When I got home, I went upstairs and went into the bedroom, closed the door, and collapsed on the head of the bed exhausted.

It didn't take long for Jiang Feng to push open my bedroom door and enter the house, only to see that there was some blood on the corner of his mouth, his hair was messy, and his clothes and pants were also covered with mud, which showed that the fight just now was more intense. But I didn't have the interest to care about whether he was injured or not, let alone what happened to him.

Without saying a word, he went to the bathroom in my bedroom to take a shower.

When he came out after washing, he wrapped a bath towel around his waist, wiped his hair with a dry towel, locked the bedroom door behind him, and closed the curtains...... His exposed upper body was strong and strong, and there were a few faint bruises on his back and arms, which should have been caused by the fight with He Yu just now.

Then, he went to bed, leaned into my ear and said, "Did you just beat him half to death, do you feel distressed?" ”

I turned my head to meet his cynical eyebrows, this frivolous and evil smile, and the line of defense in my heart collapsed unconsciously...... I touched his chin with my fingers, rubbed my thumb on his blue stubble for a while, and couldn't help but hook my hands around his neck and quietly and indulgently spit out two words in his ear, "X I." ”

He was instantly ignited by the word "me", he didn't bother to take off his clothes, he directly lifted my skirt and tore the black pantyhose I was wearing on my legs with his bare hands...... Tonight was more intense than ever, and he bent me in several difficult positions and demanded me hard again and again...... In this stormy lust, I wantonly enjoyed the joy of being taken to the peak by him again and again, and all the distracting thoughts and worries were thrown out of the clouds~

I have to admit that such indulgence is a bit of a revenge mentality. He has lived with a woman for 8 years to talk about marriage, but I am completely in the dark, immersed in his thoughts every day, even if I slept with Jiang Feng, I had a sense of guilt towards him. But now, realizing that I was completely played and deceived by him, I just want to get rid of him cleanly, and I will never hold anything for him again, everything I have, including my body and my heart, is arranged by myself, and has nothing to do with him.

After the release, Jiang Feng was also too tired, so he pulled me to pillow in the crook of his arm and lay down at the head of the bed to rest...... Because of the moisture he gave in his body, he was still relaxed and hearty at the moment, and I was more active than ever to stick to him, my hands habitually wrapped around his neck, my face pressed against his chest, and I breathed deeply into the charming male smell that belonged to him, slightly intoxicated. His hand unconsciously stroked my exposed back, kissed my hair, and hugged me even tighter~

In this atmosphere of affection and sweetness, I whispered, "In this life, I have been abandoned and betrayed by too many people, and if you turn your back on me, I may kill you......"

Yes, I am now shattered by the blow of what happened...... After living for more than 30 years, there is no shortage of material things, but the heart has been in a state of wandering, always seeking a sense of security and belonging. Since birth, I was abandoned by my biological mother as garbage, and I was fortunate to meet my grandparents, but the two of them passed away one after another when I needed a sense of security the most, and then fell into the hands of Chen Guifang's family, living a life that was inferior to pigs and dogs; When I met Han Qiaojuan, I thought that as my biological mother, she would be my salvation, but who thought that she was a more terrible devil than Chen Guifang...... It wasn't until I met He Yu later that I thought that I had finally ended the years of exile, had my own home and dependence, and handed over the most precious thing to this man, but who would have thought that he still betrayed me in the end, which was more unforgettable than the damage given by Han Qiaojuan's biological mother.

I don't think I can afford betrayal anymore.

But deep down, I still haven't stopped searching for that sense of security.

"......" Jiang Feng was silent for a long time and didn't speak, but I clearly felt that his heartbeat seemed to be faster, and my hand around my back gradually became stiff.

"What's wrong?" I raised my eyes to look at him and found that the tenderness in his eyes had disappeared, and his brows were a little solemn~

He didn't answer, but after smiling reluctantly, he gently let me go, got up and went to the bathroom to take out the jeans he had just taken a shower and changed into, took out half a pack of cigarettes from his trouser pocket, opened the box with one hand and lit one by his mouth, and stood by the window and slowly swallowed the clouds and spit out the fog~

"Come to bed," I whispered.

He turned around and took a puff on his cigarette, sat down on the edge of the bed very obediently, and said softly, "What are you doing?" ”

I snatched the cigarette from his hand, put it in my mouth and took a puff, slowly exhaled a wisp of light smoke, and handed it to him to continue...... He took a puff of half of the cigarette butt and put it to my mouth for me to smoke, and we were tired of being naked together, and one of us quickly smoked the half of the Yellow Crane Tower, making the room full of smoke but not caring...... He snuffed out the cigarette butt and pressed me under him again, a pair of big hands held my cheeks, sealed mine with his lips, gently swirled, step by step, to the depths of my throat, making me feel suffocated by the whirlwind, and the whole person was ecstatic.

When I softened into his arms again, he whispered in my ear affectionately, hypnotically, "Be my wife, I can't live without you,"

My heart trembled slightly, and I still didn't respond~

At this time, I thought of the chat with Gu Minyi that day, and I couldn't help asking, "I heard that you still have a 'childhood sweetheart', and you have a deep relationship." ”

"What the hell is this," he said, hearing a little inexplicably, raising his voice and narcissistically, "Hey, can you not give me these nonsense charges, I know that all women in the world think of me, but I just look at you as a woman...... In the future, who dares to seduce me behind your back, will I kick her to death? ”

I hooked my lips slightly, not because I believed his words and looked forward to the future, but because of his wonderful words, I got a short period of pleasure, like holding a cup of my favorite drink in my hand, drinking it very freely, and I didn't feel it after drinking.

***

The next day, Jiang Feng went to work early for a meeting, I slept at home for two more hours, got up and freshened up and went downstairs for breakfast, Sister Tao happened to be busy with her morning work, she was idle, smiled and gossiped, "Yuncan, you and Jiang Feng are going to get married in the future, right?" "She probably saw that Jiang Feng stayed with me last night, coming and going freely every day, and treating this place as if it were his home, so she thought that we were no different from husband and wife.

"......" I was very sensitive to people asking me about Jiang Feng, especially when it came to the topic of marriage, so I just replied lightly, "I haven't thought about it." Sister Tao will watch TV when she is done, you don't have to cook my food at noon, I don't go home to eat. ”

"Hehe, don't think I'm talking too much," Sister Tao continued with a smile, "Look, I've been here with you for a few years, and our relationship is no different from that of sisters, and I won't hide some words, the last time I went back to my hometown, I learned that a friend's daughter is also in her thirties, and she lacks nothing but a child, and she has run to many hospitals and has not been pregnant, saying that she regrets not having a child earlier when she was young...... So I thought about your situation, you see that you don't lack anything now, and you are so beautiful, shouldn't you think about getting married and having children, otherwise you will become an elderly mother in a few years, and it will be a great loss to have a child at that time......"

Listening to her mention the child, I fell into a brief deep thought. In fact, I have a heart problem that I have always been worried that I will not be able to conceive a child, because when I was a child, I had to be forced by Chen Guifang to do heavy work and take cold water when I had my period, which caused me to have irregular menstruation for many years. I don't know if it's because of this, I haven't been pregnant after living with He Yu for a few years, and even now with Jiang Feng, I deliberately didn't take safety measures several times, but there was no sign of pregnancy...... But I can't go to the hospital for no reason to check my fertility problems, so I'm just a little worried.

I never thought that I would have to get married again in this life, but I thought about having a child of my own and making up for the shortcomings of my life under the child. Now that I have been reminded by Sister Tao, I really can't help but consider whether I want to continue to be in such an unexplained mess as Jiang Feng~

Before breakfast was finished, I heard the doorbell of the big iron gate ring. Sister Tao looked at the surveillance video and called me over, "Yuncan, look, this seems to be the ...... Do you want to open the door for her? ”

"Who?" I went over to take a look and found that it was Han Qiaojuan in the video, she had neat and neat short hair, dressed gracefully and luxuriously, and was waiting with a serious face.

I knew her purpose, and I expected that she wouldn't stop if she didn't see me, so I asked Sister Tao to open the door.

After a while, Han Qiaojuan walked into my living room, she walked slowly, her face was kind, she smiled slightly, and walked up to me and said a few words, "Yuncan, didn't you go to the company today?" ”

"Say." I ignored her greetings and just let her fart when she had.

"......," she frowned and pondered, "You know, I came to you for a small matter. ”

"Then don't talk about it."

"Yuncan, I know you're taking revenge on me, you hate me, you hate Xiaowei, but-" She lowered her head, her momentum was much weaker, a little deep, "It's still the same sentence, can you see that I am your own mother, don't let Xiaowei go to jail." ”

It's good that she didn't mention her own mother, but when she mentioned this, I couldn't wait to throw the half cup of boiling water on the table at her......

"Isn't Mr. Han very capable, why, your daughter broke the law, you can't solve such a trivial matter?" I ridiculed.

She asked Sister Tao to avoid it for a while, then sat down on a chair next to me, and said in a deeper voice, "Yuncan, I don't need you to say it, I also know that I am very excessive to you, but there is a reason for this, you don't understand the pain in my heart at all...... Do you know why I used to hate you like that? ”