I was stunned for a moment, and automatically and consciously regarded this as a manifestation of Zhang Jingchi's weakness, he was arguing with strong words.

I thought I could bear it, but I couldn't help but redden.

Is he really weak-hearted? He actually loves Qiu Jialing deeply.

What could make me sadder than this, the man who has lived in my heart for many years, the man I love so much, even if his steps have overlapped with me infinitely, even if he and I hold hands and hug and kiss, even if we have had a less successful skin-to-skin kiss, he still has a place in his heart for other women.

Anyway, for the first time, I realized that having too much imagination would be an absolute disaster for my life.

I'm afraid that my tears will fall, I will be unable to resist accusing him, I will expand the gap between us indefinitely, and he will be tired of crying and crying. So I took off his hand on my shoulder, and I pretended to be casual and said in a very relaxed tone: "Maybe I let go of my nervousness when I saw the beauty, but let's not talk about it, I'll go knit a sweater first, and see that winter is coming." ”

But Zhang Jingchi was stubborn, his hand was attached to my shoulder again, he was a little stubborn, and his tone suddenly raised a degree and said: "I asked why you let go of my hand!" ”

I was taken aback, and all the grievances rooted in my body rushed down like a flood that burst the embankment, and it drowned my reason.

I suddenly raised my head and stared into his eyes, I didn't care about the redness of my eyes, I just stared at him and said, "Zhang Jingchi, in fact, you can't let go of Qiu Jialing, right?" I know very well that it is really difficult to let go of having a crush on someone for many years, and I know this very well. ”

As soon as my words fell, the corners of Zhang Jingchi's mouth twitched, his face suddenly became not very good-looking, his brows furrowed, and he said for a while: "What are you talking nonsense?" ”

My hands are twisted together, and I want to say, I know you can't let her go, but please give me a little more time to let me live in your heart, okay?

But my little pathetic self-esteem supported me, and the pitiful stubbornness in my bones dominated me, and I hated the feelings that needed to be begged, so I was silent for a while before I said slowly: "Zhang Jingchi, if you still like Qiu Jialing, I can quit." I won't embarrass you, I won't get entangled, I'll disappear without a trace, like I never came. I've long forgotten what happened that night, and I don't really need you to be responsible for me. Just once, nothing. ”

With that said, I took his hand off again, somewhat gloomily, and I needed to quickly shut myself in the room, I really desperately needed a corner where I could shed tears.

Unexpectedly, Zhang Jingchi suddenly bent down, picked me up, and walked straight to his bedroom.

He hurried through the door, and he reached out and hooked it shut.

Soon, he put me on the bed.

When I was desperate to get up, Zhang Jingchi still ran and closed the floor-to-ceiling curtains, and while he walked towards the bed, he quickly took off his clothes, and then threw those clothes everywhere.

Before I could react, he was already naked and leaned over and held me down, his hands were constantly tearing at my clothes, and I had one of my buttons scratched off.

I was a little panicked and wanted to push him away, but my hand was suddenly imprisoned by him, and he turned over and imprisoned me under him, and there were so many complicated emotions in his eyes that I couldn't see through it.

He stared at me like this, and said word by word, "Do you think I don't love you?" ”

Looking at each other, I saw that his eyes seemed to be full of burning anger, and they were frighteningly red, and I was so frightened that I was silent, and I opened my mouth but said nothing.

And Zhang Jingchi, he still imprisoned me under him, his fingers were very warm, constantly roaming around my abdomen, and after a while, he gritted his teeth and said: "Li Cheng, do you think I, Zhang Jingchi, am sick!" Do you think that I Zhang Jingchi is fucking sexually impotent, I have lived with you for more than half a year, I promise you that I really don't dare to exceed a single cent if you don't use your hands and feet, do you think that I Zhang Jingchi is not a fucking man at all! I'll tell you directly today, I'm not sick, I'm about to get sick! I'm fucking sick for fear of hurting you, and you think I don't love you! ”

After he finished speaking, he ripped off my clothes indiscriminately.

I was a little dumbfounded by his gnashing of teeth, and by the time I realized that most of my clothes were gone.

In a bright light, I hurriedly pulled the quilt to cover my body, but was blocked by Zhang Jingchi's body, my hand shook, and the quilt fell farther away from me.

I panicked, and said to Zhang Jingchi in a panic: "Don't make trouble." ”

But Zhang Jingchi glared at me fiercely, he quickly leaned down, his lips came up and walked on my face and neck, I passively endured, my psychological defense line was all broken, I said in a panic: "Zhang Jingchi, don't make trouble." I'm going to be angry if you make any more trouble. ”

He looked up, glanced at me with a gloomy face, and said fiercely, "I've been mad at you." ”

I was still struggling, but he quickly got in.

I was completely defeated, and I confronted him with wide eyes.

In these stalemate confrontations, his expression was calm, his movements were very slow and slow, slowly pushing against me one by one, and the pain mixed with other sensations spread throughout my body.

I pursed my mouth so hard that I wouldn't make any noise.

As time went on and his movements intensified, the standoff became more and more difficult.

I don't know how long it took, I felt a heat inside, my sanity and self-esteem were finally gone, my mouth pursed, I looked at the ceiling a little distractedly, and then at the man who was still slowing down on me, my tears suddenly held back, they overflowed from my eye sockets, crossed my cheeks and ran down my ears.

My stubbornness made me want to reach out to wipe these liquids that represented weakness, but my hand was grabbed by Zhang Jingchi at once.

He finally stopped, but he didn't come out, but he leaned down and reached out to help me wipe away my tears, and his lips came up and roamed over mine, and his voice was a little slurred, but I could hear it clearly, and he said, "You are good at everything, but you are stupid." But even if you're stupid, I love you. ”

This was the first time he said he loved me, and I was struck by a huge surprise, and I was stunned for a moment, as if the tear ducts were out of control, and the tears I had just held back were rushing out wantonly.

Zhang Jingchi's hand was busy wiping again, and after a while, he suddenly said harmlessly with a sudden realization: "I know!" It's because I didn't do anything to you after we lived together, that you think I don't love you. ”

It was very unproductive, and my face suddenly turned red, as if I had just been beaten by the crowd.

I hugged the quilt tightly, I twisted my head to the side and stopped facing him, and said with some difficulty, "You come out first." ”

Zhang Jingchi paused for a moment, but remained motionless for a while before he said, "When we reach a consensus on some issues, I will naturally come out." ”

Calmly reaching out to straighten my face and meeting his eyes, Zhang Jingchi suddenly said with bad intentions: "Is it really what I said?" Because I didn't do you any bad to you, do you think I don't love you? If that's the case, I don't mind letting you feel my love every day in the future. ”

My face became hotter and hotter, and after wiping the tears from the ground, I hugged the quilt tighter, and I glared at him fiercely and said, "What are you talking about!" ”

Glancing at me calmly again, Zhang Jingchi's expression suddenly became serious, his hand covered my face, and after a while, he said undoubtedly: "Even if I am gentle to you in love, don't forget that I am a gentleman." I hope in the future I won't hear anything from your mouth again, and if you like anyone, I'll disappear without a trace. I've never started a relationship easily, but from the beginning I was aiming to get married. You can be self-righteous and great, but you must know that this relationship is between me and you, and you can't decide whether to stop or not. ”

I was completely stunned, and I was speechless.

Zhang Jingchi's hand gently brushed the messy bangs in front of me, and there was no doubt in his tone: "You didn't speak, I just listened to my words completely." Don't say you want to leave me at every turn, it's hurtful, and I'll be angry when I hear it. ”

After he finished speaking, he turned over, he quickly moved over and took the paper on the bedside table, and under my insistent resistance, he imprisoned me and cleaned me up, and then helped me pull the quilt up, and found my clothes again, he was about to lift the corner of my quilt, he changed into a very harmless expression and said, "I'll help you put on clothes." ”

I sat up half-wrapped in the quilt, buried my head and quickly grabbed my clothes and whispered, "I'll come by myself, you turn your face away." ”

Zhang Jingchi pursed his lips, and finally sat on the bed obediently with his back to me.

I quickly wrapped myself in the quilt and turned over to put on my clothes.

When I was fully dressed and about to get out of bed, Zhang Jingchi turned around and his arms reached out to wrap me tightly, and I could hear his breathing. His breath lingered in my ears for a long time before he said, "Don't let go of my hand next time." ”

And I was still a little confused about what had just happened, and I was huddled in his arms, not knowing how to react.

The two of them were silent for a while, and I suddenly remembered that we had done nothing earlier.

I used to hear Lin Xiaomei say how miserable it would be for her friends to accidentally get pregnant unmarried, and my rich imagination was troubled again.

After staying in Zhang Jingchi's arms for a while, I stubbornly said, "Zhang Jingchi, can you go and buy me some medicine?" ”

Zhang Jingchi's hand around me suddenly let go, and he asked anxiously, "Where are you uncomfortable?" I'll take you to the doctor right away! ”

I glanced at him a little depressed, searched in my mind for a long time, and then said, "I'm not uncomfortable, but you're going to buy me that Ting, it's the kind of medicine that will get you pregnant." ”