It was a Sunday.

Early in the morning, Zhang Jingchi knocked on my door like a creditor who came to collect debts, I was washing up at that time, and I was drawing drawings, and the door rang like this, I almost scrapped the drawings with a shaking hand.

I opened the door a little depressed, and I glared at him and said, "What are you doing early in the morning, collecting debts, so noisy!" Uncle Ben was so noisy that he almost got the drawings.... ”

Before I finished my words, Zhang Jingchi had already come up, his hand suddenly passed through my hairline and clasped my head, his lips were already on top of mine, and he said a little vaguely: "You have a lot of words." ”

Even after getting along for more than half a year, I still couldn't deal with his sudden sneak attack normally, my face was a little red, and I clenched my fists slightly in a bit of confusion.

Seeing that I was quiet, Zhang Jingchi seemed to be very satisfied, he let go of me happily, and said with a villainous look: "Sure enough, no matter how noisy you are, this trick is still tried and tested." ”

I couldn't get used to seeing him tease me with my smug sourness, so I gave him a disgusted look.

didn't mind my roll of eyes at all, Zhang Jingchi was still in a good mood and said: "Orange classmate, there is a tea exhibition at the convention and exhibition center, which is next to our house, otherwise how about we hold hands and go shopping?" ”

He has been on endless business trips last month, often running in Fujian, Wuhan, and Shanghai on weekends, and we haven't been shopping together for several weekends.

I don't have a habit of wearing makeup, so I put some toner on my face, change my clothes and go out.

In the past half a year, Zhang Jingchi has been infected with the bad problem of talking too much, and he entered the exhibition area of the convention and exhibition center. He began to talk blindly: "It's better to find a big girlfriend to save trouble, as soon as she says that she can go out, she can go out immediately, and even if she doesn't wear makeup, she will stop there for a second." ”

I couldn't afford to be complimented by him, so I glared at him and said, "Okay, be quiet, you think everyone is as blind as you." I know I'm ugly, and if you say it so loudly, I'm afraid that people will laugh at me. ”

Praise people were also complained, Zhang Jingchi was a little depressed, but he held my hand tighter and walked slowly, after a man came over, he pointed at me and asked people coldly: "Dude, do you think my girlfriend is good-looking?" “

The man was stunned for a moment, probably thinking that he had encountered a nervous disorder, but sure enough, the quality was there, he glanced at me and said, "It's beautiful." ”

After the man left, Zhang Jingchi looked at me very proudly and said, "I'm right, strangers also say that you are good-looking." ”

I opened my mouth and was about to speak, but a particularly pleasant voice came from behind me.

This sound is like a tinkling spring in the late autumn, which makes my heart feel slightly cold.

The voice said, "Racing, is that you?" ”

And Zhang Jingchi, who was holding my hand, he didn't know if it was because of nervousness or what, the force he held on my hand was much heavier than just now, and he didn't turn around.

And the owner of this voice soon came to us.

My instincts weren't wrong.

The person who greeted us turned out to be Zhang Jingchi's former senior sister, Qiu Jialing.

Don't ask me why I recognize it at a glance.

Even if you have only seen photos, such a bright and moving woman is not so easy for people to forget her face.

In this bleak autumn, she is still wearing a long white dress, even the simplest style, but on her body is elegant and generous, she has a charm that makes people can't take their eyes off her eyes, and her smile is very bright.

A very peculiar voice came out of my heart, and it kept saying, oh, it turns out that this is the girl Zhang Jingchi once had a crush, and she really deserves his crush.

My low self-esteem was stretched all at once.

I don't know if it was because my hand suddenly hung down weakly, or if Zhang Jingchi forgot to hold on to me, anyway, the hand we were holding was unconsciously released.

And I didn't dare to hold Qiu Jialing's hand again in front of him, as if we had ten fingers clasped together a minute ago.

Because I wasn't sure if I had accidentally let go of his hand just now, or if he had deliberately let go of mine.

At the moment when my hands were empty, my heart became less clear, it became empty, as if I had put all the stoves in it, and I couldn't have a trace of warmth.

I suddenly felt that there was actually an insurmountable gully between me and Zhang Jingchi.

That's how I coaxed.

I stood there a little cramped and restless, and there were a lot of complicated emotions in my heart that were inexplicably rushing.

It wasn't until Qiu Jialing's voice sounded again that I jumped out of the realm of self-forgetfulness.

She stared at me for no less than thirty seconds with her big bright eyes, and then exhaled Rulan and said kindly, "Jingchi, is this your girlfriend?" Looks pretty cute. ”

Many people say that when one wants to praise another person, he really can't find the merits that can be praised, so he will praise a person for being cute.

And am I so bad?

Once again, my low self-esteem swept over me.

Yes, yes, Qiu Jialing and Zhang Jingchi look really compatible, her temperament is so good, she is so elegant, she is so generous and decent, she is really foreign.

It turns out that she and I are really two trains that are in opposite directions, and what did Zhang Jingchi get on my train that looks more like a gray face carrying coal?

It's because I have a crush on him.

I was thinking about it, my hand was suddenly held again, it was my illusion, this time the hand was very light, very light, as light as the cotton that had just been beaten, a touch can knock out a pit, as soon as you throw it away, you can gently float away.

I heard Zhang Jingchi's voice, and he said, "Well, this is my girlfriend, Li Cheng." ”

Zhang Jingchi's introduction had just ended, Qiu Jialing had already stretched out her hand, and said to me with a smile in the corner of her eyes: "Hello Li Cheng, my name is Qiu Jialing, and I am the senior sister of Jingchi." ”

Unlike her brisk and cheerful look, I pressed the turbulence in my heart, and my face was more of a nonchalant smile pulled out, and I said, "It's a pleasure to see you." ”

Qiu Jialing was still smiling, and she said coldly: "I'm also very happy." I thought I would have to wait until Monday to see the race, but I didn't expect to come out to visit a convention and exhibition, and sure enough, the world is very small. ”

Her words made me stunned.

Seeing that I was stunned, Qiu Jialing still smiled and said: "Brother Zhiyong helped me introduce me, but I passed the three-level interview for the position of director of the foreign trade department of Bolian, and I will officially go to work tomorrow." ”

Different from Qiu Jialing's eagerness, Zhang Jingchi, who was standing next to me, reacted a little indifferently, and he said a little lightly: "Congratulations, let's do this first, let's go." ”

After he finished speaking, he took my hand and wanted to leave.

Unexpectedly, Qiu Jialing was still smiling, she seemed to be more familiar with Zhang Jingchi than I expected, she naturally said in a joking tone: "Jingchi, you even have a girlfriend now, I am still nervous in the face, and I have to leave without a few words." It's easy for me to wonder if you're still fond of me. ”

I was stunned for a moment.

She obviously saw Zhang Jingchi taking me here, and she still had to say this, she definitely didn't do it as simple as a joke. She's provoking me, right?

Zhang Jingchi's brows furrowed like this, and he said coldly for a while: "You think too much." ”

Laughing lightly, Qiu Jialing showed two small dimples, she blinked her eyes playfully, and her tone was full of lightness and naturalness: "I'll just make a joke, you still can't get rid of your serious bad habits." What's more, your girlfriend is so cute, and I am happier than anything to see that you have found happiness. ”

After saying these words to Zhang Jingchi, Qiu Jialing turned to look at me and said to me, her eyes and eyebrows were full of sincere blessings, she said: "Li Cheng, you have to hold on to Jingchi, he is very good, I don't know how many women are worried about it." Okay, I'll see you later. ”

After Qiu Jialing left, all my good mood disappeared.

It was a wonderful emotion, and I would think over and over again whether it was I who didn't grasp Zhang Jingchi's hand steadily, or whether he subconsciously shook off my hand. I will also assume over and over again that Zhang Jingchi still can't let go of Qiu Jialing or has already let go, even if I can't find the answer, but it is enough to destroy my happiness.

Just as my emotions were surging violently, Zhang Jingchi, who had been leading me forward, said coldly: "Let's go home." ”

I automatically and consciously attributed his abnormal behavior to the fact that he couldn't let go of Qiu Jialing, and Qiu Jialing had affected his mood to go shopping with me.

I was aggrieved by this conclusion, but he didn't show it too obviously, and I wanted to hold him accountable at this time, which would only make him think I was neurotic and stingy.

I'm not the Virgin Mary, but I thought about it again in a spirit, in fact, Qiu Jialing is quite a match for him, if Zhang Jingchi still loves her deeply, and Qiu Jialing is also in love with Zhang Jingchi, who is now successful in his career, then I will quit. Anyway, I haven't talked to him for more than a year, and he doesn't have deep feelings for me.

I was taken aback by the stupid thought I had, and it lingered in my head.

So in the midst of the emotional turmoil, I followed Zhang Jingchi all the way back home.

After closing the door, I suddenly didn't want to face him, I buried my head and said, "It's getting cold, and the wool I bought last year hasn't been knitted into a sweater, so I'll knit a sweater first, otherwise you won't have a sweater to wear this winter." ”

Actually, I swallowed what I wanted to say later.

I actually wanted to say, "I always feel like you don't belong to me after this winter." ”

But I'm afraid. I'm scared to death. I'm afraid I'll be a prophecy.

The thought of my so-called Mother is actually nothing but self-deception, and I just want to comfort myself and prepare in advance to lose him at any time. I'm actually scared to death, I'm afraid I'll lose him.

I needed a quiet and private corner so much, my nose was very sore, and I was afraid that my eyes would be red in front of him.

So I finished speaking, and I wanted to go to my room, but unexpectedly, Zhang Jingchi grabbed my hand, he pulled me back and stared at my eyes, the expression on his face was extremely serious, and he asked slowly: "Why did you let go of my hand just now?" ”