Lu Zhanyan stayed in London for a while.

During the day, she goes out alone and spends most of her time in the hospital. When Qin Shijin gets off work, she will wait for him in the hotel, and then the two of them will go to the hospital together, but Lin Haiyin has been unconscious. Seeing that Sunday was coming, Qin Shijin booked a ticket for her to go back.

Lu Zhanyan couldn't help but be a little anxious.

I came here, but I didn't seem to be doing anything.

That afternoon, Lu Zhanyan was still in the hospital to accompany him.

Lin Haiyin's breathing began to be short, and Lu Zhanyan shouted in horror, "Auntie! Auntie, what's wrong with you! ”

The nurse sensed something was wrong and immediately called the doctor.

Lu Zhanyan also panicked, she hurriedly called Qin Shijin in the corridor to inform him, "Qin Shijin, come to the hospital ...... quickly."

I was suddenly very scared, and this feeling was even more frightening than the day I received the notice that Lu Qingsong was critically ill.

Because I had to see it with my own eyes, I was even more frightened.

When Qin Shijin rushed to the hospital, he saw Lu Zhanyan standing outside the ward.

She kept her head down and didn't say a word, her long hair blocking her face, so she couldn't see the expression on her face.

But at that moment, Qin Shijin had a bad premonition.

Qin Shijin's originally calm pace quickened, he strode in front of Lu Zhanyan and asked anxiously, "How is it?" ”

Lu Zhanyan looked up at him, but his emotions had not eased, but his eyes were red, "Auntie...... Auntie fell asleep......"

Asleep?

Qin Shijin heard these three words as another meaning, he turned around and opened the door of the ward and rushed in.

I saw that on the hospital bed, Lin Haiyin was still lying peacefully. She put on an oxygen mask and breathed slowly.

The nurse next to him said, "Mr. Qin, Ms. Lin is not in danger of life for the time being, but now she is in a coma again." ”

Qin Shijin glanced at Lin Haiyin for a moment, and the heart that fell to the ground suddenly rose again, as if he was relieved, "If there is any situation, please inform me, and please take good care of her." ”

"Mr. Qin, please rest assured."

Qin Shijin then walked out of the ward, he saw Lu Zhanyan's reddened eyes, rubbed her hair, and said in a deep voice, "It's just asleep, it's okay." ”

Lu Zhanyan leaned his head against his chest and blinked away those tears vigorously.

She can't cry.

Auntie just fell asleep and was fine.

Before leaving the hospital, Qin Shijin took Lu Zhanyan to the attending doctor to inquire about his condition.

The doctor is also an expert in psychology and over the years, served as the attending physician of Lin Haiyin. Therefore, he knows Lin Haiyin's depression very well.

The doctor said, "Ms. Lin is in a bad condition now, she has been depressed for many years and has become a stubborn disease. The tissues of her body gradually decayed, and most importantly, she was in poor mental condition and had weak willpower. Mr. Qin, in fact, I suggest that you take Ms. Lin back to China to recuperate. Once in the talk therapy, Ms. Lin revealed in the conversation that she wanted to return to China. I think it will help her condition......"

Qin Shijin just said, "Thank you, doctor, I know." ”

The two returned to the outside of Lin Haiyin's hospital room and looked at her sleeping through the glass window.

Lu Zhanyan couldn't hide his worries, and said, "Qin Shijin, in fact, the doctor's words are not unreasonable, it is better to take the aunt back to China, I think the condition of the aunt is ......."

Although I don't know much about depression, I also know that people's will and heart should be inseparable.

"You don't need to think about that." Qin Shijin interrupted her.

"Qin Shijin ......"

"She's not going back home." Qin Shijin said resolutely.

"Why? Obviously, the doctor said that the aunt once revealed that she wanted to return to China...... "Fallen leaves always have to return to the roots, this is human nature."

"You don't have to say it anymore!" Qin Shijin shouted, "This matter has nothing to do with you!" ”

Lu Zhanyan chuckled in his heart, and he didn't know what to say for a while.

Xu is Qin Shijin's shouting was too loud, so it disturbed the patient, and a nurse pushed open the door and said, "This gentleman, please don't make noise......

Qin Shijin frowned indifferently, his gaze swept over Lin Haiyin, who was asleep in the ward, turned around, and strode away.

Lu Zhanyan pursed his lips and could only chase after him.

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The two of them left the hospital one after the other, and it began to drizzle again in London.

Qin Shijin didn't care about the rain, so he walked outside. Lu Zhanyan opened the umbrella and caught up with him in a few big steps, but not just to catch up with him, but also to move forward side by side with him, "Qin Shijin!" You make it clear! This matter, how can it have nothing to do with me! ”

Qin Shijin didn't seem to have heard of it, and still walked forward.

His pace was too fast, Lu Zhanyan stretched out his hand to grab his arm, "Qin Shijin, you stop for me!" The doctors have said that if the aunt returns to China, her condition will improve! Why do you say she won't return home! Will she not return to the country or will not be able to return to the country! Is it that you don't want her to return home! ”

This time, what was he hiding and didn't want her to know?

"Shut up! You know what! Qin Shijin shook off her hand and yelled at her.

Lu Zhanyan's ears rang, and his strength was too great, and he threw her away in one fell swoop.

The umbrella in his hand also fell to the ground, and the rain poured down in an instant, falling on the two of them.

Hair, eyes, clothes, all wet.

The umbrella fell to the ground and was wet from the rain.

The two stood anxiously facing each other, and someone passed by them, looking at them with curiosity, but no one cared.

Lu Zhanyan tasted the bitter taste of the rain again, it was sour and astringent, and he was distressed and reluctant, "Qin Shijin, I don't understand, I haven't understood it all the time, because you, you have never told me." You and your aunt suddenly left that year, and you didn't tell me. Later, you never contacted me to find me, and you suddenly became the eldest of the Qin family, and I don't know what happened. You've had a bad relationship with your aunt since you were a child, and I don't know why. Your relationship with the Qin family is not good, you said that you have nothing to do with the Qin family. My aunt is sick and has been abroad, and I don't know anything about it. ”

She said so messily, even a little incoherently, "I'm stupid, but if you don't tell me, how will I understand!" ”

"Qin Shijin, I want to understand you better!" Lu Zhanyan yelled at him, helpless, but extremely sad.

The drizzle covered Qin Shijin's face, but those eyes were deeper than the gloom of the sky.

There was silence for a while, but it was Qin Shijin who made the move first.

Didn't say anything, just took her hand and left.

The umbrella was discarded on the ground.

The rain continued to fall, and the whole city was gray, Qin Shijin held her hand and left the hospital.

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When I returned to the hotel from the hospital, it was already dark.

The night has come.

Both of them were soaking wet, but when they were in the car, their clothes were dried. I just stopped here, and the rain wet my hair again.

After entering the room, Lu Zhanyan immediately went to get a dry towel.

Qin Shijin sat on the sofa and began to smoke.

Lu Zhanyan walked in front of him and began to wipe his hair, "The clothes are still wet, you go and change them quickly, otherwise it will be bad to catch a cold." ”

"Auntie is still sick now, you can't be sick too." She whispered.

Qin Shijin just sat still, motionless, and let her wipe his hair for him.

In fact, washing and drying your hair is just a simple matter. But in her memory, only her father did it for her. Growing so big, Lu Zhanyan hasn't served anyone yet, except for Qin Shijin. At this moment, there is a very peculiar feeling, an unpredictable warmth is revealed in the plain, and her movements are gradually gentle.

There was silence but noise around him, and he suddenly spoke, "She was once married, married to my adoptive father Gu Feng. Before the age of ten, we lived together. ”

Lu Zhanyan didn't stop, but became softer.

I just suddenly remembered the first time I saw him.

At that time, he was still a teenager, and he was brought to her by a beautiful aunt.

It's just ten years old.

"Later, she took me away, leaving my adoptive father behind." And he just said a few words, he exhausted the past, omitted too many details, and skipped too many emotions, as if those were insignificant and irrelevant, but the more this happened, the more it made Lu Zhanyan's heart sour.

"So your adoptive father, is there still any contact with him?" Lu Zhanyan asked.

Qin Shijin was silent and said lightly, "No, I heard that he is dead." That year, I was studying in the UK, and no one told me, saying that I was afraid that it would affect my studies. Later, it was Gu Jingzhi who told me. ”

"Gu Jingzhi?" Lu Zhanyan had never heard of this name.

"My adoptive father's daughter is two years older than me."

It turned out to be his sister, Lu Zhanyan asked softly, "So how is she now?" ”

"She is married, has children, is a teacher, and she used to study very well." Qin Shijin had never mentioned these things, so every sentence he was talking about would pause for a long time.

"Look, she's having a good time, isn't she?" Lu Zhanyan asked.

Qin Shijin was silent, as if he agreed.

"So you didn't have a good relationship with your aunt when you were a child, because of this." Lu Zhanyan's voice was very soft, and her movements were also very light, for fear that she would touch the deepest wound in her heart.

This time the silence was acquiescence, and after a while, Qin Shijin's deep voice was a little hesitant, "I know that there is no result, why are I still obsessed." This is her decision, when she decided to leave, she should have thought that there would be today, and it was impossible to be recognized by the Qin family. ”

"But then, she said she regretted it, how ridiculous." Qin Shijin said casually, this is the last sentence.

Regretting such a decision?

Maybe it was regret that she gave birth to him.

Lu Zhanyan's heart tightened, and the wiping action stopped.

"No, I don't think Auntie has any regrets." Lu Zhanyan looked into his eyes and said seriously.

Qin Shijin looked at her indifferently, her face was very gentle, and her voice was light and powerful, "At least, she must not regret giving birth to you." ”

"Yes." His gaze was deep, and he asked indifferently.

His throat was very astringent, so he seemed to be speechless, Lu Zhanyan nodded, "Of course, of course." ”

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That was the last time Qin Shijin saw his adoptive father Gu Feng.

But many years later, I still remember that shot.

Gu Feng was wearing a navy blue coat and stood outside the school gate with his bicycle in his arms. You don't have to ask to know that you must have left work early. Gu Jingzhi was in the same school as him, and the school was not far from home, so the two sisters and brothers made an appointment to meet at the door after school. Whoever gets out of class first will wait for him first.

When he came to the school gate on this day, he saw Gu Feng standing there with a smile.

The weather in winter is cold, and the howling wind is like a sharp blade.

In the north wind, Gu Feng smiled quietly.

Qin Shijin walked over with his schoolbag on his back, Gu Feng took his schoolbag and put it in the basket, touched his face again, took the scarf around his neck and put it on for him, round and round, as soon as he spoke, he would let out a big ball of white gas, but it made him feel very warm.

It's probably a scarf, and it has his temperature, so bring it to him.

Gu Jingzhi also got out of class and ran out happily at this time.

Gu Feng asked: Xiaojin, why didn't you wear a scarf?

Gu Jingzhi reported on the side: Mom asked him to wear it, but he said that he was not afraid of the cold.

Gu Feng smiled and patted his head.

On the way home, Gu Jingzhi sat on the bar in front of the car, and Qin Shijin sat in the back seat. With Gu Feng in the middle, he told him from time to time to be careful and sit firm. Gu Jingzhi was shouting in front of him about the interesting things that happened in class today, who made a joke in class and was punished by the teacher for standing.

The white mist of gas that spewed out was chaotic and blurred in vision.

The mixed picture is that his mother packed his luggage to take him away, and on the night he left, Gu Feng grabbed her and said helpless and messy words. I didn't understand, I didn't know what they were talking about, I just remembered Gu Feng's eyes, full of longing, and what he was looking forward to.

Finally, the luggage was loaded into the car.

The mother sat in resolutely with tears in her eyes, but he refused to leave, just stubbornly grabbed Gu Feng's hand.

Gu Feng asked him to listen to his mother.

No, I don't want to go anywhere, just stay here.

He was forcibly put into the car and the doors were locked. The engine started immediately, and his mother was pulling him, but he kept banging on the window.

Gu Jingzhi also ran out of the house, and through the glass he saw her crying with tears on her face.

He tried to wipe her tears, but he couldn't open the door.

The car drove forward, getting farther and farther away from them, and Gu Feng grabbed her and didn't let her chase her. After turning the corner, Gu Jingzhi's cry could still be heard. The fog was even more intense, obscuring the eyes, and only the lights in the room were faintly discerning.

It's just going far, farther and farther.

Why don't my sister and I have the same last name?

"Because mom loves you so much."

Where are you going to take me now?

"We're home."

My home is here.

"From now on, it's not here."

Elsewhere, it is even more not.

……

Don't love me anymore, don't say it anymore.

That's just a selfish excuse not to go home, because it's not my home at all.