Bang –

It was like a bomb had been dropped in my head, booming.

"What did you say?" I was stunned, "Chenfei, you, what did you say?" ”

I looked at him in disbelief.

What did he just say?

Homicide?

No, I must have misheard.

Qiao Chenfei's eyes were closed, his face was painful, and he kept taking deep breaths.

His expression undoubtedly showed that what he said was true.

"This ...... This is...... What's going on? "I was chilling and trembling.

How could such a gentle person kill someone?

Qiao Chenfei was silent for a long time before slowly opening his eyes, his eyes full of tears.

"It was my second year in the U.S." His eyes fixed on an unknown point in the distance, and said in a calm voice: "It was your birthday, I missed you very much, so I went to the bar to drink, and on the way home in the middle of the night, I met a black man who robbed me, because I was a little drunk and in a bad mood, so I had a hard time with him, and in the fight, I snatched his gun, and I don't know why I had a hot brain at that time, and hit him with a gun, who knew that I was so coincidentally killed by me." ”

"I was in a panic, it felt like the whole world was falling apart. Just when I was flustered and didn't know what to do, Yvonne happened to be driving by and saw me sitting on the ground like a fool, and she came over and asked me what was going on. I knew her before, she had been pursuing me, but I refused, and when I saw her in that situation, I couldn't care so much, just as she was a lifesaver, and told her about it, and she said that she could help me find someone to blame, but on the condition that I marry her. ”

"I was shocked how she could make such a request, but I didn't want to go to jail, so I didn't think much about it and agreed. Soon after I married her, I learned that the robbery was a conspiracy hatched by her to get me to marry her. When I found out, I was furious and asked her for a divorce, but she refused and threatened me with imprisonment if I divorced her. I had to compromise and continue to be married to her, but in the past 2 years, she and I have never been a real husband and wife for a day. ”

"I had a miserable day, so I blamed you for all this, thinking that you were responsible, so I came back to get revenge on you. In fact, I have always loved you in my heart, I have always loved you, and I have never changed. ”

When he finished speaking, he let out a long sigh, but he could not dissipate the deep grief around him.

I stared at him blankly, and I couldn't have imagined that this was the case.

My whole being was devastated.

"Chenfei, I'm sorry, I hurt you! I hurt you! I'm sorry! I hugged him tightly, weeping bitterly, and my heart ached like a knife.

Before that, I never regretted breaking up with him and marrying Lou Shaotang. I always thought that my decision was right, thinking that he could fly higher and live better without my burden. But now after listening to what he said, I regret it, regret it so much, and hate myself even more!

If it weren't for my selfishness and self-righteousness, he wouldn't have gone to the United States in a bad mood, and if he didn't go to the United States, he wouldn't have met Yvonne, he wouldn't have met that terrible thing.

He was right, I was the source of all his suffering!

It's me, it's me who ruined his life and ruined his happiness!

"Chenfei, Chenfei."

I hurt and hate!

Why, why was it always me hurting him!

I don't know if he had experienced anything other than this, perhaps more painful and terrible than this, but I didn't even care about it after he returned home.

What a bastard I am!

Although no amount of sorry I am for him now, and no amount of repentance to him can change anything, I just can't forgive myself.

So he raised his hand and pulled it in his face, one at a time, ruthlessly, without sparing.

"Xiaoying, what are you doing?" Seeing that I was pumping myself, Qiao Chenfei nervously clasped my hand and stopped me.

"It's not your fault." He said, smiling bitterly, and in turn comforted me, "Didn't you say it, it's fate, and all this is the arrangement of fate." ”

"No......" I couldn't cry, I didn't want to admit any bullshit fate anymore, and only blamed myself for all the blame.

Qiao Chenfei was most reluctant to let me cry before, but now seeing me in tears and heartbroken, he was sadder than me, "Don't cry, Xiaoying." "He himself was in tears, and he helped me wipe away my tears with a full of pity.

But no matter how much he wiped it, my tears kept falling, soaking my whole face.

His tenderness to me is a weight that my life cannot bear, and my debt to him is a debt that I cannot repay in this life.

At this moment, in addition to hating myself, I hate God even more. Hate why it made Xiaoyu sick.

Because of that illness, it completely changed me, changed Qiao Chenfei, and also changed the fate of Lou Shaotang and the three of us.

But now, Lou Shaotang and I are about to be happy, but Qiao Chenfei is sinking into the dark and painful abyss, and I don't know when I will see the light again.

Probably seeing that I couldn't stop crying and wanted to relieve my out-of-control emotions, Qiao Chenfei changed the conversation and said, "Xiaoying, there is actually something I haven't told you. ”

I wiped my tears and asked in a choked voice, "What?" "I'm so scared that he'll say something that makes me sad and guilty.

Qiao Chenfei pursed his lower lip and said, "Originally, I originally wanted to marry you." ”

I looked at him suspiciously.

His face turned a little ashamed, and he said, "Because I love you so much that I don't want to give up on you." So I think Yvonne is in France all the year round, and as long as I do a good job of secrecy, she won't know. But people are not as good as heaven, who would have expected that she would suddenly come to Haicheng to find me, and she also knew that I was going to marry you. ”

"I was so flustered that she told you, so I lied to her and told her that I was taking revenge on you. But in private, she has made a plan to take you directly to live on a small island in Oceania after the church with you, and she will not find it. ”

I was so shocked by his words that I forgot to be sad and stared at him incredulously, "This, this is ridiculous!" I said, "How can you be sure that I am willing to leave everything behind and go there with you?" ”

"I can't say for sure. But that's the only way I can think of it, so I have to give it a go. He looked helpless, and he could tell that this was indeed the way out for which he had no choice.

After speaking, he immediately laughed self-deprecatingly, "Maybe it's really providence, this game is destined for me to lose." ”

He paused and closed his eyes, as if trying to suppress the pain in his heart.

I didn't speak, I didn't dare to speak, for fear of setting off another wave in his heart and me.

After a moment, he reopened his eyes and spoke again, "I was stopped by Yvonne on my way to church, and she already knew all my plans. And just like that, I was back in her cage once and for all. ”

"Later, you and Lou Shaotang went to the hotel to find me, and all the words she said to you were actually forced by her. Xiaoying, when I saw you crying, I was a thousand times more painful than you. So Lou Shaotang beat me, I didn't fight back at all, I really hope he can beat me to death, so that I don't have to suffer anymore. ”

Maybe it's because after venting the depression that has been accumulated in my heart for many years, I feel comfortable. At this time, Qiao Chenfei looked much calmer and more relaxed than just now, but his eyes were still very sad.

I also controlled my excitement and gradually calmed down under the cold wind, but tears still hung on my face.

"Is it cold?" A gust of wind blew, Qiao Chenfei hooked the hair on my face behind my ears, and then took off his coat and draped it over my shoulders.

Looking at his gentle eyebrows, my heart was sad, and tears unconsciously rolled out again.

He doesn't deserve to be happy!

"Chenfei, are you and Yvonne really not divorced? Will you be restrained by her for the rest of your life? "I was very unwilling and unconvinced.

"It's hard." He shook his head, his tone seemed to be resigned, "As long as she doesn't agree, she can't leave." ”

I was confused, "What is the background of that Yvonne, and why is it so horizontal?" Say that if you kill people, you will kill them, and if you say that you will find someone to blame, you will be guilty, so lawless? ”

Seeing that I was very disgusted and criticized Yvonne, Qiao Chenfei frowned and said with a solemn face: "Yvonne's family is very powerful, and it is unimaginable for you and me. ”

"She's a French nobleman?" Thinking of the seemingly innate and powerful aura emanating from her, I guessed.

"Aristocrats?" Qiao Chenfei laughed contemptuously, then pursed his lips, feeling hesitant to tell me.

I became more and more confused, and stared at him.

Maybe my expression was too much to want to know the answer, and after a few seconds, Qiao Chenfei said: "She is not a nobleman, she is an underworld." ”

"......" I was shocked, "Mafia? "I couldn't believe it, and at the same time, the picture of "The Godfather" instantly popped up in my mind.

Seeing that I reacted so much, Qiao Chenfei chuckled, "At the beginning, like you, I was also shocked when I learned about it. ”

"She, she's really a mafia?" It's bloody! I don't believe it.

Qiao Chenfei pursed his lips, "They are not called 'mafia', but they do similar things." ”

"Chenfei, how did you meet that Yvonne?" I was terrified when I heard it, and I couldn't understand how Qiao Chenfei had a relationship with a dangerous person like Yvonne.

"Bad fate." Qiao Chenfei laughed self-deprecatingly, and told me that Yvonne traveled to the United States that year, and one day he was dining at the restaurant where he worked, and he lost his wallet and had no money to pay the bills. It's just that what he didn't expect was that his kindness was exchanged for such a bad reward.

"Chen Fei, you must leave her!" I was anxious in my heart, and I was very worried about Qiao Chenfei's situation, if he continued to be with that Yvonne, he would undoubtedly dance with wolves.

"yes." He said approvingly, and then looked at me fixedly, "So Xiaoying, are you willing to elope with me?" ”

“……”

I stared at him in a daze, not expecting him to say that. Seeing the starry anticipation glint in his dark eyes, my heart ached. There is no way I will elope with him, so I am destined to live up to his hopes again.

Seeing that I frowned and didn't say anything, Qiao Chenfei's eyes darkened again, but he quickly laughed, "I'm kidding you." His face was relaxed and meaningless, "I know, you don't love me anymore, you love Lou Shaotang." But his voice was very low.

"How do you know?" I was surprised, it hadn't been 24 hours since I confessed to Lou Shaotang, and even I wasn't sure about my feelings for him before, where did Qiao Chenfei know?

Qiao Chenfei smiled slightly, smiling very lightly, "I'm not blind, I can see it a long time ago." It's just that you don't realize it. ”

I was slightly stunned, and finally knew what he had said that day. It turned out that he already knew that my sincerity was no longer with him, so he gave it to Lou Shaotang.

I pursed my lips and tried to say something, but it didn't seem appropriate to say anything. Stabbing someone else, saying sorry or going to him to stitch the wound, this kind of behavior is too hypocritical.

So, I had to look away and look at the city lights stretching down the mountain, but my heart couldn't light up.

The love for Qiao Chenfei has passed, but the guilt and guilt for him will remain forever.

"You ...... Have you already made your heart to each other? For a long time, I only heard Qiao Chenfei ask again.

I turned my face back, stared at his mournful countenance, and squeezed a faint "um" out of my throat.

"That's good." He immediately laughed, but the laughter sounded very bitter, "Xiaoying, you must be happy." He said: "Although I hate Lou Shaotang very much, he loves you very much and treats you very well." I can see that. ”

His words instantly hit my tears again. I made him unhappy, but he blessed me.

Why is he so great? Why did it deepen my guilt and self-blame for him?

Deliberately ignoring the bitter smile on his face, and holding back the sadness, I smiled tearfully and said in a slightly relaxed joking tone, "Why do you see it again?!" ”

"Of course, bystanders are clear."

After he finished speaking, we all fell silent again, and we also tacitly agreed not to look at each other anymore, but to look at the night sky in the distance.

The city's neon is so bright that not a single star is visible in the night sky, except for the occasional floating cloud.

The vendors have all taken their stalls and left, and the college couple is gone. The huge platform is empty and silent, and the biting wind whistles in the ears, and the whole atmosphere is doubly sad.

"Xiaoying." I don't know how long it took, Qiao Chenfei's melancholy voice slipped into my ears.

I turned my gaze to him again. "What?"

He stared at me, with no starlight in his eyes, no hope, just a stagnant peace of mind.

"Thank you for loving me." He said lightly, his voice full of powerless sadness.

My heart instantly hurt again. But at this time I can't act as sad as he is, then he will be even sadder. So he held back his tears and smiled at him, "Chenfei, I also thank you for giving me the best youth." ”

Yes, we have known and fallen in love since the first year of college, and in the four years of being in love with him, he did his best to give me happiness and laughter, and held up a blue sky for me with his gentleness.

He was the warmest companion of my youth and the best memory that I will always remember in my mind.

Qiao Chenfei smiled sadly, pursed his lips, took a deep breath, and his eyes moistened again.

"Xiao Ying," after a moment, his voice trembled, and he said, "Can you...... Can you let me ...... again Kissing you one last time? Later we ...... We...... It can only be friends. ”

The sorrow of his farewell made my heart ache, and the hand in his pocket clenched into a fist, and he tried to hold back the tears that were about to burst out of his eyes.

I owe him so much that I am afraid that I will not be able to repay it in a few lifetimes. It would be too cold-blooded and cruel for me to refuse this last, petty request.

"Okay." I smiled and nodded vigorously.

Qiao Chenfei is a measured person, although he kissed my lips, he didn't probe inside, only tossed and turned on my lips.

He kissed me very hard, as if to let me know how reluctant, unwilling and nostalgic he was for me.

Yes, I know, I know everything.

The end of a relationship, what is sad is not the end itself, but that a person has come out,

The other person was still inside, reluctant to come out.

Chenfei, please trust me, I will help you out of the darkness.

I hugged him tightly and kissed him deeply. This is the last tenderness I can give him.

For a moment, I tasted the salty taste, which was his tears, and mine.

We all knew that after this kiss, we would say goodbye to the past.

For a long time, he didn't let go of me, until I felt a cold light coming towards us, and I couldn't help but shudder and suddenly opened my eyes.

When I saw the person standing less than 3 meters behind Qiao Chenfei, I was so shocked that my whole body stiffened.

"Lou, Lou Shaotang."

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