I was lying in the bathtub all by myself, covered with white foam, I was so tired that I couldn't lift up a little strength all over my body, I was drowsy and just wanted to sleep, if it wasn't for Tang Zhuoyao to speak, I'm afraid I wouldn't have woken up.

I glanced over. Tang Zhuoyao's tall body was reflected in the misty sight, and after a few seconds, I closed my eyes again, too lazy to say a word, and I was very angry with Tang Zhuoyao's cognition.

His biggest weakness is that he woke up after drinking and didn't remember anything, but I appeared in the bathtub in his room, and Meng Yan didn't know where to go, wasn't his first reaction that I had sex with him?

"Why didn't you answer me?" Even though I was naked in the bathtub, Tang Zhuoyao did not avoid it, but he came over and stood in front of the bathtub, silent in the face of me. Tang Zhuoyao asked me with anger in his tone: "You have a weak heart, right?" When I came back from a meal with Liu Yuandong, you ignored me. ”

A large shadow loomed over him. I opened my half-squinted eyes, only to see Tang Zhuoyao squatting down, raising his slender fingers to pinch my chin, he asked me to meet his eyes, and asked me coldly: "What did you say and do to Liu Yuandong?" ”

This scene is really the opposite of what I imagined, I originally thought that after Tang Zhuoyao and I slept again, our relationship would heat up quickly, after all, it was such a fierce and crazy joy. Love, but the fact turned out to be that Tang Zhuoyao and I went toe-for-tat.

All the softness and sweetness in my heart vanished in an instant, and I had no spirit, but at this moment my face became cold and hard. Tang Zhuoyao and I looked at each other, and instead of answering, we asked, "What did Meng Yandu say to you?" Did you let her easily break up our relationship, or did you choose to trust me? ”

Tang Zhuoyao was stunned when he heard this, and then turned his head away, his gaze a little evasive.

Seeing this, I knew that I was right, Liu Yuandong and Meng Yan, the two brothers and sisters, joined forces to break up me and Tang Zhuoyao, but no matter what means Liu Yuandong used, I could handle it, but Tang Zhuoyao may not be deceived by Meng Yan.

"She's not separated." Under my persecutive gaze, Tang Zhuoyao spoke coldly. Thin lips like knives pursed.

After a while, he looked at me again and said to me sneeringly: "It was you who deceived me in the first place, and initially promised me not to have any more dealings with Liu Yuandong, but today at noon, not only did you want to hide from me to have dinner with him, but also what did both of you do, do you think I don't know?" ”

I heard it, Tang Zhuoyao's words obviously meant that I was carrying him behind his back. And steal with Liu Yuandong. What else can I say? I did tell a white lie to Tang Zhuoyao, and I did eat with Liu Yuandong, but didn't I do it all for Tang Zhuoyao?

And I am friends with Liu Yuandong, and I used to be colleagues, and I never thought of breaking up with him, so what happened to me having a meal with him? Tang Zhuoyao's possessiveness is too strong, I can understand, but can he not steal. Is it okay to sentence me for such a big crime?

I noticed that Tang Zhuoyao's eyes were dimly staring at my neck, and I looked down to see that his snow-white skin was full of ambiguous marks left by him, especially when he especially liked to kiss my collarbone.

I sneered and asked Tang Zhuoyao very calmly, "What are you thinking at the moment?" It's okay, you name it. ”

Tang Zhuoyao pursed his lips and was silent, his gaze never took off me, and when my white and flawless shoulders were peeking out of the foam, Tang Zhuoyao's greenish-brown pupils contracted sharply, and his head was full of shock and anger, and his hand on my chin tightened suddenly.

"Since you can't say it, then I'll say it for you." I looked at every subtle change in Tang Zhuoyao's expression, a sneering sneer appeared on my lips, and my tone was full of pathos and self-deprecation, "Do you think that not only did I have dinner with Liu Yuandong, but I also did it with him. Loved, huh? These marks on my body are the best proof of this. ”

Tang Zhuoyao's shoulders shook, probably didn't expect me to be so calm, my "brazenness" completely angered him, he raised his voice and asked me in a contemptuous tone: "Isn't it?!" ”

I laughed all at once, but I tilted my head and closed my eyes violently, only to feel that the heat in the depths of my eyes was about to pour out.

The water in the bathtub somehow became cold, and I felt a chill envelop me from head to toe, even invading my skin, my teeth and whole body chattering, and my heart twitching.

Since I grew up like this, I really haven't encountered anything more ridiculous than at this moment, Tang Zhuoyao couldn't remember that the person who rolled with him on the bed was me when he was drunk, but he would have thought that the way I am now is caused by Liu Yuandong.

Tang Zhuoyao, this bastard, does he know how much this hurts me?

I still didn't hold back after all, tears suddenly flowed out of my eyes, I reflexively raised my hand to cover my face, my whole slender body trembled, because of anger and sadness, my chest rose and fell violently, but I clenched my fists and restrained my emotions, and did not let myself cry.

"Sister......" Tang Zhuoyao panicked when he saw this, and he didn't care that we were still arguing, he let go of my chin and was about to touch my face with one hand, but I suddenly grabbed his arm at this moment and pulled him hard onto me.

Tang Zhuoyao was caught off guard and planted in the bathtub, only to hear the sound of "bang-la-la", without waiting for him to make a move, I reached out and grabbed his chin, leaned over and kissed him on the lips hard, "Since you don't remember what happened a few hours ago, then I'll help you review it again." ”

Tang Zhuoyao's pupils suddenly widened, the muscles in his body tensed all of a sudden, and he looked at me in disbelief at close range, after reacting, Tang Zhuoyao pushed me away, stood up and retreated a few steps back, with a strong rejection and disgust in his tone, "Don't touch me!" You're dirty. ”

"Bang", I was pushed by Tang Zhuoyao and planted in the bathtub, my slender back hit the edge of the solid bathtub hard, I almost heard the sound of broken bones, my eyes were black, the sky was spinning, for a few seconds, I didn't react to what happened, I almost passed out under the severe pain.

My elbow also hit the bathtub, subconsciously holding the bathtub with my hand, supporting my body, at this moment I collapsed there in an extremely embarrassed posture, even moving became difficult, and I felt severe pain in Tang Zhuoyao's body for several hours, and I didn't recover for a long time.

I don't know how long it took, but I craned my neck hard, and what came into view was a white, dazzling light, which gradually became blurred, my eyes were out of focus, and my throat rolled with difficulty, and I swallowed back the mouthful of sweet blood that I was about to spit out.

With this heavy fall, I felt like my entire chest cavity was shattered, but I didn't cry, my temperament was so hard, even if I died of pain, when I shouldn't have shed tears, I would still swallow the blood back into my stomach.

I didn't go to see Tang Zhuoyao, and his words just now kept echoing in my ears: "Don't touch me, you are dirty." It turns out that in his eyes now, I, Meng Lin, am a dirty and lewd person. Cheap woman?

I gave it to him for the first time in nearly thirty years, I rejected men other than him, even if it was just a goodbye hug, I never gave Liu Yuandong, I gave my body to him several times Tang Zhuoyao, but in the end he humiliated me so much.

Hehe...... I have never questioned the relationship between me and Tang Zhuoyao like this, I can forgive him for hurting me several times in the past, I am so unswerving, treat Tang Zhuoyao wholeheartedly, and give everything I have for him, even if I am incognito and hiding in Tibet from now on, I don't care.

But now that I am starting to seriously think about Liu Yuandong's words at noon, are Tang Zhuoyao and I really suitable? Or rather, is there really love between me and Tang Zhuoyao? Of course I know how I feel about him, but what about him? In fact, does he really love me?

Before he lost his memory, the woman he liked was Qiao Ningsi, and after the amnesia, the person in his heart was still Qiao Ningsi, so he refused to have a male-female relationship with me, after Meng Yan and Liu Yuandong's discord, coupled with Tang Zhuoyao's subconscious reluctance to admit that he was happy with him. The person I love is me, so Tang Zhuoyao naturally thought that I had slept with Liu Yuandong.

We didn't lose to Liu Yuandong and Meng Yan, but maybe Tang Zhuoyao never loved me from beginning to end, how low am I? I ruined my whole life for a man who didn't love me, and my so-called dedication and affection were not worth it from beginning to end.

At this moment I finally realized what it was all about being discouraged I got up from the bathtub and didn t care that tang zhuoyao was still standing there I was red. Walked to the shower and rinsed off the foam with ice water. [Lots of good]

I just glanced faintly at the bluish-black bruises and redness on my skin, then I wrapped myself in a towel and walked barefoot into the room.

Tang Zhuoyao stood there stiffly, stunned for a few seconds, he pursed his lips and followed me out without saying a word.

I changed my clothes in front of him, my heart was already numb, I turned my head to Tang Zhuoyao and said, "Since you think I'm dirty, then I won't provoke you." "Low level garbage.

"Please keep yourself clean, and don't scold me for being lewd. Cheap, but at night sneak into my room, go to my bed, and make a similar force to me. Violent perverted things. Even if you want to vent your physical needs, don't come to me, I won't accompany you in this kind of thing. ”

Tang Zhuoyao's tall body shook suddenly, staring at me with wide eyes, under the not very bright light, his face looked extremely pale, his thin lips trembled, Tang Zhuoyao's hands were clenched into fists, and the momentum when he had just insulted me was completely gone, he was like a child who had done something wrong, lowered his head and said vaguely: "I...... I ......"

I didn't have the patience to listen any longer, raised my legs and walked out silently, and when I passed by Tang Zhuoyao, Tang Zhuoyao grabbed my arm and asked in a hoarse voice: "It's so late, where are you going?" ”

I saw the panic on Tang Zhuoyao's face, there was a faint bloodshot floating in those eyes, and I knew that he still didn't want me to leave, but it was too late.

I lowered my head and gently brushed Tang Zhuoyao's hand away, and said in a calm tone: "I'm dirty, don't be embarrassed to touch me yourself." ”

"Don't you think that this trace of my body is due to Liu Yuandong? That's right, just this afternoon, I did have sex with him, and now that you're so disgusted with me, what am I going to stay for? I'm going to find Liu Yuandong. Besides......" I paused, my tone full of ridicule, "at this time, you should be concerned about where Meng Yan who slept with you went. ”

"Tang Zhuoyao, you know, right? Since you want others, you must be responsible for them. ”

Tang Zhuoyao couldn't answer a word, his eyebrows and thin lips were blue-white, and he stood motionless at the door like a statue.

I didn't say anything more, walked all the way to the living room, picked up all the clothes on the floor and on the sofa, and the doorbell rang outside.

I estimated that there were only Liu Yuandong and Meng Yan who came, and I was indifferent to this, but Tang Zhuoyao walked out of the bedroom and opened the door.

As soon as I came in, I saw Liu Yuandong holding Meng Yan in her arms, her body was wrapped in Liu Yuandong's clothes, and after bending over and putting Meng Yan on the sofa, Liu Yuandong suddenly turned around and smashed Tang Zhuoyao in the face with a punch.

I didn't go to help Tang Zhuoyao, firstly, because my heart was extremely numb at the moment, and I even thought that whether Tang Zhuoyao was dead or alive had nothing to do with me. The desire is excessive and sour, and I don't have the strength to pull Liu Yuandong anymore.

Meng Lin stayed outside the door for a few hours, curled up and hid in a place where outsiders couldn't see, Liu Yuandong couldn't get through to her, so she came over, and at this moment, it can be judged from the few words that Liu Yuandong said to Tang Zhuoyao, Meng Yan told Liu Yuandong that she had slept with Tang Zhuoyao, but halfway through, I carried it and threw it out, so Liu Yuandong let Tang Zhuoyao be responsible.

After a while, Meng Yan cried and grabbed Liu Yuandong, and Liu Yuandong stopped.

Tang Zhuoyao wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with his fingers, and didn't say anything, he grabbed Meng Yan's arm, and after looking at me, Tang Zhuoyao pulled Meng Yan out of the door.

Not long after, I heard the sound of the car's engine, and I guessed that Tang Zhuoyao took Meng Yan to the hospital.

Tang Zhuoyao didn't come back that night, and I didn't leave here, he sent me a text message telling me that I didn't need to move out, and that this house was left to me.

I kept looking at the screen of my phone that was darkening, and I wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry.

I know that my relationship with Tang Zhuoyao has probably come to an end.

I let Liu Yuandong go, I was the only one left in the whole house, and in the huge living room late at night, I sat on the sofa with my legs crossed, put my chin on my knees, and curled up in a ball, just like this, stayed in the boundless darkness until the sky outside brightened.

I remained motionless, as if I had become a corpse, always in one position, without even blinking my eyes for dozens of hours, I did not eat, drink, sleep or sleep, from the sunrise in the morning to the sunset at dusk, I held myself on the sofa for a day and a night.

It was dark outside again, as if a century had passed, and as the sun rose in the east on the third day, I heard the door being opened.

I looked back slowly, and saw the tall figure approaching, his face and broad shoulders shining with a gentle, golden glow against the light.

I thought it was Tang Zhuoyao, but when I got to the front of me, I saw Liu Yuandong's face, he bent his knees and squatted in front of me, holding my arm with one hand, Liu Yuandong said to me in a deep and magnetic voice: "Yu Yan, go back with me." ”

Get back? Where to go? At this point, do I have any room to turn back? I stared at Liu Yuandong, his eyes were full of gentleness and tolerance, and I knew that as long as I wanted, I could easily restore the profession I loved, and the identity I used to be.

Perhaps, as Liu Yuandong said, I shouldn't bury my life for Tang Zhuoyao, I am a person who radiates light all over my body, this life should be incomparably brilliant and famous in history, not like this moment, with a disheveled hair, dull eyes, and scars all over my body, I used to be like a precious and holy snow lotus on a snowy mountain, but after being with Tang Zhuoyao, I am gradually withering and losing my value and life.

How did I get to this point? In the past, even if I had no money and was poor, at least my spirit was noble, and I lived a meaningful and wonderful life, but now I gave up everything for a man who might not love me at all, and made myself not like a human being, a ghost like a ghost.

I closed my eyes, tears finally welled up, like a heavy rain quickly wet my whole face, my tense nerves suddenly relaxed, the whole person lost strength, the body fell uncontrollably, before falling into a coma, I only heard the man's panicked shout, "Meng Lin!" ”

This is my hallucination, otherwise how would I see Tang Zhuoyao striding up? Then I fell into the man's thick chest, and there was no boundless darkness before me, just as I had sat alone on the sofa in the living room on these two nights, and the darkness made me feel frightened and suffocated, and finally completely unconscious.

When I opened my eyes again, I found myself lying on a hospital bed, I slept for a long time, thinking that I would go back to the past when I woke up, and after a while, I realized that I was still in a foreign country, and Liu Yuandong was the only one who stayed by my side.

I was so desolate and lonely that it seemed as if the whole world had abandoned me, and I lay motionless in bed, staring at the ceiling with my eyes open, and not saying anything.

Liu Yuandong, who was sitting in the chair, held my hand, and he said in a low voice: "Tang Zhuoyao and my sister are together, as long as you go back to China with me, I will let Tang Zhuoyao go." ”

"Okay." I was so tired that I didn't want to open my eyes, and I closed them weakly and tiredly.

This is the reality that Tang Zhuoyao and I need to face, but in fact, it doesn't matter whether Liu Yuandong will let us go, the key is that Tang Zhuoyao fell in love with Meng Yan, and he decided to be with Meng Yan, if it wasn't for that, then I wouldn't choose to go back with Liu Yuandong.

I remember that day I told Tang Zhuoyao that we could only rely on each other for our lives in the future, and neither of us would leave each other alone, but the fact was that I gave up everything to accompany Tang Zhuoyao to a foreign country, and in the end I was the only one left, he was so afraid that I didn't want him, but in the end he abandoned me.

The doctor said that I had a fracture and a bad back injury, and asked me to stay in the hospital for a few days, but I didn't listen to them, and I insisted on leaving the hospital in the afternoon, and I didn't let Liu Yuandong send me, and I went back to the house alone, ready to take some of my documents.

I pushed open the door of the room with one hand, and when I went in, I saw Tang Zhuoyao lying on my bed, he didn't seem to expect that I would come back suddenly, as soon as he saw me, he sat up from the bed suddenly, I don't know why, his expression was a little panicked and complicated, "Meng ...... Sister, how did you get out of the hospital? Is the injury on your back healed? ”

"Hmm." I responded to Tang Zhuoyao lightly.

Since he knew that I was hospitalized, but he didn't visit or take care of me, that was enough to show his position, right? I think Liu Yuandong should also tell Tang Zhuoyao that I am leaving, but looking at Tang Zhuoyao's appearance, it seems to be very calm.

But I still feel that I have that responsibility to him, I saved him, and I didn't let him die and free him as he wanted, so I should protect him well, no matter in what capacity I accompany him through this life, I can't abandon him and leave him alone.

I walked over and sat on the bed with Tang Zhuoyao, turned my head sideways and said to Tang Zhuoyao gently, "Let's go back to China tomorrow, we won't stay here." ”

At this time, I looked down and saw two things beside Tang Zhuoyao, it was the white sheet and mask he brought all the way from China, he was in a daze at them just now, I don't know what the sheet is about, but the mask is a gift from me to Tang Zhuoyao, it seems that Tang Zhuoyao still cherishes the relationship between us until now.

Since Tang Zhuoyao is reluctant to let me go, why did we come to this point? The insertion of Meng Yan and Liu Yuandong, Liu Yuandong used Tang Zhuoyao to blackmail me, and I can't just be ordinary, stay in this poor place for a lifetime, and Tang Zhuoyao's amnesia and the person in his heart have always been Qiao Ningsi...... And so on, these are all contradictions between me and Tang Zhuoyao.

Tang Zhuoyao put the messy sheet on his lap, lowered his head and stroked it, he didn't look at me, "Sister, go back with Liu Yuandong!" It's fine for me to stay here on my own. ”

I don't understand why in just a few days, Tang Zhuoyao's contrast is so big, he is so possessive of me, and he is very dependent on me, afraid that I don't want him to be "mentally retarded", so why does he want me and Liu Yuandong to go back now?

I suddenly thought of a possibility, raised my hand to hold Tang Zhuoyao's arm, stared into his eyes, I forced my eyes and asked, "Zhuoyao, do you remember something?" Or is it that Liu Yuandong threatened you? ”

My eyes became sharp, "Listen to me, we don't have to be afraid of Liu Yuandong." No matter what happens, I won't let you get hurt......"

"Nope." Without waiting for me to continue, Tang Zhuoyao interrupted me directly, and his subordinates clutched the corner of the sheet, loosened it and smoothed it, and then clenched it again...... After repeating this, Tang Zhuoyao finally looked up at me, his greenish-brown eyes were quiet and docile, "Sister, I actually like you very much." ”

"But as you said that day, I still have traces of another woman in my memory, although I don't know who that woman is, but I know that I love her very much, so even if I have a male and female affection for you, my sister, I still force myself to suppress it."

"It's just that many times I don't control myself, I can't help but want to hug you, kiss you, and even in the bathroom when I'm in the shower, just thinking about you, I get erect. So I was violating you in my mind while solving it for myself. ”

"Although I am mentally unsound, I am physically mature. At night I slept in the same bed as you, and you lay in my chest, and your body was fragrant and soft, and your breath sprayed on my skin...... And so on these temptations you bring unintentionally, I want to change to any man, I can't help it. ”

"So in order to avoid behaving like a beast against you, I propose to sleep in separate beds. However, without you by my side, I began to lose sleep at night. The more I pushed myself, the more I couldn't sleep, just as the more I didn't let myself miss you, but your figure always lingered in my mind, which caused me to feel very uncomfortable mentally and physically. ”

"As you said, I snuck into your bed that night, I thought you were asleep, I did that kind of thing to you."

Tang Zhuoyao's thoughts, I probably guessed that eight or nine are not far from ten, from the beginning he was very entangled in contradictions, on the one hand, he was unwilling to betray the person in his heart, but his feelings for me were involuntary.

I smiled bitterly, "So then you determined who that person was, right?" ”

Tang Zhuoyao nodded, but he didn't look so happy, but there was paleness and pain between his eyebrows, and he said bitterly: "That woman is Meng Yan." ”

"Meng Yan told me a lot about what happened in the past, and it all overlapped with the blurry images in my mind."

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