And what God probably knows best is that Li Cheng at this moment is a coward, she is a freshly baked steaming bun.

Her bravery is sharp, her rampage, all her unadmitting defeat is stronger, all her black and white eyes can't rub sand in them, all of her devotional love is losing one after another, and the last character traits she can leave are pathetic timidity and cowardice.

In just a few seconds, I did a move that even God was ashamed of, I didn't pick up my phone immediately, but I hurriedly picked up the two boxy red Durex bags and clumped them tightly in my hands, hurriedly got out of the car, and threw them into the trash can next to them, as if they had never been here.

I suppressed the richness of my imagination, trying not to think about who he was using it for, and I was desperately suppressing the urge to leave him here and go home by myself.

I'm afraid that if I have an impulse, there will be no recovery between me and him, and he will become not mine in a blink of an eye.

When Zhang Jingchi came back, I sat quietly in the car with my head down and playing with my phone, I was so involved in playing that my face was almost on my phone.

He handed me the ice cream, and he said, "I still have to eat this on a cold day, and I don't want to take it as an example." ”

I quickly picked it up and hurriedly opened it, and I eagerly scooped a big spoonful into my mouth.

Who the fuck makes ice cream so cold?

I finally found a reason to cry.

But I didn't dare to be unscrupulous, I could only drop one or two if there were none, and I had to pretend to be happy and say to Zhang Jingchi: "Don't buy those buy one get one free ice cream in the future, I'm about to cry." ”

I felt that I could also run for the Oscars, and my acting skills were so natural and unique in just a few seconds, I actually deceived Zhang Jingchi, who had sharp eyes, and he reached out to rub my hair, just like I was an obedient and well-behaved puppy, his eyes were still bright and full of love and cherishment, he said: "Silly, aren't ice cream all cold?" ”

I didn't answer him, and continued to hurriedly dig a bigger spoonful and stuff it into my mouth, the sourness of those lemons with a little sweetness diffused between my lips and teeth, and I said a little willfully and unreasonably: "Why do you only buy lemon-flavored ones, I still want to eat orange-flavored ones." You can't even buy an ice cream, really. ”

In the relationship between the two of us, most of the time, Zhang Jingchi has an excellent temper towards me, and he will also carefully remember my favorite tastes.

This time was no exception.

He took another box out of the bag, opened it, scooped a small bite into my mouth, and said, "I knew your favorite flavors were lemon and orange, so I bought both." ”

Can there be two favorites?

I intellectually knew that I shouldn't have taken it out of context, and I knew that it was just two flavors of ice cream, and I should have dwelled on this topic.

But my sensibilities dictated me to do so.

I stopped what I was doing, I put all my eyes on his face, and I said a little nonsensically, "Why can there be two favorites?" Let you choose for yourself, do you want lemons or oranges? “

Probably felt that this problem was not nutritious, and Zhang Jingchi was originally a person who had no requirements for food, he touched my head again disapprenosingly, smiled and said: "Anyway, I rarely eat ice cream, I think it doesn't matter which taste, whether it's lemon or orange, I can make do with it." ”

I'm fucking crazy!

We just discussed the tastes, and I automatically consciously sat down, and he can be like this in his relationship, it doesn't matter who is next to him, he is making do.

This is probably the first time since I fell in love with him that I have made such a fuss in front of him, I handed the box in my hand and forced it into his hand, I stared at him and said extremely seriously: "Don't make do, you have to choose one!" The one you don't want, I'll throw it away. ”

I guess I thought I was a little abnormal, Zhang Jingchi's brows suddenly frowned, he leaned over, and his tone was cautious: "What's wrong?" Did I make you wait too long today and you got angry? ”

I couldn't even see his caution, my heart softened all of a sudden, and I felt upset about my unreasonable trouble just now, I covered it up and said: "It's okay, I just think you always call me orange, I want to make a joke with you to see if you know how to choose me, who knows that you are slow to react, it's not funny at all." ”

I just pulled it like this, Zhang Jingchi returned the letter, he patted his forehead and complained to himself: "I really don't have any humor cells." ”

After complaining about himself, he put away the ice cream again and said, "It's a cold day, don't eat this." Let's go home. ”

After he finished speaking, he made a gesture to start the car and reverse out.

I suddenly had a whim, of course I said it with the idea of being rejected by him, I poked him with my hand and said, "I want to take the subway home, do you want to accompany me?" ”

I thought he would immediately say something about the subway is very crowded or something, but I didn't expect that he didn't even hesitate, so he immediately said: "Yes, I still want to hold you on the subway and make other men envy me!" ”

I thought he was joking, but he quickly pulled out his phone and called a driver who had a spare key to his car, and told him to come and drive the car back.

After doing all this, the two of us held hands and walked towards the entrance of the subway station.

There are a lot of people at this station in Huaqiangbei, and when the subway came, we finally squeezed up, but there was very little place to stand at the foot of the station.

I thought that Zhang Jingchi would frown and ask for the next station to go back, but I didn't expect him to look very happy, hugging me all the way back to the convention and exhibition center.

When I got home, I hid all the turmoil of the day and quietly made a hearty dinner.

Zhang Jingchi ate very satisfied, and while eating, he said that he had found a girlfriend with five-star cooking skills, and he was really happy, and I didn't know how sweet and happy I should be, but when I listened to these today, I suddenly felt that it wasn't for me.

By the time I packed up and went to take a shower and came out, it was almost eleven o'clock.

Zhang Jingchi was sitting next to the head of the bed, and he was holding his laptop and banging there.

I closed the bedroom door and walked over and climbed into bed, I didn't sit down next to him, but pulled out the quilt and lay down on my own, thought about it and said, "Zhang Jingchi, I have something to tell you." ”

He stopped typing on the keyboard, touched my head and whispered, "Say it." ”

I took off his hand and put it aside at will, my eyes seemed to be flickering, but the afterglow kept falling on his face, I said: "My brother called me a few days ago, saying that he received the news that there will be real estate to build a commercial house on our side, and it may be demolished at that time. ”

I'd rather Zhang Jingchi be as impatient as a few days ago and want to ask my family to ask me for the household registration book to go to me to prove it, even if I am afraid that his family will not agree to push it back, what I actually want is his attitude.

However, he touched my head again as if nothing had happened, and said, "Oh, it's okay, don't be angry with the family, we can wait, don't worry." ”

is to go on a business trip with Qiu Jialing and come back, and there is no hurry to marry me.

That Durex, I used it with her, and I used two more, it seems to be very passionate.

My heart slowly cooled.

I really felt like I got up and turned that ticket out to confront him, I really wanted to tell him that I found two torn condom bags in his car, and I really wanted him to explain it to me.

But I'm afraid.

I'm afraid that the reality is cruel, I'm afraid that the reality is hideous, I'm afraid that everything will become uncontrollable, and I want to deceive myself for a while.

Pulling the quilt and wrapping it tighter, I turned around and closed my eyes with something on my mind.

Zhang Jingchi quickly put the notebook aside, he lay down next to me and stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around me and asked, "What's wrong?" I don't think you're in a good mood today. ”

My heart was so flustered that I pushed his hand and said, "I want to sleep." ”

But Zhang Jingchi is not the kind of little hairy man who doesn't know how to read words and colors, he is still next to me, and his voice said in a low voice: "Are you angry that I snubbed you?" ”

I closed my eyes, shook my head slightly, and I said, "I just want to sleep." ”

Coldly, Zhang Jingchi leaned his face over and said abruptly: "Are you angry that I went on a business trip with Qiu Jialing?" ”

When I heard him mention the name, my heart was filled with panic.

Is it my imagination, or is it my delusion, it makes me think that when he mentions Qiu Jialing's name, there are always vaguely complex emotions in it.

When I jumped out of his narrative that night, in fact, what he was talking about from beginning to end was his remorseful self-blame, and he never said how much tempering he went through before he eliminated Qiu Jialing from his heart.

Or, never, it was never culled.

I can't get rid of her, she still lingers in his heart, she still occupies a place.

Also, there have been entanglements between him and her for too many years, and even if I have a crush on him for several years, even if I secretly bought him breakfast for a year with boiling water for a year, even if he occupies my entire youth, it is also my one-man show, he is with me, but only for a few months.

If there is anything I can't fight, then how can I fight through the passage of time and the accumulation of memories.

But even if I can't fight, I don't want to lose, because I love him, so stubborn and crazy, I don't know if I can meet the next person who makes me so fully committed.

In the end, I chose to escape.

God knows how much I regretted that I didn't have the courage to tear apart all the cruelty I could see at this moment, when I was embattled and helpless.

Later, when all the warmth that I can hug in the palm of my hand is gone, and I reluctantly look back at the few sweetness I have gained, but I also feel sorry for my stupidity and cowardice at this moment when I swallow the bitter water alone.