In the evening, I got up early, Li Zhao was still looking at his phone, I got into his arms, he wrapped one arm around me, I slowly lifted his clothes, the corners of his lips hooked slightly: "Bad thing, not honest again?" ”

I didn't make a sound and lifted his pajamas, leaned over him to look at the long scar on his waist, my heart seemed to be twisted, I slowly stretched out my hand to caress the centipede-like mark, and asked him with a trembling voice: "At that time, it hurt a lot..."

Li Zhao quickly pulled down his clothes and pulled me back into his arms again: "I forgot about it a long time ago." ”

I closed my eyes and rested my head on his heart, counting the sound of my heartbeat, remembering the powerful rhythm until I fell asleep, in which I saw a girl running very fast, and a boy shouting from behind, "Slow down!" ”

The girl said mischievously: "Come after me, chase me and I'll take you to a fun place!" ”

The boy pretended to be lazy and walked with his hands behind his back, and the girl ran a few steps and turned back to find that the boy hadn't caught up at all, so she stood still and stared at him!

At this time, the boy suddenly rushed at her and grabbed her wrist, the girl was angry and said that he was a scoundrel, and the boy laughed and said, "No matter, I caught you anyway!" ”

The girl said, "Well, I'll take you!" ”

The two of them slowly walked towards a construction site that was still under construction, and I shouted anxiously: "Don't go over!" Don't go over! ”

But I watched as those two backs slipped into the building on the construction site...

After waking up in the morning, I found that my body was wet and sweating, Li Zhao had already gone out, I went into the bathroom and took a shower, changed into clean clothes, checked the address I inquired from my second uncle on my mobile phone, went out and walked to the flower shop, bought a bunch of pure white lilies, and then took a taxi.

The window glass fell, the late autumn wind mixed with the slightest coolness, blowing into my pores, I closed my eyes, the city is full of memories, the carefree childhood, the wind and rain of growing up, all melted in this ten-mile ocean, the Paris of the East.

After a long time, the taxi stopped, and in front of me was a quiet white building, I paid and walked in step by step, the sky was gloomy as if it was going to rain, the big banyan tree at the door was like a devil's claw in the sky, and there seemed to be a faint smell of disinfectant water floating between my breaths.

I took a deep breath and walked into the white building, inquired about her hospital room, pushed the door in, she slowly moved her gaze from the window to the door, and when our eyes met, it was the dusty past, the fate that we couldn't escape, and the man who made us all unable to extricate ourselves.

She has changed a lot, her original long hair has fallen out, I don't know if it is the effect of drugs, she wears a knitted hat on her head, her face is withered, and the whole person is not decent, only those eyes are still shining with dust, as clear as a lake in the Alps, and I can't bear to touch it.

I walked to her step by step, put the lily in my hand at the head of the bed, and sat quietly beside her, her dry lips opened slightly, and it took a while to open her mouth: "Tang Wan." ”

I tried to pull out a smile at her, but I couldn't: "It's me, Sister Shishi." ”

Her eyes were clouded with a layer of fog, and I sighed softly, "Why are you bothered? What could be more important than life? If the lives are gone, what is the use of the rest? ”

The tears in the corners of her eyes were wet on the white pillow, her voice was still so light, as soft as water, she said: "I have nothing, I should have died abroad a few years ago, I don't know what I have been taking medicine and inserting needles for the past few years?" It doesn't make any sense to me at all..."

I was a little excited and said, "What do you mean meaningless?" Why do you want to live for others, your life is your own, how will you know what will happen tomorrow if you don't finish the last day!

You wouldn't know that there will be a few pink flamingos standing on the beautiful Oolonny Salt Lake; You don't know how bright the Maldives' sea of stars can shine at night; You won't know how much the hills of Danxia Mountain resemble a sci-fi alien world; You won't even know... Who the hell stands at the end of your life! ”

He Shishi's beautiful eyes suddenly had a little brilliance, but they disappeared in an instant.

She turned her head to look at the white ceiling and said in a soft voice: "In my life, I have only loved Li Zhao alone!" That year, my parents told me that if Li Zhao didn't want to marry me, they would marry me far away, because I was in poor health and couldn't give birth, and no one in the Shanghai market would want me, and I was already a dead man in their eyes, they gave up on me from a very young age, and they would take my brother and sister to travel abroad, but I was always left alone at home.

Tang Wan, I know that you may blame me, and I also know that Li Zhao wants to save me, but I really don't want to hold on any longer, after so many years, enough..."

I couldn't hold back my tears, I stood up and yelled at her, "You love him, can you torture him like this if you love him?" Let him suffer for you for the rest of his life? Do you love him? Can you force him to make a choice if you love him? He Shishi, you and I are the same! It's all poor selfish ghosts! ”

With that, I turned and left... The thicker the autumn, the more sad the people, the colder the wind, and the long road...

At that time, after He Linjiang left, Li Zhao was in the corridor of the hospital and said heavily, a living person lost his life because of her, which is enough for her to remember with a lifetime of pain, and the most cruel thing in life is this incident, which has nothing to do with love, it is the torment of conscience!

I saw with my own eyes how the little tail was tormented after He Linjiang left, during that time I accompanied her every day, watching her sad, sad, desperate, it turns out that in this world, not only love can make people crazy, people's hearts are too fragile, in the final analysis, whether it is the little tail or Li Zhao, one seems to be casual, the other seems to be strong, but they are all responsible, responsible and conscientious people, so they will not be able to break through the shackles of morality!

……

I walked for a long time, the phone rang, Li Zhao called and asked where I was, I told him, he said come to me immediately, I said are you not busy? He said it was going to rain this day, you must not have an umbrella, I was going to be lazy!

I smiled and said, okay, I'll wait for you!

I leaned against a ginkgo tree, the fallen leaves formed a long yellow carpet, I reached out to catch one, like a small orange fan, I stared at the leaves infatuately, until the man in the black trench coat appeared in the distance.

Two long rows of ginkgo trees stood straight, a gust of wind blew, the leaves flew into the air, like butterflies flying around, that man, like the Monkey King in the Journey to the West, stepped on the colorful auspicious clouds to marry me home...

I stood up to meet him, tears rolling in his eyes, and he walked up to me with a steady step, staring down at me: "What are you crying about?" ”

"I cried because of your handsomeness!"

Li Zhao smiled and picked up my waist and turned in a circle, the golden ginkgo leaves flew around us, wrapping my laughter, I said you let me down, he said no!

I threatened him with a kind of you for the rest of your life, and he said don't regret it, and I said I might regret it! He said it was too late!

Later, as we strolled down the golden carpet, I asked him what you thought when you asked me to marry you when I was in junior high school.

He said: "I don't know, at that time, I thought that you would marry someone else in the future and stop playing with me, so I was panicked, so I just talked to you, so that you wouldn't run away." ”

I grabbed his arm and rested my head on his shoulder: "What happened later?" Let me tell you that the person I like is Song Qingyi, what do you think? ”

He pulled out his arm, reached out and put his arm around me, and wrapped me in his arms: "I remember when you were only in high school, I was still playing basketball, you ran to the basketball court to find me, I was quite happy, knowing that you came to see me play basketball, I wanted to shoot a three-point game to be handsome, but you caught me mysteriously and told me something to say."

At that time, your face was flushed, and your eyes kept dodging, and I was so frightened by your appearance that I thought you were going to confess to me!

I'll let you say, you still don't say it, that the playground is crowded, and the wall has ears, and you don't pull me to the grove behind.

It's the first time I've been in the woods with a girl, and I'm nervous, thinking if I'm going to take your first kiss away if you're done with your confession!

As a result, you were shy for a long time, and actually told labor and management that the person you like is Song Qingyi, and I wanted to strangle you at that time! ”

I looked sideways at him, "Not really, right?" I don't think you reacted at the time? ”

He glared at me, "Why not?" It's like the cabbage you planted was arched by others, do you want to hit someone? How do you know I didn't respond, I beat up a kid at school who watched pornography that afternoon! ”

I laughed out loud: "Did people recruit you to provoke you?" ”

"Yes, recruit me, my daughter-in-law is going to run away with someone, and he's still watching other people's daughters-in-law being, do you think I can not be stimulated?"

I stepped in front of him, stretched out my hand to hug him, hugged him tightly, and rested my head on his chest: "I am a person who does not believe in ghosts and gods, but I have often thought recently, if there is really reincarnation, then in the next life, in the next life, in the next life, in the next life, I will definitely pass through countless crowds and find you!" Don't let go of death! ”