Qin Feide's Afterword 16 Afterword: The Heart is a Wounded City (1)
In the past few days, Sun Yingzi's mind has been entangled in the words that Qin Yihuai said after being drunk that day. [Ran^Text^Library] []. [774] [buy]. I don't know what's wrong.,It's obviously something that has nothing to do with her.,But I remembered it.,And I'm still impressed.。 Just thinking of Qin Yihuai's words, Sun Yingzi felt a tightness in her chest, and she was about to suffocate.
&mda;&mda;I should have died.
After hesitating for a few days, Sun Yingzi couldn't help but act.
She decided to ask for clarification.
I don't know the truth of the matter, and I will never give up.
Ask Qin Yihuai, it is absolutely impossible.
So who else?
Sun Yingzi thought that the only person who knew the truth of the matter back then was Qin Shijin.
Taking advantage of the lunch break, Sun Yingzi left the Zhongzheng headquarters and then drove to Blue Sky Company. Today's blue sky is the world of Qin Shijin and Xiao Mobai. Sun Yingzi reached the blue sky, called Qin Shijin and went upstairs smoothly. entered the department and came to Qin Shijin's office.
Coincidentally, Qin Shijin still has a little time, and there is a dinner at noon, which will start in half an hour.
It takes about fifteen minutes to travel from the restaurant near the Blue Sky Company.
Therefore, Qin Shijin also gave Sun Yingzi half of the time.
Qin Shijin was also a little surprised by Sun Yingzi's sudden visit, after all, Zhongzheng and Blue Sky now have no direct project exchanges. Then it seems that it must not be for official business, since it is not a public matter, it is only a private matter. Qin Shijin didn't think that there were any private matters to talk about between them.
"What do you want to say?" Qin Shijin asked indifferently.
Sun Yingzi was a little hesitant, she didn't know how to speak, and she didn't know where to enter.
"It's been two minutes." Qin Shijin reminded.
Sun Ying was anxious, after all, he only had fifteen minutes, and she didn't want to disturb his entertainment, "That, Qin Shijin, I came here today because I want to ask you something." ”
"Yes."
"I want to ask you......" Sun Yingzi thought that this time she was going to die, she gritted her teeth and said, "I want to ask you, your father, that is, Uncle Qin, the cause of their death." ”
Qin Shijin's eyes froze, "They were an accidental car accident." ”
"I know, but I don't want to know this ......" Sun Yingzi was a little messy again, she found that her brain was knotted, "I want to know, what does the car accident have to do with Qin Yihuai!" ”
The words she blurted out made Qin Shijin stunned, "What do you know?" ”
"I ...... I don't know anything! Because I don't know, that's why I came to you and wanted to ask for clarification! Sun Yingzi said persistently.
"I've forgotten what has passed." Qin Shijin still had a cold tone.
Sun Yingzi frowned, "But he has always kept it in his heart!" Moreover, he is still very guilty and blames himself! ”
"Qin Shijin, just ask me for you, please do me a favor, if you know, you can tell me." Sun Yingzi has never asked anyone like this, "Maybe you don't believe it, I haven't begged anyone before, but this time, I beg you to help me, you can tell me!" ”
"Miss Sun, did you even use it?" Qin Shijin raised the corners of his lips slightly, a little teasing, but his eyes were very deep.
Sun Yingzi's eyes were full of longing, and she didn't mind his ridicule, and nodded solemnly, "En!" ”
"This is important to you?"
"Yes!"
"So, he's a very important person to you?" Qin Shijin asked again.
Sun Yingzi didn't care about anything else, she just wanted to know, she nodded and said, "Yes!" ”
Qin Shijin was silent, and after a long while, he made a move. Just took a cigarette, lit it and took two puffs, and he spoke slowly.
Qin Shijin's voice was very distant, but his words were very simple, just a few words, and he said all the things of the year.
"The reason why they had an accident was because they were looking for me. And the reason why I left the Qin family that day was because ......"
Because on that day, in that back garden, the two of them had an argument.
He tore up his portrait.
It was the only thing he had left.
It's his.
Something that no one can take away.
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Listening to Qin Shijin talk about the past, it was just a few words, but it was just a few minutes, such indifference, indifference, it seemed to be something that had nothing to do with him. But Sun Yingzi heard it, and her heart ached. Before she had time to come back to her senses, Qin Shijin was already over, "That's it." ”
Sun Yingzi was stunned and opened her mouth, not knowing what to say.
But suddenly it all came to me again, and I understood why he said that.
"I'm telling you, I've killed people."
"Two lives, although I didn't kill them with my own hands, but I killed them."
"If it weren't for me, he wouldn't have run out. If he hadn't run out, then they wouldn't have had a car accident. If I didn't kill it, who else would it be. ”
"Because I robbed his portrait and tore it to shreds."
……
Because back then, Qin Yihuai, who was still a child, was not friendly to Qin Shijin, because back then, he had no intention of having the ending at that time.
Only, who can be blamed for this?
Could a child, he be so willing?
Sun Yingzi found that she was trembling, because the truth of the matter was so ridiculous, so fragile and small. She couldn't laugh, she just felt heavy and boundless, and tried to hook the corners of her mouth, but found that it weighed a thousand pounds. It took a long time for her to regain her voice, "It was an accident." ”
Qin Shijin was silent and did not make a sound.
Sun Yingzi repeated again, "It was just an accidental car accident!" ”
Finally, Qin Shijin responded, so low, so soft, "Yes." ”
Sun Yingzi clenched her fist lightly, she got up in a panic, "I'm sorry, I'm here suddenly, my business has been finished, don't bother you, then I'll go first." ”
After Sun Yingzi finished speaking, she turned around and walked outside.
Qin Shijin just sat in the chair, his eyes heavy and deep.
As soon as Sun Yingzi left the office, when he passed by the secretary's room, he was stopped by someone, "Sun Yingzi? ”
Sun Yingzi didn't seem to hear it, just took steps and hurried over. When I walked towards him, there was nothing in front of me, and I couldn't see any figure.
"Yingzi! What are you doing here? Someone shouted again, this time a female voice.
Sun Yingzi still didn't respond, and continued to walk forward, but just ran straight out of the department and walked away.
The person behind was Su Nan, looking at her departing figure with some suspicion, "What's wrong?" ”
Su Nan was puzzled as she walked back to the secretary's room, "Have you seen Yingzi?" ”
"See." The person in this secretary's room is Xiao Mobai.
"I just called her, and she ignored me."
"She ignored me either." Xiao Mobai smiled.
Su Nan was even more confused, frowned and said, "What the hell is going on?" ”
At this time, Qin Shijin also came out of the office. As soon as Su Nan saw him, he immediately shouted, "Yingzi came just now, is there something wrong?" ”
Qin Shijin was silent and said lightly, "It's nothing." ”
Leaving Blue Sky Company all the way, Sun Yingzi came to the parking lot. She got into the car, started the engine, but didn't step on the accelerator. Holding the steering wheel, I held it for a long time, and suddenly felt weak.
She was saddened by &mda;&mda;.
So sad.
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This whole afternoon, Sun Yingzi didn't know how she was living. When she didn't know the truth, she was so eager to know. But when she really understood, she realized that she was so powerless. I can't think of any way, and I don't know what to do.
In the midst of the apprehension, this afternoon passed.
During this period, because of lack of concentration, a report was messy and was severely criticized by Qin Yihuai.
"What did you do today?" Qin Yihuai asked angrily.
Sun Yingzi didn't get mad as usual, but said in a low voice, "I'll revise it again." ”
So, I went out of the office again and continued to redo the report.
went back and forth, and when it was time to get off work, it was still not done.
Everyone got off work, but Sun Yingzi was still in the assistant room and did not leave. She lowered her head and looked at the computer screen, but she didn't know where her mind fell.
"Knock knock!" Until, there was a gentle knock on the door.
Sun Yingzi was awakened, and when she looked up, she saw Qin Yihuai standing at the door, holding a suit jacket in one hand, flicking it over his shoulders, in a chic posture, looking at her.
"Not done yet?" Qin Yihuai asked.
Sun Yingzi nodded, "Yes." ”
"What the hell did you do today?" Qin Yihuai is dissatisfied with her work status today, which is definitely not at this level according to normal times. At the same time as he was displeased, he also had doubts.
Sun Yingzi said, "It's nothing, I just have a little headache." ”
"What? Sick? ”
"Nope!"
"You're drinking again?" Qin Yihuai asked intuitively.
"Why, I didn't go!" Sun Yingzi immediately denied it.
"Could it be that the alcohol of that day can affect so many days, and it has not completely dissipated to this day?" It's not that he's sick, it's not that he's getting drunk again, so Qin Yihuai can only come up with this possibility.
"How is that possible!" Sun Yingzi was speechless at his words.
Qin Yihuai also lost patience, he didn't continue, "Since you have a headache and feel uncomfortable, then you don't have to pay it today, go back first." ”
Qin Yihuai said that he was about to leave.
"Qin Yihuai!" Sun Yingzi was anxious and hurriedly called out to him.
"What's wrong again?" Qin Yihuai frowned and asked impatiently.
Sun Yingzi had already stood up, she was still holding the pen in her hand, holding it so tightly that she even felt her own force, and the pen seemed to be broken.
"What you said to me that night, I want to say to you, it was just an accident, you don't take it to heart, no one wants something like that to happen." Sun Yingzi's voice was soft, but she still said it.
Qin Yihuai's uninhibited expression was slightly stunned all of a sudden, and quickly covered it up, "That night? I'm joking with you, are you serious? ”
"Qin Yihuai!" Sun Yingzi roared out, "Don't lie anymore!" I know it all! I've asked your big brother! ”
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