"Well, I don't know." He stuttered slightly on the phone.

"Thank you!" I hung up.

When I was with Shen Mo, the people around him treated me very well, no matter what he asked, he was honest and serious. Right now...... I sneered in my heart, I am an adult, and I should know the truth of people taking tea and cooling, but why is my heart still so uncomfortable?

After sitting for a while, I really didn't have the heart to do anything. I thought of a lot of reasons for Shen Mo, I was forced by Cheng Mo, or I had some last resort...... However, there was not a single reason to convince my own.

Finally, I couldn't sit still.

Picking up my bag, I went downstairs to start the car and drove directly to the nameless house. It's a familiar place, but it gives me a strange feeling.

knocked on the door, and it was Xiao Zhao who opened the door, but when he saw me, he was obviously stunned.

I didn't say anything, I walked inside with a faint smile, he hesitated for a moment or stretched out his hand to stop me and asked, "Miss Cheng, have you made an appointment?" ”

"Do I still need to make an appointment?" I asked rhetorically.

He looked puzzled, and finally had to say, "I'm sorry, you need to make an appointment." ”

I'm angry.

This matter must have been arranged by Shen Mo, otherwise the people here would not have blocked my way. I stretched out my hand and pushed away Xiao Zhao who was blocking in front of me and walked straight forward. He chased me two steps behind me, then stopped, and said to You with the walkie-talkie in his hand: "Miss Cheng is here, I can't stop her." ”

I sneered in my heart: Shen Mo, you are really good, you have used the word blocking me.

A voice came from Xiao Zhao's walkie-talkie, and I didn't hear what was said clearly when I walked far, but my heart settled down at this moment.

This is the last time I ask Shen Mo, if he gives me a definite answer, then there is really no need to communicate in the future.

As I walked to his small courtyard, where he lived alone, I saw him come out of the gate.

Green bricks and green tiles, some old log-colored gates, next to the door is a decades-old honeysuckle vine with huge branches, now is not the honeysuckle blooming season, full of greenery.

Shen Mo was wearing dark gray pants and a beige pure linen shirt, and as soon as he stood there, he could enter the painting.

When I saw him, I suddenly lost the courage to question. People like me and him are not people of the same world at all. But, it's all here, and I don't want to be reconciled if I don't ask clearly. So, I straightened my body and walked in front of Shen Mo.

"Whether you have time or not, you must give me half an hour today, I want to have a serious chat with you." I'll open my mouth first.

Shen Mo nodded, turned around, leaned on the door and said, "Come in and talk." ”

He had a wisteria flower in his small yard, as well as a grape trellis. Below the grape trellis is Shen Mo's tea table and tea set, he likes to drink tea and read books when the weather is good, and under the wisteria trellis, there is a swing hanging, which is not intended to be said by me, he found someone to make it.

Now, as soon as I entered the door, I saw a woman wearing the same "seqin" dress as Shen Mo sitting on the swing, holding the swing with one hand, leaning out half of her body to look at me, and at the same time smiled at Shen Mo and asked, "Is this the Cheng Zi you told me?" ”

At this moment, my heart felt like I had been stabbed with a knife, and I almost vomited in pain.

"Yes, we have something to talk about separately, if you get tired of staying in the courtyard, you can go to Houhai for a walk. I'll call you and find you later. Shen Mo said.

"It's okay, you guys get busy first." The woman said.

I looked at Shen Mo, he didn't mean to introduce the woman in front of me to me. I waited for a few seconds, and when I saw Shen Mo turn around and was about to go inside, I immediately said, "Shen Mo, don't you introduce me?" She knows me, but I don't know her, isn't it a little unfair? ”

Shen Mo stopped, glanced back at me, then looked at the woman, and said to me, "This is Gu Xin, my friend. ”

I walked over to her, stretched out my hand and said, "Hello, Gu Xin." I am Cheng Zi, and I am Shen Mo's ex-girlfriend. ”

"Well, I know yours, Shen Mo said it." Gu Xin said.

She didn't mind me at all when it came to introducing myself. I saw her calm attitude, and I minded first. It turned out that Shen Mo really had nothing to hide from her, and he told her everything.

"You broke up, I know." Gu Xin said again.

Shen Mo didn't speak on the side, and I couldn't bear it myself. I can't say how sad I feel in my heart, but I still have a smile on my face. When Shen Mo and I walked into the house, the muscles on my face hurt with laughter.

"Why bother?" Shen Mo asked first.

"I suddenly felt that I didn't know when we were together, but I didn't know anything about you." I sat down on the couch and said to him.

Shen Mo turned around and poured me water, handed it to me before saying, "It's not that I don't understand, but I don't want you to know the other side of me." I hope that in front of you, I will always be perfect, I'm sorry. This perfection will not last long. ”

"Gu Xin and you are new acquaintances? I don't think so. Now, do you define her as your new girlfriend? I asked.

This kind of thing is for me to say it myself, and every word is like a knife, and it comes out only when it is pierced in the throat.

"It's not." Shen Mo immediately retorted.

I rejoiced in my heart and gave birth to some hope: "Then ...... you are"

"But it won't be long before it's a new girlfriend." Shen Mo didn't wait for me to finish and interrupted me. The smile in the corner of my eye was extinguished by a pot of hot water before I could bloom.

My head buzzed, and I didn't have to look in the mirror, and I knew I was pale now. Because my facial features don't seem to be my own, I can't hear what he's saying, my ears are full of buzzing, I can't see everything in front of me clearly, his movements and facial features are blurred, I'm like a person who has sunk to the bottom of the water, everything outside is vaguely transmitted, I know what is happening, but it's not real.

Shen Mo noticed my strangeness, stopped, looked at me with concern and asked, "How is it?" Do you want to go to the hospital? ”

I shook my head, and everything around me slowly became clear again.

Outside, there was a pigeon whistle coming in from afar, high and far away, the sound of birds chirping on the branches, the sound of the heart of the valley squeaking and shaking the swing on the swing.

"It's fine, you don't have to go to the hospital." I said to Shen Mo.

"That's it, after breaking up with you, I met her, and suddenly I found that the type I liked, it was like her. I am not deep in life, simple-minded, my eyes are clean, I believe in me 100%, and I never doubt it. Shen Mo continued.

I listened to him use a bunch of beautiful words on Gu Xin, and I felt that my mouth began to taste bitter.

"I was originally here to question you, and when I heard that you found true love, I wanted to bless you a little." I said to Shen Mo.

"Thank you, your blessing is very important to me, and I look forward to inviting you when we get married in the future." Shen Mo said again.

The last string in my head snapped at that moment.

After another long time in a trance, I recovered again. For almost two minutes, Shen Mo kept talking, and I didn't hear a word clearly.

However, now I have no position to question him for any reason.

I don't even have a reason to ask him to repeat what he just said.

The time soon came to half an hour, and I saw Shen Mo looking at his watch.

"Shen Mo, you think that you really love her. And what about you? What are your feelings for me? Now that we've all broken up, we might as well give a definition. I said.

Shen Mo stopped and thought for a while before saying, "Friends are above, love is below." ”

"Why? How can you be sure that to me, you have never been in love? I asked again.

When I asked these words, I seemed to jump out of my body, floating in mid-air and looking at Shen Mo and me, calm and rational.

"Because I don't have sex + urge for you." Shen Mo said in a very slow voice.

I was speechless.

This reason, a hundred points, no one can say anything to refute it.

I smiled and shook hands with him, said goodbye politely, and then half-jokingly asked him to give me a diamond membership card.

My performance reassured him, I clearly saw him breathe a sigh of relief, casually picked up a card from the small table next to me, handed it to me and said, "I have prepared it for you, whether you come by yourself or a friend in the future, you will be free of charge." ”

I unceremoniously took it in my hand and said thank you generously to him.

"Cheng Zi, no matter what happens, I will treat it like my own sister." Shen Mo said.

I raised my hand to say goodbye to him, and I left the Nameless House in the sunshine of the courtyard. Walking out and looking at the long alley in front of me, I burst into tears.

I didn't drive, I walked, and measured my life in this area step by step.

Eventually, my feet got tired, and I took a rickshaw back to the parking lot. I sat back in the comfortable leather seats, and I suddenly felt so good. I remember seeing a sentence on the Internet, people must be rich, even if you fall out of love, you can come to a luxury tour that you can go and go, go to the Rhine River to shed tears, you don't have to cry until midnight while being sad, and you have to get up and go to work the next day. Now, I feel very good, I am tired, I can go back to my car, my love is gone, and I still have my own company.

Fuck it! It's not true + love with me, it's not sexual + impulsive to me, and it's against your uncle!

I slammed the steering wheel, my hand bones ached, and I finally started to leave, took one last look at the nameless house, and left.

On the way back, I said to myself: I'm not hypocritical, isn't it just a lost love. I've been divorced, so I'm afraid of falling out of love! However, the more I do this psychological construction for myself in my heart, the more tears flow. I cried while driving, trying to get rid of my tears before I got home.

When I thought of what Shen Mo said to me, I couldn't stop crying.

It was only then that I clearly knew that this was the taste of broken love. It was also at this time that I realized that I really had no feelings for Fang Jianguo. When we divorced, all I thought about was how he was sorry for me and how much he had given him. And Shen Mo is different, I can't think of anything, my mind is full of his face, his words, and the things we experienced together, but I can't remember a single thing.

Don't worry, the plot is unfolding, and the male protagonist is neither as scummy as everyone thinks, nor as good as everyone thinks! Boom!