XXXV. The Lost Starlight
Qingming stood at the door from afar and waited for me, the wide white hunting suit still looking spotless. He stood against the door, looking lonely and beautiful.
Look at me: "You're back." ”
There was a smile on his lips, and a hint of joy that he had never noticed.
As I gazed at him standing against the door, my eyes moistened. No matter how long I get home, there is always a man in white waiting for me. Despite Sharo's arrival, he couldn't change the pace of his waiting for me and his concern for me......
My heart was inexplicably wrapped in a burst of emotion, and I choked up and couldn't make a sound.
"Hmm"
I nodded and approached him step by step, looking at him, and there was an indescribable warmth in his eyes.
The good-looking rouge thin lips hooked: "I thought you would never come back......"
“……”
"If you find it inconvenient, I can ask Yuan Boya to take ......"
"-No, I'll just stay by Qingming's side."
I looked up and smiled, meeting the clear gaze. His eyes were so lost and worried about me, if even me left, he would be sad, right?
"I'm just asking you: If I'm here, won't it be inconvenient for you?"
"No, it won't."
Qingming smiled, her eyes covered with a layer of warmth, and it was still a reassuring smile arc and a down-to-earth feeling.
"During the time I was away, I also thought I would never come back. I've been confused, I've hesitated, I've hesitated, but I miss you...... So...... I ......"
I couldn't stop crying. During the period when I was almost "away from home", how anxious he was, how lost, and how he waited at home for me to come back......
In Ping'an, who else will always be waiting for me except my own parents......
Afraid that I would be sad, he let me go, respecting my choice, but never saying that he needed me too. didn't even have the words to keep it, how did he hide his sincerity and hide his pain?
If I don't come back, will he have to wait like this?
Someone like me who is stupid and doesn't even know how to say how much he misses someone.
"Honey worm," Qingming caressed my eyes with heartache, and the bottom of her eyes was worried, "Nasara...... What do you do? ”
"I don't know." My tears melted in the palm of his hand, "All I know is that you want me to be with you." And I hope so. The arrival of Sharo is certain, I don't want to think too much, and I won't run away from it. I just want to leave it to history, there must be a road before the car reaches the mountain, just go with the flow. I will cherish the days with you......"
"Honey Worm ......"
There was a lot of warmth and emotion in Qingming's eyes.
He reached out and gently ...... Holding me gently, I leaned on his shoulder, smelling the familiar scent of grass, and felt inexplicably relieved.
In the evening, he took me to the green grass to see the stars, and walked hand in hand with me by the lake.
He accompanied me everywhere I wanted to go.
There are so many stars at night, like dust buried in history, which once shone in the gorgeous galaxy and has its own glory and era. After a long time, only the beauty under the stars remains.
Flashing and flashing, like disillusionment......
We will not know its story, but will only recall the past through that faint light.
Buried light years ago, their story.
It's like me and Qingming sitting hand in hand under the starry sky, surrounded by the night thousands of years ago.
After a long time, there will be no story of Harumi and me, only the history books record: Abe Haruaki's wife - Kamo Sara.
No one will know that this love buried thousands of years ago will meet the beauty that was lost in the gap of time.
Not long ago, because we couldn't face the arrival of Sara, Qingming and I couldn't get out of our personal shackles. Now, under the beautiful starry sky, I lean against him. The light fragrance of his body reassured me and gave me confidence and courage again. We were finally able to face each other, face the future, and cherish each other's last moments together.
This is the first time that we have faced up to the arrival of Sharo; It was also the first time to face each other's sincerity calmly.
Looking up at the starry sky, how many stories were missed light years ago and precipitated in time. People can't change history, but the love left in history won't disappear because of history that can't be changed. They still shine in the river of time, holding on to their nobility wherever we look.
Whether it's Tamamo and the Emperor, or me and Harumi.
Smiling at Qingming's eyes, I rested my head on his shoulder. The beautiful night, the quiet of the silent night, and the faint incense on his shoulders.
Our encounter is destined not to be a coincidence.
No matter what happens in the future, he will be by my side, and I will not hesitate to leave him because of confusion.
Before Kamosara arrived, in my last days with him, it was destined to pick up the cherry blossoms that had been left behind thousands of years ago......
On the second day, I picked the petals of spring in my hands, and I paced in the courtyard with twelve bouquets in my hand, and the simple and simple skirt hung on the ground with the long fragrance of flowers.
Qingming glanced at me and quipped: "Sure enough, it's a worm, and it loves to gnaw flowers!" ”
I smiled silently, holding a long bouquet of flowers behind him, letting the fragrance of the flowers stain our clothes. A variety of floral notes mixed in the wind, fresh and elegant, with a tranquil top note and an evocative base note.
Sniffing the flowers in the garden, I smiled and said, "It's so fragrant......"
Qingming is indifferent: "Rosemary refreshes, jasmine repels filth, lilies soothes the nerves, and sage is demagnetized and purified, and has been planted by witches for generations." Don't look at these incense styles, they have their own merits in terms of efficacy. Therefore, incense is not only fragrant to nourish the nose, but also to nourish the body and mind, to cure the disease, to nourish the mind and body, to breathe, to open the nose, to open the body, to reconcile the body and mind, and the wonderful use is endless. ”
"I see." I smiled and sucked the bouquet in my hand, and suddenly felt a burst of fragrance coming to my face, and the fragrance on the tip of my nose lingered for a long time, which was really refreshing and refreshing.
"It seems that Qingming's mansion is really very knowledgeable."
"The layout of flowers and plants here is very particular, but others can't see it."
"Qingming is really knowledgeable."
I sincerely admire it.
"Since ancient times, incense and yin and yang have been inseparable. Don't look at the cigarette curling as if there is nothing, ethereal. In Feng Shui, it has a great effect on turning Feng Shui. ”
"Oh my God! It seems that I still have to study hard in Heiankyo! ”
"It's okay, I'll teach you slowly in the future."
Qingming smiled lightly, as if she was my teacher. I laughed, what point of mine didn't he teach me one by one? With him in peace, my heart is always at ease.
"However, the honey worms are much more beautiful than they were at the beginning. At least I'll take care of my twelve clothes. ”
Qingming's eyebrows and eyes were all smiling. I blushed and puffed up: "How can people fail as much as you say." ”
In exchange for a sunny laugh.
After walking with him for a while, Qingming stared and staggered, and the flowers in front of him were blooming, with a very different beauty. Qingming was slightly silent, the golden sunlight covering him, and he faintly revealed some tenderness.
"It reminds me of Sharo."
"Sharo? What kind of person is she? ”
I'm curious. The record of Sharo in the history books is not complete, only that she is Harumi's wife, the eldest daughter of the Kamo family, and died in childbirth at the age of 14, giving birth to Abe Saya for Harumi. Others are no longer traceable.
After Sharo's death, perhaps unable to let go of his deceased wife, Harumi married his daughter, Abe Saye, which caused a lot of controversy in later generations.
Although the historical records are not necessarily exhaustive, there is a place for Kamo Sara in Qingming's heart.
I'm worried about looking at Qingming, his thin figure has always looked so lonely. I really don't know if he, who has experienced the pain of losing his wife, can come out of the shadows? Will his daughter Abe able to heal the pain in his heart?
Qingming is a loving and righteous person, even if he has no feelings, he will be responsible to the end, and he is loyal. What's more, He Mao Sara had a childhood sweetheart with him when he was a child. In this way, it is very likely that Qingming will marry his daughter after Sharo's death.
It is very likely that he loves his wife and Wu because he loves his wife.
I can vaguely understand what he did, but the criticism of later generations was so great, he must have been under a lot of pressure at that time, right?
Should I stay with him and accompany him through his pain?
After the death of Kamosara, Harumi must have suffered greatly!
I looked at Qingming worriedly, my brows furrowed, and I lost my mind for a moment.
It wasn't until Qingming curled her lips slightly that a magnetic voice came that disturbed my musings.
"She's also as cute as a honey worm." Qingming smiled, as if bathed in warmth, "Since my mother Ge Ye left me away, I have not been accepted by the world to wander alone on the streets all day. It wasn't until I met my mentor Zhongxing that he discovered my innate talent and brought me back to the house to teach Yin and Yang arts. ”
"That's when Sara met. At that time, she was very young, and as the eldest daughter of the master's family, she had a childish spirit. At that time, no one else played with me, only she loved to talk to me, she loved to be angry, petty, and naughty and cute. She accompanied me in my lonely childhood, and in her, I found the warmth that my mother was familiar with. ”
Qingming turned around, raised an eyebrow, and looked at me with a smile. Under the golden sunlight, he looked so gentle, revealing a happy look.
It can be seen that his childhood was lonely and helpless. But because of Sharo's company, his childhood seemed happy and warm.
The girl named "Sharo" must be a warm girl. She warmed Qingming's lonely childhood, healed Qingming's young heart, and protected him from harm. She must have some kind of healing power.
If it were her, she should be able to warm Qingming's future life......
No wonder, Qingming can't let her go......
Qingming suddenly felt a little guilty: "I said so much, do you mind the honey worm?" ”
"Uh-no."
I smiled. No matter who accompanies Qingming to the end, I hope he can be happy.
Sara, like me, is a person who can make Harumi feel happy.
Maybe history is right, I am a person of the 21st century, and there are too many variables in the future, and it is likely that I will not be able to accompany him forever. But Sara is different, she is a girl of this era. If I accidentally return to modern times, she can still take care of Qingming instead of me, so that he is less sad and less lonely.
Perhaps, she is the real belonging of Qingming in Heianjing......
For the first time, I began to look forward to and appreciate Sara's arrival. She must be a bright woman who will bring light to a sunny life.
Sensing the smile in my eyes, Qingming asked, "What are you thinking?" ”
"I think I must be grateful to Sara!"
“……?”
"Thank you for bringing me such a good you. If you didn't have her in your childhood, maybe I wouldn't have seen that sunny light who is calm and calm in everything. You're probably a different story now. ”
"Honeyworm, you are so understanding!"
Qingming smiled gently, and her eyes were full of appreciation and emotion for me.
"Have you seen her since?"
"Three years ago...... Before I met you, she had become very gentle. ”
Qingming smiled lightly.
"You must be looking forward to seeing her, after all, you have been childhood sweethearts since childhood, and you haven't seen her for a long time."
"Hmm."
Qingming told the truth.
"That's great!"
A hint of loneliness flashed in my heart, and I was sincerely happy for him.
"What are you happy about?"
Qingming snapped her fingers and smiled lightly.
"I'm just happy!"
I couldn't help but glance at him, and an afternoon was spent in unconsciously playful......
I have calmly faced the arrival of Sharo, and Qingming has also let go of the knot......