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Silent.

There was silence I had never felt in my life.

Qi Tianyou saw that I was about to leave before dawn and wanted to say more, but when I looked at my face, it seemed that he knew everything, and he didn't keep it, just told me that if he knew what the ashes were, remember to call him, and he would help me find them.

I don't want to say anything, I haven't slept all night, I can't figure it out, I can't figure out Cheng Bai Ze's reason to lie to me.

I was really frightened by his previous life, so although I was very firm in my mouth and said that Cheng Baize was a good person, I was still very scared in my heart, as if I was building a fortress that believed that Cheng Baize was loosening and collapsing.

When Zong Bao came into the house to tell me what time the plane was, I turned my face to look at him solemnly: "Zong Bao, Cheng Baize is a good person." “

"I don't know." Zong Bao just spit out a few words and glanced at me: "It's still good for you." ”

I opened my mouth and scolded him: "It's you who always suspect that Cheng Baize has a problem!" As a result, you say you don't know!! ”

Zong Bao was confused by my reaction, "You're not sick, he is already incomprehensible...... Too lazy to take care of you. ”

I opened my mouth and watched Zong Bao walk out of the bedroom, sitting alone in the dark bedroom, Cheng Baize is not transparent, but he has always been a person who has something to say, you ask him something, he will definitely answer you, if you are in need, he will definitely help, I don't know when it started, Cheng Baize became an indispensable friend in my life little by little, it was true that he helped me, and he told the truth when he was Gu, the only thing he lied about was that he didn't tell me that the Gu was not broken, in fact, he knew everything I knew when I was with Zhuo Jing, Am I just mad at him?

It's messy, it's really messy, I can't get rid of it, I can only hold it in my heart, these messy thoughts are like vines, growing from the bottom of my heart, and then slowly coiling, until I get to my throat, there have been two voices shouting out different sounds, one said, Ma Jiaolong, you touch your own conscience, as a friend, Cheng Baize has done a lot! You don't want to repay the favor, what qualifications do you have to be angry with others!

Another voice said, Ma Jiaolong, don't you think it's weird, how can you be virtuous, why do people treat you so well, in this world, there is no love for no reason.

I feel like I'm going crazy, so my eyes were already bloodshot in the morning, maybe because of Qi Tianyou's words, he said that the qi that can't be seen with the Tao is the evil qi, because it is the side door, so he needs to hide the evil qi, but what can hide the qi is that it is hidden deeply, it is an unimaginable master, I really can't see the qi on Cheng Baize's body, the only time, it was only when he faced Feng Xia, I was really scared.

Qi Tianyou said, don't be with the tiger, is Cheng Baize a tiger, if he wants to eat me, doesn't he have to let me live to this day at all?

"Jiaolong, there are reporters."

When I walked out of the airport, Zong Bao reminded me in a whisper, my nerves were involved all the way by Cheng Baize, my brain was heavy and painful, and when I came back to my senses, those reporters had already rushed over, asking how I predicted the mudslide, I was pulled around like a big piece of paper, Zong Bao was anxious, and pushed me out of the door while blocking the reporters, until he stuffed me into a taxi, he shouted: "Drive!" ”

Seeing that he got rid of the reporter, he gasped and looked at me: "Jiaolong, what's wrong with you!" The soul is gone, what did Qi Tianyou say to you! ”

I sat there expressionless, not wanting to say anything, not giving me an answer, and asking me to say something.

Passing by the mall, you can see a two-storey Christmas tree full of gifts, many smiling faces standing under the tree to take pictures, I looked at it in a daze, but my heart gradually felt a little cold.

Walking into the elevator, I directly pressed the floor where Cheng Baize was, and Zong Bao glanced at me: "Why don't you go home first to see the master?" ”

Seeing that I didn't respond, Zong Baowu sighed to himself: "I took the dumb medicine for you, weren't you very happy to come back that time in the past, this time you were also on TV, and the popularity is needless to say, just now the taxi driver asked me if your name is Ma Jiaolong, Ma Jiaolong, you know if you are popular." ”

With the sound of the elevator door, I looked at Zong Bao with a sideways face like a ghost: "Zong Bao, let me ask you one last time, you said, is Cheng Baize a good person or a bad person." ”

Zong Bao frowned: "Could it be that you don't sleep on the plane, and you keep your eyes open and are thinking about this?" ”

"You tell me."

Zong Bao shook his head: "I don't know, you go and ask him, I'll go home and wait for you." With that, he walked out with his feet up.

I watched the elevator door close and took a deep breath, silently saying to myself, I shouldn't think about him by the standards of my previous life, he didn't lie to me too much, if he can give me a reason, or the explanation is reasonable, then I am willing to believe him, I am really willing.

Stepping out of the elevator, I knocked on his door, but no one answered, and then started ringing again......

No one responded, I hung my head, he wasn't there, he should have gone to the hospital.

Rubbing my face vigorously, all my thoughts seemed to be like superglue inextricably linked together, I didn't know what I was so embarrassed with myself, looking at his door, I bit my lip, turned my face, and walked directly downstairs.

"Jiaolong is back!"

It was my grandfather who opened the door for me, he looked at me with a happy face, smiling like a little girl taking a photo with the Christmas tree outside, "You came back just in time, the little grandson made dumplings to eat, and Xiaobai had a fever!" As he spoke, before I could answer, he turned his face and shouted, "Xiaobai! Jiaolong is back!! ”

He's at my house?!

I was slightly stunned, watching my grandfather take my hand and pull me into the house, Li Xiaoshi and Wen Xiaoni were still sitting in the living room, and Zong Bao was holding an apple in his hand: "I was just going to look for you above, Cheng Baize is at your house." ”

didn't respond, my eyes searched for Cheng Baize silently, and my grandfather pulled me down in the living room and pointed to the balcony with a smile: "Xiaobai is on the balcony!" Go and see him! ”

The people in the room were all smiling, but I felt that my legs were a little heavy, and slowly walked to the balcony step by step, smelling a strong fragrance of flowers in my nose, which was particularly refreshing, Cheng Baize was looking at the flowers with his back to me, wearing a home pajamas and a coat, probably looking back at me when he heard the voice, the corners of his mouth were slightly upturned, and the dimples were blinded to me: "I'm back." ”

I stood still and didn't move, looking at his pale face after some recovery, and opened my mouth: "Hmm." ”

The beanie who had slept all the way seemed to wake up, it twisted its body and jumped on the clothes on my chest, I didn't take it with my flesh, I thought it would stop after two movements, who knew that the shirt seemed to be suddenly penetrated by its teeth, and a pinprick pain came out of nowhere-

He looked at me with a smile, his eyes were clean and clear, and he pointed to Lamei: "Look, the flowers are blooming, isn't it very beautiful and fragrant." ”

I looked at him and still didn't move, and I felt that Doudou was biting tighter and tighter, and his mouth opened slightly: "Cheng Baize, why are you lying to me." ”

A trace of doubt jumped in his eyes, and after a while, he slowly wrinkled his eyebrows: "You have a Gu worm on you?" ”

My nose was a little sour, "You know everything, don't you?" ”

Two small yellow flowers unexpectedly fell on the bare plum branches at this time, and he carefully picked them up and put them in his palm: "What do you know." ”

"I'm ...... Zhuo Jing"

I glanced in the direction of the living room with some taboo, took a step forward, and closed the sliding door of the balcony, "You know all about it, right?" You asked me where I had been that night, and I said to see someone, you know I'm lying, right? You know everything in your heart, why pretend you don't know! ”

His face hung so that I couldn't see my expression clearly, but his fingers were still teasing the seemingly fragile petals: "You don't want to say, why should I embarrass you, you can lie, at least it shows that you care about my emotions, don't you." ”

He raised his eyes, then opened the balcony window and spread his hand in the scattered snow, "Jiaolong, I was wrong to pretend not to know?" ”

I didn't know why I wanted to cry, I looked at him: "But my Gu is not broken at all, I am not broken, and the ashes I use are not right, why don't you say it!" ”

He tugged at the clothes he was wearing and walked up to me, "That bug is biting you." ”

I gritted my teeth and looked at him with a trembling voice: "How do you know?" ”

He exhaled softly: "I told you a long time ago, that Gu you can't break by yourself, what you break is just my ability to feel your pain in a single line, but you always like to be reckless, I want to ask you now, you wanted to break that Gu so much at the beginning, even if Zhuo Jing told you that you broke up, you also wanted to break it, are you afraid of being snooped on by me, or do you simply know that you can't let go of Zhuo Jing?" ”

I raised my eyes to look at him, I don't know if Doudou bit me too much, my tears actually fell fluttering, I want to question him, I feel like I have a stomach to ask him, but why is it suddenly wrong: "I ......"

"It's not so embarrassing to say that you can't let it go, but it's a shame to lie to me."

He looked at me as if he could see through everything: "Ma Jiaolong, you know what is powerful, I gave you a Gu at the beginning, it was also for your good, I didn't tell you that the Gu was not broken, or for your good, if you don't think about Zhuo Jing, then in this life, you don't feel pain or itching, it is not harmful to your body, what you are afraid of is that you are thinking." ”

"Yes, I'm tempted!"

I sniffed and looked at him: "But why did you lie to me!" You can make it clear! Cheng Baize! Are you a good person or a bad person! You make me can't see clearly, you know!! ”

"Jiaolong! What's wrong! As soon as I came back, I quarreled with Xiaobai!! When my grandfather heard my voice, he immediately opened the door and inserted it between me and him, glaring at me: "He is just getting better, do you know!" ”

"Grandpa, it's okay."

Cheng Baize opened his mouth lightly, and his eyes looked at me with some forbearance and complexity: "You can't see clearly, can you, then I'll let you see clearly." ”

As he spoke, he walked directly past my grandfather, grabbed my arm and walked directly out the door.

"Xiaobai, where are you going!"

"Grandpa, I'll be back soon." Cheng Baize turned his head and answered, looking at me constantly trying to get rid of him, and couldn't help but open his mouth: "Don't you want to ask clearly, I'll tell you all at once." ”

It wasn't until I walked into his house that he threw me into the living room, turned around and walked into the bedroom and took out a small porcelain bottle, which was really small, only half a finger high, pulled my hand, and put the small bottle in my palm: "Oh, don't you want to solve the Gu, just take it." ”

At the same time, the beanie that was biting me actually gave me a 'snap' and fell from my clothes to the floor.

"What is this......" I looked at Cheng Baize: "Broken Gu's ashes?" ”

Cheng Baize glanced down at Doudou, and then looked at me: "My ashes." ”

I went limp, and sat down on their couch, "Yours? ”

Cheng Baize didn't respond, but raised his left hand directly and rushed towards me, and then dragged his little finger with his right hand, and a little finger was directly ripped off by him, and I was scared: "What are you doing, you!" ”

As soon as the little finger of his left hand was torn off, only a short finger root remained, and a good hand immediately became weird, he looked at me with a light face, and put the finger that looked like a silicone material in his hand on the coffee table, "The ashes made of this finger bone can be used to break the Gu for you, I thought you would never need it in your life, but since you admit that you can't forget him, you can, I can break the Gu for you, I don't care." ”

"You ......"

I was speechless for a while, looking at his mutilated hand, my chest was full of suffocation, as if I had been punched by someone: "How can you use yourself as an introduction!" ”

Cheng Baize calmly didn't say anything, and took out a chair and sat opposite me: "When you were asked to donate a kidney, I was really anxious, it seems that Gu is the fastest way, but I can't control the severity of other ashes, so I had to come by myself, and I didn't expect that one day, you would still be obsessed and want to be with Zhuo Jing, in this case, I will fulfill you and take the ashes away." ”

I covered my mouth, looked at the porcelain vase in front of me, and couldn't stop crying, I don't know why this happened, whether I did something wrong, I felt sorry for Cheng Baize, and said that feeling, I was really exhausted!

"You don't have to cry, a lot of words, I have already told you a few years ago, I will give you a heart Gu, firstly, it was forced by the situation at that time, and secondly, it is to help you forget Zhuo Jing, just going around and around, I didn't expect that you would ask me if I was a good person or a bad person, I may be a bad person, but Ma Jiaolong, I have never been bad to you."

"Why ......"

I looked at him with teary eyes: "Can you tell me why, even if you can't even commit self-harm!" Cheng Baize, why have you been helping me so much, can you tell me! ”

He looked at me fixedly, and after a while, he opened his mouth: "Probably started when you stood on the stage alone, and later, you said to me, whether you are a good person for you, you can't keep any of them, I think, I can always stay by your side and help you, because you are my only friend." ”

I was a little overly excited, the blood kept gushing up, and my brain was about to explode, looking at him: "Is what you said true, Cheng Baize, I'm really afraid that you are a bad person, you are good to me, I can't pay it back at all, you might as well say what you want, I will give you what I can give you......"

"What do you have for me?"

He still sat opposite me and looked at me quietly: "What I want has never belonged to me, I want family, relatives, etc., these are not mine, I have always been only one person, until you, I am sincere to you, do I still have to bear your doubts." ”

"You know what."

He got up slowly, looked at me, and his face was very pale: "My master even told me that if I want to achieve the point where all the onmyoji are beyond the reach of the dust, as long as I kill you and grind your blood and bones, I can work hard for decades, but I really can't do it, I can't do it when I don't know you, I'd rather lock the door of your house, and even think, killing people is already my limit, and let me eat human blood?" How is it possible, Ma Jiaolong, I am not uncommon for you to be born with yin and yang, what do you think, what do I want from you......"