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Will it be a chance for people to wave their hands in greetings when they meet and to say goodbye when they part? So much so that many times we just want to wave goodbye, but our mouths say goodbye.

Time is too rushed, youth flies by, young people inevitably regret and regret, fortunately in the future full of uncertainties, we also have better thinking.

Knowing today, may there be the beginning.

Satisfaction and Li Shu left the campus before graduating.

Satisfaction once said that he wants to earn a lot of money and don't let his grandmother work so hard, he doesn't plan to go to college, college is three or four years, and grandma is already very old.

He Li and I often go to see my grandmother, and my grandmother will still make a table of delicious dishes, people are old, the dishes are made slowly, and the taste seems to be getting old, but after all, it is delicious.

Grandma's needlework is also slow, she often can't do it with thin needlework, how can she not penetrate the small pinhole, squinting her eyes for a long time, and shouting He Li when she has no rut: "He Li!" Come and thread it for me. ”

He Li: "Come on! He Li took the needle and thread, and threaded it in three or two clicks.

Grandma sewed old cloth shoes, and the soles of the cloth shoes were tied with twine needle by needle, which was very thick, and she was not afraid of waste no matter how far she walked.

"Cloth shoes made to your satisfaction, right?" He Li asked grandma.

Grandma: "Yes, the soles of the shoes are done, and it is not awkward to go far away." ”

Grandma was talking, using small scissors to cut off the thread, a pair of soles were ready, she looked at the soles of the shoes and sighed and said, "What reason, if you persuade and be satisfied, he will always listen to you, or come back to school?" ”

"Okay, I'll advise him!"

In fact, He Li and I have already persuaded him to be satisfied, and he is satisfied and usually does listen to He Li's words, even if he doesn't listen to He Li, he will be coerced and lured to get him, but this time no one can persuade him, there is no negotiation.

Li Shu is going to be a soldier, and he is going to realize his dream. When the Wenchuan earthquake occurred in 08, Li Shu couldn't wait to devote himself to the torrent of serving the people as soon as possible, and we were still studying at that time, and the scenes on TV all made Li Shu sometimes grit his teeth and sometimes burst into tears.

Li Shu's father is also a veteran, and his son is going to be a soldier, he knows his suffering, but he still has Li Shu. As the saying goes, if you are a soldier, you will regret it for a while, and if you are not a soldier, you will regret it for a lifetime.

The day before parting, the four of us came to Listening to Willow again.

Li Shu made a wish in front of the ancient willow tree: "The world is impermanent, may the firewood brothers be reunited, and none of them will be missing." ”

After speaking, Li Shu took out a canvas bag, he walked to the side of the wishing pool, shook the canvas bag, and threw all the coins inside into the wishing pool.

This is the coins that Li Shu has saved for a long time, and sometimes he will ask him for a few cigarettes to smoke, and Li Shu will give him a few, and he always feels that there is still a lot of time to accumulate, and it is time to repay the money in a blink of an eye.

Paying back the money is repaying the vow.

Li Shu said that he would save enough money to return all the coins we stole earlier to the Wishing Fountain. Li Shu believes that as long as he does what he says, Listening to Wishing Liu will definitely fulfill his wish.

May we reunite and may our friendship last forever.

He Li also took out a few coins from her pocket and threw them into the wishing fountain, then she turned to face the wishing willow, folded her hands, and said softly: "May Li Shuhe be satisfied with going out and be safe." He Li didn't have many friends, and Satisfaction and Li Shu have always been important friends in his life.

Peace be upon you.

In the evening, we went to the small restaurant on East Street for Li Shu and satisfied with the food, the four people drank crookedly, satisfied with the big tree directly hugged the big tree at the door of the small shop and vomited, at first glance I thought we drank how much wine, a number of wine bottles, only four.

It's good that the amount of alcohol is poor, and the effect that can only be achieved by other people's four cases of beer, we can do it with a few four bottles.

After vomiting with satisfaction, he came back drunk and said: "What is the reason for the star field, remember to see grandma more after I leave, grandma is alone, she has worked hard for most of her life......" Satisfied said and cried, and I didn't hear what was said later, only heard him cry and shouted: "Grandma, grandma." ”

"Don't worry, brother, grandma treats us like a grandson, and we won't forget her." I say.

He Li: "That's it, don't worry about this, if there is anything else to explain, just say." ”

"It's like leaving a last word, and it's not a parting between life and death." Li Shu said with a smile.

"Yes! There's something to explain! "Satisfaction grabbed the conversation.

He Li: "Say it! ”

"I want to see you kiss the star field." Satisfied with the red face, the color Mimi stared at He Li and said.

"Not suitable for children, are you an adult!" He Li slapped over, and fell asleep on the table with satisfaction.

"Sooner or later, the two of you will be together." Li Shu was talking about me and He Li, who was holding a wine bottle and holding his heavy head, and he didn't know if he was talking nonsense or really thinking so.

We were all a little drunk, there was smoke at the barbecue stands, the lights were out, and the dim street lights were clear and lonely.

He Li and I sent Satisfaction and Li Shu home, we walked through one lamp at a time, the streets of the town were too short, and it was the end of just a few words.

2

After satisfying and Li Shu left, the college entrance examination was coming, and the blackboard at the back of the classroom only had a number written on it, which was the countdown to the college entrance examination, which meant that He Li and I would also leave the town in the near future.

He Li and I often leaned against the back door to look at the sky outside, it would be cool when the wind blew in, He Li was often stunned but suddenly asked me: "Star Field, do you say that the university will be freer?" ”

"At least you don't have to be stuck here in a daze." I say

"Yes." He Li still looked at the sky outside the door, his eyes full of longing for university life.

When He Li asked me these words, the countdown on the blackboard said 100 days.

My grades were at the bottom of my class, and the only good thing we had was that they had been consistent over the years.

Seeing that the time before the college entrance examination is getting less and less, He Li and I have a feeling of a prodigal son turning back, and temporarily picked up the Buddha's feet, but most of the time we look at the brand-new textbooks with a blank face, and unconsciously enter the daze mode.

It's okay to be in a daze, at least not to disturb others. He Li always said that if you spend your time in a daze reading books, your grades will not be as good as Wang Fatzi.

Wang Fatzi is a genius, I don't see how he studies every day, and he flirts with female classmates at every turn, but his grades are good, and he is guaranteed to be in the top ten in the exam. Although Wang Fatzi is very fat and usually likes to bully people, I have to obey her when it comes to grades.

Alas, Wang Fatzi, what if you study well, it's not that you can't find a daughter-in-law in the future, who let you flirt with a female classmate.

Our lovely class leader was different, she had to work overtime until one or two o'clock at night every day to keep her in the top three.

The squad leader is the kind of girl who is very cute, with a ponytail, and the two little tiger teeth are her most charming place, and she is very cute when she laughs, and I don't know if she has stayed up too late recently, and she has a few small pimples on her forehead, but it does not affect her appearance at all, but adds a lot of youthful atmosphere.

Wang Fatzi likes to pull the squad leader's braid to bully her, and he is ashamed to say: "Squad leader, be my girlfriend, we are really talented and beautiful together." ”

"Dead fat, you won't have a girlfriend in your life!" The squad leader struggled and said that she couldn't break free from Wang Fatzi when she was weak.

I couldn't see Wang Fat bullying people when I was a child, as long as I caught him bullying the squad leader, I immediately eliminated him on behalf of the moon, and I helped the squad leader out a lot of sieges throughout high school.

The class leader always asked me, "Why don't you study hard?" "From the beginning of high school, she told me to study hard until there were only 30 days left on the blackboard.

I said seriously, "Squad leader, do you know? Actually, my grades are very good, but I'm a low-key person, but you can rest assured that I will perform at my normal level in the college entrance examination. "I don't believe this myself.

"Really?" The squad leader even believed it a little.

"That's it!"

"Then if you make this question, I will really believe it." As he spoke, the class leader handed me a piece of paper with a math problem written on it.

The problem is simple, just draw an analytic coordinate graph, but I can't. What questions are not good, I have to do math, I can write ABC in English, I can make up Chinese, and I can only stare at math.

If He Li hadn't told me, I would never have known in my life that the coordinate diagram of that question was a love story, but when she told me, the college entrance examination had been over for a long time.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" I asked why

He Li said: "There are math materials, who told you not to read it, stupid!" ”

"Okay."

I remembered the last time I met the class leader, it was at the end of the college entrance examination, I came out of the examination room and happened to meet the class leader, and she smiled as if she had solved all the questions.

The class leader asked me, "How did you do in the exam?" ”

"That's pretty good." I replied quite confidently.

"That's good."

"Please eat popsicles!" I say

"Okay!"

That was the last time I saw the class leader, I didn't expect it to be a goodbye, I didn't say goodbye to her, she was eating a popsicle, smiling brighter than the June sun, I guess I would remember this smiling face when I was forty years old.

If I really remember it at the age of forty, I would go to her, ask her for a cup of coffee, find a sunny place to sit, and reminisce about my youth. Maybe she had a child at that time, and when she was worrying, there were still a bunch of things at home or work, and she didn't have time to take care of me, so it was okay, as long as her little tiger teeth were still there, she was young.

If I forgot, there was nothing, and I didn't say goodbye to her anyway.

The squad leader was finally admitted to the key university in the province with excellent results, and Wang Fatzi followed her footsteps and went to the same university as her, but so what, Wang Fatzi, you still can't catch up with the squad leader. And the lovely squad leader, such a beautiful person must have a beautiful encounter waiting for her.

I don't feel regret or regret about it, maybe this is the magic of the college entrance examination, it is destined to make you leave some people, and then meet some people, it reshuffles everyone's fate, but maybe this is the original arrangement of fate.

3

I was satisfied with several phone calls a day to ask me and He Li how many points we had scored in the college entrance examination, and I told him: "Wait for my notice, ready to come back at any time to drink happy wine!" ”

When I was satisfied, I always wanted to brag to him.

"Really? Do you still have to set up a banquet like that? "I don't believe it if I'm satisfied.

"I don't believe you, why do you ask?" I took the phone to Ho Li.

He Li said: "Really, after the third year of high school, Xingyu is studying hard and improving every day!" I saw that the results were rising slowly. ”

What He Li said is as if it were true.

Satisfied: "Oh, I'll go, I can't think of it, I have to notify all my old classmates, and it's best to get Li Shu back." ”

He Li: "Yes, yes, yes, notify all the students, and come to congratulate us on the title of the Star Domain Gold List in a few days." ”

Satisfied: "Haha! Good, good, good. "Satisfied with that happy energy, it is like he himself was admitted to university.

After He Li finished the phone, he threw me a roll of his eyes and said, "What's the matter?" The cowhide is blown up, right? Ha ha. ”

"Notice, what's the notice? I'm just going to brag, is it necessary for the whole world to know? "I'm helpless, why don't I make sense.

"Who made you brag, you can't put it away now, give you a lesson!" He Li had a wicked smile on her face, and she was waiting to see my joke.

I was satisfied that I waited for a summer vacation and didn't wait for my notice, but I received a lot of messages from my classmates, asking me when I was going to have a wine banquet and coming over to celebrate for me.

I replied unanimously: "Low-key!" ”

Satisfied, he called again: "What's the situation?" Why is there no movement? What about a good wine banquet? ”

Me: "What are you doing?" More than 200 points, what do you say? It's pretty much the same with the meal! ”

Satisfied: "Hahaha, more than 200 points are embarrassed to hold a banquet." ”

Me: "Isn't this all a hole dug by He Li, I can't do it with her two points combined!" I couldn't help but laugh at myself when I said that.

Satisfied with the smile on the other end, I can imagine the appearance of others turning on their backs, I didn't do well in the test, and he was even happier.

After laughing for a long time and being satisfied, he eased up, paused and said, "Okay, it's okay, tell me when you come to the provincial capital, please eat!" ”

Me: "That's necessary, you wait for me!" ”

"Waiting for you!"

4

He Li and I were admitted to a junior college in the province, a very ordinary school, which is not bad, so there is something to learn.

At noon the day before I went to school, He Li's family and I had dinner at He Li's house, and my mother and Aunt Liu cooked a big meal together.

During the banquet, Aunt Liu said: "You two are going to the provincial capital tomorrow, be careful when you go out, Star Field, you have to take care of it." ”

Me: "Don't worry, Aunt Liu, I promise to take care of He Li!" ”

He Li: "Whoever wants you to take care of it, it's me who takes care of the star field!" ”

Me: "Why didn't I take care of you, I didn't leave you alone every time you were on duty." ”

He Li: "Then I'll bring you breakfast, so I don't have enough pocket money." ”

"Okay, okay, don't fight, you two take care of each other." My dad said with a smile.

"Son!" As soon as it was quiet, my mom called out to me, and she gave me a shrimp.

I've been aware for a long time, and there is a dish today that is shrimp.

"Thank you, Mom!" I stretched out the bowl to receive the shrimp from my mother, who had never made shrimp for so many years.

"Taste it, your mother has to teach him how to make shrimp, just for you!" Aunt Liu said.

"Hmm!" I took one bite of the shrimp my mother gave me, and to be honest, I didn't even taste it.

"Eat slowly." Mom said softly.

Me: "Mom, thank you. ”

"Son." Mom said that there were tears in her eyes, and I hurriedly ran over to wipe her tears.

Mom continued: "For so many years, Mom is sorry for you and has been raising you as an elder brother, in fact, Mom knows that you like to eat shrimp. ”

Me: "Mom, it's okay, don't you see that I'm so handsome now that I've been raised by you!" ”

"That's it, there are still little girls who like our star field!" He Li interrupted and said, and his mother burst into tears and laughed.

Mother: "In the future, you and He Li will go out to college, and Mom can't control you, so you can be yourself." ”

"No, I'm going to be my mother's little padded jacket!" I said in a demonic way, by the way, I lied to my mother, there were still residual tears in her gentle eyes, and with my mother's smile, her eyes became more and more crystalline.

Dad always has to make a summary at this time, he said: "Son, you have grown up and sensible, and your mother's knot has been untied, come and have a drink." ”

"Good! Cheers! ”

After eating, it was already afternoon, and the adults went to the store to work, leaving me and He Li to wash the dishes together.

"He Li, I want to go see my brother." I say.

"Go ahead! I'll accompany you? ”

"I want to be alone."

"Well, come back early."

The path of the general's village is still the same path, but there are fewer people chopping firewood and more weeds. Walking along the path, turning through a bamboo forest, I saw my name on the tombstone, which was also my brother's name.

I stared at the tombstone in a daze, my memories of my brother were shattered, and I struggled to piece together the pieces, but I still couldn't see a single face.

My mother has been staring at the tombstone so lonely, will she think the same thing as me?

I remember when I was a kid catching crabs in the river with my brother, or watching my brother play ball on the side of the court, or sitting around the kitchen to help my mother pick vegetables, many of the episodes were incomplete, some had no beginning, some had no ending, but forgetting was part of the whole story.

"Brother!" I shouted softly.

"Hey!" My brother's answer is the most authentic part of my memory about him.

Brother, if you hadn't left, would I be who I am today? There are no ifs, so there are no answers.

Before I knew it, it was dusk, and I turned around and went home, with the boundless clouds in the western sky behind me.

Turning a corner, I saw He Li, who was waiting for me at the same place where my mother was waiting when I was a child. As soon as I arrived, she turned her head, the setting sun shone on her face, her fair skin was dyed golden, the sun was still a little dazzling, she blocked the sun with one hand, but it still couldn't hide the brilliance of her face.

The scenery in front of you is far better than the scenery behind you.

Everyone is a landscape, sunny or backlit, warm or indifferent, paranoid or docile, with those passing by occasionally stopping and leaving only to raise dust. But one day there will be a man who will see this landscape, stand opposite the sun or backlight, and approach the landscape with his enthusiasm or indifference, paranoia or meekness, and become this landscape.

I approached this landscape, approached the teenager we had accompanied each other in our previous lives, in the past, in the future, in the present, she was so beautiful and real.

Mom, many years ago, when you turned a corner and saw me waiting for you, did you feel the same way, we all determined our true selves in the scenery in front of us.

I love the scenery and I love myself who adorns it.

Those who have seen such scenery are born fearless and have a point.

"Have you been waiting for a long time?" I asked why

"It's alright."

"Let's go, let's go home!"

"Hmm!"

I stepped forward and trotted all the way.

"What are you doing so fast!" He Li chased after me.

"Let's go! I need to get to my mom quickly. ”

I have to find my mother quickly, the gap in her heart has never been filled over the years, for what's the reason, for my brother, for me, she is busy making up for it, she demolished the east wall but failed to fill the west wall, and finally her heart is a mess of rubble.

I need to find my mom sooner rather than later.

"Mom!" When I found my mother, she was preparing dinner in the kitchen, shredded potatoes were stir-frying in the pot, the pressure cooker was snorting and snorting, and the hot kitchen was full of smoke.

"Hey!" Mom sprinkled a handful of salt into the pot and fried it twice before she turned around and ignored me.

"Mom, you've worked hard!"

"Mom, why am I born, using my brother's name, I once thought that I would take a path that did not belong to me because of this, but Mom, I have become who I am today."

"Mom, look at what reason, how good she is now, she is free, she is confident, she is beautiful, I am proud of her, you must be too!"

"Mom, I use my brother's name, I love my brother, and I love the name "Jiang Xingyu", and now it is my name. ”

"Mom, He Li and brother, one of them gave me life, the other gave me a name, no matter how you raised me, I always walked on my path, and I was as different as everyone else."

"Mom, this is me!"

"That's who I am."

I said it all in one go.

Mom smiled softly, just like the smile they had when they first met in Dad's sketchbook, and the tenderness in those eyes seemed to have traveled from the old days.

Mother said: "Son, the things in the past were bitter or sweet, all in the past, and now He Li is no longer the silent girl, you also recognize yourself, see that you two have grown up, Mom is very content." ”

Mom said as she picked up the shredded potatoes in the pot and brought it to the table, a home-cooked dish was ready, and some home-cooked things were finished, all of which were homely.

"Ahh He Li had already crept behind me.

He Li said: "Auntie, in fact, I have always wanted to say 'thank you' to you. ”

"Thank you!" He Li said that tears overflowed in her eyes, this time she did not hold back her tears, she continued: "Thank you for giving me a chance to live more than ten years ago, and thank you for giving me the star field, it is because of him that I can live as I am today." ”

Mom waved her hand to show "no thanks", she lowered her head and didn't speak, she wanted to hold back her tears.

Finally, my mother breathed a sigh of relief and said, "I am very happy when you all grow up and are sensible." There were unshed tears in my mother's eyes, and gentleness turned into light through the crystal tears.

"Okay, don't cry, I'm going out tomorrow, don't cry." Mom pulled out a piece of paper and wiped her tears for Ho Li.

"Well, I'll give you a hand." He Li pulled the tears from the corners of his eyes with both hands and said with a smile.

Mother: "Okay, dinner is here, stewed your favorite black chicken soup." ”

He Li: "Okay! ”

I peeled garlic on the side, He Li asked my mother how to cook from time to time, the smoke machine was humming, the vegetables were tumbling under the shovel, the soup was boiling in the pot, a family, a family, a table of home-cooked food, this is the fireworks in the world.