1

When I went to school, the scumbags in the back row liked to stack the textbooks high, like a small castle, so that they could secretly do what they liked during class time, and it was not easy to be discovered by the teacher.

Therefore, when classes are in class, especially in spring and summer, when sleepiness is most likely, only stacks of textbooks can be seen in the back rows of the classroom. The classmates all slept hard, occasionally poking out a few heads, and drooping their eyelids, where they were pestle like a stake. But as soon as the bell rang for the end of class, one by two popped up, stretching and immediately becoming vibrant.

There is also a secret pavilion in He Li's book stack, and she has made a hole in a thick English dictionary, usually hiding her MP3, but one day, I actually saw He Li take out a small mirror from it, look at it, and spend all the time in class looking in the mirror.

He Li also began to stink.

I can often see He Li staring at the mirror in a daze, sometimes she stares at her facial features will slightly raise her face, He Li's facial features are still good-looking, if it weren't for the messy short hair, she is definitely a big-eyed beauty. After seeing enough of his facial features, He Li usually suddenly turned his head, and then squinted his eyes, and the scar on his left forehead was clearly visible. After only seeing that glance, she put away the mirror, and with it, the light in her eyes.

No matter how many times he looks in the mirror, He Li always has to take a look at the scar in the end, every time he doesn't want to look at it, he looks at the grievance, and every time he can't help but look at it again.

"Jiang Xingyu!" Ho Li called out to me.

"What?"

"I want to have long hair." I always remember that when He Li said this sentence was an afternoon in the third year of junior high school, there were still fifteen minutes and thirty-four seconds before the end of the last class in the afternoon, the math textbook turned to page 43, and the teacher was explaining the second question of the after-class exercise, He Li smiled at her, the afternoon sun was rippling, and her eyes were still clearly visible in the brilliance, which was all her desire for beauty.

"Will it look good?" He Li asked me.

"Yes, it's going to look good." I'm not comforting He Li, He Li is really good-looking. God has blessed us with youth, and also given us pimples, when youth blooms wantonly on the face, He Li does not have the troubles of most girls, even if she often eats spicy strips, but not a single acne grows. He Li's skin is very fair, her lips are red and her teeth are white, and at the age of fifteen or sixteen, she needs a good hair.

He Li is the kind of girl that boys regret not chasing after graduation.

Growing long hair is a long process that involves trimming and shears, and my mom is Ho Li's exclusive barber. Mom knows some haircuts, but only some simple skills, my hair was cut by my mother before I was not handsome, and then I learned from others that it was not mainstream, and I never let my mother get a haircut again.

He Li's hair is relatively simple to cut, just a little thinner, the length is the same, and let it grow. Mom's haircutting tools are also simple, a torn sheet tied around the neck is used as a haircut cloth, plus a pair of household scissors can start work.

At that time, there was no particularly large mirror at home, so I held a small mirror in front, and my mother asked me to go to the left a little bit and I went to the left, and I went to the right and I went to the right. ”

I laughed: "Mistake, mistake." ”

After holding the mirror for a long time, my hands were sore, and when I got impatient, I said, "Okay, no, I can't lift it!" ”

"It's coming, it's coming." Mom stared at the mirror and perfunctory me, but she couldn't do it faster.

"Auntie, I will let you cut my hair when I have a child in the future." He Li said.

My mom cut her hair and said, "Okay, don't be disgusted that I don't look good." ”

"I don't dislike it, but your skills really need to be improved, haha"

Taking advantage of my mother's giggles, I quickly interjected: "Don't let me hold up the mirror when the time comes!" ”

Ha ha.

2

He Li's hair has been grown for more than half a year, and until the first semester of high school, her long hair can already cover the scar on her head, even if the scar is faint, it does not affect the appearance.

I accompanied He Li to the best barber shop in town, He Li rarely went to such a shiny, tall and tall place, and this time I persuaded her for a long time.

I said, "Don't be afraid, you're already a little beauty, are you worried that you're too beautiful and will chase you too much?" Don't worry, if there are more people chasing you, I will help you check it. ”

He Li sneered, and said a little shyly: "How can there be! You're going to make fun of me. ”

"Otherwise, I'll take you to see the stinky people who go to the barbershop, and I promise you that none of them are as good-looking as you."

"Okay, let's go see."

He Li and I went to the porch in front of the barber shop and sat down, it deserved to be the best barber shop in town, and there were really many people coming in and out. As soon as she sat down, a fat woman came, the fat one was estimated to weigh about one hundred and twenty pounds, half of it, and the clothes on her body were unbearable, and her fat face was covered with all kinds of cosmetics.

I said to He Li: "Look, you haven't given up on yourself like this, what are you afraid of?" ”

He Li gave me a slap in the face and said, "Shhh Be quiet, and people will hear you. ”

"Look at this again, look at the pimples on this face, can you compare to you?" As he was talking, a man came out of the barbershop.

"You really can't compare to me." He Li seems to have some idea of going in.

"That's it, let's go in and let them see what a beautiful woman in our family." He Li didn't regret it, so I pulled He Li and walked to the store.

We were greeted by a very good-looking sister, she smiled brightly and kindly, like the eldest sister next door, and she said in a very nice voice: "Do you both have haircuts?" ”

"No, she has a scissor, I handed her over to you, how good it looks." I say.

"Okay, come with me, wash your hair first." The eldest sister next door saw that He Li was a little shy, and put a hand on He Li's shoulder, He Li did not refuse, it was indeed difficult for such a kind sister to refuse.

He Li and his sister went up to the second floor together, and I sat on the sofa next to the cash register and waited, turning my head to meet the boss who was playing a game at the cash register.

Isn't he the big brother who saved me and He Li before!

"Girlfriend?" Big Brother opened his mouth first, he said jokingly.

"No, no." I hurriedly waved my hand, and at the age of sixteen, I was still a little shy to deal with this kind of problem.

Big Brother smiled and continued to play his CF, and when the game was over, he sat on a stool with wheels and slid to me, and he said, "You know what, you don't look like your brother at all?" ”

"Really? I always thought I was following his old path. ”

"You don't look like him at all, before and after, inside and out, except for a little."

"What?"

"Name." Big Brother lit a cigarette as he spoke, and he handed me one, still spitting smoke in his mouth, and said, "Or?" ”

"Oh, no, no," I chuckled, waving my hand and not smoking his cigarette, I really don't smoke much. I didn't ask him what the difference between his brother and me was, it didn't make much sense, at the age of sixteen, I was already like this. I just asked him, "Are you friends with my brother?" ”

"Well, very good friend."

I paused and said, "Thank you for what happened last time." ”

"It's fine." Big Brother is very bold.

"And what do I call you?"

"Just call me Brother Cheng!"

"Okay, Brother Cheng!"

I also want to say thank you again to Brother Cheng, thank him for telling me that I am different from my brother, and that I am not like him at all, and let me know that I am always myself.

Thank you!

I also want to say thank you to Brother Cheng, thank you Brother Cheng for remembering him and remembering my own brother.

Thank you!

But I didn't say anything, I just picked up the lighter on the front desk and lit the cigarette that Brother Cheng threw me. Smoke, I'll still smoke a little.

"What kind of cigarette are you smoking, little brat!" Brother Cheng slapped me on the head and snatched the cigarette away.

I had to laugh, and he looked like an older brother.

3

Despite all the preparation I had to do to have long hair, I was amazed at her beauty when she came down from the second floor of the barbershop.

He Li cut the most ordinary hairstyle at that time, with the kind of air bangs in front of her eyebrows, and the long hair in the back was simply on her shoulders, and her beautiful face even made this ordinary hairstyle even more chic.

I can't describe this beauty, because in my opinion, everything should be taken for granted, what is the big deal, why should she be so good-looking.

I dragged He Li to the mirror, and we looked at her who was beautiful now, she was a little shy, and the smile on her face couldn't be held back because she was happy, she asked me in a low voice: "Is it good-looking?" ”

"I should ask you this sentence, is it good-looking?"

"Beautiful." He Li whispered, she couldn't close her mouth with a smile, but she still said these two words very clearly and affirmatively.

"Isn't it pretty, say it out loud."

"Good-looking, I'm good-looking now." He Li said very loudly, she laughed, happy, and her eyes were filled with tears when she smiled.

After many years, the tears in He Li's eyes finally flowed.

When she was a child, she should have cried when Wang Fatzi bullied her, she should have cried when the girls deliberately alienated her, and she should have cried when Uncle He taught her, but she chose to be silent. Now, she is crying, and all these years of grievances have finally been released.

She buried her head in my shoulder, rubbed her tears and snot on my clothes, I put my arm around He Li's shoulder, shook her thin body and said, "Okay, don't cry, if you cry again, it will be ugly again."

He Li raised her head to look at herself in the mirror, her eyes were already red, and she pulled up the corner of my clothes and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, she gradually collected her emotions and smiled.

The tears in the corners of the eyes are gone, the smile at the corners of the mouth is high, and the beauty of He Li is generous at this moment.

When leaving the barbershop, Big Brother didn't take any money.

The eldest sister next door said: "Such a good-looking little girl, just go back to school to help us advertise and be the spokesperson of our family." ”

"Okay, thank you, sister." He Li and I would like to thank you vigorously.

When I returned to the classroom, I was already studying at night, but fortunately the teacher didn't come, He Li and I secretly slipped back to our seats through the back door of the classroom, although it was the back door, it still caused a lot of restlessness.

"Wow." The boys and girls who saw He Li all coaxed together, and some boys even shouted "Banhua" directly.

He Li was at a loss for a while, hurriedly returned to her seat, and found the books, she was really panicked, she didn't even move the textbooks on weekdays.

Everyone could see that He Li was pretending to be calm.

Sitting next to He Li, I called out to her softly, "Hey! ”

He Li turned his head and looked at me seriously.

"When you came home, you washed my clothes, and you saw that you were all snot and tears."

"I don't."

He Li smiled slightly, it was even better-looking.

4

A month after He Li became the class flower, a New Year's Day party was going to be organized in the class, and I secretly helped He Li report a program, and the girl sang Mayday "Contentment" solo.

He Li likes Mayday, her MP3s are full of Mayday songs, and most of the time He Li is silent in her corner, it is these songs that are sometimes quiet and sometimes lively that accompany her.

After entering junior high school, the school will have evening self-study, and it is He Li and I who go home from school in the evening, and sometimes Satisfaction and Li Shu will also join us. We talked and laughed along the way, and the happiest thing was that He Zhi sang to us.

I'm a music nerd, I don't know anything about music, I can only express my hearing feelings in terms of good and bad sounds. It's like being satisfied with singing, it's not good, it's ugly, it's like pouring chili water into your ears. He Li's singing is good, and Satisfaction and Li Shu also agree that so.

In fact, He Li's voice is also good, but she cherishes words like gold, and few people know it. He Li's singing voice is very ethereal, like the distant birdsong in the valley, and as soon as the simple and natural timbre comes out, the secrets from the depths of the forest are heard by the world.

On New Year's Day, the classroom was decorated with bells and whistles, and the decorations that the students bought haphazardly and dressed up separately became a style. There are various decorations on the glass windows, energy-saving lamps are pasted with thin colored paper to become colored lights, and "Happy New Year" is written in chalk on the blackboard.

Before the party began, after I helped vacate the desks in the classroom, I found He Li, who was chatting with a few girls. Yes, now He Li will also talk to others about the world.

"What a reason!" I called her.

"What's wrong?"

"The fifth show tonight is yours, right after the satisfying sketch."

"Can you be serious, what are you kidding!" He Li didn't believe it at all.

"I'm serious, I secretly helped you register with the entertainment commissioner before."

He Li's face changed instantly, he was very confused and angry, and he stomped his feet angrily, eager to put me to the ground and step on a few feet.

"He Li, you listen to me, in fact, you are not afraid at all, you are such a brave person, you are just used to staying in the corner, but He Li, you are seventeen years old, you are so beautiful, you should be in the center of the stage."

He Li quieted down, and I continued: "He Li, I believe that you will be beautiful and beautiful standing on the stage. ”

"And what show did you report on?" He Li said angrily, it's quite cute.

"Solo 'Contentment.'"

He Li didn't say anything, and I knew she was going to love the song.

"If you're scared, can I sing with you?" At this time, I said with a hippie smile, seeing that He Li agreed, the stone in my heart fell to the ground.

"Your voice will tear it down!"

"Hehe, then you sing, come on!"

"Okay, okay, let me tell me now, let me write down the lyrics."

"Okay, I won't bother you, if you need to tell me, I'll serve our big star."

The winter sun is setting fast, the night has just fallen, and the New Year's Day party of our class has begun.

After a few shows, the students sometimes cheered and sometimes quiet, satisfied with the big living treasure on weekdays, his sketches made everyone laugh, only He Li seemed to be a little nervous like a person outside the situation. I remembered that when He Li and I first entered school, the teacher asked us to come on stage to introduce ourselves, He Li was also very nervous, I helped her that time, and I wanted to help her this time.

Nervousness is nervousness, and it is still necessary to go up.

"Next, let's ask He Li to sing Mayday's "Contentment" for us solo." The host's voice fell, and the students shouted wildly, and after the wild shouting, some students turned their heads to each other, and this air, who had never heard her speech on weekdays, actually came to the stage to sing.

He Li walked up to the stage, but she couldn't help but walk to the left side of the stage.

The prelude remembered that He Li counted the beats quietly, and she was very forgetful, as if she had forgotten the audience. I secretly stood up and walked to He Li's side, and gently pushed her, He Li was a little resistant when she first reacted, but she didn't have as much strength as me, she simply took small steps by herself, until she stacked in the center of the stage.

He Li's singing voice, everyone was quiet.

"How to have a rainbow

How to embrace the summer wind

The stars in the sky laugh at the people on the earth

I can't always understand and can't know enough

If I fall in love with your smile

How to collect, how to own

If you're happy it's not for me

Whether or not to let go is actually to have

……”

That night, the lights in the classroom were warm, and He Li was wearing warm bread clothes, and her gaze was like a warm wind, as well as her singing, which were very warm.

She should have been such a warm person.

The song ended, cheers and applause followed, and a naughty boy outside the window shouted, "I love you!" ”

He Li walked off the stage, several girls surrounded her, pulled her to sit down, in the crowd she found me, gave me a smile that only belonged to me, I also smiled, she didn't seem to see.

The show continued, we all watched the performance seriously, and now He Li was sitting in the middle of the crowd, and her left was no longer a corner, a position that used to be only I could squeeze into, but now there are many people.

I sneaked a few glances at He Li, in the crowd, she cheered, she applauded, or as quiet as before, she was so calm, like everyone else, and shining brighter than everyone else.

I'm happy, but mixed with some other emotions, is it loss? Jealous? Remorse? Neither. I didn't know until many years later, and I admit it, I was just jealous.

5

After the New Year's Day party, He Li received several love letters, and she is now a goddess. He Li threw the love letter to me and said, "You said, help me check it." ”

"You don't have to look at this, pass!" I opened the first envelope, and it turned out to be Wang Fatzi.

"Who? Anyway, I'm also a suitor, so I don't have to turn it down so quickly. ”

I gave the signature to He Li, "Show you, show you, it's all your suitors." ”

"This fat man is so thick-skinned." He Li saw that it was Wang Fatzi, and turned his head to look at the next one.

The next one was Chen Yu, and I said, "Isn't this the top student, you can't delay other people's studies." ”

"Yes, yes, you can't delay other people's learning." He Li said.

"But you're amazing, this good boy is obsessed with you."

"That's it!" He Li handed me a love letter while being deterred: "What about this? ”

I took the love letter, and I really couldn't remember anything bad about this person for a while, he was Li Yun who shouted "I love you" outside the window on the day of the New Year's Day party, Li Yun is from the next class, this guy has a good personality, I often play ball with him, the ball is better than me, and he is a little more handsome than me.

"This ......" I subconsciously wanted to say bad things about Li Yun, but there was really nothing bad to say for a while.

"This isn't bad, is it?" He Li snatched the letter from my hand and said with joy.

There is a kind of person in this world who is willing to shelter you from the wind and rain, and there is another kind of person who takes your hand and breaks into the heavy rain, regardless of the mud, regardless of the wind and rain, regardless of the direction, only cares about freedom, people are hiding in the house, and the world is wider. For He Li, I am the former, and Li Yun is the latter.

Li Yun is the main force of the school basketball team, and he let He Li enter the school basketball cheerleading team through his connections, and they go to the county's games together, and he brings her glory.

Li Yun sings well, the school's art show, he and He Li sang Mayday's "Miss You Every Day" together, and a scumbag like me didn't even have the opportunity to be an audience, he brought her a bigger stage.

Li Yun is also a romantic person, the first snow of winter came, the playground was covered in silver, he took He Li to get up early in the morning, ran in the snow, ran out of a "love", as soon as the day dawned, all the classmates saw it, he brought her a feeling of happiness.

He Li described these interesting experiences to me, on the way home together, in an evening self-study without a teacher, she said with a smile on her face, and the smile she didn't have before the age of seventeen seemed to bloom in this moment.

I always respond with "um" or "ah", but I must be smiling too, and I don't know if I'm really happy for He Li or hiding my inner loss, maybe both.

Why should I feel lost? That's what I want her to be. Sometimes I feel like I used to be.

6

In a flash, it was the second year of high school, and the final exam was approaching that day, and the first day of the exam was over, and the teachers were busy correcting the papers, and the power suddenly went out in the evening self-study classroom.

There is such a thing as a power outage, and the students who love to study can only sigh, and some have already prepared candles, and they have to read books when they light candles. The scumbags are happy, and the whole school is cheering when the power goes out, after all, you can not read openly.

Of course, there are also students who take advantage of the darkness to do things.

Our class was in a mess, and the disciplinary committee didn't work at this moment, so I heard him shout: "Stop talking, be quiet!" "But it's always quiet, let's make trouble, just make trouble, and I don't know who is who.

At this time, a group of people came in from the back door, all with colored lights, and the colored lights surrounded a large pink lamp, and the one holding the pink lamp was Li Yun.

Li Yun came to He Li and handed the lamp to He Li, He Li was a little confused, this battle is indeed a bit big.

Li Yun said: "I've been waiting for a summer for the power outage, but I can be regarded as waiting." At this time, the classroom was quiet, his eyes were focused, and Li Yun was also a little shy.

"Ahem, ahem, huh." Li Yun coughed twice, moistened his throat, and relieved his nervousness, he didn't expect that he would be so confident that people would also be nervous, he said: "He Li, the first time I saw you was also in this classroom, you are singing contentment, I said a word outside the window that day, and today I want to say it more grandly." ”

The lights were a little dim, and the crowd was pouring around He Li's seat, and I was trying to escape in the corner of the back row. I was about to slip away through the back door, but I was hugged by Li Shu, who was so tall and big that I couldn't break free at all.

Li Shu said: "Star Domain, don't be afraid, He Li won't be with him." ”

"Yes, I'm sure He Li won't be with him." That's when satisfaction came to me.

I had to wait quietly in the corner for a result, and I felt lucky to have two friends, Li Shu and Satisfaction.

"Needless to say, the teacher said that you can't fall in love!" This is He Li's answer to Li Yun, He Li said it very seriously, her voice was very low, but it was enough for everyone to hear.

I think this reason for refusal is really a bit far-fetched, the teacher still asked you to study hard, and I didn't see you go up every day.

Li Yun still wanted to say it, but he was pressed down by He Li before he could say it.

"I said needless to say, I told you that we were friends." He Li's tone revealed her ferocity, which came from her silence for many years, cold and hard.

Li Yunmu was in place, with no intention of leaving.

He Li pushed through the crowd and rushed out of the classroom.

Li Yun also left our class classroom, he went to look for He Li, but he wouldn't find He Li, he wouldn't know where He Li went, and everyone wouldn't know.

But I know.

Li Shu let me go of his own accord, and he knew that I knew where He Li was.

I found He Li on the roof of the school building, and only He Li and I could open the door to the roof, and we saw many stars here.

When I climbed the stairs, the school's electricity had already been repaired, and the bell rang just after school.

"What a reason!" I called her.

He Li turned his head and smiled as usual.

"Let's go home." I say

"Okay, go home."

The cool breeze of the summer night blew, He Li's hair was a little messy, she was lazy to play, the moon and stars were behind her, everything was peaceful.

Some love is like sneezing, when you close your eyes, frown your brows, and think you're ready for everything, who knows if your nose is sour and tears come out.

After that, the busy senior year of high school came, He Li and Li Yun rarely intersected, and I never heard from He Li again, as if nothing had happened before.

Even if they are separated by a wall, Li Yun and He Li will never be together again. People are always reluctant to wait for tens of seconds of red light, how can they wait for those who can't come back.