151: Astringent pain
The man looked at her, and Shen Jialan looked at her.
The other party's pair of sword eyebrows flew obliquely into the sideburns, along the sideburns on both sides, and the remnant sun of the evening hit his short crow-blue hair, with a faint crimson light, like a sprinkled red gem, which made his beautiful and delicate face as bright as an oil painting.
Whether it is ink-dyed black eyes, a towering nose bridge or thin but thin lips with a faint crimson, the delicate facial features are like a burning flame against the gorgeous background of the continuous sunset in the sky, with a rich visual impact, straight into people's eyes, people can't help but be obsessed with his appearance.
It's just that it doesn't match his very aggressive beautiful face, his face is indifferent and his temperament is cold, and his high-ranking status makes his gestures even more terrifying. Even if it is just a slight frown, or an expressionless face, it gives people a feeling that it is cold and noble.
And this feeling very well neutralizes the amazing feeling brought by his appearance, dilutes the contempt that others have for him after seeing his appearance at first sight, but is even more afraid of his momentum, eager to prostrate under his command, bow down to his ears.
Looking at the man in front of her, Shen Jialan could hardly imagine that more than ten years ago, the humble and cowardly, who was obviously two years older than her, would always grab the corners of her clothes in a panic and follow her tightly.
Looking at each other, she slowly withdrew her gaze, and the hand holding the fruit unconsciously grasped the bag in her hand.
"Uncle."
Shen Jialan said in a respectful tone of addressing the elders.
The man called "Uncle" by Shen Jialan has been staring at her face tightly since he appeared in front of Shen Jialan, his eyes are like a whirlpool, as if he wants to see her thoroughly.
Listening to her name, he frowned unhappily, and his voice had a metallic cold texture, but it had an imperceptible softness: "I thought you wouldn't recognize me, but I didn't expect you to recognize me." β
As he spoke, he smiled slightly, and the impact on his beautiful face suddenly doubled because of this smile.
But he didn't realize it, and bluntly expressed his dissatisfaction: "However, after so many years, you are alienated from me." When I was a child, you always called me Ah Yi. β
Hearing this, Shen Jialan's hand holding the bag tightened unconsciously.
When I was a child, I was young and ignorant, and when I heard my father say that he had brought a toy to him, he really thought that the other party was his own toy. Especially when the other party didn't believe in anyone else except her, she was wary, so she took him with her when she ate and slept.
Even if she went to learn the courses that Xi Yan arranged for her, because she didn't want to leave Ah Yi alone, she asked Xi Yan to let Ah Yi accompany her.
It took a year to learn etiquette, and it was only then that the young man who was anxious about everything when he first arrived at Xi's house gradually faded from his inferiority complex and became a teenager who always had a warm smile on his face.
The only thing that remains unchanged is the other party's dependence and obedience to themselves.
At that time, Shen Jialan thought that Ah Yi was really her toy, so she was accustomed to his obedience.
It was only later, overheard from Aunt Zhang's chatting with other servants, that Shen Jialan learned that the boy who was two years older than herself was the illegitimate son of her deceased grandfather, and it was the outer room that her father had originally abandoned.
Strictly speaking, Ah Yi is her uncle.
It's just that Shen Jialan at that time clearly heard Aunt Zhang say that if it weren't for her loneliness, his father would never admit the existence of Xi Yi, an illegitimate brother.
For the only daughter of the Xi family, even if she is a nominal uncle, in the final analysis, she is just a toy she uses to pass the loneliness and relieve boredom.
Therefore, until he left, Shen Jialan, who didn't know that his uncle was his elder, thought that Xi Yi was his toy.
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And now that she has grown up, Shen Jialan knows how ridiculous she was when she was a child.
Thinking of that, Shen Jialan couldn't help but raise her head, and smiled back to him generously: "I used to be ignorant when I was a child, so I called you by your name, I hope Uncle won't blame me." β
Xi Yan raised his eyebrows slightly, looking indifferent: "Compared to you calling me uncle, I am indeed more accustomed to you calling me Ah Yi." I still don't need to call me uncle, after all, I'm only two years older than you. β
Hearing this, Shen Jialan smiled a little embarrassedly and did not speak.
Shen Jialan didn't speak, and Xi Yan didn't speak.
is a person who is born to be silent, and only when he is in front of Shen Jialan, he will have one or two more words.
When I first saw her at this moment, even though someone had been reporting her affairs, there was a clear gap between them with more than ten years of strangeness, so that even if Xi Yan wanted to work hard to find the topic, he suddenly couldn't speak, so he had to look at Shen Jialan standing in front of him carefully, and couldn't help but recall the scene when he learned the news of her from Steward Xi's mouth.
In fact, Xi Yi has always believed that Shen Jialan is not dead from the beginning, although those policemen swear that she fell into the ditch and died.
However, he just stubbornly believed that Shen Jialan was not dead, but he didn't want her parents, so he chose to abandon them, and even gave up him.
He clearly remembered that on that night that she was full of loss, she hugged him and snuggled in his arms and sobbed quietly: "I waited for them for so long, so long, why didn't they come back?" They forgot, right? If you don't care about me so much, don't care about me, why did you give birth to me? β
"Since they don't want me anymore, I don't want them either."
She said she didn't want them.
Xi Yi remembered this sentence, so even if those policemen were sure of what they said, he still didn't believe it.
However, he had no evidence.
He was just an illegitimate son of the Xi family, and no one believed his words.
Even if he tried to find her, he couldn't find her.
It wasn't until Xi Yan was in a plane accident that he became a vegetative person and became an heir overnight, and he saw a photo of Shen Jialan from Xi Yan's study.
ββFrom childhood to adulthood, from the time she was nine years old to the more than ten years after she was in the Shen family, there were photos of each year, like a secret, which were treasured by Xi Yan and well preserved.
Only then did she know that she was indeed not dead.
It's just that he was only twenty at the time, because of Xi Yan's sudden accident, he was temporarily pushed to the position of heir, and the major elders of the Xi Group were not convinced by him, in order to calm the civil strife of the group and gain a firm foothold to keep the Xi family's property from falling into the hands of others, he was too busy to take care of him, and he was afraid that other people would hit Shen Jialan with their ideas, so even if he learned that Shen Jialan was not dead, he had no time to find her, and he could only order the people below to take more care of her and escort her behind him.
It was only in the past two years that he completely and completely suppressed the Xi family, and finally his position was as stable as a rock, and no one could shake it again, everywhere he went, everyone bowed down respectfully, and he would never pose the slightest threat to Shen Jialan, so he slowly revealed that he wanted to take her back to the Xi family.
It's just that what Xi Yi didn't expect was that Shen Jialan's sense of belonging to the Shen family was far deeper than that of the Xi family, and she would rather stay in the Shen family and rely on Shen's father than go back.
She really plans to abandon the Xi family!
And he has always been obedient to her, so after knowing that she disliked the Xi family, he was naturally no longer embarrassed, and the things that were gradually revealed on the surface also turned back to the secret under his instructions.
If it weren't for Shen Jialan being wronged this time, Xi Yi probably wouldn't have taken the initiative to appear in front of her.
Thinking of the grievances that the little star called Lu Xin brought to Shen Jialan, Xi Yi's eyes, which were originally so indifferent that he couldn't see his emotions, had a faint coldness forced him.
The cold glow, fleeting, and fast seems to be mistaken for an illusion.
When he looked at Shen Jialan again, Xi Yi's eyes were deep, and he said with a little pity: "I'd rather stay outside and be wronged, you don't want to go back to Xi's house, do you?" β
Hearing this, Shen Jialan remained silent for a long time before admitting bluntly: "Yes." β
As she spoke, she looked at Xi Yi, her eyes full of calmness: "I thought you should understand me and know what I want more than the flashy Xi family." β
I don't know if it's because I lacked love when I was a child, so even if I have grown up, my desire for family affection and hope to be loved is not as serious as when I was a child, but Shen Jialan still stubbornly wants to hold on tightly, reluctant to let go, reluctant to let go of Shen's father, an adoptive father who is farther and closer than her biological father.
And more than ten years of separation also made her full of strangeness to her father Xi Yan.
Even Xi Yi, who had been dependent on each other for a year, was full of alienation when she saw him.
Such a Xi family, even if she goes back, she will feel uncomfortable, so she would rather be content with the status quo.
It's just that the rejection of Xi Yan and them in front of them is different, and when facing Xi Yi, Shen Jialan is a little guilty after all.
Even now, she has to admit that she is willful.
After deciding to give up everything in the Xi family, he decided to do it according to his own determination, no longer caring about other people's thoughts, and not thinking about whether he would hurt others, including Ah Yi, who had been dependent on her for a year and didn't owe her anything.
In fact, even before leaving, Shen Jialan also hesitated for a moment.
If she is gone, will he, who was already walking on thin ice in the Xi family, become uneasy again, and those servants who didn't take him seriously because of his status as an illegitimate child took the opportunity to bully him because she no longer protected him?
It's just that that thought was just a flash, and she was subconsciously suppressed.
Because of this thought, when facing Xi Yi, Shen Jialan subconsciously felt more guilty than Xi Yan, so that even the words of refusal were not so tough.
It was probably Shen Jialan's guilt that was so obvious that Xi Yi couldn't help but laugh softly, and his faint voice made it impossible to distinguish his emotions: "So, don't you even want me?" β
Xi Yi's voice was very faint, listening to Shen Jialan's ears, her heart contracted, with a slight astringency.
"I'm sorry, I was too selfish back then."
Shen Jialan couldn't help but apologize.