doctor holding my father's test report sighing, a few words on the report, I couldn't help but widen my eyes, liver cancer is in an advanced stage...... Take the regimental hall blood.

My aunt stood in the ward with the test sheet and cried, "Go to the big hospital!" Sell the house! I will also take care of my brother's illness after selling the family house!! ”

Mom started doing my thought work...... Those words are familiar, I covered my ears and shook my head desperately, looking at my aunt pointing her nose and scolding me, you are not filial, our house is now sold, let you give your dad a liver, you don't agree!!

"Don't, don't ......"

I looked at the picture and whispered in my mouth, and the horror was overwhelming, until the rapid flickering picture stopped in front of my father's hospital bed when I was lying on the hospital bed, and my mother knelt in front of the white sheet and cried loudly: "Dazhi, why have you suffered so much, you have suffered too much!" Open your eyes and see, there is nothing left at home, how can you just throw away our orphans and widows!! ”

My body couldn't bear it anymore, I shook violently and propped my hands on the ground: "How can this be...... How can this be......"

The picture in front of me disappeared suddenly, but the tip of my heart was still trembling with the disappearing picture, shaking my head: "No, this is not what I want to see, not what I want to see......"

Why did my dad get seriously ill, why did he sell his house and ask me to donate his liver, it was too out of control, too out of control......

"This is the result of your insistence, Lin Dazhi's life should be like this, you should be clear about doing yang difference, since it is a yin difference to hook the soul, then if you send them back again, wouldn't it be a big mess in the world, and there will be more incidents? Those who do yang errands set up rules, what they are afraid of is that one day they are selfish, the yin and yang of heaven and earth, and how can one person be allowed to modify, ** mortal womb, what is a pity to abandon it, the fate is entangled with each other, you seem to save one person, but in fact what changes is the fate of many people, and in the end there is only yourself. ”

I can't say anything, I know this, I've known it for a long time, it's just that I don't want my dad to die like this, I understand what Brother Ma made me see the meaning of those things just now, the person who should be punished will be safe and sound because of my father's wake-up, I don't know the guilt, and I have done so much, I have committed taboos, and I am the only one who will be punished in the end.

"Even if he would have been gracious and let Lin Dazhi return to Yang for three years, but in these three years, Lin Dazhi will be plagued by illness day and night, and your family will also scatter all their wealth in order to save him, until the three-year limit is reached, Lin Dazhi will die on the operating table, and you will naturally be tired of it, no one will read it well, and even after Lin Dazhi dies, he will go to the underworld of the Yin Dynasty to sue on a piece of paper, because it is you who will cause him to survive in the Yang world, and he can't die, it seems that he will return to Yang, but in fact he is alive, and now this way of walking is the most painless and worry-free one of Lin Dazhi, Ben will finally ask you, if you still insist, as long as you nod and agree, Ben will take away your thirty years of yang life, and immediately send Yin to send Lin Dazhi's soul back to the body! ”

I got up slowly, I knew that Brother Ma didn't really want my Yangshou, he just wanted me to know what was at stake, the so-called good medicine was bitter, the cause and effect, he had already walked through the back door for me to see......

Mu Mu shook his head: "Thank you, Brother Ma, I know everything, what you let me see is nothing more than telling me the truth of being cocooned, I understand it......"

His voice finally softened: "Ben will know that you are dedicated to goodness, your life expectancy in the yang world is still shallow, maybe it will take time to understand, what is the use of knowing that Ben will want you to live for thirty years?" If you become a great thing, you must put aside distracting thoughts, as long as you step into the ranks of yang, you must know that you are not born for one person, but to be clear about the mission you carry......"

"That's it, since you are sent to the yang world, all karma will naturally have to be paid back by yourself, Ben will hold the power of life and death reincarnation, heaven and earth, no one dares to bargain with Ben Jiang, you don't come to ask for it again in the future, otherwise, Ben will open his mouth again, and what you want is not such a simple thing as your thirty years of yang life."

I lifted my body to the ground and kowtowed to him deeply: "Thank you Brother Ma for your teachings, I have worked hard, Jiaolong understands, this kind of departure is the best for my father, he didn't suffer, he didn't suffer...... It was Jiaolong's ignorance that offended. ”

Whether it is Brother Ma or Grandma and the three old fairies, they all like to spare no effort to instill in me some of the principles of being an onmyoji, I know it in my heart, but I am just a mortal, they should understand when they send me to this human reincarnation, how can mortals penetrate some nothingness, even Grandma, didn't she feel that it was her mistake to change my life after she died, people will inevitably be affected by all kinds of burdens when they live, and the sin is inescapable, that is, all kinds of moral hats on your head.

I know that the gods I fear want me to sublimate, but my thoughts are the most ordinary and ordinary people, probably Brother Ma is also the most aware of me, I am impulsive, willful, and always like to do things regardless of it, so he directly let me see the price, and then let me choose, all my blood will naturally be extinguished by the cold truth.

In fact, I'm not afraid to give my dad thirty years of longevity, when Brother Ma said I was just stunned for a moment, but I didn't think too much, what reason do I have to say I don't agree, my life is given to me by my parents, why not let me use thirty years of longevity to give my dad three years of life, even if I hesitate, I will give it, but if it weren't for Brother Ma to show me the hardships that my dad will face in the past three years, I think, I will still insist, but Brother Ma has a sentence that speaks to my heart, I seem to have saved my dad alone, But in fact, it has changed the lives of many people, this kind of thing is very scary, just like I changed my life, I asked my dad to bypass this place, but sooner or later, he will come back...... At that time, the price will definitely be far greater than it is now.

"Now that you understand, let's go back."

The wind and sand rose suddenly, I was already floating without roots, and I couldn't control the direct wind and rushed to the road behind me, I didn't struggle much, I knew where Brother Ma asked me to go back there, and my mind still echoed the picture of my father after Brother Ma let me see after the sun was restored, I think these things, I will always put them in the bottom of my heart......

People often say that it is better to die than to live, in fact, the highest state of human life is to get rid of this messy world, many people are reluctant to go, not how rare this skin, the reason why they don't want to go is just a kind of unclear fear below, but is it really good to live, this answer is not certain......

"Jiaolong, Jiaolong......"

There was a familiar voice in my ears, and the cold breath lingering on the tip of my nose made my heart extremely stable, my hand stretched out directly, and my fingertips touched the familiar eyebrows, and before I opened my eyes, I opened my mouth with a dumb voice: "Zhuo Jing......"

"It's me, I'm coming."

My lips couldn't help but tremble, I suddenly didn't dare to open my eyes, I was afraid to face my mother's eyes, how could I say the fact that I didn't bring my father back?

"Jojo, are you awake?"

Mother's voice also sounded next to me, and then I heard Anqi's voice: "Didn't you say Mr. Big, how capable and capable, it was a mudslide to save people and go to Changbai Mountain, I waited for a night, what about my uncle, why didn't the funeral home call to say that my uncle is alive?" ”

"Shut up."

Zhuo Jing's voice sounded directly: "There is no place for you to talk here, she has done everything that Jiaolong can do, at least when I came, I saw her make her head bleed and unconscious for her and her father's affairs, and from the moment I entered the door, I saw that you were shirking your responsibility and sowing discord, you know, it was your mother who killed someone's father, what you have to do now is to ask for forgiveness, instead of being open-mouthed, and then unrepentant, you just wait to go to prison to bring food to your mother!" "Machine