He Yi's counselor told him on the phone that He Yi suddenly fainted while climbing up with his classmates, and was taken to the hospital and then admitted to the intensive care unit for rescue, and is still unconscious, and asked me to rush to Beijing immediately.

After hanging up the phone, I was paralyzed, nervous and flustered for a while, and suddenly threw the shadow brought by Jiang Feng out of the clouds, and thousands of bad associations about He Yi appeared in my mind, and I hurriedly began to pack my luggage again, but because of the weakness and trembling of my hands, I couldn't even hold a piece of clothing at all, and I didn't even have a clue what to pack in my luggage...... Forget it, it's already at this time and there is nothing to clean up, I took out my mobile phone and clicked on the APP to book air tickets, and I was anxious to drop my phone in a few seconds of APP buffering!

In the end, I booked a trip to take off at 11 o'clock in the evening, and I didn't even bring a change of clothes, so I brought my handbag, loaded with the necessary documents and bank cards, and went out as fast as I could.

I have been in a state of high nervous tension, and every second in my mind is pretending to be He Yi's safety, imagining what serious illness he is suffering from? Cancer? Leukaemia? Myocardial? Cerebral haemorrhage? Epilepsy? Man-made injury? …… Anyway, I thought about all kinds of terrible situations, especially when I learned that he was rescued in the ICU and still uncertain whether he would live or die, I subconsciously had a very bad premonition, and I always couldn't control thinking in the fastest direction, and I desperately tried to suppress myself from thinking so badly...... On the way to the airport, I thought about it in the waiting room, I thought about it on the plane, everything that happened around me was blurred, every minute and every second was torture for me, and even later, the more I thought that when I went, I probably saw He Yi covered with a white cloth in the morgue... This scene, just thinking about it, I can't breathe with angina!

After four or five hours, I finally landed in Beijing, and when I turned on the phone, I was afraid that I would receive a bad news call immediately, so my hands were still shaking. Thankfully, there were no missed calls on my phone.

Called a taxi and rushed to the hospital where He Yi was nervous, lost his soul and stumbled to the door of the ICU, asked the medical staff who came in and out, and learned that He Yi's life was temporarily rescued, and now he is being operated on, but he is not completely out of danger. When I asked the doctor what the disease was, he was busy and serious, and said that he would wait for all the reports to come out.

Hearing that He Yi was still alive, my tense nerves relaxed slightly, and I walked back and forth in the corridor, anxiously waiting, praying...... I, who usually don't believe in ghosts and gods, are also begging for heaven and earth at this time, praying all kinds of prayers. After waiting for an hour, I didn't expect the doctor to issue a critical illness notice, and my heart once again fell into an ice cellar......

Finally, I couldn't help crying in the corner...... When I thought that He Yi was likely to be separated from me forever, I almost collapsed and couldn't cry myself...... I took out my phone and tried to call an acquaintance, but found that there was no one to notify. I thought about what I had.

If this is really the 'last side', no matter what, it should be let He Yu come, after all, this is his own brother.

But when I was about to broadcast the number, I still hesitated, because I really didn't have the courage to accept this fact, once I had to notify He Yu, it meant that He Yi was really going to die...... I can't take it! Moreover, He Yi is already my family and my younger brother in my heart, and he no longer has anything to do with He Yu, and I am responsible for his life and death, so there is no need to involve others.

The three hours that ended were simply the most painful, the most torturous, and the longest three hours of my life, like tormenting in a frying pan...... Every move at the door of the ICU will surprise me, and I think that the doctors have come to regret informing me that they have tried their best, but He Yi still died after ineffective treatment...... In this tense and desperate waiting, I had stomach pain, chest pain, headache, eye pain, and not a single cell in my body was relaxed.

After finally getting through, the doctor opened the door and told me that He Yi's surgery had been completed, his vital signs were temporarily stable, but he was not awake, and if nothing happened, he could be transferred to another ward tomorrow for the next step of treatment.

When he came to He Yi's hospital bed, he closed his eyes and carried a respirator, relying on various machines to maintain his life, although the heartbeat monitor showed that his pulse was stable, he was unconscious and motionless, his face was pale without a little blood, and he could not see any signs of life.

I covered my mouth, my eyes were swollen, and tears still rushed out again...... Because of the limited time for visiting, I could only possess and touch his face, his face was cold, and touched his hand again, there was no temperature, I had to touch his hand with both hands, trying to transfer the temperature of my hand to him, choked up, "He Yi, sister has come to see you, can you give me a little stronger, you must survive it, don't let me down, otherwise I will die of pain......"

At this time, I felt He Yi's fingers move slightly in my palm, as if in response to me...... I was shocked, and when I looked up at him, his whole body was still dead silent.

After the visit, the doctor called me to his office, took out a series of examination reports of He Yi, told me about He Yi's condition, and said that after diagnosis, He Yi actually suffered from chronic renal failure, that is, uremia. The reason why his life was in danger this time was because He Yi did not pay attention to the usual related symptoms and did not seek medical attention in time, so the condition progressed to a more serious point and caused complications from other systems of the body......

I was already mentally prepared, but I was still shocked by this result, I couldn't believe it, how could He Yi, who usually looks so healthy and energetic, have anything to do with this inexplicable serious illness? Is it genetic? I remember that his mother was diagnosed with kidney disease. But now there is no point in investigating the cause of the disease, the most important thing is how to treat it and whether it can be cured?

The doctor explained to me in detail the pathogenesis of this disease and the various pains it brings to the patient, and let me know that this is basically a terminal disease, and there is no possibility of cure, only control. From the current medical methods, there are three treatment methods: hemodialysis, peritoneal dialysis, and kidney transplantation. Other than that, there is no other way in the world that has been proven to treat uremia.

At present, the most widely used and most realistic treatment method is hemodialysis, the principle is to drain the blood out of the body, filter it through the machine, remove the harmful substances in the blood, and remove the excess water in the body by the way, the method is simple and fast, and the patient's condition can be relieved and become comfortable in the fastest time, but this is long-term and lasting, and dialysis must be performed several times a week, and it is also physical and mental torture for the patient in the long run.

The next day, He Yi woke up smoothly and was transferred to another ward for hemodialysis treatment.

Although after the initial treatment, He Yi was relieved to a certain extent, but his mental state was still very poor, and he couldn't accept that he was suffering from this serious illness for a while, lying in bed and not wanting to talk, nor wanting to eat, his temper also became irritable, and the whole person was very negative. Although I felt the same pain in my heart as he was, I still had to force a smile and try to say some light-hearted words in front of him to comfort him.

At noon, but when I patiently wanted to feed him, he pushed away irritably, "Sister, you better go, I beg you!" ”

I didn't care about him and continued to feed him, but with a wave of his hand, he knocked the bowl in my hand to the ground and yelled at me, "Let you go!" What does it matter to you whether I am dead or alive! Anyway, I'm a waste now, let me fend for myself, what are you doing here! I don't need you! ”

"......" I looked at him in a daze, this originally sunny and handsome young man has now become a depressed and depraved disease patient, and my heart is indescribably depressed. thought that he took good care of him and paved the way for his future, so that he could live a carefree life in the future and have a future that would be the envy of his peers, who would have thought that he would still be entangled in illness.

Yes, I felt a strong sense of disillusionment again......

I hope that it is myself who is sick.

He Yi has always been the top priority in my life, the only person I can trust in my life, and the only 'family' in this world, but now, God is going to take him in again. Am I really a disaster, and whoever is good to me will not end well?

"You have been harmed enough by our He family, I don't want to hurt you again," He Yi saw my silence for a long time, he leaned on the hospital bed tiredly, sighed and said sadly, "I don't want you to see my half-dead ghost, even I look down on myself, you go, really care about me, just find me a nurse, or just let me fend for myself, anyway, I can't be cured, I will be a waste in the future, living is a waste of air, and it will drag you down." To put it bluntly, you have no obligation to care about me, it's all my life. ”

I tried my best to hold back the tears in my eyes and squeezed out a smile, "He Yi," I sat with him, put my arm around his shoulders, and stroked his still pale cheeks, "I'm your sister, do you think I might let you 'fend for yourself'?" Everything is difficult at the beginning, since it happened, let's accept it calmly, step by step to overcome the difficulties, fortunately, your disease can be treated to return to normal, it is not a terrible terminal disease, and we are not short of money, I can find you the best hospital and the best doctor, no matter how much money is spent, I will not give up on you! But first of all, you can't give up on yourself, at least don't make me sadder, okay? ”

"......" He lowered his eyes, shook his head negatively, and said vaguely, "You are not me, I don't know that I am bad now~"

After taking care of He Yi for a few days, I had to find the attending doctor again and talk to him about the kidney transplant. The doctor told me that although the treatment effect of kidney transplantation is the best, it is not realistic, the fundamental reason is that the kidney source is particularly difficult to find, and there are tens of thousands of patients waiting for the kidney source every year, which means that only one person has the opportunity to have a kidney transplant out of almost hundreds of waiting patients. In addition, even if the kidney source is found, how long can it survive, whether it is rejected, and subsequent maintenance are all difficult problems.

Getting such an answer, I lost sleep again. Thinking of what the doctor said, relatives and patients' kidney sources are the easiest match, after thinking about it, I still dialed He Yu's phone the next morning-