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Song Yichen and I are already the second child, if this child can't be saved, then I don't know what to do with the rest of my life.

"Heart-to-heart ......"

When I got back to my bedroom, I knew how to vent my emotions in addition to crying loudly.

I don't know how long I cried, but when I cried again, I actually fell asleep, and when I woke up again, the scenery outside was pitch black, just like I was feeling now.

I used to think that God was very fair to me, although I lost my previous memory, at least it gave me a very good marriage, but I didn't expect my child to get such a disease.

Why did God treat me like this, I have never done anything harmful, why can't it give me a healthy baby, why should he punish me like this.

For the rest of the year, I basically stayed in the hospital with the baby.

But Song Yichen was desperately looking for a donor for bone marrow configuration, and Song Yichen lost weight in more than ten days, looking at me, I was very distressed.

I thought that I couldn't match with the child only Song Yichen knew it, but what I didn't expect was that everyone knew it, and I was the only one who didn't know.

It made me very sad, and for the rest of the day, I often sat there alone.

In fact, I know that they are all for the sake of my body, but I just can't get over this hurdle in my heart.

Watching the baby's body get worse day by day, I blamed myself in my heart, and I couldn't understand why I, as the child's mother, couldn't match my bone marrow.

I also looked up a lot of information on the Internet, and the answers are very unclear, but I can't help but accept this reality.

No matter what, I will always be by my baby's side, and no matter what the outcome is, I am sure that I will bear it.

At this moment, Song Xingxing walked over, and he was still carrying a thermos box in his hand, it seemed that it was time for lunch.

Ever since I knew I couldn't match my daughter, the family was very worried about my situation.

Actually, I don't have anything, I just want to be alone and quiet, I don't want to talk much, but in their eyes, it seems like I will kill myself at any time.

Even Song Xingxing, who didn't know anything for a day, would come to see me every day, and would personally deliver the food to me every time, although I couldn't eat much of the food sent each time, but she would still insist on bringing it to me.

This careful care touched my heart very much.

"Sister-in-law, it's time to eat."

As he spoke, Song Xingxing put the lunch box in front of me, and put the same dishes in front of me.

Today, all the dishes that Song Xingxing brought are what I like to eat, and every time Song Xingxing changes flowers for me, bringing delicious food over, but I just can't eat it.

I know that these dishes are personally made for me by Song Yichen after work, although Song Yichen takes care of me meticulously, but whenever I think of the fact that he hid me, I am very angry in my heart.

Since that day, I haven't said a word to you, and I also know that Song Yichen is very sad in his heart, and now the whole thing is on him, but I just can't forgive him.

"I'm glad you put it there first, I don't want to eat it."

After saying that, I turned my head and continued to look at my daughter in the isolation ward.

This little girl is cute, since she was born, she rarely cries, no matter whether the nurse takes a bath with her, even if the nurse gives her an injection, the baby just doesn't cry, she always looks at others with a pair of big eyes, as if these things have nothing to do with her.

This kind of strength makes me very sad as a mother, and if the baby cries, maybe I will feel a little better in my heart.

"Sister-in-law, don't be like this, you better eat a little, look at how thin you are now, even if you can't give the baby a bone marrow transplant, but you can't torture yourself like this."

When Song Xingxing said this, there was a crying sound in his voice.

"I believe that if the baby can be sensible now, the baby's heart will not feel good, sister-in-law, you are not sad now, you have to take care of your body now, so that you have a healthy body, to take care of the baby, isn't it?"

Hearing Happy say this, my eyes involuntarily moistened.

"Why do you torture yourself like this, do you torture yourself like this, will the baby's illness be better, if it can be better, then I am willing, I will not eat with you."

As he spoke, Song Xingxing sat beside me with an aggrieved face, and reached out to secretly wipe away the tears on his face.

"Sister-in-law, I know you're sad, and we are also uncomfortable in our hearts, I believe that Yanran will get better, not only have you tortured yourself for a while, but even my brother has lost so much weight that he doesn't look like a ghost, do you really want to make people look like ghosts and ghosts because of this matter, where is the sister-in-law I knew before."

Looking so sad to be happy, in fact, I really wanted to comfort her, hoping that she wouldn't be so sad, but I really couldn't say it.

"I see you so uncomfortable, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, if I can exchange my life for Yanran, I will not hesitate to exchange my life for Yanran's hope of survival, I only hope that you and my brother can be well."

When he said this, Song Xingxing cried sadly.

I have never seen Song Xingxing so sad, which makes me feel that I have done something wrong with my depression for a while.

Actually, I also want to be strong, so that everyone feels better, but I really can't, although I know that my current state makes them very worried.

But I never had the idea of committing suicide, I just wanted to stay alone in my own world, I didn't want them to enter my world, I just wanted to stay alone quietly.

"Happy, don't be like this, okay, in fact, I'm fine, I'm just not hungry, I'll eat myself when I'm hungry."

Suddenly, Song Xingxing stretched out his hand and held my hand tightly, looking at me with a begging expression.

"Sister-in-law, I really can't stand it, can you go back to the strong and cheerful you you used to be, I don't want to see you like this now, I don't like your current negative appearance, even if Yanran's illness can't be treated in the future, I also hope that you can face life strongly, not like you are now, you have to understand that you have the support of your family behind you, and you are not alone."

I've always known that I have everyone's support behind me, and I know that they love me very much, and I love them very much.

"Do you know that your current behavior makes us very worried. I don't know what you think in your heart, I just hope that you can face this thing correctly, I believe that no one wants such a thing to happen, but since it happened, then we should face it correctly, not like you. ”

I didn't expect to be able to say something like this in a few days.

I still remember the last time I talked to Happy Heart, she was still doing whatever she wanted like a child, I didn't expect that this period of time would make her change so much.

"Thank you! I'm going to be strong, don't worry, I won't be out of it, I just want to be alone. ”

Actually, I also wanted people not to worry about my affairs, but the more I thought about it, the more they worried about me, as if I was a child who didn't grow up.

"You want to be quiet and no one is stopping you, but I want you to be able to eat on time every day, do you know that my mother has fallen ill because of your affairs!"

My godmother is sick, why didn't anyone tell me about this.

"Actually, I don't want to tell you about this, but I just want you to know that your current body is not yours alone, you are all of us, if something goes wrong with you alone, I believe that no one will be better, I hope you can take care of your health, just for my parents."

No wonder my godmother didn't come to the hospital in the past two days, it turned out that she was sick.

A few days ago, my godmother came to see her every day, but she didn't go to the hospital at all in the past two days, and I was still wondering if there was something delayed, and I fell ill after a long time.

"What's wrong with Mom, is Mom uncomfortable! Did she go and see it? ”

During this period of time, my godmother's body itself was very bad, and I didn't expect her to really fall ill.

"I've seen it, it's not a big deal, the doctor said that you just can't be too angry, if you get angry again, your mother's body won't be able to stand it, so I hope sister-in-law, for your mother's sake, you can pretend to be in front of your mother, you must not be like this, if you do this again, this family will really collapse."

That's when I realized the seriousness of the matter. It seems that my mood is really messing up this house.

I used to think that my own emotions would have no effect on them, at most they would be sad for a few days, and I didn't expect to make my godmother angry, which was something I didn't expect.

No, I can't stay in the hospital, I have to go to see my godmother now, I can't let my godmother have any problems with her body because of my selfishness, if that's the case, then I can't forgive myself for the rest of my life.

"Happy, where is Mom now?"

When I sat on the sofa, I was happy and said with a sad face.

"Mom is recuperating at home."

After getting the answer, I ran out without looking back. And at this moment, Song Xingxing's voice came from behind.

"Sister-in-law, where are you going! Are you skipping meals? ”

Where are I still in the mood to eat now, I just want to see how my godmother is doing.

"I won't eat it, I'm going to see my godmother now, and you can give that meal to your brother." With that, I turned around and ran out of the hospital.

When I hurried to the house, my godfather was busy in the kitchen, and when he saw me, he was very surprised.

"Xinxin, aren't you in the hospital! Why did you run back, is there something wrong with the baby, I look at you so anxious. ”

Saying that, the godfather hurriedly walked out of the kitchen, and when the godfather came to me, he looked at me worriedly.

"Dad, the baby is fine, I heard happy that my mother is sick, I came back to see my mother, how is my mother's body now?"