I took this 'crazy woman' back to the hotel in the city, and began to wash her body, wash her hair, apply shower gel and shampoo over and over again, rinse over and over again, the bathroom floor was covered with a layer of black sewage, until I washed her for nearly an hour, I washed her clean, and at the same time I found that she had many old scars on her body, as if she was injured by a beating, and it was very painful to see. It can be seen that the nightmare that this woman has suffered has far exceeded my imagination.

After washing her, drying her hair, combing her hair neatly, and finding her a set of my clothes to change into, she was completely new, no longer the sloppy and terrifying madman she was when she first met, just like a normal person.

Seeing her change like this, I feel like a complete savior at the moment.

And she has not been crazy and screaming, but smiling silly like a child, seemingly happily accepting such a change, after all, this change is to make her comfortable, bathed in warmth, and regain her sight, I am not aggressive towards her, she has no reason to go crazy.

I gave her my own stockpile of dry food, and she ate it all in one go, and it seemed that she was so hungry...... But when I tried to ask her what her name was, how old she was, and who was in the family, she just cared about eating, ignored me, didn't answer a word, and was completely immersed in her own world. I had no choice but to give up.

At ten o'clock in the middle of the night, she would suddenly wake up and scream loudly, and no matter how much I tried to comfort her, she still trembled with fear, and finally had to hide under the bed to find a sense of security. It seemed that she was so sick that I started to think about taking her to the doctor.

The next day, I took her back to Stockholm and took her to a psychiatric hospital. After treatment and diagnosis, the doctor said that she was due to intermittent schizophrenia caused by a huge emotional stir, that is, she was not in a state of madness all the time, if it is well controlled and away from the pathogenic factors, there is still a normal time, but it is difficult to cure the disease, and there is basically no possibility of radical cure, because she has been traumatized physically and mentally for a long time and is older......

After taking drugs to control it, she will no longer wake up in the middle of the night frequently, nor will she attack people for no reason, and her behavior is much quieter, but she is still crazy, occasionally smirking, saying inexplicable things, and having auditory hallucinations. While I give her medicine on time every day, I will also take her to go shopping, bask in the sun in the suburbs, and tell her some childish stories, but more often she is still immersed in her own unknown world, and she also knows whether she can understand what I have said, and has not communicated a normal word with me.

However, after such a close relationship, she now relies on and trusts me, and will call me 'Cancan', and as soon as she goes out, she will drag my hand tightly and shrink behind me, for fear that I will leave her alone.

My life in Sweden seems to be tied to this crazy woman who has nothing to do with me, who is old enough to be her own mother, and I seem to have forgotten the purpose of coming to this country, and I am busy taking care of her every day, accompanying her and enlightening her, and my life has become less monotonous and boring...... Even now, I can't tell why I want to put such a burden on myself, but once I started, I couldn't stop.

One night, when I personally washed her face and feet, and put her to bed, she actually looked at me seriously and said to me for the first time, "Thank you, Cancan, you are so good to me, I don't know how to repay you." ”

I looked at her in disbelief, "Sister, you...... It's okay? ”

She showed a motherly smile and said, "You still call me Auntie, I'm in my fifties, you are so young and beautiful, how can I be your sister." ”

I was so confused by her 'normal' words that I didn't come back to my senses for a long time...... I couldn't help but laugh too, "I'm still used to calling you eldest sister, and you don't look that old, but when you suddenly say these things to me, I don't even know you anymore." ”

"Actually, I know very well about my own disease, sometimes good and sometimes bad, it started when I was 40 years old," she said lightly and calmly, "In the first few years, I was fine with medicine, but then when I got old, it was useless to take medicine, I was crazy all day long, I didn't know what I did when I got sick, and I couldn't control my ...... at all."

"Do you remember the time you spent in the basement?"

"It's a bit of a memory, but it's vague and not very clear," she said softly in a trance in her eyes, "I remember that someone beat me and took me away, I was scared, I tried desperately to escape, but I couldn't escape~"

"Then don't think about the past." I considered that as a mentally ill person, she was unconscious at the onset of the disease, always had auditory hallucinations, and her thinking was very confused, and now that she is normal, it is really not appropriate to recall these unbearable experiences, and by the way, I changed the topic and asked, "Do you remember your name, where are you from?" ”

She laughed twice, "Name?" If you don't mention it, I'm really forgetting my name......"

"My surname is Jiang," she said three words clearly, "Jiang is the same,"

As soon as she finished saying the name, her eyes somehow turned red and filled with tears......

She wiped her tears and smiled bitterly, "In the past so many years, a lot of things have happened to me, everything is still like yesterday, I am still young, and I haven't been sick yet......"

I was afraid that if she thought too much, she would touch the scene and become emotional, causing her emotions to lose control, so I patted her on the back and comforted her, "Sister Jiang, rest first, don't think so much." Don't worry, I'll be with you in the future, I'm also alone, and the two of us will be companions in the future. ”

She looked at me gratefully, and didn't ask me where I came from, family background, etc., but just said sincerely, "Cancan, if you were my daughter~"

"Then you will treat me as your daughter, it just so happens that I am an orphan and have no parents since I was a child."

"Really?" She couldn't help but take the initiative to hug me, and said with emotion, "The two of us are really fated, I also want to be your mother, but you are such a good girl, I don't dare to climb you to be your mother, I don't have the qualifications and the ability, if you don't dislike it, when I don't get sick, I can be your nanny——"

"Auntie, don't say such ugly things," I comforted her, "we are all ordinary people, and I am not at all nobler than you except that I am younger than you." The most important thing for you now is to cure your illness, and when you are almost cured, I will take you back to China and seek justice for you in the law. ”

She shook her head with a smile and thought in pieces, "There's no need to sue others, everything is my own doing." It's me who is sorry for that woman, and I don't blame her. ”

“……”

I didn't ask her about her unbearable past, and tried to soothe her to sleep.

The next afternoon, I took her out shopping. There are a lot of people on the street, I always hold her hand, as long as she doesn't get sick and doesn't speak, it's still very normal, and walking with me does have a mother-daughter feeling.

But when I was about to take her into a jewelry store to buy her some jewelry, her eyes didn't know what was going on, and she suddenly broke free of my hand and ran quickly in the direction she was looking...... My first reaction was that she was sick again, and I was a little anxious to chase after her, but she ran fast, messily through the crowd, and disappeared in less than two minutes!

I couldn't do it in a hurry, so I quickly peeled off the crowd to look for it, searched and searched, ran for several streets, and searched for half an hour but couldn't find it......

Is it just lost? Maybe I also have feelings for these days with her, I'm really anxious, like I lost a child, I took out my mobile phone and called the police, and after reporting to the police, I continued to look for it all over the street, I was sweating and panting, just as I walked to the head of a bridge, I heard her shout to me crisply in the back, "Cancan!" ”

As soon as I turned around, I found that she miraculously appeared in front of my eyes again, and my blood was boiling all of a sudden, and I ran to her at once, and almost called her mother excitedly, "Where did you run to you!?" ”

"I just saw a young man who looked very much like my son, and I rushed over to look, and it didn't turn out to be ......," she gasped and explained, "and then I came back to look for you, but I couldn't find you, I was so scared that I kept running and running, and kept shouting and shouting, and I didn't expect to find you here." ”

"Your son?" I asked strangely.

"......" She heard me ask this, and turned away slowly, as if she didn't seem to want to answer.

After a while, her hand in her coat pocket stretched out, still holding a wallet in her hand, and asked me in surprise, "Cancan, is this wallet yours, why is it in my clothes?" ”

At first glance, the wallet looks like a men's model. I took it and found that the style was very familiar, and as soon as I touched the leather, I knew it was not a bargain...... I thought that she had stolen someone else's wallet and put it in her bag when she was ill, and now I forgot about it, so I opened it and took out an ID card from it......

When I saw this ID card, there was a bang in my head, and I felt that the blood in my body was about to coagulate-

This is He Yu's ID card!!

In addition to my ID card, I also found a photo of him and me N years ago in my wallet, as well as a few bank cards and some RMB. In short, all the information shows what happened to this wallet! And why did it appear in Jiang Yiru's pocket? After a little thought, I realized that he had deliberately put the wallet in order to imply to me that he had come to Sweden now, even right next to me...... He knows that there is such a mentally ill person as Jiang Yiru by my side, which means that he has been hovering around me for a long time.

Thinking of this, I subconsciously swept my eyes around, but except for the unfamiliar foreign face, I couldn't find his existence at all.