"Since we once loved each other, why hurt each other so much?"

After a while, the little uncle spit out this sentence faintly, "Qiaoqiao, why do you bother. ”

I looked at the back of my hand that was swollen like a steamed bun, shook my head, and couldn't say anything.

The nurse rubbed the needle on the back of my hand and taped, saying, "This swelling will go away in a while, don't worry." “

I nodded, the swelling on the back of my hand will disappear in a while, so what about my heart, can I rub some medicine to make it faster?

When the nurse went out, the sister-in-law walked to the side of the bed and sat down: "Qiaoqiao, I think the unicorn really can't let go of you, do you know, I went to see him last year, I brought him the pendant of yours, I also said that the needle was raised by you with blood, at that time he threw it aside, I was afraid that he would throw it away, and when he left, he instructed the nanny who took care of him abroad, look at the pendant, if he threw it, and then pick it up, as a result, the nanny said, as soon as I left, the unicorn held the pendant in his hand, Baby, he's that kind of person, you can never guess him from the outside, but as long as you walk into his heart, he really can't let go of ......"

I lowered my eyes, I only felt that my uncle's words made my heart ripple layer by layer, tears dripping on the mattress of the hospital bed, I know that he is good, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have been able to get the money for Xu Meijin's hospitalization in the entertainment bar, if it wasn't for him, how could I start thinking about wanting to have surgery?

I still remember the scene of getting drunk at my cousin's house, he looked slightly drunk, pointed at me with a confused smile, looked at my cousin and said, "Cousin, this is my girlfriend, we are getting married......"

It was the happiest period of my life, I had him to rely on, there were things to plan, of course, everything was for him, I wanted to be good with him, the idea of wanting to become a woman also began to burst out completely at that time, at that time, I would have thought that one day, I would say to him personally, what I like, is actually a woman?

How is it possible, I don't believe what I lie, but I have to say that I am really afraid of getting close again, although the process of tearing is extremely painful, but at the very least, it is much better than continuing to kill each other like this.

I don't care what he thinks of me, and I don't care if he thinks I'm disgusting, anyway, I'm already like this, although he has changed a lot since he came back, what he said and did, none of them are normal, but I'm not blind, I can see that he was nervous when I vomited blood, and his love was deep, so he hated it, I can't understand that Zhuo Jing still has me in his heart, so, how can I not be afraid?

If I could, where would I rather suffer a single line of pain in Zhuojing, I want to know if his heart hurts now, and after the pain, is it really calm between me and him?

"Jojo, are you listening to me?"

I sniffed and raised my eyes to look at my brother-in-law: "I'm listening, but brother-in-law, Zhuo Jing and I have changed, whether he puts it down or not, it's impossible for us." ”

"Why not."

The sister-in-law looked at me a little anxious: "Do you know, I have just explained to the doctor, tomorrow you will check your body in detail, if there is no problem, I will contact a friend abroad to give you surgery, in fact, there is no separation between you and the Kirin, I am fortunate that the information about you on your ID card and household registration book is still female, these do not need to be changed, you just need to travel lightly, then, you and the Kirin knot can be put down, you know, Your sister-in-law and I both hope that the two of you can be together well, you are not only his guardian, but also have a good impression of each other, this is a natural pair! ”

A natural pair?

It's a pity that I gave birth to the wrong body.

Looking at my little uncle, I exhaled softly: "Little uncle, put all this aside, even if I go for surgery, will Zhuo Jing's parents accept an intersex person as their daughter-in-law." ”

The little uncle was stunned for a moment, and then spoke: "Qiaoqiao, you were still very courageous two years ago, I told you about this problem at that time, but aren't you still with Qilin." ”

I shook my head: "No, little uncle, everything is different now, at that time, because I had no hesitation with Zhuo Jingyi, all the problems were not problems, and now, all the problems are problems." ”

As I spoke, I stood up directly, looked at my little uncle's slightly puzzled face and continued to speak: "The point is not that I have to go for surgery, but that Zhuo Jing can't accept such a me, so why should I go for surgery, I don't want to have surgery anymore, now I am different from me two years ago, little uncle, don't talk about this matter anymore......"

My little uncle looked at me and was puzzled: "Qiaoqiao, I just don't understand what you young people think, Qilin's personality has been like this since he was a child, sometimes it hurts, but it may not be his sincerity, you have always been very sensible Qiaoqiao, to be honest, in fact, isn't this operation going to be done sooner or later, and the misunderstanding between the two of you will definitely be eliminated after it is done, hey, you just listen to the advice of your little uncle, ah." ”

My mouth was full of bitterness but I couldn't say it, do you want me to tell my little uncle that I have a marriage rejection and must have sex with Zhuo Jing in the case of hermaphroditism to break it? Or if you're looking for a goddess horse, his three views may be directly destroyed by me.

Continue to say that if I break the marriage and break the pattern of yin and yang, I will change, and I will never be able to become Mr. Big again, I have worked hard for so long, and I will give up halfway before I can do anything?

What can I say about all this stress and pain?!

Two years ago, I didn't know anything, and I could be desperate for the love with Zhuo Jing and don't listen to anything, but now, it seems that none of the two of us are suitable except for Zhuo Jing's life!

He can't accept that I am a yin and yang person, and this can't be changed, I can even think that even if I go for surgery, it will be a pimple in the future, because he is disgusted from the bottom of his bones, and he is adding some misunderstandings, big or small, why bother, it is better to let go and leave each other a way to live.

"Jojo!!"

I left, I didn't look back, I didn't want to explain things that I couldn't explain anymore, I was also very tired, but my life for more than 20 years was extremely depressing, and I couldn't feel the joy and happiness of my peers.

I used to be well protected, I grew up healthily under the wing of my grandmother, but this society is extremely indifferent, for my identity, can not be tolerated, I hate those sarcastic eyes, on the one hand, helpless, on the other hand, but secretly competing, want to be ashamed.

It seems to remember a book I read when I was in school, and I have always remembered a sentence in it-

What's the use of giving birth to me? Can't laugh. What's the use of destroying me? No reduction in arrogance.