Chapter 31 Life has no roots, floating like dust.

The journey of life will not be smooth sailing, and if it is, it is too good luck.

The road is slow, and it is full of sorrows and sorrows.

I don't know when I'll get out of this fog, out of this heavy snow. It had frozen my heart, and what remained was the piercing chill of his indifference.

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I folded the two scarves and prepared them to be placed in the closet. Looking at the blue and white scarf, the first scarf I had knitted, how I wished I had put it around his neck with my own hands, but unfortunately, someone else had already put it on him, and I couldn't, and there was no reason to get near him.

Really, really wanted to hear his concerned voice, whispered what was wrong with me, wanted to hear him say "it's so cold, I don't know how to wear gloves", indeed, I missed his affection again, I couldn't help but recall his commanding words of concern on the phone.

It is undeniable that he, Yu Haibin, is a person who combines masculinity and gentleness. To the people he loves, he will pour all his affection and will do his best to protect. However, that person is not destined to be me.

Although my heart is heartbroken and heartbroken, there is nothing I can do. After all, it's a thing of the past. Hazy as smoke, dissipated like fog. I had to accept this reality. It's time to let go. Letting go is the best relief.

This afternoon, I finally finished the last foreign literature exam. I felt pretty good, and after I got out of the exam room, I went to talk to my mother and called it. Tell my mom I'll leave in the car at noon the day after tomorrow. My mother took it for granted that I would go home with Ma Jing, a fellow student from the foreign language department, and didn't even ask me. She didn't know that Ma Jing was invited by her classmates to go to Nancheng. I will be on my way home alone.

At night, looking out the window at the blurred and dim street lamp, and looking at everything outside the window with your forehead against the window, all this is painfully illusory.

I remember when I first came to the coastal city, I was lost in the light of the night in this small seaside town. The road is very wide, the pedestrians are sparse, there is no noise and impetuousness, only a faint feeling of loneliness and dazedness wells up in my heart. At that time, I was really scared and wanted to find a place to rely on. It can give me encouragement when I'm helpless, and it can make me lean on and cry when I'm sad......

"Knock knock!" There was a knock on the door of the dorm room, interrupting my thoughts.

Susan and Rainbow came in together. "Finally shed a layer of skin and regained my life!" Susan cried out and immediately lay down on the bed. Our bed immediately creaked and was overwhelmed.

"When did you belong to a snake and shed your skin? I said Susan, let's bed, don't you want to do this, plan to sleep on the floor at night? I laughed.

"Finally finished the exam, go, go home immediately, I'll leave tomorrow. He Qingyin, what about you? Susan asked me with a sideways face, half of her face buried in the shadow of the light, unable to see clearly.

"Leaving tomorrow?" I felt a sense of loss in my heart. It was me who sent her away again, and the last person to leave became more sad. Every time she remembered to take her downstairs to see her on the bus, Susan always waved her mouse paw with a big grin, "Go back, Miss Ben is home!" I'll send a girl to contact you when I get home! When she said this, the sadness of parting will always be diluted a lot.

"Tomorrow morning's train at nine-twenty a.m." After Susan finished speaking, she was about to plug in the headphones to listen to the song, but suddenly took them off again, looked at me with sparkling eyes and said, "Qingyin, let's go to the Internet café for an all-nighter, you said, this is halfway through college, outsiders say that we haven't gone all night, what a pity!" Seeing that I shook her head, she hurriedly added, "I'm in for a treat!" As soon as these three words were spoken, my mouth opened wide in fright.

"Call the boss, alas, what about the boss?" Susan asked.

"Xiaohong went to the bathroom to do laundry!" Susan and I tacitly stopped talking about the boss. knew that Xiaohong must be very busy when she came home and had no time to wash clothes, and also knew that she was afraid that her grandfather would say that she was wasting water when she went home...... Susan and I were sour.

"Call the boss, call Lu Xue, let's work together!" As soon as Susan finished speaking, Lu Xue returned. As soon as she returned, she threw her bag on the table and sat down on the stool.

"What's wrong, did you quarrel with your eldest brother?" I asked in amazement.

"Damn Wang Yilei, two days ago, I said that I would go home together, and when I was there, I said that I couldn't leave, to put it bluntly, I'm afraid that I will be tired of getting something for me!"

"Lu Xue, I believe that the eldest brother will not be like this. Big brother may really have something to do......"

"What the hell can he do! As a health minister, do you plan to evaluate the advanced at the end of the year? The counselor has already been decided, hum, after a hard year, there is not a single hair! "I heard Lu Xue say this, and I knew that she was complaining, complaining for herself and for her eldest brother. In order to prevent her from saying anything more angry, I hurriedly said, "Don't be angry, angry is wrinkled!" Just now, Susan, a miserly rat, spoke, saying that she invited the three of us to go online all night, will you go? ”

"Go, why don't you go! It's rare for her to be generous like this! Lu Xue said with a smile. saw Susan pursing her thick lips and looking unhappy. Seeing Lu Xue smiling, I was relieved, and when I saw Susan's sad appearance of eating rat poison, I forgot all my troubles and laughed indulgently. Friends, there are your days, even if it is a harsh winter and a cold moon, freezing three feet, the heart is as warm as spring, and the flowers bloom for ten miles.

At nine o'clock, a few of us dressed up and went out of the dormitory to the Internet café for the night.

There were a lot of people surfing the Internet tonight, and I finally found three seats, so I let the three of them sit. Xiaohong also excused herself, I said, I have been watching the computer for a long time and my eyes hurt, and I will be fine later. Looking around, the Internet café is mostly full of boys playing games. The air is not good, there are a lot of smokers, and there is a miasma of smoke. I was waiting by the railing outside the Internet café.

The north wind blew and it was a little cold. The stars in the sky were also chilling and shrunken.

Finally, the network manager called me, I knew that there was a vacant space, and I hurriedly walked in, the door of the Internet café was not wide, and I happened to almost collide with a person who had just come out. The moment I looked up, I thought it was an illusion, facing the pair of sword eyebrows that were dyed like ink and like eagles spreading their wings.

"On the seashore!" I called out to him.

Yu Haibin looked at me in astonishment, but he didn't say a word, and hurried by. I looked at his distant back, still the agile and vigorous posture, still jumping forward under his feet, I knew what he would look like next, where his heels would stop. The sky blue down jacket went farther and farther, and it was impossible to see clearly, wondering, how could the blue and white scarf be so dazzling and so clear.

When the sourness hit me, I just sat down quietly, turned on the computer, opened QQ, and sent him a message: Why don't you speak, why? What am I doing wrong? Why do you ......

Tears flowed down again. Countless question marks flashed through his mind, perhaps, he knew about me and Yukage. Thinking of this, I will continue to send messages: If you like You Yingying, I bless you.

Perhaps, only by letting go completely, we will all be liberated.

I watched a movie in an Internet café, my eyes were crying uncomfortably, my head hurt a lot, and when I looked at the time display under the computer, it was already 1:35 in the morning. Get up and take a look at the three of them, Susan is playing games, Lu Xue is chatting about QQ, and the boss is browsing the website. I just said to the three of them, and I'll go first.

I staggered downstairs in a daze, walked out of the boys' dormitory, and when I walked to the large corridor between the two dormitory areas, I noticed a white sound and shadow striding towards me. I'm scared, I won't bump into a ghost!

When I got closer, I found that it was Lin Ziqian.

"Lin, Lin Ziqian!" I finally pressed my pounding heart. Hearing me speak, the white figure stopped. "Oh, it's you, He Shuang, where have you been so late?" Lin Ziqian walked over and asked.

"Go, go, go online!" Suddenly, I felt a tightness on my head, it turned out to be Lin Ziqian's index finger tapping the hairline of my bangs, I was frowning and glaring angrily, and then I heard his low and magnetic voice coming: "I didn't see you study well, but you learned to go online all night!" See I don't tell your mom! ”

"Don't threaten me, I'm not afraid!" I tilted my head sideways and stroked his forehead with my right hand. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of him smiling, Lin Ziqian rarely smiled, but his smile was charming enough, and his crescent-like eyebrows and eyes stretched and bent with his smile, and there was a kind of charm magic.

"Why are you going, it's almost two o'clock!" I asked him rhetorically, it's rare, we met without quarrels or banter, so peaceful, I enjoyed it a little.

"I'm on the radio, just got a taxi back!" He said quickly.

"Oh, you're done with your exams? Isn't it a lot to take a double degree? I asked.

"I just finished the exam today, and it happened that Sister Fang on the radio station had something to call me over in the evening."

"Oh...... Woo woo wow wow" I yawned, my mouth opened wide, so I had to cover it with my hand, "It's not early, you go back quickly!" With that, he hurried away, holding back the smile in his eyes.

"Hey, Lin Ziqian, you won't go home tomorrow night, I'll call you in the evening, you can come down, I'll give you the scarf I knitted!" Lin Ziqian didn't look back, and he didn't know if he heard it.

After a day of confusion, I packed up my things. In the morning, Susan and the boss were sent away, and only Lu Xue and I were in the dormitory.

"Didn't you put away your scarf and don't plan to give it to Yu Haibin?" Lu Xue asked

"He has it all, I don't have to send it, the icing on the cake is not interesting!" Lu Xue was silent, just looked at me deeply.

"And what are you doing with it?"

"Give it away!" I touched the yellow and brown scarf and said.

No one answered the phone, and he called Lin Ziqian's dormitory and said he didn't know. I had to stand in the dormitory with my scarf and wait, but it was too cold, so I tied the scarf around my neck and put my hands in my pockets.

Looking at my watch, at half past nine, I thought, wait another fifteen minutes, I will go back if Lin Ziqian doesn't come. The scarf had to be given to him again next year.

The street lamp was dim, and I sat on the edge of the flower bed on the side of the road, and the cold wind blew, and I shrank for a moment, and then I looked up and saw a pair of beautiful people coming. The girl has a graceful figure, the black boots that are over the knee appear to be more slender, the white pleated woolen skirt is more elegant when the wind blows, and the loose bat-sleeved pink low-neck sweater shows a snow-white neck, and a beautiful black pearl falls. His hair was waist-length, with elegant braids around his sideburns and white pearl U-shaped combs pinned to them. The black and white pearls set off her graceful and elegant. The boy's body is long and straight like a green pine, and his walking is as elegant as an ink cloud. The first time I saw Lin Ziqian wearing a black turtleneck, he was cold and handsome, and his skin was whiter than snow.

"Lin Ziqian!" I greeted him, "It's finally you!" "I hurriedly took the scarf off my neck. As soon as the scarf left the neck, a cold wind took advantage of the weakness, ah! I sneezed and just happened to spray saliva on my scarf. I saw Lin Ziqian raising his eyebrows and eyes, with a look of disgust.

"I'm sorry! You take it! I said pitifully.

"Humph! If you're dirty, wash it off! Lin Ziqian waved his hand to express reluctance.

"Lin Ziqian, don't deceive people too much! If I hadn't lost your scarf a few days ago, I wouldn't have rushed to knit a scarf for you! "Sure enough, I was very angry that there was a cleanliness fetish.

A few doubts crossed Shan Ruoshui's heart, Lin Ziqian's scarf was really ......

"Knit a scarf for me, pervert, and you're no better!" Lin Ziqian sneered.

"Okay, Ziqian, why do you lose your demeanor every time you see her," Shan Ruoshui said with a smile next to her...... I was stunned for a moment, and then glanced at Lin Ziqian. Lin Ziqian didn't say a word, and strode away.

"Hey, Ziqian! You forgive him, his temper is like this, and no one is allowed to say it! Shan Ruoshui smiled and apologized while chasing Lin Ziqian.

"Ruoshui, what Principal Xie said, let's discuss it tomorrow, you go back! See you tomorrow! Lin Ziqian turned his head and said coldly, and then the figure like a green pine and an ink cloud disappeared. Shan Ruoshui was immediately stunned on the spot. "He's really angry!" Then he left.

I was the only one left holding the scarf in my hand, and secretly mocked myself: He Qingyin, look at it, you idiot, they don't want the scarf they have worked so hard to weave, they don't want it......