126 I still love you
She spoke softly and very politely.
I was slightly surprised, "May I ask if you are ......?"
"I'm Chenfei'......" She paused in the middle of her speech, as if she was hesitating, not knowing what to say.
But I suddenly thought, "You're an aunt?" ”
Yes, this person is Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother, and this gentle and polite tone reminds me.
"Hmm."
"Auntie, how are you ...... Will you call me? After confirming her identity, I couldn't believe it, and my heart instantly stirred up, and at the same time, a strong sourness swelled up.
I think that when I broke up with Qiao Chenfei, she came to me and said that Qiao Chenfei had been on hunger strike for several days, and she begged me not to leave him, and almost didn't kneel down for me. But I had made up my mind, and I ruthlessly refused.
I remember that she was very angry at that time, and she had always been gentle and kind, and before leaving, she pointed at my nose and scolded me, saying that I was the most vicious and heartless woman in the world, and cursed me for not being able to get love and happiness in my life.
She hates me so much, she can't contact me again, how can she ......
Just when my mind was still stuck in the sad past, Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother's voice sounded in my ears again: "Chenfei came to me a few days ago and took away all your things before, and he was in a very bad mood when he left. So I called you and asked if something was wrong? Did you quarrel? ”
Quarrel?
I was stunned, confused by her words.
Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother chuckled, "I know everything, you have got back together, and you are still ready to get married." ”
"......," I was surprised, "Auntie, are you...... Got it wrong? ”
Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother seemed to be stunned and asked me, "What, isn't it?" ”
What the hell is going on? Didn't she know that Qiao Chenfei had married Yvonne 2 years ago?
It shouldn't be. At that time, Qiao Chenfei had not yet recognized the Lou family, and he was still the son of the Qiao family, so it was impossible for him to hide such a big thing from her mother.
"Oh, no, no. We had a little conflict. I thought there must be something in the middle, and I thought of his disappearance, so I took it wrong and asked, "Auntie, did Chen Fei say anything before leaving?" Did he say where he was going? ”
"That's not it." Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother said, and thought about it again, "By the way, I heard him call and book a plane ticket, it seems that he is going to Hancheng." ”
"Hancheng?" I was taken aback.
"Yes." Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother said with certainty, and asked again, "What's wrong?" Aren't you guys together? ”
"It's not." I immediately dispelled her doubts, and in order to put her at ease, I pretended to be relaxed and said, "He told me that he was going on a business trip, but I didn't know it was Hanshiro." ”
Qiao Chenfei's adoptive mother said "oh" reassuringly, "It's okay if you're fine." It is not easy for two people to come together again, we must cherish it, and don't quarrel again, quarrels hurt feelings. ”
Listening to her persuasion, my eyes were hot, "Well, I see, Auntie." ”
She didn't hear my voice choked up a little, and said with a smile: "Then you are busy, I have time to come back for dinner with Chen Fei, I haven't seen you for a long time." ”
"Okay."
I hung up the phone and immediately booked my ticket.
The reason why I was so surprised when I heard "Hancheng" just now was because it was the place where Qiao Chenfei and I went on a graduation trip, and it was also there that he proposed to me.
I don't know what he was doing there, or why he went back to his adoptive mother's house to get our old things, but I had a strong feeling that it must have something to do with me.
Before going to the airport, I called Lou Shaotang and told him that I was going to Hancheng, but I didn't say that I was going to find Qiao Chenfei, I only said that I was on a business trip.
When he heard this, he was not at ease, and said that he would send someone with me, but I refused, and if he knew the truth, he would definitely be angry. The relationship between the two of us has finally changed for the better, and we can't withstand such a toss.
It was 8 p.m. when I arrived in Hakjo, and as soon as I stepped out of the airport, I saw the city's landmark, Namsan Tower, in the distance. The past with Qiao Chenfei instantly flooded into his mind.
I squinted at the tall tower, the lights on the tower were as bright as they were three years ago, but Qiao Chenfei and I couldn't go back.
This is the so-called thing is not human.
Tilt your head and take a deep breath, letting the cold wind freeze the astringency and sighs in your heart. I called Qiao Chenfei again, but the phone was still turned off. So, I sent him a message and told him that I had arrived in Hancheng. Although I don't know if he will turn it on, I can only try it.
When I arrived at the hotel room, I put down my luggage and went to take a shower, and I just came out after washing, and my phone >
I quickly clicked on it and saw that it was Qiao Chenfei. He told me to go to Namsan Tower now, and he was waiting for me there.
I immediately changed my clothes and took a taxi.
There are not many people in Nanshan Pagoda near the middle of the night, and it is a cold winter, at this time, except for 1 or 2 small vendors selling souvenirs, there are only a few people who look like college students.
They are supposed to be couples, standing in front of a stall selling concentric locks, carefully choosing. Looking at their happy smiles, I seemed to see myself and Qiao Chenfei 3 years ago.
At that time, we were just like them, full of hope and a beautiful vision for the future of the two of us. It's just that the world is unpredictable, and after all, it has become a dream that can never be realized.
My heart became depressed again, and I quickly looked away from Qiao Chenfei's figure. Seeing the tall man standing in front of the statue of the old moon in front of me, I immediately walked towards him.
"Chenfei." Walking behind him, I let out a soft scream.
Qiao Chenfei paused slightly, and slowly turned around.
I was shocked to see his face. His face was haggard, he had lost a lot of weight, his eyes were bloodshot, and the green stubble on his lips made him even more decadent.
What was he so stimulated and why did he become the way he did?
"Chenfei, what's wrong with you? What happened? I asked him worriedly.
"Xiaoying, why?" He stared at me, his eyes darkened.
I was stunned.
At this moment, he exuded a strong and sad aura, similar to the look and pride with which he had beengraved me in the hotel that day.
Xiaoying. Why does he call me Xiaoying again?
Staring at him suspiciously, I asked, "Chenfei, what are you talking about?" What why? ”
I thought he was very unusual, unusually uneasy, even a little scared.
"Why have we come to this point? We...... Aren't they very in love? ”
My heart shuddered, and I couldn't believe how he could say this, and his voice and expression were full of mourning.
"Chenfei, you, what's wrong with you?"
Seeing my shocked face, Qiao Chenfei laughed as if self-deprecatingly, "Do you remember here, Xiaoying?" He looked past me and looked ahead, "We once made a wish here to be together forever, forever." ”
I followed his gaze, and my heart twisted slightly.
It was a chain of guardrails, where he and I used to hang the concentric locks.
The scene of that day came to mind instantly......
"Xiaoying, what do you think we carve up?" Qiao Chenfei held the lock in one hand and the carving knife in the other, and asked me with a smile.
I rolled my eyes and before I had time to think about it, he said: "Just Kefei & Yingyong will be united and love each other forever." ”
My heart was sweet and I nodded, "Okay." ”
After hanging the lock, Qiao Chenfei shook his hand, threw the key far away, then held my face, pecked lightly, and said, "Xiaoying, we will love each other forever, no one can break us apart." ”
I kissed him back, hummed happily, snuggled into his arms, and said to him the beautiful night view of Hanjo.
"And that year." Qiao Chenfei's voice cut off my memories, "After we got the first month's salary for our internship, we bought a cake together, do you remember the words on the cake?" He asked me.
Remember.
How could I forget?
But I don't want to say, it's all gone.
Seeing that I didn't speak, thinking that I didn't remember, Qiao Chenfei seemed to want to evoke my memory and reminded: "It's Qiao Chenfei & Tu Ying, who love each other for a lifetime." ”
"Chenfei."
My heart was very sour and I wanted to stop him from talking any further, but he was already deeply immersed in the quagmire of memories and could not extricate himself, so he continued: "Do you remember the first time we kissed? Under a cherry blossom tree behind the library. It was a sunny day, the wind was soft, and the cherry blossom petals fell on us like a drizzle, and I remember what you were wearing, white ruffled shirt, blue jeans, and canvas shoes. ”
"Don't talk about it." I covered my mouth, trying to keep the tears from falling from my eyes.
I haven't forgotten what he said, but I won't remember it deliberately, it's just a fragment of my life, maybe occasionally I take it out to remember, but it's not about him as a person, but about the youth that never came again.
Those years, those things, and the love for him have long since slowly faded in the past 3 years.
I don't understand why he said this to me all of a sudden? Didn't he hate me, why did he remember these past events, and why did he grieve so much?
At this time, his sad voice sounded again, "Xiaoying, tell me, what did I do wrong?" Why can't we be together? ”
I looked at him with tears in my eyes, and he was already in tears.
"You're not wrong." Suppressing my sadness, I wiped away my tears and choked up, "I...... There doesn't seem to be anything wrong with that. None of us are wrong, we just lost to reality, to fate, to ...... Time. ”
Xiaoyu's illness was an accident, and no one would have expected it. Maybe this is God's will, destined to make me and Qiao Chenfei unable to be together.
"I'm not reconciled!" Hearing me say this, Qiao Chenfei was like a wounded little beast, and roared in pain.
"Xiaoying, I still love you!" He suddenly hugged me, very hard, as if he was going to embed me in his body.
I was amazed. "Chenfei, you're not ......"
"No, it's not!" He seemed to know what I was going to say, and immediately snatched me, and cried, "I hated you, and I did come back to take revenge on you, but when we were together again, I found that I could no longer hate you, and I still loved you, more than ever." ”
"......" His words made me stunned, my brain went blank for a few seconds, but I quickly came to my senses, "Aren't you and Yvonne already married, how can you still say that you love me?" ”
I was a little displeased, and felt that his behavior was a bit shameless.
"Yes, I'm married to her. But I don't love her at all! I hate her, hate her! He let go of me, grabbed me by the shoulders and screamed, his eyes like they were about to burst into flames.
"Why?"
I gasped in surprise, I had never seen him look so resentful, and even if I hurt him like that, his hatred was less than 1/10th of what it was now.
"Why did you marry her if you hated her?" I asked him, puzzled.
The light in his eyes dimmed, and he lowered his arms in a dejected manner, "Because ......" He paused, took a deep breath, and said in a low voice, "Because, I killed someone." ”
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