Chapter 1: Mountains and rivers are full of doubts, and there is no way out

"Is life a winding uphill road?"

"Yes, all the way to the end."

- Rossetti

Perhaps, my emotions have always been bumpy, like a winding curve in the palm of my hand, entangled for a lifetime.

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In 2002, when the cicadas were chirping, I finally received my long-awaited acceptance letter from the university. After four years of high school (one year of repetition), I finally made my way to college. Ahem, specialty.

I'm going to the Binhai Campus of D University, majoring in Chinese Language and Literature, for three years. The parents borrowed some money from relatives and friends and pooled 8,000 yuan to put on the CCB Dragon Card. I packed everything I needed for the start of school, stuffed two large bags full of travel bags, and boarded the bus to the beach with my mother.

The time is September, and the order belongs to the third autumn. But the sky at the beginning of September was still blue, like a calm lake, and the waves were not exciting. This bright day warmed my mood and my heart blossomed.

Buses are speeding along the interprovincial highway. I sat by the window and pressed my forehead against the windowpane, looking out the window like a cartoon. After looking at the green trees, highways, and stone cliffs for a long time, my eyes were a little sour.

As soon as I turned my head, I was a little sick and I wanted to take a motion sickness pill. When I was holding the medicine in my left hand and the kettle in my right hand to take the medicine, the driver slammed on the brakes, and my head and the water in my hand hit the front seat, and the water splashed all over my clothes.

My mother said distressedly: "You kid, look at how you did it......" I was busy looking for paper to wipe for me, looking at my mother's thin hands rummaging in the handbag, the green tendons loomed, and my heart felt a slight pain: my mother is old, I can't always be by her side in the past three years, she will be lonely.

I retook my medication and looked out the window again, and the road was no longer a flat asphalt road but a potholed dirt road in the countryside.

"What's going on, Mom?" "Hmph, isn't it just to save money on the bridge and take a detour!" Mom knows the reasons very well.

Sure enough, although the road is very difficult to walk, bumpy and bumpy, up and down, left and right, like a roller coaster, causing many passengers to exclaim. In the wave after wave of shouting and abuse and dissatisfaction, the driver master held the steering wheel and sat firmly like Mount Tai. In the rearview mirror, I could see the driver's resolute face. Oh, what a skill!

"I ...... I...... Driver, I want to ......" Suddenly, my stomach turned over like a river, and breakfast kept pouring up. "Wow......" Before I could prepare a plastic bag, I threw up. His feet and pants were stained with rice residues, and the car was filled with an unpleasant smell of sourness.

"Open the window quickly, stop the car quickly......" said a passenger. The car finally stopped. I was pale, dizzy, and leaning weakly by the window, out of the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of my mother cleaning the carriage with a broom. A gust of wind blew in from the open window, and the wind turned the corner of my mother's rose-red dress, fluttering like a butterfly, and the wind blew my mother's deliberately blackened white hair on her sideburns......

After driving a rural road, the car finally set out on the right path again. I didn't dare to eat, but my stomach was hungry...... Bear with it, press the switch on the Walkman, plug in the headphones, listen to the song, and don't think about the hungry thing for a while.

The car came to a halt abruptly. The driver got out of the car with a "gray and black" face, and then came up again with "black and gray" hands. I was puzzled, and hurriedly took off my headphones to listen to what was happening. It turned out that my mother felt that the car was not very stable, so she reminded the driver to check the tires of the car. The driver got out of the car and checked it. Sure enough, the left wheel was about to fall off.

"Well, I'm scared to death, thanks to this eldest sister, otherwise the car would have overturned...... "That's it, that's it......" Mom was embarrassed in the praise of everyone, her face was flushed, and her eyes were timid, like a little girl.

"Mom, can you be more restrained, not so godly!" I teased her. "Dead girl!" My mother looked at me hatefully, but her eyebrows were smiling.