Chapter 126: It's hard to kill yourself if you can't help yourself
Jin Xi's rude answer made me unable to refute it.
For example, Lu Bing, who loves me and tolerates my past, I completely understand the message in the letter, that sentence, I hope the father of the child is Lu Bing. I remembered my past with this man, and I couldn't lie and comfort the father of my child, except for Jin Xi, there was a second man.
With my mouth open, I'm a fish without air.
When I opened my eyes, the man's cruel face gathered in his eyes, he seemed to wait for me to lie that the child was Lu Bing's, and then pounced on me and tore me apart.
I was silent for three seconds, and didn't continue to use Lu Bing as a shield.
"Jin Xi, if I give birth to Xiaodoudou and make you mistakenly think that I still have affection for you, then you are very wrong
I don't know what happened, but I know that I was so lonely that I wanted to be fulfilled. And that'sā
Alive, someone to accompany me. If you die, you have no regrets. ā
After giving birth, I read that letter more than a hundred times, and between the lines I wanted to get rid of the bad past, I longed to live and accept death.
If the production bleeds, then Doudou is an extension of my life.
However, whether it is life or death, it no longer includes the man in front of him.
"Huh." He scoffed, put away his fierce expression, tilted his head, and waited for me to continue his long speech.
I wiped away my tears, endured my headache, and I continued:
"What did you do that made me lose my memory and not want to remember you again?
Am I sorry for you or are you sorry for me? I was hypnotized to run away from you because I was afraid of you? Or do you hate you in order to strip you away? Jin Xi, you bind a person who has no memory and destroy my peaceful life, you are too despicable and too self-righteous! ā
His eyes grew colder and colder, and he glared at me from top to bottom, and he said, "Self-righteous, it's always been you." ā
Am I self-righteous? Amusing.
I stood up tremblingly, no longer frantic, and I stared at the scar on his face, raising my hand to caress it in his surprised gaze.
Jin Xi shuddered, turned his face away, and the corners of his scarred eyes closed suddenly.
I thought my words had provoked his pain, so I tiptoed, put my fingers over them, and asked softly, "Do you hurt?" ā
Jin Xi opened his eyes, grabbed the broken hair on the back of my head, and the outline of the knife trembled slightly against my face, he hooked the corners of his mouth, and said playfully: "It hurts? Doesn't it hurt? Oh, I know how to make you hurt, just do it. ā
"Hah!" I chuckled and scratched his nascent scar with my fingers and said, "If I caused this scar, then I only regret that I didn't cut your face with a knife, so that you don't have the courage to pester me again!" ā
Whether I'm a trapped beast or a ruthless fighter, I just want to live in this cage and make it difficult for this person who has bound me.
You stab me, I poke you, but it's just your life and death.
Anyway, I know that whoever remembers who was in pain will win the most.
I have Lu Bing in mind, and I have automatically formatted this man's appearance, so I will win him!
After my voice fell, Jin Xi pressed my head over, he hooked his pale lips, and said in my ear: "An Jian, let's try, I have the rest of my life to fall in love with me again for you." ā
"With your disfigured face? Ugly! I stepped on Jin Xi hard and pushed him away quickly.
This time it really hit the man, and his fingers pointed at the corners of his eyes, as if subconsciously covering up.
I smiled triumphantly and said, "I want to see Doudou, now!" You'll let me see you once a month? I'll forget about that little one.
You forced me to separate from my child, and I can only slowly get used to not having this child!
In that case, I will go to City B, wait for Lu Bing to wake up, give him a child, and we will be a family of three."
Bang Dang!
Jin Xiyang smashed the wine bottle on the wine shelf behind him with his hand.
I closed my mouth and smiled lightly, I managed to provoke Jin Xi, and my heart was already cheering, thinking that I had won another game.
Jin Xi stared at the red soup glass on the ground, stunned, then straightened up, took out the mobile phone in his trouser pocket, and dialed it.
When I thought he would ask someone to bring Doudou over, he said hoarsely, "Let someone come and clean up, and then let the nanny come." "Babysitting? My hanging heart slowly relaxed, at least I knew that Jin Xi didn't treat the child so badly.
Jin Xi hung his suit on the hanger behind him, ripped off his tie and unbuttoned three buttons, and he walked around the debris on the ground and sat down on the brown sofa next to me.
I stared at him warily and leaned back against the armrest.
But when my eyes touched his slightly open chest, a hideous scar fell on his collarbone, and at a glance, I could even think that it was a new wound that had been cut by a knife.
I struggled to look away, sat up straight, and stared at the closed door.
Jin Xi always fiddled with the mobile phone in his hand and didn't provoke me again.
We are like two monsters, obviously we can't be in the same room, but we hold on to each other and do our own things, and we are all right.
The doorbell rang and I got up to open the door.
Jin Xi took his mobile phone and pressed it on the door, and the people outside were gone.
"Xi Ye. People brought. ā
Two older women were pushed in.
They took two steps in with their heads bowed, and the big man who had brought them hung his head and closed the door again.
"Sir." The two women greeted respectfully, Jin Xiyan raised his hand, and one went to the inner room to clean the ground with tools.
The other walked over and said with an embarrassed face: "Madam, your milk must be searched, otherwise the milk will have a fever"
I turned my head to look at Jin Xi with wide eyes, and asked, "What do you mean?" Jin Xi? You"
"You're going to starve my son to death? Well? Jin Xi hugged his arms and sarcastically said indifferently: "Yes, starve one to death, you can find another one from other men, heh." It's a big deal to hypnosis again, and I gave birth to a child myself! ā
In order to provoke Jin Xi just now, I stimulated him with the words of leaving Xiao Doudou, but I didn't expect him to hit my face with my words this time, my scalp was numb, and the corners of my mouth were bitter.
Little Beans were born with my life, how could I possibly go to my child!
"Enough!"
I drank lowly, so frightened that the nanny took a step back, and she said sorry to Jin Xi as if she was about to cry.
I became irritable, I wrapped my collar tightly, grinding and gurgling: "Jin Xi! You snatched Doudou away, and let people take my milk, you really have a heart! ā
No wonder my chest didn't swell into stones, and there was no pressure from my breasts.
"What, don't want to breastfeed?" Jin Xi didn't pay attention to me at all, he looked at me, the little nanny took two steps forward, and said cautiously: "Madam, if it's convenient"
He leaned there carelessly, leaning his head back on the back of the sofa, not at all inclined to get up.
"Inconvenient. You go or I go, choose one of the two! ā
Who knew that Jin Xi said: "In this alley, I won't let you contact outsiders alone, even if you go to the toilet, you have to be under Lao Tzu's nose."
An Jian, no, I have to call you Fang Ruo, you can go out, I don't mind going to the Commission for Discipline Inspection to sue Lu Bing for the fact that he falsified his testimony.
I don't think you will let Lu Bing be transferred out of the intensive care unit and taken directly to tea! ā
I couldn't stop shaking.
Lu Bing helped me do something with a fake identity, how did he know!
"This has nothing to do with Lu Bing!" I denied it, but all I got was a cold snort from him.
I stabilized my emotions and looked into his eyes: "You don't believe I pulled it!" I get up, count me defeated, I'll have to find another room.
"Don't understand? Do you think I will give you access to outsiders? You're going to have to be under my nose from now on! Eat, sleep, and go to the toilet! ā
A hot breath rushed into my face, and I gritted my teeth: "You're a psychopath!" ā
His eyes darkened.
"My son has been crying for a long time. Whether he eats milk powder or not, you know better than me. The more he delayed, the hungrier he became! ā
My face flushed, I scolded him again for being perverted, sat back in resignation, turned around and lifted my tracksuit.
The nanny quickly covered the utensils.
After a while, there was an awkward sound of water running in the quiet room, and a strong sweet fragrance filled the tip of the nose.
When both sides were squeezed out, I was a little anxious to explain to the nanny Xiaodoudou's meal and temperature each time, and the milk of the day could not be drunk the next day, if I could, I would provide milk every time.
I barabalized for a long time, eager to eagerly ask about the situation of the nanny Xiao Doudou.
Helplessly, the nanny is like a robot, hanging her head from beginning to end without saying a word.
When both sides were about the same, I quickly pulled on my clothes, and the whole person was almost red into shrimp.
The two women packed up and walked out of the bungalow. When I turned around, I crashed into Jin Xi's focused gaze.
I was numb and unable to move from his eyes.
I softened my breath and tried to use his mixed emotions about me......
"Doudou will make trouble for a long time without me, I miss him very much, let me see Doudou......"
"An Jian, when will you remember Lao Tzu, we can discuss everything!"
My dark eyes stared at the wet part of my chest, and I raised my hand to cover it and scolded again: "Neurotic! Only fools will remember you! I have a headache when I see you! ā
Jin Xi took my arm and dragged me to a bedroom on the second floor, and no matter how I tore it, he rudely kicked open the door and threw me onto the spring bed.
I watched him vigilantly, and retreated desperately.
He let go of the belt buckle with a clatter and pulled out his shirt.
"You paralyzed madman! You're sick! "I tightened my clothes and tried to rush out. He pounced on me and lifted my jumper, my head getting stuck, and in my screams, he ripped off my underwear.
"You think you can write me off if you forget me? You used to be in business and knew what it was to borrow and repay! ā
I was kept in the dark, like a fish in a pan of oil, fluttering and screaming.
The cold air hit my chest and back, and in the darkness wrapped in clothes, Jin Xi's appearance once again became a bubble in my mind, and this feeling was like I being torn apart by a stranger.
At the sound of my crying, the cold hand rested on the waistband of my sweatpants and tugged at it
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