I looked at Chen Si's side face and was silent, not knowing what to say.

Comfort? I don't think she needs to.

Late comfort does not bring salvation, but is more like a poison, which does not cut the suffering that has been experienced, and only makes the hard-won peace after the suffering turn the river and the sea again. It reminds people of the most painful time again, all the loneliness, loneliness, helplessness and tears finally have an audience, and all the things that should be comforting have turned into a kind of unwillingness, which is called - why didn't you come in the first place.

All the suffering that has been passed does not need belated comfort.

What is needed is just one sentence

"Now you've come out." I whispered.

"yes." Chen Si smiled and lit the fourth cigarette, "I've come out." And didn't need to go back."

I looked at the cigarette in Chen Si's hand and frowned, after a while, this was already the fourth cigarette she smoked, "Stop smoking, Chen Si, this is already the fourth." ”

Chen Si's hand holding the cigarette waved at me impatiently, and he brought it to his mouth again and took a deep breath, "Leave me alone, it's the last time." I also learned to smoke in my junior year of high school, and it calmed me down with fear and nervousness. Smoking makes me feel like I'm spitting out the haze and squalor in my soul, and it's only when I smoke that I feel like I'm really my own."

I can probably understand Chen Si's feelings, smoking and drinking are actually a kind of nervous paralysis, like a slight drug, which can make people temporarily forget their troubles and pains and get a moment of peace. Many people use nicotine and alcohol to numb their nerves during low times to get temporary solace.

Just fear and nervousness? Is Chen Si scared and nervous now?

"I still hate you, Mo Li." Chen Si said, taking a long puff of cigarette, but her mouth was closed and her brows were frowned, only a small amount of smoke came out of her nose, followed by a violent cough. The violent cough made Chen Si burst into tears, but she seemed to enjoy it, even when she coughed, her face was full of smiles.

Chen Si said, "I still oppress you, you are like a beautiful thing that I can't touch, a blank piece of paper, clean and transparent, and I am a black cloth, only by rolling my whole body into the quagmire, can I hide my own darkness." I want to dye you black too, but I don't dare to touch that white."

I looked at Chen Si's crying and smiling expression and continued to be silent, I didn't know what to say and what I could say. After a long period of deliberation, he spoke.

"Why do you do this?" I said a little hesitantly, and many times I didn't dare to speak casually, because sometimes, no matter what kind of words it is, it hurts to fall into the ears of others, "Then it's not your fault, why should you punish yourself with other people's faults?" ”

"Punish yourself? I thought so too. Chen Si lowered his head, his voice low and distant, "But I can't control myself, I can't control it." ”

"On the one hand, I knew that everything I was doing was stupid and would only pull me deeper into the abyss, but on the other hand, I couldn't help myself from doing it. I can't control myself, I'm dirty, and I only feel at peace when I'm with people who are also in the abyss. Whether it's you or Fang Ruoxi, I only want to run away when I'm by your side, the closer I get to you, the more I feel terrible dirty, the more I feel that everyone can see my dirtiness more thoroughly! I can't control myself. ”

I have a general understanding of Chen Si's condition, and in my opinion, what she needs most is probably a psychiatrist. I don't know what I should say in this situation, maybe Yu Pu can give Chen Si more correct advice if he is here, but I don't know how to pull Chen Si out of this vicious circle.

"Well, do you remember the time when you and Fang Ruoxi clashed directly in the Fairy Tale Forest when we hunted for food for the first time?" I thought about it, and finally talked about Fang Ruoxi, at least in my opinion, the relationship between Chen Si and Fang Ruoxi is more subtle, after all, the two of them are partners who have been together since they first entered the endless room.

"You mean the time she scolded me for being a cow?" Chen Si showed a mocking smile, "You see, in fact, there is no one close to Zhu Zhichi in this world, only people are divided into groups. Even if I knew her the first person, she would still choose to stand by your side without hesitation after you appeared. She knows very well in her heart that I am black and you are white, and what she will choose between black and white is also very clear. ”

No, she would choose me, not because she was rejecting black, but because you yourself were rejecting white

I thought this in my heart, but I couldn't say it, I knew that Chen Si was trapped in a paranoid cycle, and directly dissecting this cycle would only make her more repulsive or decadent, which was counterproductive.

"Then do you remember the reason you were arguing at the time, that you wanted the rest of her hand, the last of the water?" I was afraid that Chen Si had forgotten the situation at that time, and added a reminder, "When you were arguing, I was not there with Lin Ya and Lu Haisheng, and it was you who stopped arguing when we came back." ”

"Oh, that's what happened." Chen Si shook his finger holding the cigarette at me, "What do you want to explain?" It's not going to be a reckoning affair. ”

"Of course not." I shook my head, "I want you to think back to what it was like. At that time, we had just come into contact with Fang Ruoxi, and we didn't believe her very much. When we went back, I saw a void on Fang Ruoxi's face. ”

"Weak heart?" Chen Si was also very confused, frowning slightly, "What is her heart weak?" She's loyal to all of you, what's there to be ashamed of? ”

I looked at Chen Si's expression, maybe she didn't notice it herself, in fact, she was also subconsciously maintaining Fang Ruoxi, Fang Ruoxi is also special to her, right?

"I couldn't figure it out at first, I really didn't find out that Fang Ruoxi did anything that required her to be weak-hearted." I replaced the fabric on Lin Ya's head with a freshly wet piece and continued, "But I'm very sure that I did see Fang Ruoxi's face with a weak expression at that time. So then I thought about it for a long time, and finally I thought of the reason because of you. ”

"Me?" Chen Si frowned, he didn't expect such an answer, sat up slightly, and asked puzzledly, "Because of what?" I didn't let her do anything. ”

I shook my head, "Not for what, but for the food." ”

"Food?"

"Yes, food." I nodded, "After all, those foods were called by Lu Haisheng and them at that time, and no one said anything about giving you food before that." Fang Ruoxi, she deliberately put water so that you could get those foods. ”

I had never thought to tell Chen Si these things, because before today, I never thought that Chen Si would be able to understand Fang Ruoxi's mind. Some people will not be grateful for what others have given them, but will only think that what others have given them is not enough, and then ask for more.

And now I think Chen Si should be able to appreciate Fang Ruoxi's kindness. Moreover, that kindness should have a special meaning for Chen Si.

"I see," Chen Si muttered to himself, revealing a smile.

This smile is very shallow, not full of sarcasm and anger like the previous smile, but plain and comfortable. I think I'm right, maybe it's not me or Yu Pu who can help Chen Si come out, but Fang Ruoxi.

"Thank you, Mo Li." Chen Si said softly, looked at the half-lit cigarette in his fingertips, and pressed it to the ground next to him, "Thank you for giving me a reason to be myself, and courage." ”

"What!"

I didn't understand Chen Si's words, and just as I was about to ask, I felt a pain in my calf, as if I had been bitten by something. The suddenness of the situation made me scream, and I hurriedly shrank my legs away from the position I had just taken, and at the same time looked to the side of my legs, only to see a creature on the ground about the length of my palm, crawling towards the forest cliff.

I was startled, and subconsciously grabbed the bottle next to me and swept it away, only then did I see the whole picture of this creature - a slender body, a large, wide mouth, limbs and a long tail. Gecko? Where did it come from?

I quickly looked at my calf and saw that it was a very shallow wound, not too serious, but it also proved that the creature was aggressive. But I hadn't seen any of these creatures in the cave before! Where the hell did it come from!?

"It's the eggs."

Chen Si's voice came, and I reacted and looked at the eggs scattered around me. Sure enough, I saw that one of the eggs had broken into an empty shell, and it was the one I had just put next to me! I picked up the empty eggshell next to me and looked at it, and it seemed that this was where the creature came from!

There was a slight cracking sound, and I followed the sound and saw that cracks began to appear on the remaining eggs, and the same creatures came out of them!

What kind of food is this, this, this, and where! It's all hatched!

"Ahh Bang bang! ”

Fu Lingjun!

Another scream was heard, followed by several gunshots. The voice came from the cave, it was Fu Lingjun's voice! The panic and nervousness in the screams are a sign that danger is coming!

Damn it! I should have thought of it a long time ago!

Since there are eggs here, it means that those creatures that lay eggs will also be active in this area! When I was born, it was the size of my palm, and how big an adult would be! What's more, even if there are no adults, these things are aggressive when they are born, and it is extremely dangerous for those eggs to hatch out! Fu Lingjun must be in danger!

Thinking of this, I hurriedly got up from the ground and was about to rush to the entrance of the cave to help Fu Lingjun, but was stopped by Chen Si first.

"Don't leave! I killed people. Chen Si's voice was fast, "The gun was stolen by Lin Chang and given to me, originally he asked me to kill you, but I finally chose Wang Haobo." ”

"Huh?" I was caught off guard by the sudden message, but I didn't have time to pay attention to it right now, I didn't care about the shock or anything else, my mind was all outside the cave, "I'll wait until later"

Chen Si interrupted me loudly: "Don't worry! Fu Lingjun will be fine, you and Lin Ya will be fine."

"Be careful, the Lin Chang logo is going to change again."

Chen Si ran towards the entrance of the cave.