I sat at the head of the bed, looked down at a magazine in my hand, and didn't look at Chi Xiaoyi, he was silent for a while, and then reached out and held mine. Tightly didn't give me room to break free, but I didn't have the heart and strength to break free, just numbly let Chi Xiaoyi hold my cold and pale hand.

"Chenghan." Chi Xiaoyi called my name in a low and cautious voice, just like a fragile porcelain doll, and even his tone was so gentle and full of pity, "You're okay"

This sentence alone made my eyes flush, I raised my head to look at Chi Xiaoyi, my eyes were red, "Who are you?"

Hearing this, Chi Xiaoyi's whole body flickered, his pupils widened and stared at me in disbelief, and Chi Xiaoyi's thin lips were pale. Trembling slightly, he asked in a panic, "You don't know me"

Before I could reply, he clenched my hand again, as if he wanted to crush my fragile bones in the palm of his hand. Chi Xiaoyi said angrily and domineeringly: "I know you're not crazy, you're just pretending not to know me." ”

I really didn't go crazy, and I didn't forget Ji Xiaoyi. But there is no such strong desire to forget him as strongly as during this time, if I don't remember anything, then my mind will not recall the picture of him and Zhou Xue ** that day over and over again.

Not only did it make me nauseous to the point of wanting to vomit, but that scene was like a knife poking my heart every second, which made me feel painful, and I thought I could bear all the possibilities before I was called by Zhou Xue. But it turns out that I overestimated myself, and I can't accept that Ji Xiaoyi and other women do such intimate things anyway.

This has become a hurdle and a shadow in my heart, as long as I see Chi Xiaoyi, for example, at this moment, I can't control the hatred and disgust in my heart, but I also know that he is innocent, after all, he has never given me any promises, and there is no obligation or responsibility between us. He and his girlfriend** are a matter of course.

So even though all my pain was caused by him, and now that he was sitting in front of me, I had no position to question him, blame him, I didn't want to say anything to him, so I was silent all the time, and the atmosphere in the whole ward seemed dead and silent, and there was a feeling of breathlessness.

Chi Xiaoyi probably felt suffocated too, he suddenly closed his eyes, the hand on his knee was clenched together, his knuckles made a crisp sound, and after a while, Chi Xiaoyi opened his eyes and looked at me, and said in a harsh and hoarse voice: "I only found out yesterday that you saw all of them in the library that day." ”

"If your heart disease is the cause, then I apologize. I understand that you are too young to accept this kind of thing, but I didn't mean to. Chi Xiaoyi paused, grabbed one of my hands with both hands, wrapped it in his broad palm, and tried to warm me with his heat, "I have been following you all the time when you walked out of the classroom with a cold that day. ”

"I saw you squatting on the ground, looking very uncomfortable, in fact, I was going to step forward, but Fu Chaohuan took the lead. I saw him carrying you back to the dormitory, I was angry and jealous in my heart, after leaving school, I went directly to the bar, I drank a lot of wine alone, Zhou Xue came over and added something to my wine. ”

"I'm still worried about you, so I'll go back to school to have a look, but you are not in the classroom, Zhou Xue told me that she asked her classmates and said that you and Fu Chaohuan were in the library, so I went to the library. At that time, I had a seizure of the drug, so the kind of thing you saw later happened with Zhou Xue and me. ”

"You believe me, I'm telling the truth." Ji Xiaoyi lowered his head, held my hand and put it on his lips, kissed it with his hot lips, leaving damp and hot marks on my fingers, he looked confused and painful, "I remember a few months ago, you asked me how deep I had developed with girls, and I had slept with several of them. ”

"At that time, I was embarrassed and too face-conscious, and I didn't want you to know that I couldn't do it." When Chi Xiaoyi said this, he turned his face awkwardly to the side, and after a few seconds, he looked at me again, "I haven't kissed other girls, that time outside the teacher's office, I kissed you as a punishment, in fact, it was my first kiss." ”

Hearing this, I was shocked, and looked up at Chi Xiaoyi suddenly, I didn't expect that he had so many girlfriends in the past, and he didn't kiss any of them, and I recalled carefully, except for the photo Zhou Xue sent me, I really didn't see who Chi Xiaoyi kissed with my own eyes, and every time I closed my eyes or left to escape.

"I did it with Zhou Xue in the library that night, and it was also my first time. I probably had a kind of revenge on you at the time, as you said, I can have relationships with many other women in this world, and it is not that you have to destroy you. ”

Hearing this, my heart calmed down, and I withdrew my hand, and I asked Chi Xiaoyi sneeringly, "Are you blaming me, it's all my fault in the end, I made you angry, I forced you to have a relationship with Zhou Xue, right, if you came today to defend yourself, then go back, I don't want to hear it." ”

"Chenghan" Chi Xiaoyi called me in a panicked tone, and wanted to grab my hand again, so I simply put my hand behind my back, not looking like I didn't want to look at him at first.

Chi Xiaoyi's arm stiffly crossed in the air, and after a while he withdrew it, staring at my side face, and said hoarsely, word by word, "I just want to ask you one last question, can the two of us still be brothers and sisters in the future, Chenghan, I care about you very much, I don't want to lose you." ”

"Yes, why can't we be brothers and sisters" I replied to Chi Xiaoyi without thinking, in fact, we both knew in each other's hearts that the intimate relationship we had maintained since childhood had already existed in name only when Chi Xiaoyi played with my feelings several times.

I can't pretend that nothing has happened, unless he is here to confess to me today, he likes me, and is willing to give up those warblers, swallows, red flowers and green grasses for me, if he apologizes, and makes amends for me with his love, maybe my wounds will slowly heal, and I will be with him.

But obviously this is not the case, he doesn't really like me, or rather, he cares about me, but he doesn't care enough to be willing to give and give in for me, he wants to continue his life of glittering and lustful dogs, and at the same time be a brother and sister with me, enjoying certain benefits.

In his opinion, the two are not in conflict, but for me, how can they not contradict each other He is clearly ruining my mind and feelings, Chi Xiaoyi is really a scumbag, and he has a clear conscience Ah I sneered in my heart, facing Chi Xiaoyi with a cold and repulsive attitude.

Until this moment, I feel that I should give up liking him, I can't find a reason to stick to it anymore, if I was silently crushed and accompanied in the past, then now I am really going to alienate him, maybe this relationship can't be let go all at once, but I want it for a long time, I will definitely die completely.

My attitude was very hurtful, he looked at me with pain in his eyes, opened his mouth to say something, but in the end those words were all swallowed by him, he thought that I agreed to continue to be brother and sister, can the two of us return to what we were before He really took himself too seriously, where did he get his confidence, and felt that I couldn't bear him

Then Chi Xiaoyi sat silently in the chair, the two of us were obviously very close, close enough to feel each other's breathing, but there was such a long distance in my heart, I didn't want to stick to him anymore, and he wanted to get close to me, but I wouldn't give him this chance again.

In such silence, soon it was time for lunch, I raised my head and said lightly to Chi Xiaoyi: "You go back to eat, you have to go to class in the afternoon." ”

"It doesn't matter." When Chi Xiaoyi heard me talking to him, he immediately responded to me like a flattered person, and when he saw the thermos bucket on the bedside table, Chi Xiaoyi got up and opened it, and put out the soup that my mother stewed for me, this time he sat directly at the head of the bed, scooped the soup with a spoon and blew it cold, and reached out to my mouth with his hand, "I'll feed you." ”

I suppressed the irritability and rejection in my heart, and endured not pushing Chi Xiaoyi away, but said with a different face and unappreciative feelings: "I'm not crippled, I don't need someone to feed me." ”

At that time, I hadn't stabbed Chi Xiaoyi's heart with all kinds of ugly words like I did in the future, and I couldn't wait to use all the insults on him, at this time I still left a lot of leeway for Chi Xiaoyi, and it was good not to let him go directly.

"If it's Fu Chaohuan, I can feed you, right" Chi Xiaoyi, a smart person, heard the meaning of my words, his movements paused, and then he reached out to pinch my chin.

However, at this time, Fu Chaohuan came back from outside, and probably learned that Chi Xiaoyi was in the ward, so he didn't knock on the door, and walked to my bedside in a few steps, Fu Chaohuan stood there condescendingly, looking at Chi Xiaoyi coldly with his head down, "Since the words are all finished, Second Young Master Chi can leave."

Chi Xiaoyi glanced at me, and seeing that I didn't plan to save face, he pursed his lips and got up from the bed, and after putting the soup bowl down, he didn't rush to leave, but stood there with an ugly face and without saying a word.

Fu Chaohuan and I didn't want to take care of Chi Xiaoyi anymore, Fu Chaohuan pulled a chair and sat next to me, and fed me the food that my mother asked him to send me, Fu Chaohuan took care of me like this during this time, I didn't twist, I opened my mouth to eat the food that Fu Chaohuan fed.

Chi Xiaoyi was slapped in the face on the spot, standing there stiffly, he stared at me and Fu Chaohuan with anger and jealousy, and his hanging hands clenched into fists, but he still had no intention of leaving, until I finished eating, and when Fu Chaohuan wiped my mouth with a tissue, Chi Xiaoyi turned around and strode out, "banging" and slamming the door of the ward.

Fu Chaohuan turned his head to look out of the door, then he touched my head and gently told me, "I'll go outside and say a few words to Chi Xiaoyi, you can sleep for a while." If it was okay, we would have been discharged in the afternoon. ”

"Okay." Although I don't know what Fu Chaohuan wants to say to Chi Xiaoyi, I can guess that it should be the same as Ye Chengji, Fu Chaohuan asked Chi Xiaoyi not to provoke me again in the future, which is exactly what I want to tell Chi Xiaoyi, but I can't bear to say it.

As expected, in the next half a month, Chi Xiaoyi and I had almost no intersection, I went back to school to continue classes, and his absenteeism became more serious, and I am now disheartened with him, and I don't want to care about what he is doing every day.

In June, it was time for the college entrance examination, and our school had a holiday, so I walked to the school gate with Fu Chaohuan from the dormitory building that afternoon, asking him about his preparation for the college entrance examination along the way.

Learning is not difficult for a person with a high IQ like Fu Chaohuan, he is going to be admitted to the Public Security University, and when the time comes, he will choose the Investigation Department, but this university is too far away from T City, on the northernmost side, Fu Chaohuan said and pulled my arm, paused, he looked down at me, "Chenghan, didn't you tell me that you want a policeman in the future, so how about you be admitted to my university when the time comes"

I don't actually have much of a goal, and the Ye family has my eldest brother, so I don't need to take over the family business, my parents have spoiled me since I was a child, and they have almost no requirements for me, so I can choose my future by myself, and the idea of being a policeman originated from Chi Xiaoyi.

At that time, I thought that if he became a traitor, I must arrest him in prison as soon as possible and let him reform himself, when I was a child, Chi Xiaoyi was always injured in fights with people, and I also thought about becoming a doctor, but now my life is no longer revolving around Chi Xiaoyi alone, I am a little hesitant to be a policeman.

After a moment of silence, I said to Fu Chaohuan: "I haven't thought about it yet, but I don't have any other wishes, so the possibility of becoming a policeman should be very high, anyway, there is still a year, enough to think clearly." ”

Fu Chaohuan nodded, his good-looking eyebrows and eyes stretched, his deep eyes were full of gentle smiles, and he suddenly stretched out his hand and naturally held me, "Let's go, I'll send you home." ”

I didn't agree to be Fu Chaohuan's girlfriend, but after asking me that day, he wishfully regarded me as his girlfriend, and occasionally made some intimate behaviors to me, I always had a reason to refuse him, such as at this moment, still in school, I didn't want teachers and classmates to think that Fu Chaohuan and I were really in love.

Fu Chaohuan didn't force me, just let go of my hand, at this time someone stood in front and blocked our way, I raised my eyes and saw Zhou Xue with long hair fluttering, this time Chi Xiaoyi was not by her side, so she didn't have the usual gentle smile on her face, but said to me arrogantly and contemptuously: "Ye Chenghan, let's talk." ”

The tip of my nose lingered with the smell of perfume on Zhou Xue's body, frowned and retreated half a step, not weakening my momentum in front of Zhou Xue, and said to her coldly: "If it's about Chi Xiaoyi, then I don't want to hear anything." ”

"I have nothing to do with Chi Xiaoyi, Miss Zhou doesn't have to regard me as a rival in love, otherwise I will think that you have no self-confidence, and you can't even grasp your boyfriend's heart, so you want to bully me to find your sense of security."

Such insulting words made Zhou Xue's face pale, and she nodded her chin and sneered at me and said, "You are really sharp-toothed, whether you have ill intentions towards Chi Xiaoyi, you know it yourself." You seduced Chi Xiaoyi behind my back, otherwise how could he break up with me?"

"During this time, he didn't even come to school, and he was in the bar every day to get drunk for you. Ye Chenghan, do you dare to swear that you didn't do anything" Zhou Xue's eyes were full of anger and hatred, so she really wanted to kill me, so it can be judged that what she said would not be false.

But she made a mistake, Chi Xiaoyi broke up with her because of me, and bought drunk for me, this can only be said to be that Chi Xiaoyi was tired of her and wanted to get rid of her, but she shirked all the responsibility on me, she had the face to say that I seduced Chi Xiaoyi and drugged Chi Xiaoyi, so that the woman on Chi Xiaoyi was clearly her Zhou Xue, she was cheap, and now she was abandoned by Chi Xiaoyi, who can blame her

I thought so in my heart, but in order to avoid getting into trouble, I didn't say such ugly things to Zhou Xue, and dealing with a woman like her would not only waste my time, but also reduce my quality and upbringing, I turned my head sideways and said to Fu Chaohuan on my side: "Let's go." ”

Fu Chaohuan's cold gaze swept Zhou Xue a few times, and then he grabbed my wrist and walked past Zhou Xue, who knew that as soon as he took a few steps, Zhou Xue's voice came from behind, "Ye Chenghan, I'm pregnant, just with this child in my belly, you can't snatch Chi Xiaoyi from me." ”

I paused in place all of a sudden, and looked back at Zhou Xue suddenly, only to see her stroking her flat stomach with one hand, smiling with a provocative and smug look, I admit that I was stimulated by Zhou Xue at this moment, I couldn't calm down, and I almost rushed over to question Zhou Xue, but fortunately, Fu Chaohuan pulled me.

Later, when I got on the bus, I suddenly collapsed in my seat, leaning there weakly with my eyes closed, and Zhou Xue's words appeared in my ears again and again, as if there was a kind of demonic nature, tormenting me with a splitting headache and my brain was about to explode.

"Chenghan." Fu Chaohuan sat beside me and shook my hand, all he felt in my palm was cold sweat, and his tone was full of distress, "Although I don't want to speak for Chi Xiaoyi, I don't want to see you like this." Regardless of whether Zhou Xue is pregnant or not, I don't think you should believe her side of the story. ”

But if it's true, Chi Xiaoyi was drugged by Zhou Xue, they definitely didn't do contraception that day, if Zhou Xue was really pregnant, would Chi Xiaoyi marry Zhou Xue Maybe Zhou Xue is still too young to give birth to this child, but Jiang Zhiyue has long wanted the Chi family and the Zhou family to marry, this time Zhou Xue borrowed the child in her belly, and her marriage with Chi Xiaoyi can at least be finalized

Even if I made up my mind to forget Chi Xiaoyi and never like him again in the future, as long as I thought that he would marry another woman, I felt so uncomfortable in my heart, I knew that this relationship was not something I could control, and when I heard the news of Chi Xiaoyi, I would still be sad and painful about it.

When I got home that day, I didn't even want to eat dinner, and had to shut myself in the house as usual, but during this time my mother kept an eye on my condition, and she didn't allow me to do so, and when she saw me, she took me to the dining room and told me to wash my hands and sit down.

I chewed the wax and ate, during which the mobile phone in my pocket "zizi" vibrated a few times, I took it out and saw that it was a call from Chi Xiaoyi, and subconsciously pressed refuse, but my fingers moved and paused, and in the end I still put the phone to my ear.

Chi Xiaoyi said on the phone that he was drunk and asked me to pick him up, if I didn't go tonight, he would sleep on the road before I could speak, and there was a busy sound of "dood" on the phone, I was so annoyed that I almost smashed the phone, I didn't want to pay attention to Chi Xiaoyi's neurosis, but after half a minute, he still stood up from the chair cheaply, "I'll go out." ”

Ye Chengji was not at home, there were only me and my mother at the dinner table, I said hello to my mother, and regardless of her inquiries behind my back, I didn't have time to change my home clothes, so I went out and took the car, and asked the driver to take me to the bar that Chi Xiaoyi said.

It turned out that I was deceived by Chi Xiaoyi, and when I rushed over, he was sitting on a bench on the side of the road, although I could smell the smell of alcohol on his body, but where did he look like he was drunk and unconscious, his legs were folded, his posture was idle, and he learned to smoke at some point, and the cigarette in the corner of his mouth was very elegant.

Seeing me coming, Chi Xiaoyi raised his face shrouded in smoke, the pair of slender peach blossom eyes squinted, smiled at me, and his eyes were on the two legs of the fruit dew under my skirt, he reached out and grabbed my wrist, and said jokingly: "Dressed like this, you came over, and sure enough, you still care about me very much." ”

There was no-for-tat like usual, Chi Xiaoyi suddenly teased me like this, my face suddenly turned red, and I shook off his hand in shame and anger, "Since you have nothing to do, then I'll go back first." ”

After I finished speaking, I turned around and was about to leave, but Chi Xiaoyi grabbed my arm from behind, and his subordinates pulled me directly on his lap, not giving me room to resist at all, Chi Xiaoyi's arm firmly wrapped around my waist from behind.

The cigarette he held in the corner of his mouth had long been thrown away, and at this moment, his hot lips were pressed to my ears, and his voice was hoarse, "Who said that I have nothing to do Ye Chenghan, I am very uncomfortable, I feel uncomfortable, and I can't stand it physically." "Low mesophobia.

I didn't understand the meaning of his words for a while, until I felt the changes in him and something hard behind me, my pupils widened suddenly, and I turned my head and glared at Chi Xiaoyi angrily, "Let go of me, if you need it, go to Zhou Xue." ”

"I broke up with her." My struggle had no effect, Chi Xiaoyi easily imprisoned me in his chest, his face buried in my neck, the smell of tobacco and alcohol sprayed on my skin between breaths, at this moment he had a kind of confusion and intoxication that he didn't see on weekdays, "I don't want anyone, I only want you"

So I understood that Chi Xiaoyi was really drunk, otherwise he would not have said such things when he was sober, and now I just think that he was drunk and joking.

I grabbed Chi Xiaoyi's arm, pulled him up from the chair with a hard face, and said with a cold face, "I'll send you home." ”

He asked me to pull it up, but then his whole body suddenly covered up from behind, put one arm around my waist, lowered his head and put it in my ear and said, "I won't go home Ye Chenghan, let's go to the hotel to open a room, I want to follow you." ”

"I don't know what to say to Chi Xiaoyi anymore, how can he be so shameless and shameless, and tell me so bluntly that he wants to be with me**

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