Qin Feide's Afterword 18 Afterword: The Heart is a Wounded City (3)
Qin Yihuai put down the wine glass, he didn't even look at her, and was about to leave. [Ran^Text^Library] []. [774] [buy]. Sun Ying was anxious, and immediately dragged him, grabbed his clothes, and didn't let him go, "Qin Yihuai, don't let you go!" ”
"Let go!" Qin Yihuai said coldly.
"I'm not done yet!" Sun Yingzi roared angrily.
Qin Yihuai squinted his eyes and looked at her, his gaze was very indifferent, "Okay, you say." ”
"Do you admit you're a coward!" Sun Yingzi shouted.
"Coward? Scold. Qin Yihuai sneered.
"Actually, you are!" Sun Yingzi decidedly said, "You are not only self-righteous, but also love to deceive yourself!" What happened back then, you have always hidden it in your heart, you have never told others, and you dare not say it to others! Because you're afraid, you're afraid to face yourself! You don't seem to care, but you always remember! You have never let go! ”
"Qin Yihuai, I'll fight with you."
"We roll the dice."
"If I win you, then you have to go to the Buddha hall with me to worship, and you have to reconcile with your eldest brother! If I lose, I'll never mention it again, and I won't bother you anymore! ”
"Until twelve o'clock, until twelve o'clock tonight." Sun Yingzi's mind was in a mess, but it was so empty, God knows how the two things of fighting wine and worshiping Buddha can be confused, but on the contrary, she can't care so much anymore, and she will say whatever comes to mind.
"Qin Yihuai, do you dare?" Sun Yingzi raised her chin.
Qin Yihuai looked at her silently, Sun Yingzi only didn't agree, annoyed and angry, "You didn't plant it, didn't you!" ”
This sentence came out of his mouth, and Qin Yihuai put down the suit in his wrist, "Aiter, serve the wine." ”
Before starting, Qin Yihuai spoke, "Remember what you said. ”
Sun Yingzi suddenly felt that she was really a horse, why would she choose such a gambling project, what kind of drinking and dice rolling, it was not her expert at all. But the words have been released, and they can't be taken back, so Sun Yingzi can only bite the bullet.
"You've lost."
"I'll drink."
"You've lost."
"I'll drink."
"You've lost."
“…… I drink. ”
"You've lost."
“…… I...... Drink ......"
This night, Qin Yihuai didn't know how many times he had won, and Sun Yingzi didn't know how many times he had lost and how much he had drunk. After drinking, Qin Yihuai couldn't stand it anymore, he stopped her and asked her not to continue. But Sun Yingzi didn't listen to persuasion, and continued to drink, she said, "I haven't lost, I haven't lost ......"
After another game, Qin Yihuai frowned.
Sun Yingzi went down after a dozen cups, but it didn't work at all, she was dizzy, and the whole person fell on the bar.
And Qin Yihuai never lost a game from beginning to end, and even the alcohol of the two glasses of wine he drank just now faded.
After drinking another cup, Sun Yingzi immediately shouted, "I'm going to vomit ......"
"You wait!" Qin Yihuai frowned, hurriedly pulled her up, and ran in the direction of the bathroom.
The washing table was outside, Qin Yihuai directly dragged Sun Yingzi there, and as soon as he got to the washing table, Sun Yingzi immediately vomited miserably.
After vomiting, Sun Yingzi had no strength, and she was about to fall backwards in a daze.
"Hey!" Qin Yihuai was still quick-eyed, but fortunately hugged her. Looking at her again, Sun Yingzi had already slept.
Qin Yihuai had no choice, so he simply picked her up and walked out of the bar.
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On the way home to send Sun Yingzi, she was very quiet, no more vomiting and no noise. When he arrived at Sun's house, Sun Shihao saw that Sun Yingzi was so drunk, he frowned again and again, and immediately asked the maid to take over and help him upstairs.
Qin Yihuai sat for a while and drank a cup of tea.
Old Sun said, "Qin San, thank you again this time, send Xiaozi back." ”
"It's okay, Grandpa Sun, that's what I'm supposed to do." Qin Yihuai said.
"This kid is really getting more and more disagreeable, he drank so much wine today!" Sun Lao is obviously very dissatisfied, after all, it is a wealthy family, although he spoils Sun Yingzi, he does not allow a girl to drink outside in the middle of the night, and she comes back so drunk. If you meet a bad person, what should you do?
Qin Yihuai thought for a while and said, "Grandpa Sun, don't be angry, I think Yingzi is just a little sad today." ”
Sun Lao was silent, he didn't know that today was the death day of Qin Shijin's mother, and Sun Yingzi had said earlier that he would go to the Buddhist hall with them tonight to chant sutras. Thinking of this, he couldn't help sighing, "Hey, that child, he must have thought of himself and his mother." ”
Qin Yihuai didn't know why, "Grandpa Sun, what do you mean by this?" ”
Sun Lao thought that it didn't matter what he said to Qin Yihuai, he was half of his own person, and he said in a deep voice, "When Xiaozi was born, her mother died, and she was born in childbirth. Later, Xiao Zi overheard from others that her mother died because of her, and she kept remembering it. Although she didn't say it, we all know that she has been sad. In fact, where can she be blamed for this, her mother was not in good health before, and the doctors said that her body was not suitable for childbirth at all, but she was already pregnant with Xiaozi, and she was reluctant not to, so she gave birth like this. I just didn't expect it, so I just left. ”
"Xiaozi is so old, she hasn't seen her mother in person, nor has she spoken to her, although her father and I love her and spoil her, but after all, we still can't replace her mother." When Sun Lao mentioned this, his eyes were also a little red, and he said with emotion, "Don't look at this child, she usually looks very happy, but when she was a child, she often hid in the quilt and cried. Qin San, now that Xiaozi is doing things by your side, if there is anything wrong, you can bear with her a little more and tolerate her, and grandpa will thank you. ”
"No, Grandpa Sun, don't say that." Qin Yihuai immediately replied, "Yingzi, she is very smart, you can rest assured." ”
"Hey." Mr. Sun responded, "I hope she is doing well." ”
The two chatted for a few words, Qin Yihuai didn't stay long, said goodbye, and left Sun's house.
The car drove to the Sun family's villa, and after a few meters away, Qin Yihuai couldn't help but look at the front mirror. Through the mirror, I looked at the big brightly lit house behind me.
Old Sun's words were actually insignificant to Qin Yihuai, but they made him silent.
If it weren't for hearing Sun Lao say this, then Qin Yihuai might never have known that a girl who was so happy also had a sad castle in her heart. Suddenly, he remembered what she had just said in her office.
"Perhaps, you don't even know how lucky you are, at least you once had."
Because she hadn't seen her mother, she hadn't had one.
It's just that she won't know that such a possession may be better than not having it.
The car slowly moved away from the Sun family's house, and Qin Yihuai retracted his gaze indifferently. He didn't know which window was Sun Yingzi's room, he didn't know which bed she slept in, and he didn't know if she was good or bad now. But he was suddenly inexplicable, and he really wanted to take a look at Sun Yingzi's sleeping face.
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When Qin Yihuai returned to Qin's house, the night was darker.
"Young Master, you're back."
"Well, what about grandpa and mom?"
"The master is in the study, and the lady is in the backyard." The butler said.
As soon as he heard this, Qin Yihuai thought that neither of them had slept yet, it must be because today was Lin Haiyin's day of breaking the seventh.
Qin Yihuai was silent and went to the backyard.
Fang Xian loves flowers, so there is a glass flower room. At this moment, something is burning in the bright flower room. Fang Xian sat on the small bench, looking at the burning iron bucket, without saying a word. Qin Yihuai looked at her from behind for a moment, and she could see clearly that Fang Xian was burning gold leaf paper money.
After a while, he spoke, "Mom." ”
Fang Xian turned around and saw that it was him, "Yihuai, you're back." ”
Qin Yihuai walked to Fang Xian's side, Fang Xian said, "Today is the day of her seventh break, I heard that they all went to the Buddha Hall, did you go?" ”
Qin Yihuai didn't answer, Fang Xian only thought that he didn't go, and she called again, "Come, burn a few." ”
Qin Yihuai hesitated, but still squatted down, picked up some paper money, and put it into the burning iron bucket.
"I lived to this age, and now I think about how stubborn I was then." Fang Xian sighed.
Qin Yihuai stretched out his hand, held Fang Xian's hand and said in a low voice, "Mom, you're not wrong. ”
Fang Xian patted the back of his hand, "No one is wrong. ”
Qin Yihuai was a little uncomfortable, he didn't understand what that sour feeling was, and heard Fang Xian say, "No one is wrong, do you know?" ”
Qin Yihuai felt his heart tighten, and he became more and more speechless.
Qin Yihuai did not forget the quarrel that year. It was in that year that Qin Shijin went to England because Lin Haiyin was seriously ill. He also learned about the condition and knew that it was best for Lin Haiyin to return to China to recuperate, but Qin Yaozong did not allow her to return to China. Under the stalemate, Qin Yihuai came to Qin Yaozong and told the story of the year in front of Fang Xian.
That year, the reason why Qin Shijin ran out was because of him, because he tore his portrait, because of his young and ignorant quarrels, and because he kept saying that he should leave here. If it weren't for him, then his father and Guan Feifei's father would not have died due to an accidental car accident.
The secret that had been hidden in his heart for several years was said at once, and Qin Yaozong was stunned and Fang Xian was stunned.
also made him feel ashamed, but he was also released all of a sudden.
……
Fang Xian admonished, "Let's go take a bath, it's not early, I have to go to work tomorrow." ”
Qin Yihuai nodded silently.
When he went upstairs, Qin Yihuai remembered that the housekeeper said just now that his grandfather was still in the study. Before Qin Yihuai returned to the room, he came to Qin Yaozong's study. He knocked softly on the door, but no one answered. After waiting for a while, he was afraid that something would happen to him, Qin Yihuai couldn't wait to respond, so he pushed the door directly and entered.
In the chair behind the desk, Qin Yaozong just sat down and fell asleep.
Qin Yihuai was taken aback, he just thought something was wrong, and immediately ran over. He didn't even dare to shout, he just reached his hand between Qin Yaozong's snorts, and he breathed slowly and steadily.
Qin Yihuai suddenly breathed a sigh of relief and couldn't help but feel relieved.
just looked down, but saw Qin Yaozong's hand holding a family photo.
It was taken when the whole family was complete.
So well preserved.
Perhaps, everyone's heart is probably a city.
It's a sad city.
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