On his shoulder, Zhuo Jing's hand loosened, and the corners of his mouth were cold: "This is your true words?" ”

I forced myself to stand up straight, not to shake, not to fall, and looked at him hard: "Yes." ”

God knows how much I want to maintain the warmth of the last moment, and how much I want to say to him, okay, I'm tired too, but why did he say let me go to surgery when I just shook a little, I used to be really stupid to think that surgery was the best way for me and him, but now I understand, unless he can completely accept my yin and yang body, otherwise, it is impossible for us in this life, and for me, that is not true love, he still dislikes, dislikes me for being a yin and yang person.

Zhuo Jing didn't say anything for a long time, as if he didn't know me, and after a while, he opened his mouth with gritted teeth: "What do you want, well, what do you want me to do." ”

"I didn't ask you to do anything, I just didn't have surgery, I am a yin and yang person, you can accept it, if you can't accept it, I can't help it."

I didn't mean to say such things, but why things don't always go as expected, Zhuo Jing doesn't understand, and I don't know how to open my mouth to say these words, I want to tell him, you must accept my body like me, and complete the bed, so that you can break my marriage rejection, otherwise, after being together, there will only be greater tribulations hindering us, how should I say, when the time comes, I may not have any ability, that unpredictable feeling really makes me extremely frightened.

"Haha."

Zhuo Jing looked at me, and suddenly sneered twice, but the smile was more like self-deprecation, and in his eyes, for the first time, there was something called 'pathos': "Lin Qiao, you really impress me, you still want to go too far, and what kind of way do you want to trample my love, since I was sixteen years old, you are an innocent little girl in my heart, as a result, this little girl slapped me heavily in front of everyone one day, two years, I found that I can't forget you, then I can only force myself to forget that unbearable memory, I thought that if I saw you again, I would only hate you, hate you for making the next two years go through an extraordinary hardship, but I found that I couldn't hate it, okay, in that case, I'll take a step back, I accept the fact that you used to be a yin and yang person, I let you have surgery, I just want us to stay together, what kind of way are you going to force me!! ”

With his last roar, I couldn't stop crying, "No, I didn't force you, you are forcing me, you are forcing me......"

Who knows my suffering, you just made a choice for me lightly, have you ever thought about how big a gap you have to cross here, why you question me, and who can I question!!

"I'm forcing you?"

Zhuo Jing's voice was suddenly low, and the strength of his whole body relaxed, he took two steps back, looked at me and shook his head gently, and a trace of disappointment suddenly jumped in his eyes: "Do you think that if I love you, you can have the courage to threaten me with my love, ah, I have accepted that you used to be a yin and yang person, is it possible, do I still want to live with a 'woman' who has the same thing on her body as me, Lin Qiao, what do you think, can you tell me." ”

I shook my head, now it seems that this is the only action I will do, I don't understand why we are pushing each other into a dead end, but I didn't mean to, I don't want to force him, I don't want to hurt him, seeing him like this, my heart really hurts, "Zhuo Jing, we are really not suitable, I beg you, you don't force me anymore, I really can't operate now, I really can't do it now, it really can't." ”

"Can you tell me if you've ever loved me?"

Of course, love -

But I can't tell, I looked at him, except for crying like he couldn't say anything meaningful, what about love, it's because of love that I know how difficult it will be to be together, and I will have a sense of fear about future happiness, if I'm useless, how can I help you.

When I was innocent when I was a child, you said that I would be your royal onmyoji, and I happily agreed, but who would have thought that one day the result would be that I couldn't be an onmyoji on the condition that I was with you?

And my mind went blank when I kissed, and when I thought I might be able to fight again, you told me to go for surgery?

As everyone knows, you can't accept that I am a yin and yang person, but now it is the biggest harm to me, we really can't help it, what you like is just a pure woman, and I, but I can't become a pure woman, this is the biggest sorrow, we seem to be very close, but extremely far away, far away are standing on the edge of their respective cliffs, you seem to take a step, but not to my side, but fell into the abyss in front of you.

"I see."

Zhuo Jing looked at me but opened his mouth directly, with a deep sense of powerlessness in his eyes: "You are too selfish, Lin Qiao, you have really become Lin Qiao, at least the former Ma Jiaolong knows that love is giving, but you don't want to change anything." ”

I raised my eyes and looked at him, forget it, since some words can never be said, then this wicked man, I bear it, two people, there should always be a result, two years ago, the fault was me, and after those two years, the fault is not on me, it doesn't matter, anyway, I have always been wrong, since I was born.

"Yes, I don't want to change anything, I'm just me, and I don't want to use a knife for anyone, I like my current state very much, you know now, I've changed, I used to be stupid, but it doesn't mean that I will always be stupid, Zhuo Jing, you should know very well in your heart, even if I am an ordinary girl in a family like you, your parents are probably too easy to accept, not to mention, I am still a ......"

"Shut up!" Zhuo Jing suddenly interrupted me, "Don't use that face to say that word that annoys me. ”

I smiled softly: "Whether you want to hear it or not, I am a yin and yang person, you hear clearly...... I am a yin-yang person. "How much I want to be heartless, ruthless and unconcerned, in this way, looking at the injury in his eyes, I won't secretly scold myself while pretending to be ruthless and selfish, love is obviously a very beautiful thing, why is it here for me, but it has become the most hurtful weapon?

Zhuo Jing looked at me, his eyes were full of strangeness, yes, he must not have imagined that this love would be so cruel, his steps staggered back two steps, and he stumbled on the pile of things he bought from my store, looking at his center of gravity, my heart instantly tightened, and instinctively stepped forward to pull him: "Hey, be careful......"

He pushed me away directly, my feet were not too hard, he pushed me, my body staggered, and I directly supported the wall next to me, "Zhuo Jing......"

Zhuo Jing sat by the pile of curtains, and didn't look at me, with no expression on his face.

I gritted my teeth and stepped forward to pull him: "You're okay, you didn't fall." “

"Get out."

My outstretched hand came to an abrupt end with the word he spit out, hanging in the air, and silently withdrawing it, yes, what am I doing, slapping people and throwing a sweet date, I think that's not Zhuo Jing's character, he is a character who will hate when he is hurt, then, hate me, at least hate not entanglement.

He got up directly from the ground with a calm face, walked to the desk in two steps and opened a drawer, and then threw out something with a 'click': "Take your things, get out." ”

I turned my head, looked at the mobile phone he threw on the desk, sniffed, forced myself to calm down, walked to the desk, raised my eyes, looked at Zhuo Jing who was standing there with his back directly, and opened my mouth: "I'm sorry." ”

He stood with his back to me, so that I couldn't see his expression clearly, but his voice still returned to its previous coldness: "Don't let me see you again, I don't want to see you again in this life." ”

I lowered my eyes, the tear duct was really a little overdeveloped as soon as I met Zhuo Jing, and bit my lip, "Hmm." ”

Turning around, I couldn't help but look back at him again, what a straight and wide back, if he also turned back at this moment, I don't know if I will collapse all the disregard, I know in my heart how reluctant I am at this moment, I know how sad he is, how I am willing to make him sad, I don't know if this is the last look as he wishes, but I really can't understand why life is so cruel to me, I have to get it again and again, but I have to hand it out again and again-