My ambition has always been to become a woman in Chenxi.

But one day when I was really lying down with him, I still said with great resistance: Don't.

I think that's a very scary thing for me. The fairy taught me at a very young age that girls must keep their last bottom line.

But in front of Chenxi, I didn't do it.

At that time, Chenxi was more patient and gentle than ever, and his strength became very great, his words of begging made my heart melt instantly, and in a completely unconscious situation, I gave him the first time in such a hurry.

I remember that after it was over, he looked at the bright red on the sheets, and didn't say to me like the male protagonist in the TV series: I will be responsible, I will be good to you for the rest of my life.

He just said lightly: It's okay, it's like this the first time, and it won't be in the future.

I thought it was the first time for Chenxi and I, but later I learned that it was only me. No wonder, his expression was so calm, as if he had experienced countless times.

That's how I became a woman in Chenxi in a daze.

For a long time after that, he came to pick me up very often. As if falling in love with this skin-to-skin blind date process, our love content gradually shrank into the joy of the bed.

I don't have any fun with it, I don't see the slightest bit of the beauty of that process. I feel that the Chenxi in front of me is completely strange to me, and he is not the Chenxi I love.

I don't know what the love pattern of other campus couples is, but I don't have the slightest pleasure in love, but every time he calls me, I am happy. Because that kind of longing and love has always been buried deep in my heart.

University, because of Chenxi, I don't take the tomboy route anymore.

I grew long hair, put on a long dress, and dressed more and more like a normal girl. I don't know if I'm beautiful or not, I just know that I'm not myself.

However, Chenxi has never praised me for half a sentence, so that I have never been too confident in my appearance. I seemed like a blank sheet of paper in front of him, and no matter how much I tried to make myself graceful, he wouldn't give me too much attention.

When my hair was slowly growing, he said to me: I might as well cut my hair short, how refreshing it looks.

When I appeared in front of him in a skirt, he said, "How inconvenient it is for you to wear this, and you won't be able to play for a while."

However, at that time, many girls envied me, and I had a boyfriend like Chenxi. At that time, Chenxi would always proudly tell me that someone in our school was pursuing me again, but he refused.

Chenxi doesn't care about my life, he doesn't know about my part-time job at Ah Pao Bar, as long as I'm here when he needs it. Other times, he lives his days, I live mine, and we have nothing to do with each other.

On the contrary, I feel that the time when I work at Ah Pao Bar is the most comfortable. I can tie a ponytail indiscriminately, wear cool clothes, and chat with Ah Pao at the end of work, drink and talk about life.

At that time, the cub was already a father, and Chubby would occasionally hang out with us, but in our team, there would be no more Chenxi.

I never appeared in Chenxi's circle, he never mentioned taking me to meet his new friends, he just kept telling me the fact that many girls liked him, how much he was in school, and so on.