"The tragedy of Meng Guqing and Jia Yin was caused by me." Fu Lin said calmly, "If Meng Guqing is paying the price for her freedom, then Jia Yin is completely taking retribution for me." Meng Guqing did not kill people and set fires, did not betray the king and steal the country, but I let her life end when she was less than twenty years old, and later, everything returned to Jia Yin. ”

Yu'er asked, "Fulin, why did you let the living die for her, do you know what reputation it will leave her?" ”

Fu Lin's voice trembled, with a crying tone: "E-niang...... You didn't see her at the end, and I—I don't want anyone to know that she ended up like that. ”

Yu'er sighed: "I guessed, and it was so." But I never remember that you were a child who could careless about people's lives, and you were so kind. ”

Fu Lin covered his face and cried: "Eniang, I must be crazy." ”

Yu'er sat up, broke her son's hand, and held his cheek.

He is an adult, and if he doesn't shave his face all day, his chin will become prickly, which is a sign of a man's maturity, not to mention that Fulin's sons are so old, isn't it.

"Give E-Niang some more time, let E-Niang arrange the future, and you will be able to leave the Qianqing Palace, and you will never have to ascend to the dynasty again, and you don't have to sit on that dragon chair." "However, it may be a long time, two or three years, or even longer." Fulin, grit your teeth and persevere, and wait for your children to grow up a little more, okay? ”

Fu Lin lowered his eyes: "Eniang, I want to give the Zen position to Yue Le, it's not that I haven't thought about you at all, I have made everything clear to him." I am a brother with Yue Le for twenty years, I know that you have your position to doubt his sincerity, but please also believe me, I have my position to trust him. ”

"You're right, I can doubt it, you can trust it, it's the result of half a point, I'm more cautious and pessimistic, and you're willing to trust." Yu'er said, her eyes undisguised her sadness and guilt, "So, you can't trust me, it's not all your fault, although I have been reflecting on myself, but I have only reflected, and I have never really changed it, and the relationship between our mother and son has been ruined step by step to this point." ”

"E-Niang, it's my fault, it's my ......" Fu Lin shook his head again and again, "Yuan Xi has already told me that E-Niang is my shield and a talisman I use to escape." I always put all the blame on you to numb myself and comfort myself. ”

"A smart and open-minded woman like Yuan Xi is really not as good as Jia Yin?" Yu'er asked, "In your heart, they can't be compared, right?" ”

Fu Lin nodded: "Yes, they can't be compared, it's not that Yuan Xi is bad, it's never compared to them, they are all so good." But Yuan Xi's goodness will make me feel pressure, she is more and more like you, and I am more and more afraid to face her. It's me who is cowardly and cowardly, and Yuan Xi is not half bad. ”

"Son, in your heart, you understand everything." Yu'er said, "But you can't control yourself, do those ridiculous things, every ridiculous thing will make you feel happy?" ”

Fu Lin nodded, clutching his head in pain, unable to find an outlet in life, like an invisible rope that tightened his neck.

"It's my fault, I didn't restrain you earlier, and I always expect you to change your mind and cheer up." Yu'er said, "I once thought about whether you were sick, but after all, I didn't want to accept that reality, I always felt that you were momentarily angry, and when you grew up and matured, you would naturally be fine." Fulin, it was E-Niang who hurt you. ”

Fulin shook his head vigorously and looked at his mother with shame: "At first, it was a momentary mood, but later, it became more and more sick. ”

As he spoke, he got up, took two steps back and knelt down, and bowed deeply to his mother: "I know in my heart that it is wrong, and I will be wrong again and again, whether it is angry or sick, even the son himself can't tell the difference." Eniang, I don't deserve to be forgiven, and I dare not beg for your forgiveness, but I ask you to take care of your body, Daqing and the children, and the concubines, you can live without me, but you can't do without you. ”

Yu'er said with tears in her eyes: "The country will not be chaotic, and the children will grow up well." The dead are gone, the past is gone, and Blessed, no matter what, promise me to live. ”

She stretched out her hand to her son: "In my life, I have sent away one person after another, when your sister Azhe died, Eniang's half life had already followed her, and if any of your three brothers and sisters had anything to do, Eniang was afraid that it would be difficult." Fulin, you also have to promise me that if you live, there will be hope when you live. ”

Fu Lin burst into tears, walked to his mother on his knees, fell into her arms and wailed, Yu'er hugged her son's head and closed her eyes in pain.

If you want to be a mother and son, you must let go of the country, and if you want the country to be a mother, they can't be a mother and son.

It's because she's too strong, so strong that the huge country can't accommodate her son.

"Are you satisfied?" Yu'er cried out in pain in her heart, a silent but penetrating cry, "Are you satisfied with turning me into this?" ”

Late at night, when Fulin returned to the Qianqing Palace, and the news said that the emperor had slept peacefully, Yu'er washed her face and lay down again, she said weakly to Su Mala: "What qualifications do I have, blame Fulin for being crazy for Dong Ejiayin, why don't I myself hold an obsession, struggle all my life, and suffer for a lifetime." ”

Su Mala said, "Sleep." If you fall asleep, it's fine, and when you wake up, it's fine. ”

Yu'er grabbed her hand tightly: "Don't go, guard me, Su Mala, guard me......"

In the early morning of the next day, the emperor in the eyes of everyone seemed to be more haggard than a few days ago, but the emperor's eyes were different.

Fu Lin's gaze was no longer empty, and the ministers could see themselves in the eyes of the emperor, and began to react to what they said.

When the dynasty was dispersed, several ministers ran to Sonny and said excitedly: "Lord Suo, have you seen it, the emperor has really begun to recover." ”

Sonny was also comforted in his heart, and persuaded the public: "I hope that you will continue to be loyal to your duties, the emperor is young and cannot bear the pain of the death of his beloved." But he cares about the world, and will definitely work hard to restore the former glory, no matter what, with the support of the Queen Mother, we have come over in the most difficult time, and now, what is there to fear. ”

Just in the emperor's spirit is recovering day by day, the wax moon of the seventeenth year of Shunzhi is coming, but it is a pity that the capital has refused to snow this winter, I heard that Shengjing has long been covered with snow, but in the area of Beijing City, even a snowflake can not be seen.

Every morning, Yu'er would subconsciously glance out the window and say to herself: "Why can't this snow fall?" ”

In the study, Fuquan and Xuan Ye's homework is getting more and more difficult and serious, Xuan Ye is still fine, Fuquan can't sit still, he thinks about riding a horse and shooting arrows all day long, and always pries Xuan Ye to accompany him to skip class.

The day before the New Year, during the lunch break, Fu Quanxing rushed to Xuanye's house and whispered: "Come with me, let's play, the second sister and they are all waiting." ”