Chapter 130: It's hard to kill yourself if you can't help yourself
I took the child from Jin Xi's hands, and I didn't see it for a few days, and I was so distressed that I was going to die.
"Beanie, Beanie. Hungry or not, mom feeds you. Whoop, whoop, don't cry, baby well, don't cry. ”
I didn't care so much, so I sat on the sofa with my swaddling clothes in my arms, and pulled it away, revealing my breasts that were starting to swell.
Doudou screamed, smelled the milk, and immediately the old horse reached out and hugged it, and wrapped it in one mouthful.
I kept kissing Doudou's face, tears streaming down his forehead.
Jin Xi sat on the sofa opposite me, his gaze was on the part where I was connected with Xiao Doudou, and I leaned slightly sideways to avoid his somewhat tasteless gaze.
"Woo, Mommy, I miss you so much. I miss you so much. I gently patted the swaddling clothes, and as I sobbed, the child's little face trembled.
The amount of bean rice is very large, after eating one, crying again, I showed the other one and he stuffed his mouth with satisfaction, looking at my eyes crooked, as if praising me for being a mother.
I snorted out laughing, staggered to my feet, ignored the other two in the living room, and began to hum melodious lullabies, clapping Doudou's, laughing and crying, crying and laughing like a madman.
Doudou ate and fell asleep, and I stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling window and hugged him tightly, not wanting to look back at Jin Xi, who had already gotten up.
He walked over to me, I shrunk my shoulders and moved to the side: "Jin Xi, don't take Doudou away." ”
"Give the child, to me.
This is the first visit of the month, and if you are good, he will come again next month. ”
"Don't. No! ”
I held the baby back until my back was against the wall, I felt the coolness all over, I looked at the outstretched hand, I turned my back and put Doudou between my wall and my chest.
"Give the child, to me. Don't let me, be rough! The voice behind him had cooled.
At this moment I am a mother who is afraid of being robbed of her child, and my edges and corners have been smoothed out when he reaches out to me to ask for the child.
I put my head against the wall and shook my head desperately: "Don't give, don't give, the child was born to me, and it has nothing to do with you." You don't have the right to take him away, and you don't want to take him in front of me this time! ”
"Anjan!"
He was pressed against my back, his arms propped up on the wall in front of me, he shrouded me in the corner, and my voice became more and more high-pitched: "Don't think about it! Doudou is the treasure of my life, you have planted it for me, I thank you so much, I thank you so much! Okay no! Now he's mine. It's mine! ”
The sleeping little Doudou suddenly opened his eyes and cried because of my loud voice.
I was startled, dangling left and right in a small corner, muttering in my mouth: "Doudou, don't cry, Doudou, don't cry, it's my mother who is wrong, my mother is talking too loudly, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”
His hard chin rested against my shoulder, and his thin breathing stopped in my ear: "Anjian, are you in pain?" ”
I held my breath, my eyes widened, I looked at the child in my arms, listened to his questions, and gradually understood that he snatched the child and gave birth to me and Doudou, all to see me in pain?!
In my daze, he jerked me back and pulled Doudou from my arms with force with his big hands.
And I was afraid that I would hurt Doudou, so I instinctively let go of my hand.
By the time I came back to my senses, Doudou had already fallen into Jin Xi's arms.
I watched in a cold sweat and with tears in my eyes, he turned the child to the nanny next to him, and the nanny quickly ran out of the bungalow with the crying child.
I ran over, but my waist was choked back.
I screamed, "Beanie! Beanie! ”
The door was slammed shut, the air around me seemed to be drained, my eyes grew up, and I reflexively slapped Jin Xi: "Give me back my child!" Give me back my child! I hate you! I hate you! ”
I hit the man in front of me indiscriminately, and he buried his head in my shoulder, hugged me tightly, and a faint laugh came out of his mouth, and he said, "Hehehe, you finally hate me, hate me well, hate me, it's much better than forgetting me." ”
"Crazy! Lunatic! "My eyes were white, but I smelled and bit on his neck.
He wanted to know how much pain I was in, and I bit as hard as I could.
What is harm.
I closed my eyes, and a line of tears flowed, and it was amazing to open my eyes.
Not really
You stab me, I'll poke you.
It's a big deal
The mouth full of blood, unable to resist the hatred in my heart, I wailed, he trembled his shoulders and strangled me to his chest, he said: "If you are good, you will be able to see your son again, if you are not good, he will not remember you as a biological mother." ”
Shrewd.
How can I be well-behaved?
I raised my hand to wipe my tears and stuck out my tongue to lick at his wound.
The man who was holding me hit me with a thrill, he pushed me away, his eyes were red, as if he had also cried, but the expression on his face was with thin anger: "What are you doing?!" ”
"You say, how can you get Doudou back?" As I spoke, I took off my breasts, ripped off my nursing corset, and wore my pants, revealing my big breasts and ugly knife marks.
I looked at Jin Xiyan gloomily: "Didn't it make me miserable?" Isn't your ultimate goal to sleep with me? Okay, come on! I will feel the same pain as Ling Chi, see that I am better than dead, change my Doudou! ”
I think I'm crazy, driven crazy by a madman, and it's disgusting rather than asking him to give me a casual stab.
"Ling Chi?" He tugged at my tie and bow, looked at me with a dark look in his eyes, and I met it with a mocking smile.
He suddenly leaned over, his fingers poking at the softness, and defiantly drawing circles on the erect part.
I looked at him with my teeth bared, endured his evil taste, and my hatred rose wildly and I said, "Ten thousand times more painful than Ling Chi!" ”
"But once, you rode on me and let Lao Tzu support you!"
I had been insulted by his words, but I was still gritted at his crude description.
He was like a male beast who only recognized the female beast, hunched over the tip of his nose and scratched my arteries, sniffing, I straightened my waist and held back his evil hand to press on my waist.
And I never knew it now, there was a sensitive switch in my body, and a shock of electricity suddenly hit my brain, I trembled slightly, and I also pleased the demon king in front of me.
"It's a pity, you're going to hook me and brush up the smell of other men on your body before you come!"
"You say Lu Bing? Heh, I can't wash it off in this life. ”
He suddenly pushed me away, like I was a cheap commodity, not a precious treasure he was holding in his high fever.
Thinking of Lu Bing, my heart was torn apart.
On one side is the child, on the other side is Lu Bing, who does not know life and death, and I can only be anxious in place, but I will not be excited, but will be trampled again.
With a heartbeat, I bounced on the sofa and laughed: "Haha, Jin Xi, I don't know how you want to deal with me, and I am very close to cooperating with you."
Why can't you afford to play? Afraid of falling in love with me again and going against your original intention of revenge on me? Who begged for mercy from my beloved life last night, held the confession of his mistakes, and said that the child is not yours.
Ha, what are you pretending to be high! I'm dirty, and you're not clean! ”
I scooped up the sweater on the ground and put it back, my slender white thighs were stacked together, and I asked coldly: "Doudou, to give or not to give!" ”
Jin Xi's face froze after hearing my exaggerated description, and I thought he had believed my words, and his face showed a trace of chagrin.
"An Jian, you are not qualified to negotiate terms with me, I will treat my son well, if you behave better, I will let you see it for half a month. But now"
He pursed his lips, raised his leg and turned around: "I'll find a suitable nurse!" ”
"Jin Xi" The last word stuck in my throat, and I grabbed my head and shouted: "What the hell are you asking me to do?" Yes! ”
He paused and whispered, "Remember me, so that I can settle the score." ”
"Then take me to Hao Luotiana! Take me there! ”
"Hao Luotian? You'd better not move any more to find his thoughts! ”
Leaving ambiguous words, Jin Xi shook his hand and walked out of the door, and the door was locked again.
I was a deflated ball, curled up on the couch, holding my head for nothing.
Trying my best to eliminate a person, in the end, I still have to struggle with how to enrich my memory.
"Jin Xi, Jin Xi, what is your name Jin Xi?" I grabbed my hair, and the tearing sensation made me shiver for a while.
Gritting my teeth and getting up, I rushed into every room, rummaging through every drawer, every closet.
In the deepest room on the second floor, I found a locked door, and I kicked it.
I slipped to the ground, listening to the ticking alarm coming from the side of the door, and my whole head hurt with pins and needles.
A thought stumbled through me, and I stumbled back to my bedroom, rummaging through the last remaining house.
Finally, I found the box for the vial in the drawer of my bedside table, and finally saw the patient's name on a white paper bag containing the scattered tablets:
Jin Xiyan.
Looking at the last dazzling word, I desperately memorized it, shouting over and over again, for fear of forgetting the last word.
A burst of darkness eroded me, and Hao Luotian's voice suddenly appeared in my mind, and he comforted me softly:
Don't struggle hard, you will slowly forget Jin Xiyan, it won't hurt if you forget, except for me, no one can untie your heart knot obediently, after you wake up, I will give you happiness
Obviously soft and gentle, but with a cool smell, made me tremble, I held the name on the white medicine bag, with the sound of continuous hypnotization in my head gradually dissipated.
Cocooning myself, perhaps it may be me, I need to remember something to solve this endless dilemma, I rolled over the bed with my head in my hands, screaming in pain over and over again:
"Jin Xiyan! I remember! Jin Xiyan! Your name is Jin Xiyan! Return my Doudou, return my Doudou Jin Xi Jin Xi"
The white medicine bag turned into a dazzling light source, and my vision was hollow and I didn't know where to go, but I felt more and more suffocated.
The door was banging, and my head was pressed against his shoulder by a large hand.
He shook and stroked my sweaty back, hugged me and shook, he muttered to himself, I couldn't hear clearly, I was full of babbling: "Your name is Jin Xiyan, I won't forget, return Doudou to me, okay"
Later, I learned that before he drove me crazy, I was also driven to a dead end. He is also the one who is crazy to the extreme.
I was dazed, he carried me on my back, and with unsteady steps, he led me out of this building
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