(ix)

"Wang Xiao, what do you say about Jiang Xuesong in the center of Lin Siezikou's heart." Chen Fan looked at the window and thought.

"The way she likes it."

"But I think that Li Yelei and she are very attentive to each other."

"Lin Sieve, let me ask you a question." Chen Fan leaned his face to Lin Sieve.

"Just ask."

"Jiang Xuesong or Li Yelei, who has a heavier position in your heart......

"Heh", Lin Siezi sneered, looked at Chen Fan's curious eyes, and said with a smile, "There is no comparison between the two. ”

"Do you mean that Li Yelei is not as good as Jiang Xuesong, or is it ......?"

"Neither", Lin Siezi was silent for a few seconds, "I am just a sister or a friend in the hearts of the two of them, and I am the one who is not worthy of weighing them together." Chen Fan didn't look over, he was so calm that he didn't say a word anymore, in fact, deep in his heart, like a petrel in the East China Sea on the eve of a storm, the fear of not being able to find a hiding place.

This morning, my mother asked herself why she rode her bicycle to school today instead of riding her brother's electric car downstairs, and she didn't say a word. Maybe only I understand that it's not that I don't want to mention him anymore, but I don't know how embarrassed to mention him. In fact, I know best that my anger comes and goes quickly, yesterday I just heard the news that Li Yelei doesn't like him, isn't it normal to think about it now? Yesterday there was such a big fire.

And my mother's question is just the product of a long time. Over time, both bystanders and parties will regard a situation that often occurs as natural and habitual.

After another two days, without his brother's protection, Lin Sieve was a little lost. Do you want to apologize? After all, it's my own fault, and I was angry with him for some reason, yes, apologize. However, it can't always be me who takes the initiative, and besides, his face is really unpleasant, yes, no apologies. At the same time, Li Yelei was also thinking about whether to apologize, if she apologized, she wouldn't know that this matter was her fault, and she would kick her nose in the face in the future, becoming more and more unscrupulous, but ......

It's just that both of them are born with a violent temper, stubborn and stubborn, and they are unwilling to apologize, and time is wasted aggrievedly. But in a week or so, Li Yelei unexpectedly compromised. "I'm sorry."

"What did you say?" Lin Siezi sat on the wooden chair with a look of disbelief, raised his head and looked at Li Yelei's eyes, Li Yelei cast his eyes into the distance, "I'm sorry." ”

Lin Siezi first smiled bitterly, then lowered his head, looked at the floor, thinking that he had been waiting for this initiative for a long time, as if he had been delusional since three years ago. Immediately there was a cry, Li Yelei hurriedly squatted down and wiped away her tears, "Don't cry." ”

Lin Siezi felt the coldness of Li Yelei's fingertips and his rapid breathing, she repeatedly recalled all these years of calculations and the blindness and pace of chasing other people's light, but she was unintentionally tripped by the stones under her feet, but she lay down and was unwilling to stand up again. Grievances and sadness welled up in his heart, Lin Siezi hugged Li Yelei and wrapped his hand around his shoulder, Li Yelei was stunned, his hand hung in the air, and his heart beat faster. Lin Siezi lay on Li Yelei's shoulder and cried, her sobbing hit Li Yelei's heart through physical contact, he put down his hand hanging in the air and gently stroked Lin Siezi's back.

Life is a journey, you always wear armor, cloak and dust to conquer something. Spring, summer, autumn and winter, night and day, plains and mountains, busy cities and wilderness, and all the scars on my body.

"One day, I'll go to Japan with my favorite people, go to those scenes from anime, feel the hustle and bustle of summer festivals, feel the novelty and beauty of cherry blossoms all over the streets, and feel the sadness of the different faces I see when I get off the train at that station."

This sentence was said by Zhang Xinuan, maybe not so many people care about or yearn for that place as much as her, but there is a person who wrote it down, that person is not even interested in the second dimension, and does not yearn for Japan at all, and does not look forward to everything Zhang Xinuan described, he feels that he just wants to get the place next to Zhang Xinuan or the ticket to her life train.

If you like someone, you may really not need to be like-minded as Chen Fan said, and only by having the same experience or pain can you understand each other and cherish each other. Because likes and life are uncertain, in the dark, black and white are reversed, and life is normal, which makes insiders upside down, and outsiders cry silently.

Jiang Hu likes Zhang Xinuan so much.

It's as pure as the cherry blossoms in early spring in Japan in Zhang Xinuan's eyes.

I boarded the train to a distant place, watched the green fields and blue sky all the way, responded to the nods and greetings of the wheat ears all the way, and imagined my beautiful destination, but I never realized that I had left you at the starting point early. Maybe I subconsciously felt that you were a burden to me, so I lost you, or maybe you didn't cry or make trouble, and then I forgot about your existence.

Lin Siezi's grades are getting better and better, and he is already ranked tenth in his class by the time of the county exam.

This journey of the college entrance examination is coming to an end.

When he stepped into the entrance at the door of his house, Lin Siezi saw a pair of small leather shoes on the ground, and knew that Lin Hao was back, but as for why Lin Hao came back during class, Lin Siezi didn't know. However, when Lin Siezi just picked up the kettle and cup on the table to dilute the tiredness of a day of studying, his mother came out of Lin Hao's room and said to Lin Siezi, "Go and persuade your sister, cry non-stop." ”

Lin Siezi drank a large sip of boiled water and asked curiously, "Can I persuade her to cry?" ”

Mom pursed her lips and walked away a little unhappily.

Lin Siezi didn't think too much about Lin Hao's affairs at all, because on the journey of the college entrance examination, she didn't have time to take care of the best. At twelve o'clock in the evening, Lin Sieve went to the toilet, and when she passed by Lin Hao's room, she found that the light had not been extinguished, and there was no sound in the house.

Then for the rest of the day, Lin Hao stayed alone in the room.

When eating dinner, Lin Hao didn't come out to eat, and his mother called Lin Hao over and over again in a hurry, and in Lin Siezi's eyes, Lin Hao's actions not only failed to arouse Lin Siezi's sympathy, but on the contrary, Lin Sieze was even more disgusted with her hypocrisy.

"Lin Hao, don't be too self-righteous, you have to play the eldest lady's temper and go back to your school, anyway, there are so many people there who appreciate you and regard your self-righteousness as a person of good character."

Mom dragged Lin Sieve out, "What are you doing?" ”

"I'm teaching her how to behave." Lin Sieve called loudly.

"Her boyfriend got along with other girls behind her back." Mom lowered her voice.

"Lin Hao, are you in pain?" Lin Siezi sat on the chair and looked at Lin Hao's eyes. Lin Hao nodded with a sob.

"Will life be life if it doesn't hurt?" Lin Siezi said quietly, "You were born to be more perfect than others, and you are more talented than others in any field, are you still not satisfied?" Lin Hao didn't answer her but stopped crying, Lin Sieve laughed dryly, "Also, you are used to it, you are used to it, you can only be perfect and centered, you are not used to the appearance that you are not happy with." But what about me? I've been living in your shadow for the past 18 years, and you know why I love the piano so much and don't stick to it? ”

"It's because the piano teacher said I didn't have as much talent as you."

"Why, where can I not compare to your efforts, why did you use a talent to deny me?"

"Maybe you will say that I am pretentious, or psychologically fragile. I don't care. Lin Siezi crooked his mouth and looked at her directly, "Really, I don't care, but what I hate is to live under your figure." ”

"I hate people comparing me to you, because you're so good."

"You know what? I climbed up desperately, just to say that I am not shorter than you, but you stopped your footsteps because of such a little thing, asked for leave, went on a hunger strike, do you think you are filming a TV series? ”

Lin Hao cried, got up and hugged Lin Siezi, "I'm sorry, I don't know, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”

Lin Siezi wrapped his hands around her shoulders and whispered in Lin Hao's ear, "You don't have to say sorry to me, I don't care, you also have to say that you don't care about those things you don't like, okay?" ”

Lin Hao leaned on Lin Sieve's shoulder and nodded vigorously.

The next day, Lin Hao returned to school.

However, in the conversation with Lin Hao, Lin Siezi realized that he actually admitted and recognized Li Yelei's words in his heart, "If you quit and escape, you won't be hurt." "I am the same, because I am not better than Lin, I chose to give up learning piano, or maybe I didn't love the piano so much, I just found an excuse to give up such a thing that was already lacking.

And Lin Siezi also found that he could forgive Lin Hao and talk to her, but it was only because Lin Hao was frustrated and his heart was balanced, so he was willing to do these things.

The weakness of human nature.